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Bonnie's POV

"Oh baby…" Raph called to me as I giggled flirtatiously at him. We were still on the training platform- I was still pinned underneath him and he was still grinning beautifully at me.

"I love you Raph…So much" I told him shaking my head- my hands reached to touch his face as he leant down into my grip….

I pulled his lips towards me as he pushed the hand holding my head forward towards his face. I opened my mouth getting ready to kiss him when-

"BEAUTIFUL! WAKE UP! PLEASE DEAR GOD WAKE UP!"

CRASH, BOOM… BANG!

My eyes flew open at the loud noise as my heart thundered down in my chest. I sat up; smacking my head on the bunk bed above as a jumble of turtle limbs spiralled into the little room, Mikey bowling under Raph as he ducked and stuck his legs out; the little curtain came flying down as shelved items flew out to me.

I shrieked in my dazed sleepy state as things fell and flew at me. I pushed my body back against the wall shuffling all my limbs up close as I grabbed at my legs to keep away from the brawling duo.

Mikey tried to wiggle away as Raph tried to grab him.

"RAPH!" I yelled but he didn't hear, he was too busy trying to pin Mikey down to the floor.

"RAPHAEL!" I growled out yelling but he was still throwing things around with his shell.

I picked up the little statue that rolled onto the bed as I grabbed it and slammed it down onto Raph's shell. I seemed to catch him off guard as he turned to look at me teeth bared.

I raised my eyebrows at him; eyes wide. He seemed to realise who I was and what he was doing as he stilled instantly.

"WHAT ARE YOU DOING?!" I shrieked as he froze; they both did- Raph had hold of Mikey's shoulder in his arm- Mikey had loosened a nun chuck and was holding it up high above Raph's head; it started to swing with the sudden stillness- their legs tangled- their faces now both the same. Frozen, shocked- wide.

Neither knew what to say or how to say it as they looked to me like young children looking at their mother.

"This is all his fault!" they both said at the same time with the same tone. Raph turned to growl at Mikey again.

"DON'T KILL ME!" Mikey shielded his face with his hands as the words skipped out quickly. I leaned across to touch Raph's shoulders. His face dropped into a scold.

"Get off of him!" I said sharply as he leaned back onto his knees with cross eyes and a pouting face.

Both boys stood and turned to me shaking them selves down.

"Jeeze look at this mess" Mikey commented loosely as Raph turned back to him and shoved him with his hand loosely.

"Its all ya fault!"

"MY FAULT?!"

"Ya shouldn't wind me up!" he growled to him thrusting his hand into Mikey's side making him stumble. "Tellin' me she was in ya bed!"

"ENOUGH!" I barked out, now standing in between them. "You're like a fucking two-year-old!" I told him as Mikey pushed himself up out of his brother's grip. Mikey shuffled up and wiggled himself down.

"It was all Raph's fault! He freaked out because I said I saw you sleeping in here!" Mikey piped up as Raph turned back to growl at him around my body as I looked up to the ceiling and pinched my nose.

"What is it with you boys and watching me sleep?" I mumbled under my breath

"Well your da one sleepin' in 'is bed!" Raph pressed to me as my mouth fell open.

"I WAS TAKING A FIVE MINUTE NAP RAPH!" I told him sharply as he watched me through his childish expression.

"YA BEEN HOURS!" he bellowed.

"MAYBE I WAS TIRED AFTER HAVING LIKE THREE HOURS SLEEP LAST NIGHT!"

He silenced at my words and looked away from me again. Mikey stood with his eyes wide listening intently. I turned to look at him; he smiled cheerily and apologetically. But his face changed into short surprise as he looked to my eyebrow.

"H-hey dudette, you're bleeding"

He moved to touch my forehead and pulled his thumb away- it was coated in red.

I moved to the little mirror that somehow had not been knocked in their brawl and examined a small cut along my hair line. Nothing drastic; just a small knock.

Probably from hitting my head on the roof of the bunk bed.

"Fucking hell!" I growled out as I breathed through my nose and huffed. I looked up to the ceiling again and then at each of them.

Raph was instantly in front of me; all anger traces gone from his face.

"Let me see" he breathed as he tilted his hand to my cheek and moved my head into his grip.

His face returned to anger.

"SEE WHAT YA DID!" He shoved Mikey with his free hand. Mikey looked shocked.

"Hey! It's was all YOU!"

"THAT'S IT! - GET OUT!" I yelled. Both looked to me with wide eyes. "OUT! NOW!"

I shoved the back of Raph's shell as he grumbled at me and pushed out of the cloaked area.

Both turtles stumbled out of the little room and into the open area.

Surrounding us was the remainder of their family- who had obviously overheard the brawl and arrived with amused faces on all of them. I ignored them as both Raph and Mikey turned back to me.

"Okay- lets get something straight." I said licking my top lip. "you decided to wake me up- by brawling into the little room you both share- knowing I was asleep…because I had taken a nap on the bottom bunk?!"

"Dat's Mikey's bed doh" Raph said as my eyes widened.

"So what?! Doesn't mean I'm waiting for him naked, does it?" I pushed as Mikey grinned looking proud of himself. Leo moved over slowly to whack the back of his head. Raph huffed and scuffed his feet into the floor.

"Apologise" Leo scolded "Now".

Mikey turned to look back at me with open palms.

"I'm realllly sorry dudette- like reeeaaaal sorry…especially for hurting you!" Mikey looked down to the floor. His face now crippled with guilt.

"You didn't- I hit my head on the bunk when you made the noise"

I touched my forehead again, feeling the trickle of blood roll down my eyebrow. Raph moved forward, his thumb touched my cut as I cringed a little as he wiped the blood away.

His eyes met mine; the look in them new, but I instantly could tell what he was thinking- how sorry he was. I looked to him pointedly and sighed. I knew he had an issue with this- He had been honest about it last night.

I needed to remember- to be as understanding as possible. As ridiculous as the little situation seemed.

He would tell me how sorry he was privately.

"Donatello, have you got a Band aid?" I asked turning. Raph's hand still stayed on my cheek.

He nodded and motioned for him to come over to him and April. April eyed me and Raph carefully.

I blushed. I looked back to him, his face still sad as I rolled my eyes and smiled slightly letting him know it was okay- That I had temporarily forgiven him until we could talk in private.

"Come on" I pulled him with me as he followed like a puppy, his face still stiff and guilty.

We went up to Donnie's lab which I had been shown around last night. He reached into a little first aid box as Raph stood against the wall and Donatello placed the band-aid on my face.

I protested letting him know I was more than capable but he insisted.

"He's a gentleman" April shrugged with a smile as I breathed out a small laugh.

"There! Good as new" Donnie grinned.

"Thank you Donatello" I told him as I moved to admire my new accessory in the glass window pane that separated the two rooms.

"Great" I said with a sigh of disappointment; as if being tall, and broad wasn't enough- I was now bandaged. It stuck out above my eyebrow- just a tiny blue plaster. I huffed again.

I eyed Raph instantly, his face hard, his eyes even more stiff.

"Can you guys give us a minute?" I asked quietly as they both raised their eyes but nodded with a smile.

"We're having dinner soon, if you're happy to stay" Donnie added. Now my eyes widened; had the day passed that quickly?

"I'd like that" I smiled to them as they walked out; Donatello made point of shutting the door behind us.

A small silence echoed through out the room.

Raph kept leaning against the hard concrete pillar as I watched him.

"You wanna talk about what just happened or-" I trailed off waiting for him to answer. He didn't he just gritted his teeth.

I sighed. I stood up and moved in front of him; my hand touched his arm like normal- he seemed to wake up from his hard exterior at that.

His face softened to look down and meet mine; his muscles relaxed under my touch.

"What happened in the…" I looked to the clock above the doorway "4 hours I've been sleeping?" I asked with a small curious smile.

"Endorphins wore out?" I joked. He huffed and looked away.

"Raph" I warned gently, but his eyes wouldn't meet mine. I lifted my hand to his cheek, putting pressure on it to turn his face down to me.

He looked down at me with sad guilty eyes. He didn't say anything; but his hand reached to touch my plaster again, his thumb skimming it as the rest of his fingers touched my face, sliding round to caress my cheek just as I was doing.

I leaned into his hand; it was warm and cushioned. It was something that I found so hard to believe, how soft his hands were given they could rip me to pieces in a single blow.

My heart drummed as usual as his fingers ran down my cheek, I opened my eyes slowly, gazing up at him as his eyes searched my own. It was like they were looking for something in my eyes, but I couldn't tell what.

I didn't care- he glimmered down at me and his own beautiful eyes swam into mine.

He then shuffled and opened his mouth to speak.

"I'm-"

I cut him off, my hand which had cupped his cheek found his lips as my fingers stilled him just like I had done before.

My index finger ran over the bottom of his lip.

"Its okay; it was an accident" I told him softly. I could see the self hate building in the edges of his face. I could feel it echo off him as he stared at me.

And he needed to know I didn't care- it was silly. We were fine.

"but-" He tried again. I pressed my fingers in harder. He silenced, his mouth opening the tiniest amount to blow a breath out.

The hot air hit my fingers, making me involuntarily in take my own breath in a shallow wisp.

His eyes still watched my face expectantly.

"I get it; this is new, being around family is new- its new for me too you know, all of this" I told him. He opened his mouth again, almost instantly in worry but I carried on

"…but again, for the last time, I am not interested in trading you for your brothers okay? Just let me get to know them- let me get comfortable here" I told him. He huffed. But his shoulders dropped indicating the fight was over and I had won.

I kept my fingers on his lips for a few more seconds.

"And I accidentally fell asleep on Mikey's bed- I was only resting my head but I guess I fell asleep. I was tired out! I had basically attacked Casey and then you attacked me!" I told him pointedly, he rolled his eyes and head away from me in a half pout.

"I hardly attacked ya" he added as I lifted my fingers away from his mouth. I rolled my eyes and let a small chuckle loose. I leaned into him a little more letting my head touch his plastron; he was leaning against the concrete wall anyway. My other hand found my hip.

"You know what I meant" I said rolling my eyes. "but you did attack Mikey" I added with a raise of my eyebrow, the tight edge of the band aid made it a little harder than usual.

"'e wound me up! 'e was braggin' bout ya bein' in 'is bed" he said explanatorily. I sighed.

"Of course he would Raph; you're easy to wind up like that. I spent the first few weeks winding you up, you managed to not attack me"

His face seemed to spring alive with annoyance

"Dat is totally different doll! As if a would-"

I cut him off, my fingers back onto his lips.

"I'm just stating the obvious Raph- You don't need to attack your brothers over me. Their trying to get a reaction from you. And I know from experience they will get one"

He huffed and looked deflated-disheartened.

"It's because you're all heart big guy" I added, my other hand finding his chest as I patted it twice. My hand stayed there feeling the thumping behind his chest as my fingers splayed out over his hard chest. We both looked down to my hand; letting his loud and inconsistent heart beat fill the air.

"It's what I love most about you…" I told him softly in the quietest voice possible. I didn't dare look up at his face; I felt like I couldn't- my cheeks softly burned and my entire chest felt like it was going to cave in.

But I could still feel- and I could feel his lips, no longer flat under my fingers, but pushing out against them.

My eyes flicked up to see his own closed, as he gently, pressed the softest kiss into my fingers.

My whole body felt like it was being drained. My nerves stood on end underneath my fingertips as his barely-there kiss tarnished them.

I never wanted to wash my hand.

He pressed against them once, twice, before he pulled his face back to look at me.

I didn't know what my expression was in that moment but his breath taking smile flourished out to me.

I sighed heavily feeling my own lips twitch up into the corners of my face. My fingers on his lips now in his own hand as he reached up to hold it, the back of my hand rubbed along his cheek as he pushed it along his jaw line.

I watched him with a glow; the feeling unlike anything I had ever felt before. It was just me and him again, after the craziest few days- and it was different.

But wonderful.

Then a knock on the door made us spin around and separate; Raph growled. Leo popped her head in as I blushed heavily, my cheeks burning.

"Just letting you two know were having dinner in twenty" He told us. I swallowed trying to find my voice, but Raph beat me to it.

"Alright" he answered smoothly. Leo smiled, his bottom lip curling in ward as he patted the door and retracted out.

I turned back round to Raph who's face had gone hard again. I understood the time we had spent with his brothers was becoming too much for him now; I could sense it in his now screwed up face.

"Why don't we go back to mine after dinner? You can stay until you have to patrol" I asked him. He brightened instantly as his shoulders dropped.

"Yeah doll- lets do dat" I giggled under my breath as I leaned against him in a caring way my hand finding his heart again before I walked out ahead of him.

"I thought a bit of 'us' time would be good for you after the past few days"

"Us?" he asked, his tone lighter. I smiled to him breath-takingly.

"Me and you- you know…the thing you 'kinda like'" I laughed trying to mimic his accent. He grinned beautifully.

"Now come on- your brothers are waiting for us" I told him, as I continued to walk down the corridor. The biggest grin on my face as we re-entered the kitchen area.

I took a seat next to April who watched me carefully again, but still smiled to me and Raph gently with soft eyes.

A look in her eye glimmered over the two of us, but she never said anything- I was grateful, but worried about what she would tell Casey later.

Dinner was a calm affair with pasta and jokes as I got to know the brothers more.

Donatello made me giggle at an old Story of Raph which made everyone chortle at the memory.

Mikey constantly flirted with me and taunted at Raph who stared him down; but must have listened to my words and had started to roll his eyes and shake his head at his little brother's mischief. It had probably helped that Raph had slung his arm around the back of my chair in the way that he leaned in. And no one raised an eyebrow or noticed.

Something which I think we both were glad of.

Leonardo talked to me about the latest book he was reading; I had told him I had read it already and was onto the sequel.

He begged me not to ruin it as I laughed at him.

"I'll make sure Raph gives you my copy of the sequel when you're done- we should start a little book club; you will have so many questions" I posed to him to which he grinned and laughed brightly.

"That sounds great" he answered honestly and cheerfully.

For once when I looked; Raph didn't seem hostile towards my interaction with his brothers- it may have been because his hand was on the back of my chair.

It might have been because I had scolded him enough times about it.

Or it could have been because halfway through dinner when Raph had lowered his arm from the back of my chair, quietly under the table out of view, his green hand lay loosely on top of my open palm, playing with my fingers there every few minutes, holding them and releasing them gently…

"Am takin' Bonnie 'ome fearless" Raph told Leo after dinner. All his brothers lifted their heads from where they sat. Leonardo looked up to me and then to Raph; he was busy in the sink cleaning. He dropped the dish cloth from his hand and came over.

"You sure? You're welcome to stay another night if you're worried" Leo asked with a small smile to me.

I nodded to him happily.

"Thank you; but I feel safe enough now- gonna take the big guy with me" I chuckled elbowing Raph who looked to Leo with an unreadable expression.

"You staying for a while?" Leo asked him.

"Till patrol yeah"

It didn't go unnoticed how much smoother their exchange was now. I wondered what I really had missed in those short hours I had slept.

Leo nodded with a serious expression. He looked down to me for a minute then to Raph sharply.

"Alright- we'll take the first hour and then swing by and meet you at 11"

Raph looked surprised, but pleased. A lazy smile seemed to work its way into his features.

"Cool"

Raph went to turn but I stepped forwards back towards his brothers.

"It was lovely meeting you- and thank you for everything- you know, saving my life, feeding me, letting me stay" I said rattling through the list.

"You're welcome any time Bonnie- just call one of us- we'll answer" Leo said proudly as I smiled to him. I reached out to place my hand in his to squeeze it in thanks as he leant over and bowed his head slightly.

I moved to Donnie to do the same as I reached for his hand, he smiled happily at my gesture.

"Let me know how the Shell-Cell works! I'll have a new update by next week probably- I'll text you and let you know" he said as I laughed.

"I'll look forward to it" I told him.

Then I was enveloped in the biggest hug; Mikey of course, who lifted me off the ground in a bone crushing grip.

"Oh beautiful; how I'll miss you! But you got my number kay? So anytime you wanna man to swing by and take you out- you know where I am" he grinned thrusting his thumb at his own chest. His brothers groaned at Donnie's foot flicked out at him. Raph's foot beside me started to thump with impatience.

Raph pulled on my arm to get Mikey to release me as he pulled me away; growing more and more impatient by the second as I laughed and waved at them all.

I leaned over to see April as I called out to her. I ducked under Raph's arm to move over towards her. He kept pushing me towards the exit.

"I'll call you tomorrow- oh and Casey! I totally forgot, I'll-" but my words cut off as I was slung over the back of Raph's shoulder.

A small squeal echoed out of me as I tried to shout after her but she waved me off with a grin; as the rest of the small family did and I bumped along the sewer line laughing wildly as Raph bounced me up and down running up the tunnel pipes…

We reached my little apartment in no time- I went up the stairs while Raph sat on the roof waiting to come in.

I all but raced to my little glass door unhinging the lock and stepping out onto the balcony. I looked up at the roof. He was already there; grinning down at me as I smiled back.

Within a few seconds we were back inside. On the sofa together just sitting peacefully. Enjoying the silence.

"So- 'ow damaged are ya after dat whole incident?"

I giggled.

"Aww come on- they're really nice Raph; you're so lucky" I told him smoothly.

The warm glow of my table lamp had filled the room as the darkness from the outside world spread over every window and door.

It was cosy again; and quiet. Something which I relished in.

"Lucky?" he asked with crossed eyes.

"They love you- and your home is awesome, your dad was the biggest shock but…he seems nice"

"'e asked me about ya" Raph added with a shrug. I blushed.

"Oh god what did you say?" I pushed with a firm stare.

Raph chuckled twice, it rested into a smirk as he looked to me playfully.

"Told 'im ya were a lil danger magnet who keeps harassin' me"

My mouth fell open. He laughed again as I moved to hit him playfully. He grabbed my wrists to stop me attacking him as he pulled them down onto his chest. I moved with him, crawling towards him as my arms followed his movements.

It ended up with me nearly sitting in his lap. My legs swung over one of his legs my arms in his grasps gripping onto his carapace.

"Nah, doll I didn't- a told 'im how great ya are..." he trailed off his laughs ceasing slowly, his eyes going soft again.

"'Ow kind and smart ya are..." he blew out another small grin as I blushed at his words, my heart hammering into his as he watched me through glazed eyes.

I watched him right back; the same intensity falling over the two of us. It was here again. The new feeling that spammed in my system. The aura surrounding us was changing, everything was light and airy- love coated the world around making us forget where we were and if anyone was around us.

It was only me and him again; and it was perfect. I sighed as I watched him and he watched me.

"I ain't never brought anyone back to dem before…" he breathed to me as I felt a shudder fall over me.

"Well...you kinda didn't have a choice" I told him with a knowing smile. He nodded but shrugged.

"I know its jus- afta t'inkin' bout it today…after them bein' pains to begin with, it was…kinda nice" he blew out another small huff as he watched me with his smile.

"Raph you attacked Mikey" I told him flatly as he shook his head.

"I know…I know- it was jus' at dinner tonigh'…when I was used to it- watchin' ya wid them…it was real nice" he said smoothly, his voice even.

"Was really nice for me too" I said in a quiet voice. And it was only then I realised we were touching fingers and hands again. I looked down at them, catching his eye follow mine as he trailed his gaze down as well.

His thumb rubbed the backs of my hands as his other fingers wrapped in and out of my own.

He pulled away with a heavy breath and shook his hands in the air.

"Sorry uh…" he said clearing his throat.

My heart sunk; the hope that had began to rise seemed to dissolve into hurt- but I let it go instantly.

It wasn't a big deal.

"I'll go get us a drink" I told him, standing from the sofa as I turned into my little kitchen quickly.

My hands on the edge of the sink as I rinsed out two cups and headed to the fridge to retrieve two sodas. A noise grabbed my attention; like something had been dropped on the floor with a clunk. I looked down; nothing. Then up- to where my green friend was now stood.

In the door way, Raphael stood unsure, but a new look crossed his face; a chancing look. I looked up at him for a minute, staring at him as if waiting for something- anything to happen.

"Raph, what's-"

And then he enveloped me in the biggest hug possible.

This was new; entirely new.

His arms encircled my waist, his hands rested on my back as he crushed me to his chest securely, his head leaning down onto mine.

I sighed and hugged him back; my arms snaking around his neck as he bent down in my grip. I reached up on my tip toes to hug him tightly, his scent everywhere, his muscles everywhere, his body warm.

I sighed out a thousand butterflies as more and more seemed to attack me violently. My heart hammered into him.

This was perfect.

Then after a minute or so, he pulled back slightly, not looking at me, but with his eyes shut- he reached down to my forehead, his lips softly puckered as he pressed a longing gentle kiss there. My fingers touched his chest naturally as he did so.

My own eyes closed in pleasure and warmth.

His lips staying on my forehead for the longest time.

And I loved every second of it.

When he moved his lips away, he pulled me in again, keeping me close; his purr starting up behind his vocal chords.

"Thank you…fer everythin' today" he breathed to me in a whisper as a small breathless giggle echoed out of me.

As he crushed me to his body, I placed a kiss on his shoulder blade. His skin rough underneath my lips, his scales oddly hot and smooth. He smelled wonderful.

My fingers trailed along the top of his neck and shell line, as I tapped my nails along the back of his shell; he shuddered as I giggled.

"I love that" I whispered to him as he chuckled.

"Wish I neva mentioned anythin'" he grumbled still holding me as I turned my head to rest it on his shoulder blade, my head facing into his chest as my fingers drummed gently.

"Well; I'm glad you did."

We stayed still for another minute or so, his arms still strong on me as we stayed together- just holding each other securely, speaking in volumes of silent words with our actions.

It had vaguely occurred to me that we were blurring the lines of our friendship at a much faster spinning rate, but trying to keep that balance.

I wondered how deep these feelings ran for him…

If they would ever reach the colossal level mine were for him…

But we were being careful; dancing on the edge as to not lead this any further. This was perfect, it was good- I couldn't get my heart broken in this situation; and with him being a turtle…I guessed it was all new and he was just as worried about this as I was.

We were being smart.

Just little skin kisses, just the one big hug…then everything back to normal…

I could deal with the want of more, but I couldn't deal with loosing him forever because I wanted more.

This was enough.

But it did make me curious, I wondered if he had ever encountered any type of relationship before, the questions April had asked me about him just a night ago, flew at me and echoed around in my head.

What was his preference?

What did he like?

Then the memory of the half naked women's calendar echoed through my head…

As well as the memory of him watching me in my sleep, while coincidentally, I had just experienced a very erotic dream…

I pulled back with a smile as he did so too, and released me as I spun around to grab our drinks.

Raph was already in my top cupboards, looking for the bag of 'Funion's' which I now stocked weekly after learning they were his favourite.

I laughed at him and shook my head.

"You've literally just eaten dinner like a half hour ago" I scolded, but he winked at me and reached anyway as I shook my loose waves and curls out.

"Gotta keep stamina Doll"

Once back in the living room we sat back down on the sofa, I absent-mindedly switched on the TV and began searching through the channels. Raph sat beside me one of his legs up on my coffee table as he rested there comfortably.

I bit my lip looking to his chest. He noticed as I blushed. I sat back on the sofa beside him, my leg touching his comfortably.

Raph looked down to me as I bit the side of my lip.

I really wanted to be a hell of a lot closer…

As if sensing my internal struggle, Raph caught my eye again. With a smirk, he lifted the arm that was in his lap, slung it round the back of the sofa and with his other hand patted his chest- a motion for me to come in.

I grinned and instantly curled up against him my head in the crook of his arm and chest as I lifted my legs up off the floor and tucked them beside me.

It had vaguely occurred to me we were now cuddling, but I let the simmering idea settle.

I was far too giddy and happy to even focus on the technicalities of anything.

I noticed the discovery channel; it was shark week. I eyed Raph out of the corner of my eye with a cheeky pleading look. He looked down rolled his eyes but nodded.

"Go on" he told me as I snuggled in closer and clicked the button.

He chuckled at me but didn't say anything, instead, he leaned down to my head, where my hair was and butted the side of my head gently with his beak; it was quick, but casual as he breathed in my scent and leaned back to watch the TV.

Time with his brothers had been great. But this was everything.

I responded by laying my hand gently on his chest.

And nothing else needed to be said. Nothing else needed to happen.

Yes. We were being smart about our turning friendship- we were keeping things loose and open.

Even if all I wanted now was to jump into his lap declare my love for him and have him carry me off to my bedroom down the hallway.

Smart. I reminded my self.

Sensible. No heart-break.

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"I could crush dat tiny shark thing in my sleep" Raph scoffed throwing his free hand at the TV.

We stayed together curled up as I snickered.

"Yeah, by sitting on it probably" I snickered as he rolled his eyes at me. I leaned forward taking my soda can as I took a sip and settled back into my little hole between Raph's arm and his chest.

"Yeah yeah, trust me tho sweetheart; am all heavy muscle" he grinned as I shook out my curls.

"Oh I know don't worry" I laughed loosely, remembering our earlier position from this morning. With the memory; questions kept spiralling back to me- burning my tongue to ask.

Questions about all of that earlier today, and that calendar in his room…

"Ya okay doll?" he asked as I looked up to realise I had been scowling for a few minutes.

"Yeah I'm fine…its just…can I ask you something…intimate?" I pressed biting my lip tightly as his face turned fully to me.

He didn't say much, just swallowed and nodded, a look of worry crossed his features.

"I was just thinking about earlier today…when I was in your room and last night…I couldn't help but notice…you and Mikey…you have this…calendar" I added with a blush. Raph's eyes widened massively.

"Dats Mikey's! 'e put it up a swear I-"

I cut him off with a wave.

"Not what I'm getting at- and its totally fine, it's a guy thing I get it…" I trailed.

"But it's the 'guy stuff' I'm getting at- all that 'guy stuff'…is it the same for you? … as it is for human guys?"

I blushed.

Did it sound offensive?

It felt it to ask, but he didn't seem to change his face, he just kept still, frozen. He removed his arm from behind me and leant forward, his hands clasped together as I shuffled further down away from him to give him space- just a little, now facing him on the other side of the sofa.

I bit my lip harder.

"I didn't mean for that to sound so-"

"Nah…I get it…ya curious…its alright" he said softly remembering my earlier comments to him.

His tone and thoughtfulness made my head spin and my heart swell.

"I mean- ya saw Mikey…'e's all for da ladies…we grew up wid all dat stuff…so yeah- its all da same I guess" he rubbed the side of his neck awkwardly.

My hope took it up a notch, my insides beamed. So he did like girls like that…

I bit my lip containing my smile, this was good- really good. Acting on my curiosity and new found confidence I kept pushing, knowing fine well I should stop; the burn and bubble on my tongue needing to get it all answers I could.

"So…has there ever been anyone…h-have you ever tried…or any of you to…" I couldn't word it properly, my hands span out into the air trying to demonstrate something, but he seemed to click on fast.

He cut me off sharply with a huff.

"Jeeze- whats wid everyone today an' askin' dis shit?" he growled out. He rolled his eyes and shook his head to the floor, seeming to speak to himself as I felt the hurt barrel towards me.

Oh no…

"Look; We don't date…eva" he scoffed, almost urgently his eyes never on me "like ya cousin said- we can't exactly go up to a coffee shop n ask a girl out" he shook his head, his face a little sad. He looked constantly away from me frustrated as he tutted and growled. His words urgent and unsure.

"We look, but we don't eva engage wid humans…I mean- look at ya and den look at me-we don't match…neva did, neva will"

The words flew out of him so smoothly; like butter. But how bitter they seemed.

So they didn't date…

"Ever?" I asked again quietly, the word tumbling out before I could even stop it.

"Eva" he pressed firmly, his lips tight. His eyes on the ground in anguish and upset.

So all of this wasn't real?

The cuddling, the hugging, the touches, the looks…

Were just that.

Looks.

I swallowed, unable to look at him as I pulled my eyes down to the table in front of me. Inside my chest burned tightly, my heart ripped down as I felt my insides prick.

"We don't date…eva"

I swallowed down the hurt as I felt my words shrink back to me, my questions keeping in as I paled.

"Ignore what Casey said- he's a dick" I added flatly, Raph looked up at me from his leaning position, his hand still on his neck but he laughed a little at my comment.

"Any'tin else?" he asked in an awkward tone. I shook my head instantly and bit my lip, just wanting the burn to stop, just wanting all my questions to be pushed back down.

My face grew hot. I gritted my teeth trying my best to push the questions back.

"That's it I guess" I mumbled out.

"We look, but we don't eva engage…"

I swallowed, and as I did an alarm echoed through the room. I looked down to my phone and Raph's which both lay on the table beside each other.

They both buzzed and a blue light flashed.

"Dat's patrol time" he told me. "Your's will do it too- lets ya know where am at" he smirked with a wink, his eyes bright.

I could feel mine weaken as I tried my best to put my poker face on. My heart couldn't even stammer, just erratic shocks as my ribs shook…

"we don't match…"

Raph pulled his eyes together in confusion, sensing the room change as I folded my arms and stood up. My legs wobbled beneath me.

No heart ache.

You promised me- This was enough. It is enough. No more heart ache.

"neva did, an' neva will"…

I could feel the cracks starting. The pain inside my chest rising.

"Doll?"

I spun round to face him my eyes wet as I blinked back and swallowed.

Snap the fuck out of it! Right now!

I took a breath and smiled to him gently.

"yeah sorry, just got tired for a minute there" I said waving my hand off. Raph's eyes seemed unbelieving; his mouth open slightly as I swallowed again, straightening my self out.

"I hate when ya do that" he muttered. I looked to him with a confused face.

"Do what?"

"Push things down as if they don't matta" he told me "ya did it las' night when ya were t'inkin' of ya dad…it matta's Doll…you matta…tell me…" he spoke softly moving closer. I gritted my teeth as I felt the emotion rise again. I crossed my arms tight not trusting my self to touch him.

I don't matter though do I? You don't date…

I could feel the anger burning there behind my pressed lips, the words wanting to come flying out at him, my eyes tinged in the heat of it.

A deep breath brought everything back down.

"I'm totally fine Raph- go- Come on, your brothers waiting for you- go" I told him kindly as I smiled to him and waved him off.

He stood stiff.

"Not until ya tell me!" he growled this time as he stepped towards me.

And for the first time ever-

I stepped back.

My action seemed to rock both of us as he looked up at me with a shocked expression, that quickly changed to pained eyes and an open mouth. His shoulders dropped as his face froze in a tireless pained expression.

I looked up to him and locked my jaw.

"Night Raphael" I told him, knowing I was going to burst into tears. His plastron rose and fell in long strokes; the hardest I had ever seen it go, his fingers shook a little as his eyes wavered.

He couldn't say anything else, just looked at me- his eyes loosing their glow. His body seemed less strong and poised as usual.

But he couldn't come and hug me again.

He couldn't touch me like normal.

I couldn't dare touch him.

Not now.

"we don't match…"

"Night…Bonnie" he called to me, his words loose; monotonous.

And then he was gone.

My balcony curtains flickered in the breeze.

It was the quickest he'd ever left.

And I couldn't move for five minutes.

What was this then? if he didn't feel that way about us?

He pinned me underneath him. He held me there tight.

He had called me beautiful and told me things I could only ever dream of.

He flirted with me and acted as if he could love me back.

I cringed, my chest palpitating in pain as I gasped out, the truth spiralled at me.

He would never love me back…

"ever?"

"Eva" he pressed…

I cringed again as I stumbled towards my little balcony door, my fingers finding the lock as I fumbled with it and shut it tight.

I waited for the click.

The cheery memory of waiting for the click made my eyes prick.

And I fell to the floor behind my curtain, bringing my knees up to my chin as tears fell like rivers, the pain unreal- my heart heavy as I started to cry softly.

No heart ache- I had promised my self that.

But it was inevitable…

And deep down I knew that it had always been that way.

No heart ache; what a laugh.

What a joke.

I was always the punchline in some way or form.

My tears fell as I let the rolling soft sobs out, needing the release from it all as I tried to catch the tears as they fell down my face.

What the hell was he doing with me then? Did he think all human friendships were like this?

No, he knew- he was friends with Casey and April and last night I didn't see him look at April or touch April like he would me…

He was even jealous when Mikey said he found me in his bed…

I didn't understand it- and with the pull of my heart I knew I didn't need too.

I just needed to forget it.

With a few deep breaths I breathed in securely calming my heart ache down.

Because on top of it all- I still needed him. I still needed his friendship. I still pined for it.

I had told myself that I wouldn't get swallowed up into this mess.

I had promised it.

I swallowed and leant my head against the glass my eyes shut as I breathed out letting a few more tears drip silently down my face.

I shook my head evenly and sighed.

I needed to get over him to save our friendship- I needed to so badly.

I stood and wiped my self down and swiped my hand across my face to dry the tears.

Instantly I reached for my phone and I clicked April's number into my new system.

After a short few rings she picked up.

"Hello?"

"April its Bonnie"

"Yeah I know; I've got you in my shell phone too- Donnie added you this morning" she laughed once as I smiled forcefully. I wasn't sure why I did it- it just seemed like habit now.

"Oh great"

"what can I help you with? Is Raph there still?" she asked evenly as I swallowed.

"Actually he just left…I wondered if erm" I swallowed. "if I could take you up on that offer from yesterday?"

"Offer?"

"a date…I wondered if you could set me up on a date" I told her quickly and evenly. There was only one way to fully get over someone after all- and that meant dating someone new; or at least, distracting my self with someone new.

"Oh" she answered evenly the surprise in her voice new and unsure.

"A-Are you sure?" she pressed as I I bit back the lump in my throat.

No I'm not- I don't wanna date someone new- I just want him, but he doesn't date- he told me so himself…

"Yes- completely sure" I quipped.

"What about all that 'Ronald' stuff yesterday?" she pressed. I grinded my teeth down.

Had she not clicked on at all?

"Yeah…he doesn't date" I spat out down the phone. "I need someone new- to get over it" I told her with a deep breath.

I could hear April click her tongue.

"Do you want me to come over?" she said in a quiet voice as I looked to my roof.

Maybe she knew more than I thought.

"No- really its totally fine, I just…need to do this" I told her wiping a stray tear back from my face.

"Alright…erm I guess I could set you up with Kyle? He's an old colleague from the news- pretty nice guy" she said unsure into the phone. I swallowed.

He would do.

Anyone would do.

"Great"

"Well…Okay" she answered a little sadly.

"Okay-…I'm gonna go to bed now" I told her my voice sad and flat.

"Okay" she said again with an even more deflated tone. I wanted to push her on it- I wanted to know why she was so sad about the idea of me dating. But I swallowed and shook my head- needing to sleep from this whole mess.

"Night Bonnie" she called, but I hung up half way through the sentence.

I immediately regretted it; all of it.

I didn't want to go on some random date- it scared me. The nerves hit my system, causing adrenaline to flair slightly.

My eyes widened, but I couldn't concentrate on it now.

I turned to head back down to my bedroom, but my feet froze. I looked to the balcony door.

My eyes grew pained and my heart thumped.

I turned my head back and kept walking.

No more heart ache.

Please…

Later that night as I lay in bed staring at the ceiling, my phone buzzed.

I picked it up to look at the screen. Raph's name flashed up and a little envelope beside it.

A message.

You okay?

I smiled sadly to the two simple words feeling my heart shudder uncomfortably. A tear welled up again as I breathed through it and shook it away.

Fine, promise you- just tired. Trying to sleep.

Oh

Was that all he could say? The anger burned inside again.

Then another message flashed up on the screen, a little envelope again as I clicked on it.

If you can't sleep, do you want me to come over?

I did. More than anything I did.

No don't be silly, got work tomorrow, need to sleep.

Alright

Night Raph.

Night Doll.

I pushed the phone down onto my desk and turned back around curling up like a little foetus.

"I love you so much" I whispered to myself as I curled in tighter.

Sleep found me eventually, after crying lulled me softly away.

Dun Dun DUUUNNNNN- okay so our couples hit a snag!

Do you think Bonnie is overreacting?

Why did Raph say those things?

What will happened between them now?

What does this mean for our two characters?

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Owl x