Everything blurred.

Raph moved viciously, a hiss so loud on his tongue unlike anything I had ever seen, his body alive again- but feral.

He had grabbed the gun and thrust it from the guys hands across the roof tops.

Then he had his incredible locked grip on the soldiers throat.

He was growling; animalistic and frantic as all of his teeth bared. His eyes dark and hollow. The soldier's fear spread through him; the unbelieving terror at how still this turtle had been, to now being in his death grip.

He didn't waste any time.

And it was then I heard the crack.

Like snapping a tooth pick.

The soldiers head lulled to the side unnaturally and in a second his spat out a large amount of thick blood.

My eyes shot down to Raph's other hand- one of his Sai's had sliced through the gut of the now dangling soldier.

It was over so quickly.

A breath fell out of me, ragged and shaky as I took in the sight.

And then he dropped the solider.

And he rolled to the floor; dead.

Oddly, relief hit me first. Then worry- Raph was eractic and injured and angry. The world was against him.

And I needed him so desperately to come home with me.

But then he seemed to have no choice.

As the other guard seemed to rise up from his dizzied state- having witnessed the entire thing, and turned his gun on us.

There was no time to stop him.

Then we were moving.

And everything blurred again for the second time.

I was pulled up and whipped up in Raph's arms as bullets scattered across his shell.

I yelped as we moved; hurtling down and across buildings as we flew.

Getting away from the soldiers.

His body pummelling and sprinting quicker than I had ever seen him go.

It was only then when I realised how far from home we were; how fast Raph had fled the scene. We dived round another corner; my body thrown and my legs tight as we tumbled and fell viciously and erratically.

Once we were far enough away Raph stopped; his hold on me unbelievably tight, his eyes wide in alarm. His huge orbs covering every square inch of the 365 view around us; checking. His face hard, his heart stammering violently.

As did mine.

We stayed like that in the shadows with his shell pressed tight against the back of a wall, his hands on my body lifting me from the ground, shaking a little as I felt my blood pulse from underneath them.

I could feel his terror. His fright when both guns turned on me. I could feel his turmoil. How much he wanted to return and do the same to the other guard who had threatened me.

I could feel his pain- both physically and emotionally, as his bleeding arms spread red blood like ink, over my body and across my clothes. His actions had made it flow faster.

Both rain and blood mixing together soaking us.

After a few minutes he looked down at me, his gaze no less stronger than the one he watched the world with. His eyes searching, his mouth still tight as I looked to him.

Luckily, I was uninjured; well, I was bullet free if that counted. My scraped body from falling from the roof still ached and the speed at which Raph wrapped me up in still loomed on me.

My wrist still ached too- but that wasn't even worth thinking about now. It was irrelevant.

He seemed to relax the smallest of inch when he settled. His shoulders dropped a half inch. But his face the same, his hands still tight on me, holding me as if I would vanish into air.

Like if he didn't move when he did...

If I hadn't stopped those soldiers when I had...

His eyes spoke words to me as mine did him.

I could have lost you...

"Home Raph...please" I whispered somehow, my stinging eyes locking onto his as his body responded to my plea. He looked down to me, his eyes terrified.

I understood immediately.

"I don't care, you saved me. You had to- now take us home, please"

It took three checks before he moved.

Only when Raph had checked a fourth time, to ensure we were safe, did we return to my apartment.

Raph lifted me onto my balcony as I felt my feet hit the ground for the first time in forty minutes. My breath fell out of me as I rolled in exhausted. But I kept tight hold on him- pulling him inside with me as the darkness of the room coated us. I closed my curtains shielding us in the little room together.

A puddle of water followed us in as we stood for a minute in the dark- going back over what had just happened in our heads as I caught my breath.

Raph was silent and if it wasn't for my hold on him, I could have been sure he wasn't there. But the wetness under my fingers on his arms kept me alert and told me I needed to fix him up.

Now.

I moved with him pulling him into my kitchen as I switched the light on; it didn't work- I flicked the little switch on and off twice- the power must have gone down in the storm.

"Powers gone" I whispered as I moved to fumble in my draw for the little candles April had given me. The creak behind me told me Raph had slumped down into chair as I sighed in relief knowing he hadn't bolted away.

Luckily it didn't take me too long to find the candles as I placed them shaking, around the kitchen and lit them, letting the soft glow fill the room.

I grabbed my first aid box from on top of the refrigerator again.

I sat down into the empty seat next to Raph; his face still drawn, tired and hurt.

My hands found his arms as he let me pull them free and lay them on the table. There were scratches and cuts deep from his sharp Sai as he looked down at them. My hands found his cuts as I began dabbing them with the soft soaked cotton. He didn't even cringe like usual.

Tears ran down our faces freely.

"Why would you do this?" I whispered out as I brushed them caringly.

"Had ta…" he mumbled out flatly, his face as dead as that solider's. "A needed ta 'urt…"

Tears dripped down my face as my soaking clothes dripped down to the floor.

I cried silently as I washed his cuts and using my good hand, I bandaged them up; he sat silently, letting me do so I as removed all his other arm wear. His arms now bare as he watched my hands work the white clean cotton wrap, around his huge building arms.

When I had finished I looked at my work; my tears never ceasing like running currents. I felt horrendous- the guilt and the sadness and the tiredness all adding to my delicate state. I looked up at his Sai which now lay bloody on the table. I understood why he could do that; I had felt a need like that before- to be able to spill the pain out from inside.

I needed to share his hurt. Through my tears and wobbling lips I reached out for one.

I needed to feel the hurt I had caused him. I pulled it towards me almost in a haze when I felt hands stop me.

"Let me hurt too, like you- I can't stand it" I breathed to him heavily.

I looked up to Raph; he had me all worked out as he angrily, through a teary expression shoved them both off the table and to the floor with a clatter.

My insides curled in pain; burning and pushing.

And I sobbed. I cried heavily as I eyed up his arms, my hands running down them and over his arms as he let me; his dark wet eyes watching me as loose tears dripped down his face.

Instantly I pushed the chair I was in out from under me and fell down towards him; into his lap. He let me, holding me loosely as he his face twisted in torment.

His eyes were harsh as he cringed and shook his head.

"I coulda killed ya…I coulda-am a fuckin' monsta..."

"Stop...please…stop" I begged him as I wrapped my arms around him tightly shuffling around to face him in his lap until I straddled him again loosely in the chair. His face so blank and expressionless as I grabbed his cheeks in my hands.

"Stop…" I breathed.

We held each other close as my eyes looked down to his arms. His torn face still ghosted in pain as I cried into him.

He was warm and breathing. Something that if I didn't chase after him or if I hadn't of seem him when I did- wouldn't have been the case.

"You could have died…and I wouldn't have ever seen you again…" I sobbed out. I leaned into him, wrapping him up in the tightest hold I could, my entire body clinging to his life-filled form.

He moved his head slightly to breathe in my scent, but didn't dare touch me.

We stayed like that for a long time. I couldn't be sure, but it didn't matter- our heads were too busy processing what had happened in the last few hours.

My little phone buzzed and I jumped. Raph froze. I pulled it out from my pocket. I had completely forgotten about it.

A blue light- Leo.

He needed to know what was going on. He needed to know we were safe; he must have been going crazy.

"Hello?" I breathed out low- trying to hide my scattered heartbeat which was still hammering from exhaustion.

"Where are you both? Are you safe? Raph left his phone and I couldn't reach you with the signal and all the weather-" Leo's voice was alert and fast.

I cut him off.

"We're at my apartment…" I eyed Raph up as he carried on staying frozen. "We got caught in the storm" I put my hand on my forehead as I twisted the truth to him easily.

A quiet mumble on the other end of the line.

"Is everything okay with you two?"

I looked to him with painful eyes. My own stupidity had caused this, my own self doubt had hurt him. And him being the hot head that he was- we just added to the mess.

We needed to talk.

"We're talking" I told him as I swallowed with a nod.

"He hasn't been aggressive has he? He can get-" Leo asked worried and beside me Raph physically cringed, as his eyes opened the painful look swan out to the table again. I growled over the top of him. Pulling Raph's face back to mine; his eyes back on me as I spoke firmly.

"Not at all- we just got angry…I just got angry…things happened because of that- but it's over, the horrible stuff's over now" I told them both honestly searching Raph's eyes constantly. I could hear Leo breathe deeply into the phone.

"I promised you I wouldn't ever hurt him and there I was yelling at him" I spoke low into the phone. Raph's eyes focused in- his face still grave but his eyes softer. A loose tear dripped down my face "I'm so sorry Leo"

"its alright…Raph can be a bit…difficult to understand every now and again…I get that" his voice was even and understanding, and for a minute I wondered what I had done to deserve his kindness.

"I don't want him going out in that storm again; not alone- I can come and meet him to bring him home if-"

I cut him off.

"He can stay here with me…weathers really bad, you're not going out running about loose either, I want him to stay" I told him in a horsed voice as another tear loosened.

A minute of silence passed.

"Is Raph there?"

I looked to him. His face stiff- his eyes lost an unsure, but it was better than the dead he had expressed in them before.

Raph reached for the phone as I placed it in his hand.

"Hey" he breathed; his voice sounded so good. I could briefly hear Leo's mumbles but I tuned them out, I turned getting off from Raph's lap and headed to light a few more candles around my little apartment to light it up.

The living room was filled with a soft glow as I used all light sources I could find that I could power with battery or flame.

It made the room seem comfier and confined. Everything easier.

I walked passed the kitchen and headed into the bedroom, my ears listening to Raph's mumbles to his brother.

"Yeah…I know…I know…" he was so soft, speaking so gently. My insides curled again and my cheeks wet with a few more loose tears. The stress of the day still burning dully.

In my room I stripped from my wet clothes and footwear- finding soft and warm Pj's that were loose and comfy.

I hunted in the bottom of my wardrobe for something for Raph- anything big enough that I could fashion into pants or clothes.

I decided on grabbing two throws and headed back into the living room.

He was no longer sat at the kitchen table but stood over my balcony door; a flash or terror spread through me as I thought he was leaving, only then to realise- he had used his old arm tie I had taken off to secure the lock on the door tightly. The lock had snapped and broke when he had barged into the room angrily earlier on.

I didn't like thinking back to it.

Upon hearing my feet creak on the floor board, Raph turned around- his expression seemed much more collected, his body still soaked as he turned- his lips were slightly blue as I approached him.

"Give me your clothes…I'll put it in the wash" I told him in the quietest voice I could muster, handing him the throws I had. He did as I asked as he stripped from most of his clothes, shoes and tags- only leaving on a pair of shorts which sat under his pants and weren't too badly soaked and his Mask; something told me I wouldn't get that off him just yet.

He didn't dare look at me.

When I returned to the room, he turned and we both stood stiff.

He still wouldn't look at me.

"Dat soldier...what ya seen..." he mumbled, his face drawn and unsure.

"He was a bad guy-I understand. It's over" I nodded to him.

It was the truth. I did. We had discussed it lightly before.

Although the image of his head tilting oddly could be erased from my mind.

But I seemed to click onto what Raph was saying...why he was so distraught, why he wouldn't look at me...

"I'm not scared of you" My voice came out stronger. More strongly than I had thought, and it was appreciated.

It got Raph to move his eyes slightly, his eyes lifted, still haunted until he finally looked down at me nervously and turned to stand up round in front of me.

My heart hammered as he towered over me. The soft glow of the light in the room adding to the intensity of his glowing eyes. His face smoother; less gruff. His eyes wider without needing to press them together.

"You are not a monster. EVER" Again my strong voice heald its own, and I was glad as it made Raph move again, bringing him out of his catatonic state.

He was totally vulnerable; totally new to this. So was I.

I stood not sure what expression I was holding as I looked up into those eyes I loved so much; that I had come to need in my life, constantly and consistently like a drug. I moved slowly into him, my feet moving forward getting so much closer to him.

His hand skimmed down over my shoulders, and then found my wrist that he had grabbed earlier. A slight bluish tint had over come it. The pain in his eyes came hurtling back. Tears dancing with pain.

"Stop it" I whispered to him "You didn't mean it, you-" but I was cut off, as Raph's entire face broke. He fell to his knees in front of me; his face that of a broken soul.

His face pressed into my stomach as he leaned into me, the wetness of his tears flickered down onto my fresh top. I could feel his silent tears rushing down his face.

So I kneeled too- instantly as I grabbed his face in my hands and pulled him back to look at me. My eyes searched him and then I leaned in and rested my forehead against his. The wetness of his mask touched my forehead.

My whole body shook and doubled over. My heart beat so fast and rushing around my body as my fingers shook out as I found his shoulders. I reached for his face again as my breathing became even softer and more ragged.

"I promised ya…" he strained out to me "I promised ya…afta everyt'in ya went through…no one would-"

"No one did" I pressed again, my voice stronger again as I cleared my throat. "That man would have shot me; he would have hurt me- you saved me..." my voice stammered out, finding any possible reasons to steady out this horrid night

"A-and What about me? I pushed you" I said "and- and I hurt you, I beat you...h-here" I whimpered as my hands found his chest again, my fingers shaking as I breezed over his plastron feeling where my hands had pounded.

"I couldn't feel dat tho…it's so different- I coulda crushed ya…all because a was angry…"

"But you didn't…I shouldn't have gone off like that... I shouldn't have yelled at you or-or made you angry or gotten upset over what you said…" I cried out, a few tears dripped down my face as I breathed in raggedly.

"I-I just promised my self no more heart break after everything with dad…and-and I was so sure that how I was feeling and what I was doing wasn't going to cause heartbreak…t-then when you told me that… w-when you said you wouldn't ever match with me, that you wouldn't ever….it-i-i-it"

A sob rolled out of me, broken and hurt. My body gripped onto his.

"God I thought you had been just playing with me this whole time" I couldn't look at him, my cheeks burned in embarrassment as I spilled out my deep insecurities, the fear, the hurt- all of it. "I thought all of this…what we had and were having was just…you messing"

I shook my head, as I breathed out another soft sob.

He sighed heavily; a disappointed sound.

"I said it coz a was annoyed…all day afta bein' wid family- dey pestered me about our stuff…and when ya asked- it was jus' anotha reminda…an' I just meant it like...you wouldn't want me… I just shut you down like a did dem…I neva meant I didn't want ya- in all ma fuckin' life times I neva meant dat"

We stayed quiet for a while and I became aware as his hands now lazily found my waist. My own hands found his shoulders feeling his strength coming back as I pressed my fingers into him.

"I'm such an idiot" I swallowed down in a whisper.

"Ya not…I get it now…if ya had said dat to me a woulda been broken" he breathed in a rasp. "not a fuckin' chance are ya a idiot- ya so smart, so feisty, so beautiful…fuck how could ya think I wouldn't want ya?" he called out in shock as he looked me up over and down.

"I-…" he breathed out his words failing him as I looked back up to his face. "I…" hope flooded my system as his eyes opened up to me, his whole body softer.

"I do want ya…all of ya…I 'ave for months an' months"

My insides exploded. My heart exploded. My head exploded.

My entire body lit up with desire as I watched him, I knew he could hear it- I knew he could feel it; I knew he could smell it on me…

"I want ya anyway a can, I can't tell ya- I t'ink bout ya all the time- like 'ow a want ya, 'ow a feel about ya; real selfish...and a shouldn't, I know... ya wouldn't want me…but a can't stop it" he shrugged his eyes moving away. his teeth gritted as his face cringed.

"I fuckin' love ya so 'ard...like a didn't know 'ow bad it would get. It don't stop...and I don't eva want it to, when ya smile at me...when ya laugh,flirt wid me...fuck...fuck...I jus'...jus'..." His voice trailed off as my mouth fell open ever so slightly. my body whooshed but I remained composed on my outside.

I moved my hands back round to his cheeks, pulling his masked face back round to me as I watched him carefully. We stayed silent for a minute- both our mouths open, both our eyes locked. His eyes searched mine, and I softened, spilling all my pent up feelings through them to him. His eyes seemed to focus in on me in realisation.

I could think of a million different ways to say it- in a thousand different places and ideas.

But he didn't need that. He just needed the truth- we both did.

"Raphael I'm in love with you" I smoothed out in a voice that was as quiet as a whisper. My heart shook in my ears as my head span. My whole body pooled at the words.

Here we were; everything laid out in the open- everything on display finally.

My core rocketed. He watched me in a complete awe state, as I felt more words pour out of me. His shoulders dropped, his eyes softer than I ever seen them before.

"I've been yours for weeks…months" I whispered with a slight shake of my head. My head leaned in as my forehead touched his again.

"are ya…are ya sure?" he pressed. I licked my top lip in a quick manor.

"Yes; Positive" I said smoothly, my face steady. "I love you in every single way I can. I want you in anyway I can" A loose tear dripped out.

He moved slowly, in a smooth rhythm as his lips touched my forehead again, softly, blissfully as I gasped out in a long breath in pleasure. My heartbeat so fast.

"ya shouldn't"

"I should. I do. Look at how I felt when I thought you said you didn't want me. I'm so in love with you it hurts"

I caught his eyes.

"And I don't want it to stop either"

Then his fingers moved. His hand came up to grab my bruised wrist as he brought it to his mouth and kissed it gently, his huge soft lips puckered out as he rubbed my hand over his mouth caringly. His lips parted as he kissed my fingers lightly.

"Say it again" he breathed hoarsely, his lips moving over my wrist and down my arm, ghosting over my limbs. He pulled my elbow up to his lips as my forearm went to wrap around his neck, pulling me in even closer to him.

"I love you" I breathed out to him. The aura around us changed, pleasure and desperation danced in the air as I burned intensely for him, vibrations from the sensitive spots he was kissing shot down to my core, my head leaned back a little as my chest rose and fell with each touch of his lips on my body. His lips moved and kissed at my shoulder; a little spot where I had scraped it when I had thrown myself over the roof tops.

I couldn't wait anymore. I needed to touch him too. I needed to do the same as he kissed my body.

I leaned into his shoulder; my lips kissing where I had pushed him as I felt him lift back a little, letting me kiss his body too.

I could feel his heart beat under my palm as I ran my nose along the top of his collar bone- my lips feeling his chest like I had dreamed to do so.

His fingers crept under my chin, lifting my face up to his eyes. As he did so the arm that rested on his shoulder moved to grab hold of his mask- with a painful yank of my tender wrist the wet item of clothing fell off his face.

I wrapped my arms tightly around his shoulders again, he leaned down to me; mouth open, eyes wrapped in love.

"I love you so much" I breathed to him again. We pressed together; hooded eyes, heart beats thumping wildly at each other, nose to beak.

His hands now cupped my face as we watched each other.

"M-me too sweetheart…I love ya…fuck I love ya…I love ya more than anyone could eva love anyone…promise"

And with those words, I was totally under his spell. I smiled at him weakly, my eyes tearing up in love as he mirrored my expression.

But our faces immediately dropped, as I became so aware of his lips. And he of mine.

And then we both leant in; completely over come with passion as our lips found each others desperately.

I sighed out as my lips finally touched down on his and he grunted. My insides melted. My thoughts jumbled out of me and my body curled immediately.

Somewhere in the back of my mind I wondered if he knew what to do; but then his lips moved over mine and I was succumb with pleasure and the thought was dispelled along with everything else.

Everything inside of me echoed and twirled.

We moved around a little, angling our selves better until our lips were moving together at a slow dragging pace. Our noses rubbing together, our lips caressing each others as I gripped onto him for dear life.

I wrapped my arm tighter around his shoulders, pushing myself further in as his hands slid away from my cheeks and down my sides, curling tightly around my waist.

My body trickled in goose bumps and shook in his hold.

My mouth fell open after a few fumbles of kisses and as if obeying my demands; his did too- his mouth opening up for me as I slithered my tongue into him.

A groan fell out loose from him as I gasped, my insides on fire.

I squeezed him tighter and he responded, his tongue moved along side mine, fighting for dominance as my head span at the feel and taste of him.

"Fuck, I love you" he mumbled into my mouth as I moaned and pressed into him again; my stomach spinning and flipping over as his words hit me. I found myself standing, my feet raising up from my kneeling position as I leaned over him. He leant back, sitting on his kneeling legs as I bent over to kiss him from above, my arms still as secure; my lips still glued onto his as they moved in passion.

Heat rose; the air rose around us as my body fizzed and vibrated in the hottest way. He grabbed my leg and pulled it further into him, hitching it around his side as I groaned into him.

"I love ya so much doll…" he breathed again to me.

"I love you too…" I whispered out to him. Our breaths moulding and melting into one.

The next thing I knew, Raph's hands had hooked under my legs and he had lifted me up; himself too as picked me up and pushed my body softly into the wall. My legs wrapped around the sides of his shell as best as they could as my arms which were around his neck found his face again, keeping him kissing me- keeping his flat hot tongue on mine.

He growled under my actions as the pleasure built; his hot body pressing onto me as he crushed me between the wall and himself. My face level with his- allowing me to move and push my face in different angles to taste him better. I kissed him harder, my tongue swirling with his quicker as he started to purr again.

He pulled back for a second; allowing me to gasp in a deep breath as his head nudged my face to the side, his lips now on my neck as he kissed and sucked on my skin there.

Everything was needed. Every touch and kiss. It wasn't just a want. It was a deep unnerving need that we had supressed for the longest of times.

His lips ghosted over the crevice where my neck and collar bone joined, he scraped his teeth along it tauntingly, his flat tongue falling out between them as he licked me there. I moaned out unable to hold it in.

"Oh god Raph…" I panted a little as immediately his face turned back to look at me. His heavy eyes locked onto mine; his breathing laboured like mine, his hands that sat on either one of my thighs rubbed beautifully at my legs, sending soft spasms of pleasure back down me.

He watched me as I panted slowly, my eyes focusing back on him as he moved to kiss the other side of my neck.

I wanted him; god knows I needed more than this. He could feel it too- the burning, the longing.

"R-Raph…" I strangled out in pleasure…he nodded into my neck, biting the soft flesh there again a little harder as he growled. As if unable to wait any longer my hips bucked into his causing him to groan as a flash of hot searing pleasure travelled down my body. I did it again, another moan fell from both our lips this time.

"fuck" he breathed out to me. His hands that were gripping at my thighs tightened as I I breathed in his scent. We parted for a minute; our bodies burning desperately for the question to surface.

"Have you ever…do you…" I breathed out in a deep whisper.

"Yes" he growled out sharply as I bit my lip, his dark eyes watched me worriedly, but I couldn't concentrate on the meaning of his answer. I just knew we were on the same page and I was desperate for him.

I leant in again unable to stop the pleasure in the room from causing my heightened emotions. My lips back on his in a longing soft kiss. My hands ran over his shoulders and down his arms, my fingers trailed back up his sides.

"I'm all yours" I breathed out in a whisper.

He stiffened underneath me.

"Are ya…are ya sure Doll?" he breathed out.

"Yes" I said my whole body needing to be touched as I grinded into him; the pleasure and ache for him was unreal. "Fuck, yes please"

He didn't need told again as my lips found his again and he lifted me from the wall, carrying me in exactly the same way as we walked, eyes closed drunkenly falling in love with each other over and over as we kissed sloppily, passionately- our kisses expressions of our want for more.

I breathed longingly as he watched me with bright eyes, his tongue flicked out across his bottom lip as he looked at me. His foot kicked open my bedroom door as darkness spilled out over us, and our need carried on further...

Ahhhh!

So what do we think?!

Yes? No?

FINALLY?

I felt this was the right move for them, after months and months of pining for each other, for it all to come to spiralling out.

What do you think going to happen next?

That poor solider- but you don't mess with Raph's girl...

I love reading about where you think the story will go now- what will their families say? will they know? What will happened next!

Hope you guys are enjoying the story!

Im taking one of my reviewers advice and adding in an M chapter next as an addition- It details up the story a little more but dont feel like you need to read it if its not for you- Just a pre warning!

;)

Owl x