Sorry for the delay. You know the type of writers block where everything is planned and you still can't put it to words. The drama will swirl your mind in this chapter and the one after. Hold on tight.

8 months later

"Lena, I know this time is a bit critical, but I have to go to New York." Matt Donovan said.

"It's okay, Matt. This trip is very important for you." Elena smiled softly at him.

He was Elena's childhood friend, the new owner of the Gilbert house and the OB-GYN of Elena. After taking off from NY, he was the first person to receive the call. Elena told him everything, except going to the details, for example his name, and he was more than pleased to let her stay in the house. It was fortunate for her that he was the doctor of her and the baby.

Elena's pregnancy had too many stress and pressure than the other pregnancies. She became very sensitive with every situation. The fact that she has a picture of her and Damon in her bedside table didn't help at all.

She was confused and dismantled about the entire situation. She had no idea how to keep up with everything. The day after she left, Jeremy called her and told her that Damon had alcohol poisoning. A part of her wanted to run back to him as soon as she heard this. But apparently Damon hates her now. Jeremy made sure to tell her that. She knew it was because she ran away from him with their child and cut him off completely from her life.

She had no idea what she will do when their child is born. Surely she can't shut down all the important people of her life. The past 8 months were hell for her, without communicating with any of them. Though she was successful at shutting people for 8 months, but for how long? One day she'll have to face the world and Damon with her child. Goosebumps erupt on her skin imagining how Damon's reaction would be. He'd be furious as fuck that was for sure. But he was the one who made out with his ex after learning that she was pregnant and didn't return home in the next 4 hours she was there.

He shouldn't be angry with her for saving him from the tension of fatherhood. He didn't have to rub her feet. He didn't have to talk to the bundle of joy inside her. He didn't have to feel the first kick.

A rational part of her brain wanted to hear what he had to say and accept him. But he hates her and the over powering hormonal part was too damn stubborn. If he wanted to hate, then he can. It's his business.

This was how her mood swings worked. Now she was angry and after a few minutes, she'll be crying a river. Then laugh at all the memories and then cry again.

This emotional depression was too damn stressful on the pregnancy. So Matt and Vicki tried to keep her as calm and cheerful as possible, but there was still risk.

"I'll see you in two days okay. Vicki take care of her and yourself." He kissed both of their foreheads before departing.

Vicki closed the door and sighed. "So is your hormones over-drive?"

"Do I need to answer that?" Elena pointed at her belly.

"I was thinking The Notebook. But Breakfast Club it is."

Stefan came back inside the house after a tiring day, hoping for some closure. However when he entered the house he saw Damon passed out in the couch. Chill ran up his spine remembering the last time he found him in this position.

"Damon?" he patted his cheeks. The last time he was passed out on the same couch, Stefan had to drag him to the hospital to get his stomach pumped.

"Mhm… I was just taking a nap." He groaned and curled up more on the sofa.

Stefan let out a sigh of relief. He was not ready to see Damon like that again. The counseling is working. He thought to himself. After watching the pain of his brother over being abandoned by the love of his life and losing his child, Stefan just couldn't handle it. So he called up one of his friend to counsel Damon. Although the alcohol consumption seemingly decreased, the pain certainly didn't.

He had suffered so many heartbreaks. But this particular one shattered him to the ground. This heartbreak turned him into a cold, heartless person for the world. Little did they know that the same heartless person would cry through the night, when he thought that no one was around? The one who would have nightmares about his child? The one who still found himself taking care of his brother and friends? Not as passionately, but something's never change. Though he does passionately hate and love her at the same time.

Damon was still the business tycoon. But a more ferocious and dangerous one. It seemed like after counseling, instead of drowning in bourbon, he channeled all his emotions into rage, which was distributed in his work. And at night when he was alone, he would let it all out.

Stefan didn't think that Elena would be the one to ruin Damon's life. Caroline and Bonnie were still in denial about it. Bonnie would tell him every single day to find Elena and see with his own eyes and ask her himself. Caroline always told him that she lived and stayed with Elena for 5 years and she is so not the type of person to take her child's life. Damon's point in all this was that if she had an answer, she wouldn't have ran away. 8 months passed Elena still didn't contact any of them.

They decided to keep Jeremy in dark. Damon warned Alaric not to tell him anything, as he didn't want Jeremy to think any less of his sister. He does care. Ric mentioned once and twice about his suspicion over Jeremy knowing where Elena is. But Jeremy always said that she told him that she'd be gone for a while and needs space from everyone. As always Damon had the 'I don't fucking care' attitude.

"So are you taking Caroline to the ball?" Damon asked groggily stretching his arms.

"Yeah. She is all in for formal." He said. Damon nodded rubbing his eyes.

"I'm only going to pull pot-headed, but certainly wealthy clients." Damon shrugged before drifting off again.

Elena and Vicki were in the middle of the movie when Vicki decided to pop the question.

"I went to your bedroom today." Elena shifted her eyes on her. "Was that the person who knocked you up on the photograph?" Vicki looked at her face for answer.

"I forgot to put it inside the cupboard." Elena muttered to herself, but Vicki heard it.

"I take that as an yes." Vicki slowly nodded.

"Yep, the one and only." Elena did everything she could to keep her tears at a bay.

"He's name is Damon?" Vicki asked her.

"How do you know that?" she turned to look at her in surprise.

"I may have read the inscription behind the picture…" Vicki looked at her apologetically.

"YOU ARE MY LIGHT AND I'M YOURS." Elena mumbled

"You really loved him, right?" Vicki asked. "And it seemed like he also loved you."

Elena couldn't help but let the tears roll down her cheeks. "We have a thick wall between us now. A hell lot of problems in the past, which can affect the future. I want to forgive him and forget him and move on but I still love him," she said softly.

"Oh honey…" Vicki pulled her in a hug. Vicki had completely changed since the last time Elena saw her. She was now a caring and dedicated person.

"Why do I always get the feeling that it's all my fault?" Elena whimpered.

"It's not your fault. He should've came here to find you, if he really wanted to be a part of the child's life."

Vicki was right. And that got her more heartbroken.

At the gala

Every men and women in that gigantic ballroom was flashing the meaning of extravagance. In moments like this Damon really wanted to hide behind the simple intimacy. But that didn't turn pretty well last time. He fell for the wrong person again. This time though, everything was too real for him.

He shook off all these feelings. He wasn't here to think of anything related to her. He needed to find clients of other business and snatch their cookie away.

As he passed a few more people, he saw the women. The perfect client he was looking for. Right now she was talking to someone half of her age. She was known as a cougar among the public. Hopefully she isn't planning to sleep with this one, because that boy really doesn't want to be there.

He slowly approached her and cleared his throat. "Miss Kelly Donovan." He greeted.

"Damon Salvatore." She pulled him in a hug, making him a little bit uncomfortable. "So at least someone as hot as you approached me." she flirted. He gave a tight smirk, before turning to the young man, who was probably 2 or 3 years younger than him.

"Damon Salvatore." He lifted his hand and the guy accepted his hand for a handshake.

"Matt Donovan."

Oh my god. The new teaser trailer made my heart stop beating. No I'm not a vampire yet.

For those of you who are confused with the plot of the letter, stay patient. A surprise is waiting for you. Probably on the next chapter or chapter 20. And some of you who are observing and intelligent enough might have figured it out. So let me know what theory you have cooked.

The song used is 'Give me love' by Ed Sheeran. I'll try to post on next Friday. I'm super doper busy for the few days. Please forgive me if I delay.