Chapter 5

Serenity: To all my readers out there I am sorry for the time it took to release this chapter, but my grandmother passed away and I just didn't have any desire to write. But I have had time to mourn so on with the story

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September 1, 1971

Today was my first day at Hogwarts and I have been sorted into Slytherin away from my only friend Lily who was sorted into my rival house Gryffindor. I don't know what will become of our friendship now, only time will tale.

September 22, 1971

Three weeks have passed since the start of school. This class are easy so far, but I had already expected that with all the studying I had done up to this point. Lily I are still friends, but I can feel that we are slowly drifting further apart.

October 6, 1971

Update, class are still going well I am top off almost all my class. But that is because of Lily she is rather brilliant at Charms but I'm still second, so I'm not overly upset. On another note an older boy named Lucius Malfoy approached me say he would like to speak with me later. When I agreed he said to expect a letter from him with the date and time he wanted to meet.

November 6, 1971

Nothing much has changed since the last time I have written except I have finally received Lucius's letter. The blonde wanted to meet him two weeks before Christmas. Which made since the older boy would be going home for Christmas unlike me. I am curious though as to what the older boy wants with me.

December 4, 1971

Today I finally found out what Lucius wanted from me. The moment I walked in the abandoned classroom the blonde had me pinned to the nearest wall with his lips pressed firmly to mine. I was so shocked that I was unable to move but when I felt his hand on my crotch I pushed him away violently. I screamed at him asking who the hell he thought he was. When I realized he wasn't defending himself I took a deep breath and decided to let him speak. He explained that he had be attracted since the moment I had been sorted into Slytherin. I decided to give him a chance which caused him to kiss me again but this time I kissed back leaving me breathless. When we finally parted he asked if we could meet up again once he return and I agreed.

January 2, 1971

When Lucius returned we meet at our usual place. The minute we were in the room we were kissing. When the blonde had went back home I had thought long and hard about what I wanted to give Lucius for Christmas, but I have little money to buy him something. I decided to give him my virginity. When Lucius pulled away I told him of my desire and he took me back into his arms kissing me and tonight was everything I could imagine.

June 15, 1971

Today was the day had to return home some where I did not want to be. I was also having to say goodbye to my lover and friend Lucius, but he promised to write to me, but I knew my father would not like to receive owls, so I lied saying that I would not be able to receive any of his letters. I thanked him for his thoughtfulness though with my body.

The dog barked bringing the boy's attention to himself as the raven had stopped reading. Harry was wide eye which didn't really surprise Severus anyone would be shocked after read some of his first year as a student at Hogwarts. But he needed the boy to know that he knew the pain he was feeling right now. So, with his giant paw he touches the book whining.

"Do you want me to read more?" The dog nodded but he pushed the book to the ground and gently as he could have turned the pages trying not to put claw marks on his journal. Once he was at the page he wanted he barked and Harry picked up the book to once again read.

December 25, 1972

Today I meet with Lucius at our usual place, but things did not go well. Once inside the room I was expecting my lover to begin kissing me like he usually did when we meet but instead he was sitting on the couch staring at me coldly a look I have never seen on his face before. I asked him what was wrong but instead of answering right away he told me to take a seat. I remember feeling very nervous, what could be making him act this way toward me. But I found out quickly. He told me in short that he was tired of me an as this was his last year at this pathetic school he had no further need for me, especially now that was engaged to marry very beautiful and rich girl and that I could not compare. I was in shock that I didn't even shed a tear instead I masked my pain, so he could not see how much he was hurting. As a stood to my I felt as though my heart had gone cold and I told him that he was not worth my time anyway as he was just a means to an end anyway. But now as I sit here writing this I can feel my heart breaking because I had thought Lucius had loved me as I had grown to love him. But I'm not a Slytherin for nothing I will grow from this. It will take me time, but I will show Lucius why he should have never taken my heart only to break it. I will find my vengeance.

Harry blinked at the page he had just read; the man had been used and then thrown away when he has no longer wanted too. He looks over at the large black dog that sat next him and smiled. Slowly Harry reached out stroking his hand through the thick fur that covered the dog causing him to whine in pleasure as he had never been petted in this way before.

"Thankyou. For showing me this but I don't think I'm quite ready to talk to him yet. Would it be alright if I told you my story first so that way I might not be as nervous when I finally do decide to talk to him?"

Severus took a long look at the boy before nodding his giant head and whining to further confirm his answer and the boy gave him a beautiful smile. One that if Severus had anything to say about it, that would be the only look he would ever have again. Harry would never again feel the pain he is feeling now, only happiness and one-day love.

TBC

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