Selena's POV
"Oh my god!" I let slip out in Starbucks to my mom who was talking. She looked up at me and followed my eye line to where I was looking until her eyes fell on Miss. Lovato, who was kissing the girl who had walked in earlier. I felt my heart sink and rise again at the sight; Miss. Lovato was gay, or at least into girls. On the negative she apparently had a girl.
"Wow, is that your teacher that we just spoke to?" my mom asked with a shocked look on her face after turning back around to face me again.
"Yeah, I didn't know she was gay. She's the hot teacher I was telling you about earlier." I told her with a smirk. My mom rolled her eyes at me and chuckled slightly, taking a sip of her coffee.
"At least now I know you have decent taste… apart from the fact that she's a teacher, that's really not good Selena." She said as she took another sip of her coffee.
"You know what my tastes like mom." I told her with a raised eyebrow. I honestly couldn't really believe we were having this discussion, let alone the fact that we were having the discussion in Starbucks.
"No I don't, you have posters of boys in your room because if your friends came over they'd question you if they saw posters of girls. You should be able to have posters of girls in your room if you want them. I think it's time you came out to your school to be honest." She said as she took a last mouthful of her coffee.
"I can't mom. I can't deal with all the questions and the hate I'll get if I do come out. It's just not worth it." I told her honestly. She leant across the table and took my hand in both of hers and held onto it.
"Sweetheart, it's not healthy living a lie. If the kids at your school can't accept you then that's their problem, not yours. You're really unhappy with Nick and it's not right. Please baby girl, please think about it." She pleaded with me. I looked into her eyes and nearly cried. She was right. I did need to come out. I'd been living a lie for five years. Five years is long enough.
"Alright. I'll do it, I'll break up with Nate and if people ask why I'll tell them. You're right, it's time I stood up for what's right." I said shakily.
"Good girl. I will be here every step of the way when you do it." She said. I smiled at her and looked behind me at Miss. Lovato who was now walking out of the door with the other woman, who had her hand wrapped around Miss. Lovato's waist. I watched as they left and stopped next to two cars; a Range Rover and a truck. The blonde woman pulled Miss. Lovato into her by her waist and kissed her on the lips, lingering there for a few moments. Miss. Lovato pulled away first and put her hands on the other woman's butt. She smiled at her and pecked her lips quickly, saying something then they both got into their cars.
"Selena!" My mom called, snapping her fingers in front of my face. I turned to face her quickly and blushed slightly when she smirked at me.
"You were staring at your teacher." She said with a knowing smile. I blushed a deep read and put my head down, drinking the rest of my coffee.
"Ready to go?" My mom asked me. I nodded and we left. I unlocked my Porsche and got into the passenger side. "Not in the mood to try and kill us both again then?" My mom asked after climbing into the driver's side. I smiled sarcastically at her as she started the engine. I hadn't tried to nearly kill both, the tree popped up out of nowhere.
We got home and I saw that I had a text from Meg; I hadn't checked my phone the whole time we'd been out.
1 new message: Meg
Oi Gomez! You in baybeee? x
I smiled and texted back to let her know I was back in and she texted back again to say she was coming over. Five minutes later the door knocked and I let Meg in. We went up to my room and I put my new TV on, flicking straight to MTV. We both sat on my bed cross-legged, talking about random crap for about half an hour. Then we went downstairs and out into the garden so that Meg could have a cigarette. My mom didn't mind as long as she wasn't smoking in the house and as long as I wasn't smoking.
"So how's it going with you and Nick?" Meg asked me as she sat down on the white garden bench. I sat down next to her and took a deep breath; this was it, my first time coming out to someone my age who could effectively ruin my popularity.
"I'm going to break up with him tomorrow."
"What? Why?" she asked me shocked.
"I'm not feeling it; I don't like him in that way." I told her, shaking slightly but not enough for her to notice.
"Oh my god, why not? Are you like a dyke or something because that's the only explanation I can think of for you not liking someone like him." She asked me half serious, half joking. I didn't say anything; I stayed quiet and looked down at my shoes. I looked up at her after a few moments and her eyes widened in shock.
"Holy shit, you are, you're a dyke!" She exclaimed when realisation hit her. I nodded my head shyly and she stood up abruptly. "I have to leave." She stated before leaving through the back gate. I stood up, I wasn't about to go after her; I expected something like this but I wasn't ready for it. I ran into the house, straight past my mom who by now was cooking dinner, and straight up to my bedroom. I slammed the door shut behind me and lay on my bed with my face pressed into my pillow.
There was a knock at my door and my mom came in. She sat next to me on my bed and started stroking my hair.
"What happened?" She asked me after several moments. I sat up and moved so that I was sitting on her lap. My mom wrapped her arms around my neck and pulled me close to her so that my head was resting on her shoulder. I loved sitting like this with my mom; most teenagers argue and scream at their moms but I don't. My mom's like one of my best friends who I can always count on.
"I told her I was going to break up with Nick; she jokingly asked if I was a dyke because that's the only way I could not like Nick. When I didn't answer her she realised I was and left." I muttered sadly into my mom's neck. She sighed and started rocking me back and forth as I let tears fall freely down my cheeks.
"Oh sweetheart, she's not worth being friends with if she judges you for something like that. It's her loss not yours." My mom told me before kissing the top of my head. I smiled into her shoulder and sniffed, smelling something cooking.
"What're you cooking mom?" I asked her, sitting up properly but still on her lap.
"Shit the tacos!" My mom exclaimed as she remembered that they were cooking. I jumped off her lap and she went downstairs to go and check the food. I followed her downstairs and went to sit at the dining room table to wait for her to bring out dinner.
After dinner we sat in the living room watching Friends whilst I was on my MacBook doing some homework and my mom was on her iPhone playing on one of her apps.
I felt my own iPhone buzz in my pocket and saw that I had a new message.
2 new messages: Lottie (17.43)
Meg (18.56)
I guess I hadn't felt the one from Lottie. I read her one first since that was the one I received first.
Is it true you're gay?
I guessed Meg had told her and texted back with 'yes'.
Then I read the one from Meg.
I'm sorry for running out. If you want to be gay then that's okay with me, you're still my best friend. I told Lottie, I'm sorry. I was wrong to run out. We'll talk properly tomorrow on the way to school. I love you x
I smiled at the text and texted back saying thanks and that nothing's changed and I love her too. I felt my phone vibrate again and saw I had an incoming call from Lottie. I got up and went into the dining room to answer it.
"You're seriously a muff muncher?" She asked, trying to find out if I was being serious.
"I'm not a muff muncher, I'm gay. I don't appreciate being called that." I told her back, making it clear that she'd annoyed me by calling me that.
"I'll call you what I like. You're disgusting." She said before hanging up.
I wasn't going to cry again because of some stupid girl, I was going to have to get used to it considering by this time tomorrow everyone would probably know. I went and sat next to my mom again and hugged her. She didn't say anything; she just hugged me back and stroked my hair again. I showed her the text from Meg and told her about what Lottie had said and she just kept hugging me, stroking my hair and telling me it would all be okay.
We stayed like that for about an hour, I nearly fell asleep from the soothing motions of her hand going through my hair.
I went up to bed after that, it was only eight o'clock but I fell straight to sleep because I was suddenly so tired.
The next morning
The next morning I got up and got ready, choosing to dress in dark firetrap skinny jeans, a white vest top and an unbuttoned plaid shirt over the top of the vest top. I did my hair and makeup the way I usually did for school after my shower and got left the house to go and get Meg.
Once I'd got her and we'd started the ten minute walk to school, she started asking me all kinds of questions like 'how far have you gone with a girl?' 'Who do you like?' and 'have you ever had a girlfriend.'
We arrived at school earlier than usual, there was no-one there except from the teachers. I noticed Miss. Lovato's truck and knew she was here as well. We went at sat by the tree we usually met the girls at and talked some more, mostly about me being gay.
"I'm really sorry for telling Lottie, but it was big news to me, I had to tell someone." She said for the millionth time that morning.
"It's okay, I understand. She was going to find out at some point anyway." I pointed out to the apologetic Meg.
Lottie, Becky and Kelly all walked in together over to the tree. They stood in front of us, blocking the sun that was shining on us and glared at me as if I was something disgusting that needed treading on. They probably thought I was.
"Meg, come on, get away from the dyke, you might get her gay germs." Kelly spat with hate in her voice.
"Leave her alone. She's done nothing wrong." Meg said, trying to stick up for me. I turned to face Meg and spoke to her.
"It's okay, just go. I'll see you later." I told her, knowing that if she stood up to them they would ruin her as well. Meg hugged me and said she'd see me later and got up to leave with my three former best friends. I waited for them to leave then got up myself. I figured I may as well go to homeroom, even though it was fifteen minutes early.
"Good morning Selena. You're early." Miss. Lovato stated as I walked into the classroom and went to the back to sit at my desk. I think she noticed that I looked upset and came to the back of the classroom and sat opposite me at my desk. "What's up?" she asked.
"I took your advice and told my friend I'm gay. She's okay with it, but she told my other friend who told everyone else and they aren't all okay with it. They pretty much hate me for it." I told her sadly, a huge lump forming in my throat again. She shook her head and smiled at me.
"Like I said, now you know who your true friends are." She said, I think that was all she could think of to say to me at this time. "Have you told Nick yet?" she asked me.
"Not yet, I have a feeling he's going to find out though. Would it be okay for me to move seats in your lesson, preferably to somewhere on my own?" I asked her hopefully.
"Yeah of course. You can just sit where you are now, no-one sits there." She said.
"So uhh… I didn't know you were gay as well." I said to her. She quickly looked in my direction and nodded slowly.
"How did you…" She trailed off.
"I saw you kiss that girl in Starbucks yesterday. She's pretty." I told her. Miss. Lovato laughed quietly and nodded.
"I believe she is as well. Anyway, everyone's coming in so I'll take the time now to say that if you have any problems today or any other day, come straight to me. You can come in here at lunch if you'd like as well so that you're not on your own." She offered kindly before walking back to her desk at the front. I thanked her just before the first kid walked in.
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