Chapter 6

Tobias P.O.V

The waiting room has died down a lot by now. The clock on the wall shows its 3:00am. I've taken up a spot on the floor, my back is against the wall. I have full view of the room. Christina refuses to leave. Apparently exhausted from the events of the day, she has managed to pass out in an awkward looking position, sitting in one chair with her legs up in another chair that is facing her. Caleb is still unresponsive. Nurse has been checking on him hourly, they tried to place him in a private room but all that did was cause an outburst of a violent tantrum. Of course, I was more than happy to help shut him down. If it wasn't for Zeke taking hold of my arm I would have. Mathew is trying to help those affected by the memory serum remember facts about their lives. Cara took Hana to a room to get some sleep.

It has been so long since I got a update from the doctor. It is hard to keep the panic at bay. I just keep telling myself she is still alive, that's the glue that holds my sanity together right now.

My own exhaustion is trying to take over, but I can't allow it to take me. The fear of closing my eyes and opening them to a new world without Tris, terrifies me. So, for now, I just sit and wait. Sit and watch.

The nurse at the desk is keeping herself busy with something on the screen. The orderly behind her is trying to pour yet another cup of coffee.

Finally, I hear familiar voices, down the hall. I stand up, in anticipation of who it is. The doors that say Authorized Personal Only opens, and it's the doctor. I try to read his mind through the expression on his face, but his face is emotionless. I pray that is exhaustion I see on his face and not resignation.

I take a deep breath. Please, Please, Please, tell me she is alive. The Doctor motions me to take a seat. He looks almost twenty years older since I first met him. The stress of the day clearly took it's toll on him.

"Four, we were able to correctly remove all bullets and fragments from Tris. I wish I could tell you she would be fine, but I don't know that for certain. good as new. She had a lot of injuries. He had a clipboard, on it was a diagram of a female body with organs and lines detailing arteries and veins. He began to show me all the areas where the bullets impacted.

"First she was shot twice in the left thigh. No permanent damage occurred. One bullet was found in her right shoulder, I understand that she had been shot there already. It takes a moment for my brain to catch up and realize I haven't answered him. Correct?" I nodded, I remember the shot that she endured while we were trying to escape Eric in Abnegation.

"Well no permanent damage there. She was then shot in her left forearm, again no permanent damage there." Four bullets so far, and there's more?

"She had one located more near her spine. We did remove it and corrected the damage best we could, but like I said before we can't be 100% certain if there is nerve damage or to what extent until she wakes up. The bullet that was located near her left lung caused her lung to collapse. We were able to perform a repair on the lung. It will take time to heal. Therefore she is on a ventilator to help her breathe. The other bullet that took the most time to remove is the one that broke apart. We located all of the fragments and corrected the bleeding that they caused." Tris! My head falls in my hands looking for any support.

"Four, the next 24 hours are extremely critical. We have done all we can for now, the rest is up to Tris. We are going continue monitoring her heart and, breathing as well as looking out for any infections." He place a hand on my upper back, I understand that he is trying to give me strength. He doesn't know that the only one that can provide me strength is Tris.

"I know this is a lot to endure, very overwhelming. We just need to have faith in hope and Tris from here. She is being transported to her room with in the next hour. Her room is number 19, please keep it to one person at a time. She is unconscious, and need to do further neurological examination when and if she wakes up." If, he said if she wakes up?!

"Are you telling me-" I couldn't finish the thought.

"With the stress her heart as been through today, we do not know what consequences there could have been to her brain. I'm sorry. Have the nurse page me if you need anything or have any other questions." He stood up slowly making his way back through the doors.

I try to process everything I have just been told. She may not wake up? Nerve damage? It is all too much to take in.I need to get away, I need to escape the suffocation... just as I get up my eyes lock on Christina. Has she been awake this whole time?

I can't stop myself even if I want to. I ran out the double doors and out of the building. I stopped just feet away from the main doors. I lost all feeling in my feet, feeling my legs crumbling underneath me. Tears coming down my cheeks, didn't even notice they were there until I noticed the water droplets on the floor. I hear footsteps are heard from behind me, I don't have to look. I know it's her. She kneels down next to me placing her hand on my back. Not speaking at first, just there...

"She may not wake up. Is this my punishment? I killed Uriah, is this my consequence? She loses her life. I shouldn't have left her. Christina I should have been here." Just like that, I allowed myself to break.