Chapter 14
Tris P.O.V
The Doctor said, I will be discharged today. I'm still sore, it's uncomfortable to walk. The fear of caring for Abigail is more likely by myself terrifies me. She is just a little person, so delicate, so tiny, and precious. I'm sure all first time mommies have this fear, but most first time mommies don't feel like a inmate in their own home.
Thankful, we have only seen Eric once since Abigail made her appearance. Just like I expected it was horrible on so many levels. First he tried to place a fake smile on his face, of course I saw through that. He then tried to hold her, Abigail must have felt something wrong. The moment she was in his arms she started to fuss. He placed her in my arms, almost a little too rough and walked out. He didn't even bother to come back for another visit. Needless to say, I was grateful for that.
Of course, I have mixed emotions about this. In one hand I feel selfish, having her all to myself. But this time with her feels so precious, I can't get enough bonding time with her. I also take comfort that since Eric isn't here with us, then we are both safe from his tantrums.
On another hand, he is her father. He should be in love with her like me. He should be inseparable with her, should be here cherishing her. He shouldn't be able to get enough of her smell, her eyes, her softness, and her loving face. You don't get these moments back. She will grow up fast, she will soon be ready to sit on her own, ready to crawl, ready to walk, and ready to speak her mind. So many mile stones for her to experience, and she only gets them once. He should man up and be here. Anger at the thought, knowing that she deserves so much more then what he can and is offering her.
Eric thinks I'm weak, he thinks I fear him. He thinks that I'm a mouse in a mouse trap at his mercy. What he doesn't realize. That I am Dauntless! Four trained me to fight, to overcome the thinkable, to face the fears and force yourself past the breaking point. Did he forget? Sure I have managed to fake my vulnerability. He told me once to do so. To look weak and scared to those that threaten me. Isn't that the same game I am playing with him now. Letting him think he is winning, until that one moment that he lets his guard down. Before it was necessary, I couldn't risk Abigail. But now that she is free of me, no longer relaying on my body to grow, I will get us out. I will make sure she has a happy and loved childhood like she deserves.
Something has changed in the air today. I can feel the tension just radiating from Eric's body. He stands, military style like a guard at the door to my hospital room. Waiting for me and Abigail to be ready to go back to our living quarters. All he said was I needed to hurry, time is running out for us. Not understanding, what he meant. But the look in his eyes, telling me not to ask.
When I'm ready, he grabs my arm almost painfully keeping me close to his side. It's hard to keep up with him, I'm so sore from the stitches down there. Does he not realize I just gave birth three days ago. But he looks paranoid. Constantly looking all around our surroundings.
"Has there been a -" I couldn't finish my question before he cuts me off.
"Keep your filthy mouth shut." He says. Squeezing my arm even harder, he is gonna leave me a bruise. Fear that I might drop Abigail, I hold on tighter with my other hand keeping her close to me.
I feel him shifting his weight, and pushing me into a closet. When the door closes he places a hand on my mouth.
"Keep quite, make sure that baby doesn't make a sound or else." He says. Fear that he would actually do something to Abigail I look down but thank goodness she is asleep. She is completely unaware of the dangers ahead.
"Excuse me, I'm looking for the laboratory. I was told I can find Caleb Prior there." A male voice says right outside the door. The voice sounds familiar, almost like a comfort to me. Wait Caleb Prior? My brother, is he here?
"Yes, just take those elevators to the second floor and it will be the first door on the right." Jess my nurse says to the familiar voice.
"Wow this place sure is different." Another male says.
"Hopefully they changed for the better." This time the words are spilled from a females voice, she sounds familiar too.
Eric doesn't say anything, still has his hand on my mouth. He raises the other hand signaling the number four with his fingers. I didn't need more explanations then that. I remember Eric said Four attacked me unconscious while being pregnant. Is he here to finish the job? What does he want with Caleb? More questions are flooding my brain and I have no way for answers.
When there are no more voices and footsteps seem to fade, Eric slowly opens the door and look outside.
"Lets go, hurry up, and keep your mouth shut!" Eric says grabbing hold of my arm, once again little too tight. I don' know what is frightening me more at this point...
1- Four, who is probably here to finish what he started with me.
2-Caleb, my brother, who might be here and working with Four. If he isn't then he may be endanger.
3- Eric, the man who should love Abigail and I, but yet looks at us like we are bugs waiting to squash us dead.
For the time being I have no other choice, I go with him.