Chapter 28
Tobias P.O.V
"Four, would you mind taking her. Looks like she is full." Tris says. I stand up, taking my sweet little Abigail in my arms. Amazed she has already fallen asleep. I place her carefully back in her crib. When I stand back up, I see Tris trying to re-button her gown.
"Here let me help you." Extending both my hands out, letting my fingers go to work. She lets her hands fall down to her side, and smiles back at me. That smile, I can never get tired of it.
"I hope Christina gets here soon." she says with a giggle. "My gown is going to start growing it's own legs soon."
"Well if that's the case, I might just sit back and watch. Finally live entertainment." A chuckle escaping my mouth. Did I just say that?
Thankfully she laughs at my stupidity. Then before I can say anything else stupid, we hear a knock on the door. I see Christina peeking her head in with the biggest smile. She looks so happy, after everything we all have been through, we all finally get what might be a happy ending. So much for the intimidating and fearful, Four! Right behind Christina, Will enters caring a few bags.
"Hey guys, how are you? Oh boy, what we got there?" I say, pointing to the bags.
"Just a few things I picked up for Tris and my niece. Jess said you don't have to remain in a gown. Just as long as nothing rubs on your incision. I also picked up a few items to make breast feeding a little easier." She says sitting the bags down on the rocking chair and reaching in them.
"Oh My God, that's great news. This thing is totally uncomfortable. Thank you so much Christina." Tris says, smiling.
"Of course. Let's get you in the shower." Christina says. She outreaches her arms to help Tris stand and guide her to the bathroom. Tris hesitates, taking a look at our sleeping daughter.
"Hey don't worry about her. I got her. Go enjoy your shower." I tell her.
"Thanks, you know you might want one too later." She says jokingly.
"Thanks, I might have to do that." I say, placing my hands on her back to help support her while she struggle getting out of the bed. Christina still standing in front of her pulling her through her arms.
Once I see the door to the bathroom is close, I take my phone out. I have deciding on this all day, wanting to surprise Tris when we got home.
"Sorry Will, I just need to take care of something..." I explain, hoping he doesn't take me as being rude. He waves me off in understanding.
Ring Ring Ring
"Hello." Shauna answers.
"Hey Shauna." I greet back.
"Hey Four, Congrats! Zeke told me about the little one." she says
"Thanks."
"It's crazy, Tris is alive and to add to the surprise there is little bundle of joy." She says.
"I know... that's why I'm calling. Shuana, Tris is coming home with me in a few days. I was wondering if..." I say.
"If I can go shopping and help you spend your money? Sure I would love too. I will contact the land lord and see if I can get your key, so I will have it all set up by the time you guys come home." She says.
"Thank you Shauna. Tris and Abigail will be staying in the spare room. Have Amar and George help you clear that out. Place it in storage, please." I ask her, hoping it's not to much to handle.
"She will need some furniture, a bed, dresser, crib, and changing table. Also what ever else babies need." I say, thankful for her help.
"No worries, I'll even get Hana in on it. She will love the idea to help. She has been planning a welcome dinner for all of you. She is cooking all of your favorite foods, including Dauntless cake." Shauna says.
"That sounds GREAT! Thank you so much Shauna."
"Your welcome. I'm really happy for you, Four! You deserve this and so much more." She says.
"Thanks you. See you soon. I say
"See you soon." She says.
And the call ends
"So Will, you doing good? Adjusting OK?" I ask.
"Yea, it's weird after all this time. I keep thinking I'm in a simulation of some kind." He says taking a seat on the coach.
"I can understand that... Christina looks really happy. I haven't seen her like that in a really long time." I say
"We both are. I'm... I'm thinking about popping the question when we get back to Chicago and everything settles down. I just... don't want to waste anymore time." He confesses.
"I think we all feel like that right now." I agree.
"Tris, she doesn't remember me.. I mean the-" He says stumbling for the right words to say.
"Incident?" He nods. "No, she remembers you guys hating her. Just like I'm Four, the instructor the is suppose to hate her and want her dead." I run my right hand through my hair.
"Jeez, I can't imagine. Has to be torture for.. well the both of you." He says, looking at me straight in the eyes.
"Yea tell me about it. I would never hurt her, I just hope we can find a way to move past this and make a life as a family." I confess to him. Feeling of relief washing over me, talking about this.
"But that must have been something... to find out about that gorgeous little girl, Congratulations by the way! Never pictured you to be a DADDY, what all scary and intimidating, Four!" He says laughing at the end. I join in laughing at the thought of what my life as come to be.
I hear the bathroom door creak open, follow by both Tris and Christina. Tris looks so refreshed, her hair is still damped but combed out. She has on yoga pants, and a black shirt.
"Feel better?" I ask her.
"You have no idea!" She sighs.
"So when do we leave for home?" Will ask
"Once Tris, is cleared. Jess said can take a week or so." I answer.
"Have you spoken to Evelyn or Joanna? They need to know that we will be here that long. We won't be reporting to work." Christina says.
"I'll call Joanna in a bit. But non of this gets back to Evelyn." I say pointing my index finger to Christina.
"Why? Chicken to tell her?" Christina challenges me.
"To tell her that I have a beautiful daughter, and that Tris is alive and coming home? Nope. Just have a suspicious feeling she knows more then leading on." I answer her.
"Wait, who is Evelyn?" Tris ask.
I haven't gotten into the whole thing about my real name, and my birth parents with Tris. I know she doesn't remember my fear landscape or anything else we discussed in the pass. But I figure this conversation would wait until we got home, and settled down. I didn't want to have this conversion in a hospital room, where she has so much already overwhelming her. No mater how much I hated her calling me Four. I knew this talk can be held for later. "I'll explain later, I promise. It's a long story."
"Will, you want to join me? I have to get my bag from my truck. Tris is right I need to shower soon. Also I need to find a car seat for Abigail, for her trip home." I say.
"Yea, sounds good. You guys probably need girl time." He says smiling at Christina. He leans in and kisses her on the lips. "I'll be back."
"I'll be waiting." She tells him.
"Do you need anything before I go?" I ask Tris.
"No, we will be ok. We got Christina." She answers
Tris P.O.V
It feels off when Four steps out of the room. Again it's like the inner battle, head against the heart. How annoying? My mind thinks any minute and Four will kill me. Though my heart says to grab his hand and bring him closer to me. To have him wrap him strong arms around me and not let me go. He said he was ok with sleeping in the rocking chair last night, he refused the coach. I realized that the chair allowed him to be inches away from both Abigail and I, verses the coach he would be feet away.
I promised him this morning that I would try. He isn't asking for much, just to keep my mind and heart open to him. I can't blame him the thought of us three being a family warms my heart. My inner instincts telling me it's where I belong.
"So... Now that it's just us girls. Tell me, how are you really holding up Tris." Christina says sitting next to me.
"I'm really confused, Christina. My mind tells me to run, while my heart tells me to stay and have him hold me. I know this the Four is Abigail's father. The test came back that he is... so then everything else makes sense. But it's like a constant battle. Four wants me to try and work things with him. It's just really hard to process." I answer as honest as I can.
"Yea, I would imagine this can't be easy to intake. It's going to take some time. Caleb was still trying to figure out the serum they used on you. The last time I checked in there was no update. It's not fair, to any of us. I feel robbed. Like Four and I should have had time to be prepared for Abigail, to go through motions of the pregnancy, to experience her birth together. Even Abigail, she shouldn't have been exposed to that Jack Ass. Everyone keeps telling me that I have this power to over come serums, yet I couldn't and haven't overcome this serum. And what's worst it doesn't effect just me, it effects Abigail and Four. I feel like I failed them. Does that make any sense?" I say looking at my hands.
"Yea it does." She says covering her hand on mine, to get my attention. "But Tris, non of this is your fault. Four and Abigail are both here with you and they are safe. We can't do anything about yesterday, but we can do something about tomorrow. You need to keep that in mind." Christina says. "Four is a good guy, one of the best guys out there. He is worth fighting for. I know you don't remember, but you and him, work. You guys have a connection that is beyond anything I have ever seen. Don't loose sight of that."
"But what if, I never remember Christina. How is that fair to, Four?" I ask her, finally letting everything out.
"Then you and Four have to come to terms with it. Prepare to let the past be the past and start over again for the sake of your daughter. I know you feel something, if you didn't you wouldn't want to be in his arms." She says. Making perfect sense.
"I just don't want to disappoint him, he would want the old me back." I let out my last concern.
"Tris, old Tris, new Tris, you both are the same person. The only difference is the memories. He would rather have you then not. He loves you.. the good, the bad, and the ugly. Let that man prove himself."
There is no other words to be said. No other fears to speak out, I just nod. I know what I have to do.