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Chapter 29
Tris P.O.V
The past three days has been like a emotional roller coaster, and not just for myself but for everyone. Loved ones that were lost, came back. Broken hearts where put mended back together.
I envy the other two, they still have their memories. Able to find comfort in the ones that they love. Where to I, I fear the one person I should trust the most. Or so they tell me...
Even to prove himself... Four had a D.N.A done on him and Abigail. Of course, he was right. The test showed that Four and I were the biological parents of Abigail Marie. I hate to admit but that small result, that proved Four's innocence... really helped. I decided to attempt to shut that voice in my head, and try and trust him. We agreed, figuring things out together was the best and only way for us to move forward as a family. Although there were awkward moments between us, and there has been moments of laughter.
Flashback
I know it's the middle of the night. Glancing at the clock, Abigail isn't scheduled for another hour to nurse. Having the need to relieve myself, I slowly got out of the bed. It' still very painful to move. I glance at the rocking chair to see if Four could help me. Unfortunately the chair is empty.
"Four." I said almost a whisper. No answer.
I finally made my way to the bathroom. No thinking, I didn't bother to knock. I struggled opening the heavy door... I finally was able to open the door enough for my body to fit. That's when I saw in the middle of the bathroom, a all too good looking NAKED FOUR! I think my eyes almost popped out of my head.
He immediately noticed my presence, a wide grin appeared on his face. He also takes notice my scanning eyes, why does he have to be so observant. They scan from his wet hair, his lips, chin, shoulders, his dripping wet chest, down to his... I feel my cheeks burning as my eyes reached his engorged dick. Holy crap that thing is huge! I see him reaching for his towel, and I almost wish he wouldn't. Wanting to continue to watch him. Damn my cheeks were on FIRE!
"Tris, I thought you were asleep." Four said. Reaching for the towel.
"I was... I needed... to go... bathroom." What the fuck did I just say.
"Oh Ok... sure you didn't just want to take a peek?" He says raising one eye brow. He couldn't resist any more, he broke out in a all belly laugh. "Tris, breath. It's ok. Nothing you never seen before." He wraps the towel around his waste. DAMN... NO... COME ON!
"Probably, we have the sleeping evidence in the room." I try to joke back, not sure if it's working. Why am I still standing here, looking at where there is a bulge in his towel.
"Um I'll... just... for you … to be done." Shit, Tris. Learn how to talk.
Flashback End
It was comforting that even without my memories Four and I found a way to move in the right direction. I no longer flinch when he moves, the flirting and the need to talk is really interesting. Even the wanting to reach out and hold his hand, is overwhelming. Something that I would be interested in trying.
I wonder if memories really can be lost, my body reaction to Four when he nears is something unrecognizable. Four someone that my mind tells me to hate and fear. My body's reaction is to curl up in his arms and hold on tight.
Caleb walked in just has Four was burping Abigail. We were laughing about Zeke's comment on Uriah looking forward to Dauntless cake when we all get home. When Caleb came by, he explained that Cara, Matthew and himself had been going through all the records to find out information on my serum. What they could find out, that two strong serums were mixed and used. One was the same serum they tested successfully on Four, a serum that turned his friends into enemies. The other was memory serum. Both high dosed. Since there is no cure for those two serums, there is no cure for mine.
"I promise, we won't stop trying to make one for you, Tris." Caleb promised me. "Although your brain works different. You might be able to fight this off on your own, or maybe it will wear off after time."
"So basically you don't know shit." I spit out. I know I shouldn't take my frustrating out on him. He is trying so hard to make things right. But I can't help it, I have a daughter... and I can't even explain to her how she was conceived, how her parents met, nothing. The memories that are mine, are not even mine.
"Hey, calm down, remember we will figure this out. TOGETHER!" Four said trying to comfort me. I can see how the true me fell for him.
"We did find something."Caleb said looking toward the floor. "Eric, he... he left a tape. A message, for you and Four."
"Have you watched it?" Four ask.
"I watched the first few minutes. I had to stop. It's a lot to take in." Caleb says.
"What was on it?" I ask needing to know before we watch it.
"Eric talking, very detailed about everything. I felt like I shouldn't watch it." Caleb said looking uncomfortable.
"I'll leave you my laptop and you can double click the file that says Eric. If you choose to watch it."