Chapter 32

Tobias P.O.V

I felt like ages for Tris to fall asleep, hours sobbing in my embrace. Helpless, not knowing another way to comfort her. I wrapped her in my arms, tight as her frame would let me. Allowing her to release the moisture in her eyes, "You can let it out, it's just me here," she continued until her eyes ran dry. The mixture of pain and pleasure surges through me. As glad as I am to hold her, and she allows me to hold her, to have her in my arms once more. I imagine bringing Eric back to life, cutting off his fucking dick off and watching him bleed out causing him a slow and agonizing death. Would she fear me if she knew where my imagination lies?

Once Tris fell asleep, I relentlessly unwrapped myself from her/ Needing to release my frustration, needing something to do. I got to work at the forgotten mess on the floor. But the chore did nothing for my thoughts. What can I do to help her? I wish nothing more than to take her pain away. For her to only know of the love we have and will share. Fuck I feel like I'm going to loose my mind.

"Tell me about us." Tris says, I didn't even know she woke up.

I stand next to the bed, looking into her eyes, taking her all in. She moves over a little making room for me once again. Not needing to be asked twice, I carefully claimed in wrapping her back in my arms. I missed her warm body, her scent, and her feel of her hair against my cheek.

"What would you like to know?" I ask not knowing where to start.

"The beginning, tell me how we meet." She ask resting her head on my shoulder.

"It's gonna take time..." I say with a grin.

"I got time. Tell me please." She says.

"I remember it like it was yesterday. We met on Choosing day, it was my second year training transfers. In all of Dauntless history there have only been two transferred from Abnegation. Our friend Lauren was making bets on who would be the first jumper. It was a no brainier... it was always a Dauntless born initiate. Any ways I was at the net waiting to help the first jumpers..." I look at her with a proud smile. "I saw a flash of gray. That moment, changed my life forever." I take her hand lacing it with mine, bringing it to my lips. "When I reached for your hand to help pull you out.. the jolts of electricity that shot through. It was like the jolts went to my heart, bringing me to life. When I got you on your feet, I asked you for your name... You hesitated. Not knowing your story, I suggested to pick a new one, but a good one. You don't get to choose again. You said my name is Tris." I chuckle at the memory. "Everyone was scared of "Four," everyone but you. When it was time for dinner, you had no problems sitting next to me in the cafeteria. Christina on the other hand..." I let out a laugh, couldn't help it. "She found me intimidating. Instantly you and I had this connection... like magnets needing to be near each other. But I knew I had to play it cool, I was your instructor and Eric had it out for me." I felt her flinch at the sound of his name. "I wasn't going to lead him on to anything. I wanted to do anything to protect you." I look down at her face, not able to resist the urge to have my lips on her... I kissed her forehead, letting my lips linger at the touch of her skin, wanting to hold her even tighter than I already am. I feel a part of my body beginning to swell, the need and desire growing with in me. I take a deep breath trying to calm myself. I do not want to scare her, and I don't want to pressure her. I want it to be like before... No pressure, just enjoy each other's company, and take it slow.

Knock Knock

Tris and I lift our head at the sound of the knock on the door... seeing Christina walking in with a bag full of what only God would know.

"I'm here for my girl's day!" Christina says.

"Girl's day?" Tris says.

"Yup, You, Abigail and I are going to have lots of pampering. Four, the guys are waiting for you in Caleb's lab. There are certain beers with your name on it." Christina says with a huge exciting smile.

I look at Tris, allowing her to make the choice for us to separate. She nods knowing what I am wordlessly asking her.

"Do you need anything before I leave?" I ask while getting up from the bed. Wishing to refuse to let her go.

"No, we will be fine. Um... can you return the laptop to Caleb? Please!" She asks giving me a smile I can't resist.

"Of course." I lean in slowly and kiss the top of her head. Then I make my way to my sleeping Angel and kiss her little forehead.

"Call me if you need anything." I say before exiting.

"Four, go away." Christina says with a grin.

"Bitch," I say with a smile.

"Jackass!" She says with a wink.

I couldn't hold back... laughter escaped my mouth.

I got to the elevator in no time, looking forward to letting go and relaxing. I love Tris, and our daughter but what we saw today on that tape... I needed some release and not in a good way.

I step up to the laboratory not bother to knock, I open the door and walk into the room filled with laughter. Right in the middle of the room, is Uriah sitting down trying to make a chocolate cupcake into Dauntless cake. Through the expression on his face, I'm thinking he is failing at his task. The look of disappointment "I just want my Dauntless cake DAMN!" Every one jumps in laughing.

"FOUR!" I hear Zeke and Uriah looking at me, almost yelling my name with excitement.

"Wow how many beers have you guys have already?" I say chuckling.

"You have a lot to catch up to do man... About... Shit... Six." Zeke says holding is beer out in front of him.

"Mmm no thanks, I'll just start with the one. Thanks" I say.

"Boo!" Uriah says.

I spot Matthew,and Caleb sitting on the couch, and I make my way to them. Hoping to avoid the craziness that is happening on the floor.

"Want a beer?" Caleb ask.

"Yea." I say taking the beer Caleb hands me.

"Did you guys..." Caleb says, not needing to finish the question.

"Yea, we did." I say.

"Is she ok? Are you?" He ask.

"Would you be?" I ask wanting him to answer honestly.

He nods not needing to answer... he would be torn.

"I'm sorry, Four." He attempts to apologize.

"I know, we just need to get out of here. We'll be fine." Saying the truth, this place holds more bad memories then good for Tris and I. I gulp down the beer, and taking another one. Letting the warmth of the drink spread through me. The need to forget for a minute all the things Eric did and must have done to the woman I love.