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Chapter 42
Tris P.O.V
It's been a long, wonderful and exciting day with Abigail and Four, I mean Tobias. I couldn't have asked for such a perfect day. Even our timing seem to be perfect, as Tobias drove us home we can see the rain bands coming in... It looks like one nasty storm is forming over the city, we are just pleased to make it home in time.
We spent the morning in Abnegation, going "back to the start" Tobias called it. Of course, I had no idea what he was speaking about at the time. Until I saw the area to which we were driving in... It was sweet to see what has become of my old child hood home. It's a honor to share with others what every child should have. What I hope Tobias and I can provide for our daughter.
Tobias also reveled to me his child hood home, which was the opposite of what mine was. Tobias trusted me to share with me his childhood experiences and with that came the reveal of his name... Tobias Marcus Eaton. My heart broke when he was telling me the horror he endured has a young child. No child should ever be treated like that. The two people in your life you should trust to love you should be your parents... Tobias' parents let him down over and over again. First with his mother who abandoned him at such a young age. Then is father for abuse that he inflected on Tobias.
I know and see it in Tobias' eyes, the fear of coming Marcus. Although, I may only know Tobias a few weeks now. I know he would never be like that Monster. Tobias is gentle and kind and loving. His daughter, which was a last minute here you go... You can just see the affection and devotion he has for her. I have no dealt in my mind that Tobias would make a excellent father to Abigail, and if we do make it, I know he would make a excellent husband to me one day.
After the tour of our homes, we ended the trip with the other structures of Abnegation along with the visit to the Monumental. I am still left in shock, the long list of those that were unfortunate to survive the slaughter of Abnegation. I even locate the family that were closest to mine. The Blacks, the only surviving member was Robert. Robert who transferred to Amity on his Choosing day, probably saved his life. I wonder if things were different and Tobias and I stayed in Abnegation, not having any Dauntless training or knowledge. Would we have survived the murders? How that one choice, changed and saved our lives.
After Abnegation, Tobias took us for a lunch in the park. Such a wonderful day for it. We were able to talk about anything and everything. We even had a few jokes.
I can see and understand how I would have fallen for a man like Tobias. Not only is he handsome as hell, but he is funny, and adorable. He knows what to say and when to say to comfort a person. His very presence makes you feel comfortable and at home. I would imagine him and I didn't fair from each other during the war.
I can still see it in his eyes, the fear of me disappearing. I wish some how I can take that fear away for him. The need to comfort him as well is starting to become overwhelming. The need to be close to each other every second. The need to bring up a excuse to somehow grace him or touch him.
We reach the front door to the apartment, and just as the key slides into the keyhole... The whole building goes dark.
I need to remind myself that everything is ok. Tobias is with us. It's a storm. No one is going to jump out and grab me.
Tobias manages to get the door open, and we slide quickly inside. The apartment is pitch black... I can't see anything at all. Thankful Abigail is in her stroller, safe and strapped.
"Stay here let me get some candles. Just don't move. Ok?" I hear Tobias say.
"Ok." I say trying to keep the fear from my voice.
I hear faint footsteps, a drawer opening and closing, what sounds like shuffling... and then a click of a lighter. I see Tobias in the kitchen, he has a few candles and is going to work lighting all of them.
"Why don't you make your self comfortable on the couch while I spread some candles around the apartment." Tobias says smiling.
"Ok." I say pushing the stroller over to the couch. Abigail just fall asleep, not wanting to wake her. Before I sit, I reach into the bottom basket that is holding our take out dinner and place it on the coffee table. I watch Tobias at work placing a candle every few feet from each other in a safe spot. When there is enough candles to light up the whole city. Tobias goes back into the kitchen and grabs two bottle waters out of the fridge and joins me back on the couch.
"Wow! Talk about your romantic settings!" He says chuckling nervously. "Not that I had anything to do with the power outage... I mean it's a storm and it happens." He says rubbing the back of his neck with a hand.
"Tobias, it's ok. I get it. Now shut up and eat." I say giggling. I wonder if he always struggled with his words around me.
"So what is this again." I ask watching him take the take out containers and placing with on the coffee table, he then hands me utensils and a paper plate.
"Chinese food. It's delicious. They just opened up two months ago, someone from a city called New York moved here and opened up shop. So thankful for that. Now there is fried rice, lo mien, bourbon chicken, sweet and sour chicken, and crab ragoon. Just serve what ever you want." He says.
He waits for me to serve myself first. Always the gentlemen. I plate myself little of everything and then wait for him to serve himself. The moment the fork touched my lips, I could tell exactly what he meant. I have never tasted anything like it, the flavors, the tenderness, then the crunch. Oh my lord! I couldn't help the morn that escaped my mouth.
"Good right?" Tobias says taking a fork full to his mouth.
"Mmhmmm." Is the only thing that can make it's way out of my mouth. We continue to eat in our comfort silence, I love this silent. The no need to speak and it's not awkward, just feels nice and right.
"Can I … ask you something?" Tobias ask.
"Of course, you can. You feed me. Atleast I can answer a question." I say trying to tease hin.
"After all of today... does it feel like familiar? I mean ok we never got to spend a real lazy day like this before the war. But I... mean... being in Abnegation seeing the end result of the war... did that spark anything?" He asks. There he goes again with his words.
"Would it disappoint you if I said no?" I say.
"No of course not. It's not like a deal breaker or anything If you can't remember, we can make new memories. Like we did today. I just... to know the person who have become... I don't know. I don't make sense. I just wanted to know thats all. Like I said it's not a deal breaker. I love you either with or without your memories." He says. Did he just say he loves me?
"I get it. It makes sense to me. I'm just sorry I can't remember, it seems like we had a romantic love tail." I say smiling at him.
"Yea, a forbidden love, to only turn into love and war. Whats not to miss?" He says running a hand through his hair.
"At least we have your memories, you can share them with Abigail when she ask how we met. Something to look forward to." I say.
When we are both full and done with our supper, Tobias once again being a gentlemen. Stands up and throws out our trash, and place the left overs in the fridge. He grabs another two bottles of water and comes back to re-join me on the couch.
I didn't notice until now how big the windows in the living room were, they take up almost the whole wall. The night is gorgouse to the lightening storm taking place, we watch the sky light up for what feels like hours. Such a relaxing view... so relaxing that I don't think neither one of realize that we have managed to close the space between each other and he has his right arm draped around me shoulders, allowing me to rest my head on his shoulder. The feel of him resting his chin on my head brings me to present. But I do not dare to move from the comfort of his arms. It's all just so perfect.