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Chapter 47
Tris P.O.V
There are many awkward moments when it comes to being a female. Times like your mom shows up in your room with your first bra, or perhaps when you think the blood that is leaking from between your legs means you are dieing and mom has to explain what a menstruation are, or better yet when your father tells you "Great Job, I'm so proud of you," talk when he finds out you started to have a period, and not to mention all those embarrassing accidents us girls may have...
Yea, us females have really embarrassing awkward moments growing up, yet somehow they can only get worst. For example right now, being on a medical table, in a paper gown, with my legs wide open for the world to see in stirrups. Not going to even thinking about the Doctor who is currently head first in my woman hood area. Did I also mention the large, cold, metal object that is shoved in my woman hood to make my area open wide for him.
Sure this is not awkward at all! Guys, what they have uncontrollable hard on for their teen age years, possible "wet dreams." Ha, us girls win!
"Do you itch or burn?" Did he just ask that?
"No." I respond with out thinking. Can this be done and over with now? I look up at the ceiling wishing I would disappear. Why is it so hard to find a woman Doctor that handles this stuff? Most O.B.G.Y.N Doctors are males, then again I somehow have a feeling that I already know.
"Any discharges?" For the love of...
"No." I say. Please no more questions.
I hear a small giggle coming from my right, I glance over and sure enough Christina sits there swaying the stroller back and forth in small motions. She also sits there with a large grin trying to hold back a laugh at my responses.
When the Doctor finally sits back, he pushes my knees together, "Alright so all looks good. Your stitches has dissolved on their own. How has your incision been feeling?" He says pointing towards my abdomen.
"Fine, I guess." I say.
"OK, lets have a look." He says. Taking a paper blanket to cover my lower half of my my body and raises my gown to take a look. He plates both his hands on my stomach and examines the area. Most stitches has also dissolved on their own.
"I think it's time to remove your remaining stitches, the area has healed and no longer needs to be forced closed." He smiles at me.
"Great." I say.
"I'll ask the nurse to come in and take care of that. Once she is done, I'll come back in and have a chat with you. OK?" He says making his way out of the door.
"What's with you? Why are you acting all.." Christina says waving her hands.
"Hey, come on I was all wide open there. The guy didn't even take me out to dinner!" I say trying to make light of things.
"You should have let Four come." Christina says.
"Yea, that's not even more awkward. "Hey Four, I know we haven't had sex yet, but can you watch another man dip his head between my legs." I say. Christina has no words other then bust out laughing at my response.
"Wait! You guys haven't had sex yet?" Christina asks. Her expression is beyond shocked.
"No, not yet." I say. Sure this isn't even awkward at all.
"But I thought you guys are working things out... why not?" She asks.
"Well I don't know... Could it be I had stitches up my crouch?" I say bluntly.
"Did you just say crouch?" She laughs even harder. "Wow... did that one hurt?"
"OK...OK. Seriously. How are you guys doing in the physical area?" She asks.
"We are OK. I think. We are taking it slow. Kissing ALOT! He says he doesn't want to push, or pressure me." I say.
"And his balls hasn't fallen off yet?" She asks laughing again.
"Christina!" I yell at her, wishing I could punch her arm.
"What? Will would go crazy... if he couldn't!" she says.
Luckily the nurse walks in ready to remove my stitches. So worth it at this point. Once she is done, she tells me to get dress and the doctor will come back in.
"Seriously though, I'm happy you guys are OK. You both deserve to be happy." Christina says.
"Thank you, I think we are happy." I say confidently.
"And don't worry Four is well controlled." She says.
"What do you mean?" I ask not understanding her statement.
"Well back in initiation, you had a seventh fear. It was intimacy.. with Four. All the leaders saw..." She says with a giggle remembering the memory. I sigh wishing I could remember.
"Any who Four was great about it. You told me that he made you feel like you were in control and that you were safe with him. He ended your seventh fear." She says smiling. I smile back at her.
When the Doctor returns he has his clip board handy, it looked like a small check list to go over.
"So Tris, how is the breast feeding going?" He asks.
"Fine, no problems." I say.
"Getting enough milk coming in? Any tender?" He asks.
"No, everything feels fine." I say.
"OK. Well good. Make sure that if any irritation comes up, pealing, you calls us OK." He says. I nod in return.
"Your stitches has dissolved, so you are cleared for sex. Have you thought about birth control?" He asks looking at me.
"Umm.. No I haven't thought to much about it." I admit. This was something that should be thought about... before Tobias and I are ready for our next step.
"OK. Well before you and your partner conceive another baby. For health reasons it is recommended to wait about two years... it gives your body time to bounce back. Did you want to talk about birth control?" He asks. I glance at the sleeping Abigail, that Christina is still pushing in her stroller. Although Tobias and I love her more then anything, I can't think about having another baby so soon. I turn and nod my head at him.
"OK, you are eligible for the shot. Umm the shot will reduce your periods and cramping, some woman won't even get a period. Now it does take three months for it to be effective after that it's good for one year and then you just get another shot. If you want little more control we gave birth control pills but you have to take the pill once a day. Now that becomes effective after one month of a full cycle and when you are ready to conceive another child just stop taking the pill." He say. " There are other methods but these are the easiest." He adds.
"Get the shot. I have mine, so much easier. You never have to wonder rather or not you took your pill." Christina says.
"Yes, the shot does sound like the right way to go." I say making my choice.
"OK I will send in the nurse. After that you are free to go. Remember it takes three months for it to be effective. Use other methods for the time being." He says with hesitation in his eyes. "You know, often I get asked by my patients when they can resume sexual activities with their partner." He says staring at me. "Tris, you have been through a lot physically, mentally, and emotionally. All because I clear you and you got this shot, does not mean that I say go home and have sex with your partner. It means you are medically capable too. You will know when, when you are ready. Until then don't push your self. I tell all my patients the same thing... Everyone heals differently, you need to listen to yourself." He finishes, says his good byes and leaves.
"His right you know. All kidding aside." Christina says.
Once the nurse comes back in she gives me my shot and we head home. I may not be ready but I know and hope soon I will be!
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