Chapter 51

Tobias P.O.V

I sat on the floor talking to Tris about the events that occurred that day. It felt so right and comfortable, sitting there while she was in the tub. I loved this, feels so intimate and honest. Sure we haven't made love since that night in the Bureau, the night we conceived Abigail. But Tris has taught me that you don't have to have sex in order to be intimate. I love the thought of us like this perfectly comfortable with each other able to be honest.

Flash back

Back at the Bureau

I rush back to the hospital room, anxious to tell Christina the good news. I left her to stay with Tris and Abigail while I performed a rescue mission. We found them, both of them. Alive! I open the door to the room, and notice both Christina and Tris are staring at each other deep in conversation. I hated to break it up but what Christina needed to know was too important.

"What is it?" Christina asked me. Tris staring at me noticing the seriousness to Christina.

"It's..it's. Jeez I don't even know how to tell you this." I start.

"Is it Uriah? Was it him? FOUR!" She says instigating on the answer.

"Yes, we found Uriah. He is OK. He is in Caleb's lab... But." I said I didn't know how to get this out. I walk up to her slowly, placing a hand on each upper arm encase she needed my support. I was more then willing to lend her my strength like she did for my for so many months.

"Christina, it's Will. He was in the other room... He is alive." I told her our eyes never loosing contact. At first she almost lost her balance, shock hitting her.

"Will?" She asked not wanting to believe my words.

"Yes. He is in the lab." I said. "Would you like me to go with you?" I asked.

"No, no I can't. I …. I …." She said clearly being overwhelmed. She runs her hands through her hair disbelieving my words. "I need to go... I'll see you later." She says running out.

I took a deep breath before turning back to Tris. Wishing she would remember one of her best friends. The best friend that she felt so guilty for shooting.

"Who's Will?" She asked.

"Tris.. Will is Christina's boyfriend. He was killed during the War." I answered. She nods.

I notice on the roll away table, a long white letter with all out names and numbers on it. I realize just by the quick second glance that it is the results of the DNA test.

"You got the results?" I said sounding like a question instead of a statement.

"Yea. You were right." She said a tears coming down her cheeks. "How are you feeling about that?" I said claiming back my rocking chair, but not before moving it closer to her bed again. I place my right hand on her bed side encase she wanted to hold it.

"I'm little confused, Four. I.. I don't want to upset you." She said.

"Hey, I'll tell you what. How about a pact right her, right now?" I said.

"A pact?" She says giving me a small smile.

"Yea, no matter what we tell each other everything. We be honest, no matter how scared we are about hurting the other one. I want the truth, Tris. I rather hear what you are thinking and feeling so I can help you any way I can. I can't do that unless you are honest with me. But I wouldn't expect you to be honest unless I was also honest... So what do you think?" I proposed.

"I think that's a great idea." She says with a smile chuckle then she holds her pinky finger and I entwine my with her and shake them together.

"Now tell me what you honestly feel and think about the DNA results." I said.

"I'm happy, thrilled to be honest. Relieved that Eric isn't Abigail's father. I would hate the thought of forcing her to grow up without a Dad. Just seeing the way you are with her, I know you will be a great father to her. When Eric picked her up the one time, I think she knew... She just kept crying." Tris said tears still running down her cheeks. "I'm just confused because my memory has... has.." She couldn't finish.

"Him." I finished for her. I understand why she didn't want to finish the statement. I wasn't in her memory, I had been replaced by another man. And not just by another man but Eric.

"I'm sorry Tris." I said noticing that she did reach out and grabbed my hand when I finished her statement.

"I'm sorry too. I promise to always talk and be honest no matter what." She promises.

End of Flash back

"Does she not like me? Not want me around? What is it?" Tris asks. Pulling me out of the memory.

"Tris, she knew." I blurt out, I have to get it out. She needs to know what kind of woman Evelyn is.

"She knew? She knew everything?" Tris says understanding what I was saying.

"She knew you were being held, that you were expecting Abigail." I say taking a breath. " She never intended me to find you. Her sources called her told her about the Heroes that were being held, she decided not to do anything!" I need another breath, the ache in my hurt over powering my senses.

"So she risked the four of us, to keep you and me apart." She asks just beginning to understand.

"You were in early stages of pregnancy when they told her." I say.

"Early stages? You mean before I was given the memory serum? You mean to tell me, that this all could have been avoided if..." Anger runs through me again, she agrees with what could have been a different outcome if it wasn't for Evelyn.

"Tris, I'm sorry! I..." I try to get out before she cuts me off.

"What did I do for her to hate me so much?" She sighs. "Does it have to do with that time and time again that I proved I was temporary?" What is she talking about?

"What did you just say?" I ask our eyes connecting.

"She.. she showed up here. I opened the door, I knew she was in the park with you. I wasn't sure..." What? She showed up her? What did she do? Can't I protect Tris, just once? "She said something about how time and time again I proved to you that I was temporary in your life. That it it's a matter of time before I do it again. She said that she is permanent, and she wants me gone or she will make sure I disappear." She finally gets out. Long silence follows her words, I can't believe my ears. I feel my blood boil, turning into lava. I involuntary clench my jaw tightly, and my hands ball up into fists. I take a deep breath trying to calm myself. Tris needs me to be strong, to be calm for her. I need to remain level headed.

"I can't believe... I am so sorry, Tris. She can't.. I was hoping that she could move on." I try to get out. No luck.

"What did I do?" She asks. I hate Evelyn so much for this right now.

"You did nothing wrong, Tris. I promise you. You... stood up for me. You made it known that it wasn't OK for her to abandon me and leave me with Marcus at a young age. She wanted me to join her when she was factionless, I almost left Dauntless... But then you jumped in the net, and I couldn't. I thought with you by my side, I could be happy in Dauntless or anywhere as long as we were together." I need her to know everything. I need her to know this isn't about her. It's about me and relationship that I will never allow Evelyn to have with me. "Evelyn, hated that. She hated that I didn't want or need her. It was easier to blame you instead of herself."

"What was that business of time and time again about? What did I do, Tobias?" She ask. How can I explain our past without her misunderstanding? It was a different time for us, we were fighting a war...

"During the war, there were times that difficult choices had to be made. At times reckless... you would place your self in danger if it meant saving someone." I stop to take a breath. Figuring she needed to know more details about what was happening to cause such madness between us."You became reckless after your parents were killed. You would run into line of fire with only a knife, thinking it would help save a life. You turned yourself into Erudite to get experimented on to save other lives from being killed, you even took Caleb's place to save him. I knew you loves me, but you were hurting, and you felt like you needed to do anything to save another life." I turn still sitting on the floor, allowing my self to face her. She shifts slightly to face, not caring about the bubbles that are sliding off of her. "Tris, people are different during a war. We did what we had to do, what we thought was right at the time. I know you... you never meant to leave me. You even told that to Caleb, you told him to tell me if you didn't make it that you didn't mean to leave me." I feel her reaching out and catching a tear that I didn't know escaped me.

"I'm... I'm so sorry for everything, Tobias." She apologizes. "Come here." She says leaning into the side of the tub brushing her lips to mine softly. "I will never do anything to jeopardize us and our family again." She says, taking all my pain and heartache away with her words and lips.

"I was thinking about... taking you out on a date. What do you think Saturday at 6? I'll get Hana to babysit with Abigail." I ask. We need sometime to ourselves to be us, and to have fun. I need more time with her, more time to hear laugh, to feel her kisses on me.

"Mm sounds like a date." She says leaning in for another kiss. I will die a happy man if I can kiss her like this for the rest of my life.

**************** Hey there sorry this took so long to get out... I have been working on brainstorming and scenes for this story line. So please stay tuned there are many juicy chapters coming soon! Happy reading! Take care!***************************************************