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Chapter 52
Tris P.O.V
The knock at the door pulls me out of my thoughts. I stare at myself one final time in the mirror, a reflection that still amazes me. Growing up in Abnegation I was only allowed three minutes every three months to look in a reflection. Vanity was a self indulgence, something that Abnegation denied their members. You would be surprised how much a reflection can change in just a short three months, especially when you are growing up. It was a ritual that we did my mother and I, I would sit on a stool staring at the person staring back at me. My mother would glances up and then back down while running a pair of scissors through my hair. Little moments like that, I took for granted. I just never thought there would be a day I would long for those moments back. Being a new mother myself now, I think of the little moments I might be able to share with my daughter. Moments that my mother gave to me that I would want to give to her...
I take a deep breath and clear my head... Tobias said to dress casually tonight. I picked out a pair of blue jeans, black v neck shirt that shows my tattoos, with black low cut boots. I decide to let my hair down. Christina lent me matching silver ear rings, and heart necklace. My makeup is simple little eye liner and lipstick. Nothing over the top.
"Tris, Hana is here." I hear Tobias call out to me from the living room.
Tonight is suppose to be just us. Something that is well needed and wanted. Tobias hasn't told me where we are going, he wanted to keep tight a surprise. But he didn't promise me a night of fun and laughter. "It's ok, for us to be Tobias and Tris... not just Mommy and Daddy!" He said, I was little surprise at first when I realized Abigail wouldn't be joining us. Up to now everything we did, we did it as a family not just as a couple. I admit I'm excited to spend time with him and only him. I love being a mom but like he said it's ok to want to be Tris too. I guess in some ways we are selfish, and that's ok.
"Ok, I'll be right there." I call out deciding to take Abigail with me as I walk out into the living room. I see Tobias first, the sight of him makes butterflies fly through out my stomach. Anticipation running through my blood making it feel like lava.
"There's my two favorite girls." Tobias says with a wide smile when he sees us. He takes Abigail from my arms lifting her to his face. I notice he is wearing black jeans, and a blue polo shirt. I love the way he looks in blue, the color making his eyes pop out even more. So handsome, and delicious may I add.
"Mommy and Daddy are going to miss you tonight. But we will be home soon, you behave for Granny Hana ok?" He tells her like she understands and kisses her forehead. I can't help but admire the father he is. I take my turn and kiss her little head, before he hands her to Hana. I then tell her the next feeding time for Abigail and we thank her for sitting.
"So now can you tell me where we are going?" I say grinning when we get into the hallways. I slip my hand into his entwining our fingers. I love the way our hands fit. So perfect.
"Nope!" He says returning my smile.
He opens the truck door for me and helps me into my seat. I notice that he hesitates a minute and pulls out a black cloth from his pocket. "Would you feel comfortable...with me placing this over your eyes." He ask me.
"Seriously?" I ask glancing at the fabric.
"Yea, it is a surprise." He says still smiling. "Only if you are comfortable. Do you trust me?"
"Of course I do." I say leaning back and allowing him to fasten the cloth over my eyes.
I notice my other senses are heighten the moment my eyes are covered. I hear the truck door closing, the vibrations of the impact. The driver door opening, and the rocking of the truck while Tobias gets in, followed by the door closing and another vibration from that impact. The engine being turned on, and the gear shifting. I keep my hands on my knees, and remind myself to breath in and out. I feel a hand entwine with my left hand, keeping me calm.
"Are you alright?" Tobias ask.
"Yes. Just keep talking." I say with a small chuckle letting him know I'm OK.
"We are almost there, then I am going to guide you to the spot where the surprise is." He says.
"You are enjoying this little too much aren't you." I say.
"Just a little." He admits. "With the war, we didn't really have much time for dates. Only one well maybe two depending on your definition... and it wasn't very thought out. I'm excited to share this with you." He says. Glad that he is has excited has I am. I feel the truck come to a full complete stop, and the engine turn off. "OK, wait a minute and I'll open your door, and help you out." He says.
He takes my hand and elbow in both his hands and guide me slowly, letting me know of any rocks, or steps that may need to be caution with.
"Good evening Mr. Eaton. Everything is all set for you. You have one hour." I hear a males voice say.
"Thank you John, I appreciate it." Tobias says.
"OK Tris, there is a step, and then another step that might make you feel like the ground is swaying... then there is a seat on your right." When I sit down I feel a rocking movement and then a rush of air. I feel although we are being lifted off the ground and then suddenly we stop. I hear Tobias taking a much needed deep breath. I don't understand his unease. Is something wrong?
"Are you OK?" I ask getting worried.
"Yea, I'm... I'm fine. Here let me take this off of you." He says I feel his hands shake slightly has he removes my blindfold.
When I can see, I see lights all around us. We are high up in a cart, I realize we are on the Ferris Wheel. I realize it along with the rest of the Pier has been restored. Music from all over, laughter and screams coming form below. Lights from games, and rides are lighting up the night.
"Wow this is amazing, Tobias!" I say glancing at him for the first time, he is seating across from me. I see a drop of sweat dropping from his forehead. He tries to smile, taking a deep breath.
"Your afraid of heights." I say still smiling.
"Everyone is afraid of something." He says staring at me focusing on his breathing.
"I didn't think you are afraid of anything." I say smiling. "If you are afraid then why bring me up here."
"I can ignore my fear and face them. Especially if it means being with you." He says taking my hand into both of his. I then notice on the floor a small cooler.
"Whats that?" I ask pointing at the cooler.
"That is a little snack." He says reaching out for the cooler. "I know you can't drink alcohol because you are nursing but this is cider. I also brought some cheese, fruit and crackers." He says pulling them out.
"One hour." I say making sense to the mans statement from before.
"The first time I realized how far I would go to stay close to you was on this Ferris Wheel. We were playing capture the flag. You came up with this brilliant idea to claim all the way to the top to get a good vintage point... I wanted to spend time with you, and get to know you better. I know I had feelings for you, I couldn't shake them off. So when I saw the opportunity to be with you, alone, I took it. It wasn't easy." He says with a giggle. "Claiming up, I had to keep you talking about initiation and the whole point of this game just that I wouldn't think about the height. But it was worth it." He smiles at the memory. "You almost fail on the way back down. The rail gave way, leaving you dangling. You made me face my fear. I had to rush down to the ground and get this thing somehow moving in order to safely bring you down."
"Good thing you were there then." I say.
Flash back
Back to Tris initiation capture the flag night.
Of course I remember that night, but my memories are little different than Tobias'. That night Four (the jerk instructor) insisted I go with Eric, that he didn't need a stiff to slow him down. Eric agreed that he had all the good guys any who and little old me wouldn't stand in his way. It was that night when the flares burned red, Eric pulled me out of the way before Four could hit me with his gun... Eric slammed me against the box carts and blocked anything from hitting my small frame. "I got you stiff." He said and forced my first kiss on me. Then he turned and continued his shoot off with Four.
End of flashback
"Tris, you ok? Love?" I hear Tobias asking, reaching out to touch my cheek.
"Huh.. yea I'm sorry. Just little overwhelmed. Everything is so perfect." Saying the truth. Wishing nothing more then to remember real memories then the ones they planted in me. A reality that I would love to share with Tobias. I don't wish to tell Tobias the truth of what runs through my thoughts. I know he already feels guilty and ashamed of what his mother has done. I would hate to make him hurt more than he already has. How? How can I tell him what holds my memories are of another man that we both hate so much? How do I tell Tobias, that the memories that he shares with me is of a Tris that I feel jealous and hatred towards? I wish I was still her. I wish she was still her. I still don't understand how he can still love me? They say your past makes you, you are today. Will what does that say about me? The me, who has her past all scrambled up.
"Are you sure? You look like you have something on your mind?" He says concern written all over his face.
"Yes, of course." I take another sip of the cider and pop another grape in my mouth. Everything is just fine. "Promise." I say giving him a smile. I know he doesn't believe me, but he lets it go for now. He leans in and take my empty hand.
"Tris..." He begins but before he can continue I crush my lips on his wishing to start the date over again. This man deserves so much more. This man so clearly loves me and our daughter. This man who even appeared to me in my dreams during the hardest nights in the Bureau. I may not remember our life together but I know with him I am home.