Just heads up... the following Chapter or two.. will be presented with memories that will be shared from Tobias to Tris about their life back in Dauntless during initiation. There will be flashback... Tris memories that have been implanted. I hope you all enjoy the next Chapter or two not sure how many there will be :) Happy Reading! Please comment below :)
Chapter 55
Tris P.O.V
Today Tobias and I finally agreed that we are finally ready to return back to Dauntless headquarters. Something I think we both have been wanting to put off for one reason or another. Hana agreed to watch Abigail again, allowing both Tobias and I to explore Dauntless, old memories and feelings just us. Together.
I know that Tobias secretly hopes that going back to Dauntless will some how help my jog some of my memories back. Honestly, there is nothing more I would like to give to both of us... to have the memories of us, of our life. The memories that I do have are all wrong, I know that. The memory themselves have a gloss over them, telling me that they have been messed with. Nothing makes you feel more wrong, than having the wrong memories.
I stand on the ledge of the roof looking down, I've been here before. Done this before. I was the first one in my initiations class that had the guts to jump. It's at least a ten story drop into a dark hole, I know there is a net at the bottom. More importantly I know who will be there to catch me when I hit the net. I take a deep breath looking straight ahead, I close my eyes, and try to focus.
"Today initiate." An inpatient voice from behind me say. Fear spreads through my whole body. Thankfully I look back, no ones there.
I refocus, take a breath to steady myself, before taking a step forward of the ledge. The rush is the best part, feeling like you are flying in the air. I hit the net, and even though I remember last time. I still find myself giggling. I feel the net moving and being pulled. I reach out and find the same hand has last time, not hesitating to take it. Tobias helps me out of the net.
"What did you get pushed?" He says with a smile.
"No." I say back, giving him a grin.
"What's your name? Think about it, you don't get to pick again." Tobias says smirking.
"My name is Tris." I say smirking right back. Loving this part of our shared memories. If only every memory was shared. I feel him place his right hand on my lower back guiding me through the same hall way.
"Welcome to Dauntless. Follow me." He says in a teasing tone.
We walk thorough the halls of Dauntless. Reaching the over look of the Pit. I didn't think how much I missed being here. I feels comforting being back in the underground caves.
"Most of the time I work in the control room, but for the next few weeks, I am your instructor. My name is Four." Tobias says trying to keep his Four mask in place.
"Four like the number?" Saying Christina's line. Trying not to laugh.
"One thing you will learn from me, is how to keep your mouth shut." He says finally not able to keep his laughter at bay any longer. The laughter sounds so good coming from him. I can't help but join in on our inside joke.
"They opened Dauntless to the public, allowing people to tour and even try out the training areas and the fear landscape rooms." Tobias explains waving towards the tours that are taking place. I notice a metal statue in shape of the Dauntless flames sitting the middle of the Pit.
"What's that?" I ask Tobias.
"That is our memorial statue. Just like Abnegation. It has the names of all our Fallen Heroes and members that were lost during the war." He says almost a whisper as he said the last part. I notice him looking down not being able to meet my eyes.
"I'm on there, aren't I?" I ask suspiciously.
"Yes, I already filled the paperwork to have your name removed. Just hasn't happened yet. I'm sorry." I says pain on his face.
"It's ok, in a way I did die. I'm probably not the same Tris anymore either." I say expressing how I truly feel.
"You will always be my Tris." Tobias says cupping my face before leaning down to give me a gentle loving kiss, ending the kiss too quickly.
We make our way towards the cafeteria... sitting the same table, same seats. Just like that night in the middle of the table lays the same food on serving trays. I can't help but laugh. I take my fork and poke a patty of meat laying on the empty plate before me, then picking up a bun, and some fries.
"That's beef, put this on it." Tobias says, passing the ketchup.
"Stiff eats plain food. That's why I left." I say in a mocking tone. Tobias takes a bite of his burger and laughs. Enjoying another pleasant shared memory. I wipe some of the red sauce from his chin and laugh with him. Laugh tastes amazing as I remembered.
Flashback
Eric stands at the end of the table, talking to Tobias about Max offer.
"Max tells me he keeps trying to meet with you, and you don't show up." Eric says standing at the end of the table, talking to Tobias about Max offer. Each time Tobias looks away, Eric glances up to me smirking and then returning back to Tobias. Tobias never even saw the quick change in Eric. When Eric and Tobias are done talking about the job that Tobias doesn't want, Eric straightens up to walk off. I glance back at him walking out of the cafeteria noticing him turning back to smirk at me as well.
End of Flash back
I feel a hand rubbing my lower back, when I look Tobias is staring at me, concern on his face.
"You ok?" Tobias asks.
"Yea, I want some Dauntless cake. It took my attention I guess." I say, not knowing how to tell him the truth.
"Ok. But we are headed to the training room next." He says passing me a slice of cake.
"Training room?" I asks.
"Yea, I thought we can do some knife throwing or practice shooting." he proposes.
"Sounds good. So whats in the back bag?" I never asked him before what he was carrying it around for.
"Our cloths." He said with a grin.
"Cloths?" I ask.
"Yea, you didn't think we were going to work out in jeans and what not?" He smirks.
"Mmmm are you trying to be thoughtful or you just want me to strip my cloths off for you?" I ask teasingly.
"You know me... Can I say both?" He says laughing.
We make our way into the dorms to change cloths, since it's a co-head room, Tobias looks out for anyone with wondering eyes. I love that he is so over protective of me. He makes me feel so safe. I put on my gray sweats, and black tank top that he brought for me. While he changed into black sweats and a white tank top. That's when I notice, a single raven on his chest, looks similar to the ones I have on my collarbone. He sees me eyeing his tattoo, quickly pulling his tank top on.
"I got it six months after I thought you were..." He starts saying.
"I wanted something on me... to represent you. To always have you close to my heart." He says watching me for my reaction. I can't help but notice the love he caries in his eyes.
"That's... the sweetest thing anyone has ever done for me." I say letting a single tear escape my eyes. He catches the tear with his thumb, wiping it away.
"I'll do anything for you. Always!" He says leaning in giving me the sweetest, softest, passionate kiss me ever shared. When he pulls away I kiss his chest through his shirt, were the raven is. I feel Tobias arms wrap around me waist, and I hear him take in a deep breath. I feel him pulling my shirt into a fist in my back, and I think if we were alone, the things that he would do to me. I would have no complaints, either.
"We... we better go." He says, his face all flushed. Letting all but a hand go. Not trusting my voice, I nod.
The training room is full, some with you can tell are visitors, but others are original Dauntless members.
"Four? Four is that you?" I see a man coming up holding his hand out for Tobias to shake.
"Hey, Jared. Good to see you!" Tobias says in return. Both men smile at each other. Jared is almost as tall as Tobias, maybe just a few inches shorter. Jared is over the top muscular though.
"I remember you... wasn't she the initiate that you made out with in the Cafeteria the night of the rankings?" He ask looking at me. I'm not sure how to answer, knowing my memory is completely not of Tobias. I glance at Tobias with a help me look.
"Yea, um this is Tris. My girlfriend." Tobias says.
Girlfriend? I mean, I guess you could call me that. We live together, we share a baby, but the sound of it... Just all wrong. It feels like "girlfriend" isn't enough to defy us.
Jared holds his hand out to me to shake, and Tobias introduces us. Jared was in Tobias' initiation class. Jared ranked fifth, he too had fun trying to kick Eric's ass they explain. How I wish, I could go one day without hearing of that man?
When Jared finally leaves, Tobias and I head over to the punching bags. He takes the one next to me, I glance back and forth from him to my bag. His muscles flex with each punch, and kick, and jab. I notice the sweat on him and he looks so damn sexy. Needing to get back to my work out I loose myself in my own punches, wishing the bag to be Eric. I hit harder, and even kick harder. I forget where I am, forget there are people present, even forgetting Tobias is next to me. For every hit he made me, I pretend I hit him, for every kick, every time he made me do things I didn't want to do... I hit harder, loosing control. I feel Tobias hands on me, one on my back side, the other on my stomach, he pulls me out of my trance.
"Hey, Hey, are you ok?" He ask almost a whisper.
I let my hands fall to the side, now noticing my heavy breathing. My knuckles are bleeding, cracked open from hard punching.
"Yea.. I'm fine." I say still trying to catch my breath. I know he sees through me, but he doesn't push for more. He nods letting it go for now.
"Come on, why don't we go shoot?" He says.
Tobias places ear muffins over my ears, and then hands me the gun. Its already loaded. He waves to the back of the wall and just like that... I start, just like before I loose myself again. I imagine Eric is standing against the wall. Like he once had me do... or in my memory.
Flashback
Al isn't making his shot. Finally we all were hitting our targets after two days of shooting. My hand feels almost numb with the weight of the gun. I know that Four is getting antsy with Al, no matter what he does, Al doesn't seem able to hit his target.
"STOP!" I hear Eric.
"What the hell was that?" He says stepping up to Al, right in his face he continues to put him down. Eric picks up the gun and tells Al to stand in front of the target. If he flinches he will be factionless.
"Stop it." I say almost a whisper. Just I just say that. "All because he can stand in front of a target, doesn't prove anything. Other then you bulling us." I say hoping that this would end the situation. Eric can be sweet when he chooses.
"Well than go take his place." He challenges me. "Four, little help here."
"Oh no, you finish what you started. You were fine with shooting at Al, you can shoot at Tris." Four says. "Better hope he is good shoot today. He isn't known for his accuracy." Four says smiling, then I see him turn and walk away laughing.
Eric holds the gun up and shoots. First shot hits above my head, the second shot meters to my right, the third shot right next to my left, the fourth hits me... Searing pain hits my shoulder, I scream in pain. But I don't flinch fear that he might shoot again, causing my movements to get hit in a worst spot.
"Points for bravery, Stiff. Everyone else dismiss. Tris, go to the infirmary." Eric says putting the gun down.
End of Flash back
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