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With that stated... there have been a lot of special comments with in this story line and with in my inbox even some linked to the new Back to Abnegation story line. I apologize if I offend anyone with this story. But keep in mind There are trigger warnings in the Subject, first chapter, and even with in the most recent chapter 57 to acknowledge the possible trigger warnings.

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The world is cruel, unfair place... I know first hand. I will not sugar coat things to make others feel like it doesn't exist. Things don't go away because you stop talking about them, or pretend like it's not there. In fact it makes things worst. Again I know this.

**** Possible minor Trigger warning! Tobias will be thinking about what Tris told him about her experience but no real details. Happy reading please comment below

Chapter 58

Tobias P.O.V

We walk through the Pit hand in hand, we both agreed on a much needed shower and change before heading home on the train. I wanted to give Tris "The dauntless experience", that entitles not riding in my truck but jumping on the train like old times. I never really realized how much I miss the carefree feeling of jumping on and off that train, especially with Tris by my side.

I lead her down the halls slowing down as we approach my old door to my apartment. I haven't been back since we got back to the city.

Flashback

I slowly open the door, it makes that all too familiar creaking sound.

Everything looks the same, the same way I left it the morning I woke up and Tris was no longer in my arms. The emotions that hit me at once was so overwhelming. It took me by surprise the amount of anger, disappointment, hurt, sadness, and devotion hit me. I knew what she would do. I knew the moment she can see a way to escape from me she would. So eager to save anyone but herself. No matter the cost. Even if the cost was me.

When I found her laying on my bed curled up with my quilt, I knew right then and there what she was thinking. My heart broke in a thousand pieces even at the thought of her leaving me forever. I knew fighting with her was hopeless, but I had to try.

"Don't be an idiot." I told her already knowing

"An idiot?" She asked.

"You were lying. You said you wouldn't go to Erudite, and you were lying, and going to Erudite would make you an idiot. So don't." I argued with her.

"Don't try and make this simple, it's not. You know as well as I do that this is the right thing to do." She says.

"You choose this moment to act like the Abnegation?" I screamed at her. "All that time you spent insisting that you were too selfish for them, and now, when your life is on the line, you've got to be a hero? What's wrong with you?" I screamed running my hands through my hair pacing wishing that got through to her.

"What's wrong with you? People died. They walked right off the edge of a building! And I can stop it from happening again!" Her tone reached mine.

"You're too important to just... die." I told her the truth, til this day still is.

"I'm not important. Everyone will do just fine without me." She told me. She never understood the love people had for her.

"Who cares about everyone? What about me?" I wanted to be selfish. I wanted to be selfish keep her with me.

"You would be fine. Not at first. But you would move on, and do what you have to." She said. How wrong she was!

"That's a lie." I told her kissing her hard with need and want. Only break from her lips to get the final words out "Promise me. Promise me, that you won't go. For me. Do this one thing for me."

I never fully understood the power Tris had over me until that moment. The moment that I went from feeling like a man, to feeling like a child begging his mother to stay with him. She promised she wouldn't leave me. But I knew the truth, even though I tried to deny it. We spent the night kissing and holding her tightly in my arms. I was so tired, exhausted from the madness of war. When I woke early hours of the morning she was gone. She was gone, and she left me no choice with what I had to do to get her home. "If you die, I die." I told her in the halls of Erudite, when she figured out why I was there.

The pain of her not being with me is overwhelming, I can never lay down in this bed again. The quilt that still has her scent even though it has been weeks. Her torn shirt from when she was attacked by Peter, Drew, Al still in the trash bin. The cup on the nightstand still filled half way but now has murky yellow liquid.

I can't be here, it hurts to much. I grab my duffle bag from my closet filling it with some cloths from my lockers and dresser. The only thing that gets my attention before I make my way to the door are the words on my wall. "FEAR GOD ALONE" I throw the bag over my shoulder walking out of the place that I use to call my own. This place no longer belongs to me, it now belongs to the Spirits that once resided here. Locking the door behind me.

End of Flashback

"Are you ok, Tobias?" Tris ask concern on her face, as to why I haven't opened the door.

"Yea sorry just, I haven't been back in a while is all." I say taking a deep breath and opening the door. The door still has the familiar creek as it opens. I expect everything to be the same as it was the day I walked out... but I notice someone has managed to drape sheets over all the furniture. Which in all honestly wasn't a lot to begin with. Other then the sheets everything seems to be normal order. I usher Tris in, offering her something to drink. But making no promises to what is there, given the circumstances. "Water is fine." She says and I return back to her with a cup filled with water from the tap.

I took sheets off the couch and the bed. So we can sit down, if needed. I offered her the shower first, along with the bag that had some toiletries in it.

While I heard the water running, I looked around the apartment overwhelmed with being back and still processing what Tris has told me.

I knew from the tape that Eric so kindly left behind, that he had raped and abused her. My heart broke when I saw it. But today my heart broke for her, and for Abigail. I am also grateful, with Eric, things could have gone differently at anytime. Things could have escalated so much worst, I could have lost them both.

I knew from experience Eric had issues. I knew mentally he was like a ticking bomb, always waiting to go off, especially when it came to initiates. I even knew how he treated the women of Dauntless. He never cared how they felt, or how he had to manipulate them... as long as he was taken care of. I always had to keep a close eye out for the female initiates, fear of how far he would go to make sure he was fulfilled.

The day of Tris' Choosing, it gave me chills the way he were looking at her in the cafeteria. One of the reasons why I introduced some of the other initiates when he asked me to introduce him to her. Fear seeped through me at the thought of him doing that to her. Tris the girl that just came from Abnegation, the sector that not only was touching inappropriate if not married, sex was looked down upon. Sex was something that should only be done to create another life, not for ones indulgence. Looking back now, I would love nothing more then to go back in time and cut off his dick. It would have saved a lot of women heartache.

The door to the bathroom opens, and Tris walks out with a towel drying her hair. She smiles and says "showers all yours."

"Thanks" I tell her.

I close the door behind me, remove my cloths and start the shower. Once the temperature is warm I jump in, and seamless wash myself. My mind still on what Tris, sex, Eric, Abnegation and Dauntless.

While Abnegation frowns on touching, and having sex. Dauntless is totally the opposite. In Dauntless you were allowed to touch, kiss openly. Sex was a need, want, and nothing was wrong with that. Hell look at Zeke, by the time we finished our initiation he had sex with over ten women. I on the other hand, never even so much as touched a girl, or even thought about kissing one.

I remember at the time Lauren even asked me in private if I was gay, and if I was she would hook me up with some of the guys she knew that were. No one understood why I wasn't interested in dating, having sex, or anything. I thought maybe at the time it was my Abnegation showing. But when I met Tris, I knew I was really waiting for her. The right girl to come and show me how to love. How to be kind, brave, honest, selfless, and smart. Someone to show me that to care for someone you don't have to hurt them.

Not like Zeke, I always thought that sex should be shared with someone special. Someone worth spending the rest of your life with. Like Tris.

My shower ended too quickly, but I know that Tris must be anxious to get back to Abigail. I am too. When I am fully clothed and presentable I open the door to find Tris laying on the bed. On what was always her side of the bed. She has her head proped up on her arm staring at the ceiling.

"Hey, you ok?" I ask her leaning over her and rubbing her arm.

"Yea, just thinking about things."

"Like what?" I ask her, taking a seat next to her on the edge of the bed.

"Just about Abnegation, and how we got here. Trying to still fill in some of the holes." She says shrugging.

"Did anything you experienced today help at all?" I ask her.

"Well yea, I mean not I know what really happened. I also know deep down inside it's right. It's like a bubble threatening to pop, but hasn't received enough pressure to explode yet. I have a feeling when it does, it's going to release everything." She says still looking the ceiling. I nod not knowing what to say.

"We should get going." I say starting to make a attempt to stand, but she stops me placing a hand firmly on my arm.

"Wait. Please, can you lay with me. Hold me." She says shyly.

"Of course." I say claiming in the bed to lay next to her. "Always."I snake my arm under her pulling her in close to my side holding her firmly in place. She wraps her arm over my waist and pulls tightly, followed by resting her head on my chest. I love the way we fit like a puzzle, something I longed for so long. And never want to give it up.

I don't know how long we lay here in our tight embrace, when she finally shifts. She tilts her head back and offers me a smile, her eyes sparkling with happiness. My eyes catch hers shifting between my eyes and my lips inviting me into them. She leans in closer and I take that as my approval to meet he half way.

Tris' lips are soft, and tender. No one has lips like Tris. The love and care that she out behind her kiss, I feel all the emotions that she pours in seeking down the pit of my stomach. The kiss that started out soft and loving quickly deepens into urgent and want. I find my tongue having a mind of it's own, licking her bottom lip asking for permission to enter. She doesn't hesitate, her mouth opens has her tongue escapes caressing my tongue with hers. I feel the battle between both tongues trying to seek entry to each other's mouths. She starts lean back, pulling me with her hand that has made it's way behind me head. She pulls me so my body blankets hers, my waist resting between her legs. I feel the warmth coming from her core, and the idea of her arousal is making all the blood rush down to my groan.

I finally win the battle, allowing my tongue to enter her devouring her, and tasting her. I know I can get lost in her if I allow it. Her hands find their way to the hem of my shirt pulling it up my chest, and I know if we don't stop now we will need to make arrangements for Hana to stay the night with Abigail.

"Tris, love. We need to stop." I plea.

"What if I don't want to stop." She says crashing her lips harder then before back on mine.

"Tris." I moan when I feel her hips starting to move upwards to grind against me. Damn it! "Love, we need to make it back home to Abigail. Hana will start to wonder if we ok." I say and with that, it brought Tris back to reality. She lets her head fall back on the pillow and her arms fall off of me. I almost want to kick myself for being responsible, for doing the right thing. But I know we have to get home to our daughter.

"Your right. We should go." She says disappointed. I haven't moved off of her yet.

" Hey, you know I want to right. I mean... there is always tonight." I say giving her a evil smirk. I want her to know I am not rejecting her just saving her for latter. She laughs at my words and pushes me off of her. Of course, she push me the opposite of the bed and my ass lands on the floor with a big thud.

"Oh my god, Tobias. Are you ok?" She says leaning over the edge of the bed laughing.

"Yup, I'm good. That defiantly helped cool me down." I say trying to make light of things.