To my dearest
Why can't I forget? Why do I yearn for you? You are my everything. I exist because of you. You do not know my thoughts and that is how it is meant to be. Just watching you gives me satisfaction even when I am not the one that makes you smile.
To a lovely woman
I am a jealous guy but you won't ever know that. And that is how it is meant to be. For I will guide you from the distance. Help you live in happiness and never experience the fallen world.
To my happiness
I see you have found your happiness. I am happy for you. Finding someone to listen to you, share your life with and forget your past. To me, it does not matter who you share your life with. If you are safe I am happy.
To my thoughts
You recently invited me to witness your joining but I could not reply. Even when I have given you up.
Still, I can not smile and think of your happiest day as one of mine. Can not pretend I am alright. You would see through it
and I will lose you forever.
To my obsession
I wonder
Will your little one know of me.
Will he have the same smile?
The same laugh?
Everyone always liked your smiles do you know that?
...
..I still love you
...
but you won't know that.
To the only one
I have grown old and fragile. Can not protect you anymore.
I am not worried for your little one will watch over you.
Last entry
To my heart
My legs do not work anymore but it is not yet the time for me to leave. One last smile is all I wish to have the pleasure of witnessing but I know I do not deserve the privilege.
S. Snape