Marcch 10, 2015
I feel so much better than I have the last few days (Thankfully!). I hope I haven't worried anyone too much because I know how much Yuki and Kyo fret when I'm less than happy. I wish I could control my facial expressions better, but I guess I am only human (not that that's a bad thing).
Anyway, I made french toast with strawberries and chocolate syrup for breakfast today and it was a superhit! Everyone gobbled it up and I could tell from the hopeful gleam in Kyo's eyes that he wanted seconds. Shigure picked his plate up and held it out to me, a cheeky grin on his face. Kyo slapped Shigure upside his head, making Shigure's plate fall to the ground. He then said something about Shigure not having learned manners in grade school.
But honestly, I didn't see anything rude about it. It's only human nature to want more. If Shigure can't fight his nature, then who am I to blame him?
...Although I do feel a bit conflicted sometimes.
The thing about my relationship with Shigure is that, deep down, I do get a little bothered by the way that he behaves around me. I don't know what it is...I feel like I shouldn't make assumptions. Okay, I'll just say it.
I think he's flirting with me.
For example, him calling me his "flower". It's a beautiful compliment, really. Who wouldn't want to be called a flower? Something that is peaceful and innocent and eventually blooms.
Maybe I'm thinking too much.
Although everyone who knows me sees me as an airhead, I do tend to go roundabout certain topics in my head.
It's just…
And I don't want to sound crazy.
But I sense something more in his words. Like there may be a hidden meaning behind them.
Shigure's eyes. They're usually so wide and bright. A playful smile is often on his face, harmlessly teasing.
So why are there times when I feel a chill from the way that he looks at me? Almost as though he really is attracted to his "flower". What does he really mean by that anyway?
Do I want to know?
I'm probably thinking too much. Forgive me, mom. Forgive me, Shigure. I should tear this page out and burn it for thinking such awful thoughts about someone so kind, someone who gave me a home so selflessly.
Forgive me.
