Chapter 9 – Complications

"Ok, but I'm not interested in shopping right now. I know that is completely weird hearing that from me…." Alice smiled, "Actually, I've heard this from you so many times." I rolled my eyes, "Fine. Just want to hunt." Alice sighed, "Fine. See you later." I wanted to be on my own for a while. Though I was remembering more and more about my life, I was still hesitant to have a relationship with Edward. But on the other hand, I wanted to be with him. Edward had his own boundaries as well. I overheard him saying to Carlisle and Eleazar that he felt that he wasn't good enough to be with me, after what he had done when I was human. The both of us still had our reservations on being with each other. Personally, I was willing to put the past behind me, but Edward was not. He blamed himself for what happened to me. "If I hadn't left her, this wouldn't have happened. She would be human." I scoffed quietly; I rather enjoyed my life as a vampire. Alice and Esme explained that Edward never wanted me to be a vampire. He thought that it would be endangering my soul. Even now, I couldn't disagree with him more. Everything in life is a choice. I, or none of us, may not have chosen this life, but look what we had decided to do with it. Carlisle has worked for centuries working as a doctor and saving people's lives.

I look at my family and the rest of the Cullens. They may have killed people in the past, but they have repented and followed Carlisle's way of life. Everything is a choice; and I firmly believed that none of my family or the Cullens was soulless beings. I have never killed a human, and as far as she remembers, neither has Alice. I truly enjoyed being with Alice. Like me, she did not remember anything from her human life. She told me, in a way, she had to thank me for helping her find out who she was. When I was being cornered by the tracker, he admitted that he knew Alice when she was a human. He hunted her, but she was changed into a vampire. While the Cullens were away, Alice made it her personal project to learn about her own history. Mary Alice Brandon; that was her name. She continued to do research and find time to help me unlock my own memories. She sat with my while I spoke to my mother. My mother was so emotional over the phone. She said that she would fly to Forks to see me over the weekend. "I cannot wait to see you. Before going to Charlie's, I had no idea what you looked like. It's funny; to know what you look like, all I had to do was look in the mirror." My mom laughter cut off into a sob, "Where have you been, Bella?"

I closed my eyes, "I never knew. I told you, Irina found me and she tried to help me find out who I was. There wasn't much to go on. All I had was a torn hospital identification with my first name on it. After trying so many times and coming up empty, I told Irina I wanted to stop. Irina pushed the matter but it was becoming too painful for me. Being stopped after every turn," my breath hitched in my throat, "I didn't let my sisters know how much it was hurting me." "I'll leave you alone," Alice whispered. She left me alone in my room. "Bella, please, move back home with Charlie. We're your family." I went to stand my by window, "Mom, please try to understand. Yes, that fact is more true than ever, but…. Irina, Tanya, Carmen, Kate and Eleazar are my family too. Besides, I'm in my twenties. I'd be on my own anyway." My mother sighed, "Then how about moving closer." I looked out the window. Irina and Rosalie were talking. "Mom, that I will have to think about. Umm, I'll see you this weekend, ok?" My mother sniffled, "All right, honey. Bye." I threw the phone across the room and it smashed into the wall. I opened my window and leapt out to the front of the house. Irina looked at me and Rosalie rolled her eyes. "Is, what's the matter?" "I just spoke to my mom. She practically begged me to move back to Forks." "Well, why don't you?" I sighed, "Because, one, I'm a vampire. Two, my dad will notice a few changes, like me not eating. And three, a pack of huge, mutant dogs like right down the road. Honestly, I don't know how the Cullens did it."

Rosalie folded her arms, "We have a treaty with them." I looked at her, "A treaty?" Rosalie nodded, "We crossed paths with the wolves before, about 70 years ago. Carlisle convinced them we weren't dangerous to humans, because we drank animal blood. So, we laid a boundary line, that we do not cross and they do not attack us on our side. If either of those terms is broken, the war begins." I nodded, "Good to know. But like I told you, one of them was there when I went to see my dad." She smirked, "Yeah, Edward told us about that when he was dating you. Ephraim Black was the leader of the pack when we made the treaty and his grandson; Billy Black is Charlie's best friend. And his son, Jacob Black was your friend. And, according to Edward's extra ability, he had a crush on you." My eyes widened, "I don't think that's true anymore." Irina laughed, "I think you should talk to the wolf though." Rosalie and I looked at Irina, then at each other. I held up one hand, "Allow me?" I looked at Irina, "What the hell….?"

Irina let out an exasperated sigh, "As in, you want to know what happened when he found you in the truck on the day of your accident?" I nodded, "I hate it when she has a point." Irina scowled at me, "If you don't want to, you don't have to." Rosalie sighed, "Emmett is waiting for me." Rosalie dashed off and I stared after her. "Rina, what was with Rosalie?" Irina looked off in the direction Rosalie left in, "She's just annoyed. She thinks you're stringing along Edward." I scoffed, "He and I agreed to take things slow. He still feel awful for leaving in the first place and I don't want to jump into a relationship with him because of a past we had, that I don't even remember." "I know that, but between you and me, Rosalie's always been a little selfish. When the Cullens first came here are leaving Forks, Rosalie was complaining that she was upset that the family had to suddenly leave home because of you and Edward. She told Carmen and Tanya she thought it was reckless of him to have a relationship with you, exposing the family like that." I sighed and made a face, "Really?" I turned to go speaking with Rosalie, but Irina grabbed my arm, "Is, don't. I know your temper. Calm down, before making matters worse." I closed my eyes and nodded, "You're right." But this wasn't over.

Carmen went with me again to Forks to meet me mom and step-dad. My mom was an emotional mess. I smiled to myself; I slightly remembered her like that. She brought old movies of me when I was a child and Carmen ate them up. I shook my head, "If you tell anyone about this, I'll kill you." She looked at me between giggles, "I'll try." I watched the video of my tenth birthday party in California. I was awkward, clumsy and happy. While we watched the videos and spoke, there a visitor. Charlie answered the door and I caught the foul scent again; it was Jacob. "Hi, Charlie. I was hoping to speak to Bella." Carmen and I looked at each other out of the corner of our eyes. "Sure, Jake, let me get her." "Do you want me to come with you?" Carmen asked quietly and quickly. "No, but stay close." Quickly, she pulled out her cell phone and called mine, "Keep the line open so I can hear, in case, you need me." I nodded as my dad patted my shoulder, "Bells, Jake wants to talk to you." I smiled, "I'll be right there."

Carmen and I shared a glance as I got up. Jacob stood in the doorway and I stared back at him. Jacob turned silently and walked outside. "Mutt," I muttered myself. I wrinkled my nose as I went outside. This was a better idea; the open air was helping. "Is there something you want?" Jacob looked back at me, "Are you moving back here?" I scowled, "No. My parents want me too, but it's too dangerous for them." My vision just improved, as my contacts dissolved. Jacob looked at me, "Huh, you're one of those?" I raised an eyebrow, "One of what?" He pointed at me, "You have gold eyes. You don't feed on humans." I shook my head, "No. When my sister found me, she gave me the option, but since she was willing to help me, I decided to follow her lifestyle. I've never tasted human blood." Jacob scrutinized me with his eyes, "Fine." I sighed, "Jacob, there is something I want to say to you." From behind him, I heard several large heartbeats. I prepared to defend myself. "It's alright. It's just the rest of the pack." I scoffed, "Right. All of them just want to see a vampire." Jacob shook his head, "Just say what you have to say." I looked around myself; I was surrounded by four other wolves. "I just wanted to thank you for saving me that day. I wanted to thank your friend, Paul as well."

A large gray wolf stepped forward. I snarled, "Watch it. I'll take you all on." Jacob chuckled, "That's Paul." The large wolf rolled his eyes, turned and ran into the trees and a moment later, a tall russet man came towards me. He stood with Jacob and stared at me, "I can't believe this happened. When we found you, we smelled the vampire." My eyes widened, "A vampire caused my accident?" Jacob nodded, "A vampire was hunting you for revenge." I gasped, "What?" Jacob told me about the female who wanted to kill me. "Victoria?" Jacob and Paul shared a glance, "You remember?" I shook my head, "No, the Cullens told me about her." Jacob snorted, "The Cullens? They're the reason the psycho was after you." My eyes widened, "What?" I looked up at him with livid eyes, "As I said, thank you Jacob and Paul. And to all of you for trying to protect me."

Soon, Carmen and I headed back for home, after an emotional goodbye with my mother. She said anytime I wanted her, she would come out here. On the way home, Carmen kept the windows open because of the foul scent on my clothes. While she drove, I changed into another outfit that she picked up in Canada. "I'm sorry, honey, but that scent was making my gag." I shrugged, "I don't blame you." As we sped down the highway, I let my hair blow out of the window, hoping to blow more of the scent away. Soon we were home and I was anxious to see Edward. I was getting to the point that I was almost over his leaving me alone in Forks. He was trying to do the right thing. Outside the house, I heard hushed tones from inside. Carmen and I were heading inside, as Eleazar came outside. He kissed Carmen and hugged me, "I'm just going hunting." Carmen kissed him again, "I'll see you soon."

Inside, I saw Rosalie. Her eyes widened as she saw me. I read the distress on her face. As I was about to ask her what was the matter, Carmen and I stepped into the living room. Before completely stepping into the room, someone grabbed my wrist and my lips were locked against someone else's. I blinked wildly, as I tried to push away from the hard vast chest I was pressed into. The massive arms held my body securely; I was not strong enough to escape. Soon, my lips were released and I saw my attacker. My eyes widened, "Felix!"