Chapter 23 – Here's a Clue
After Helena left, Felix moved his hand from around my back to the front of my blouse. While Helena and I spoke, I could feel him pressing into me. I tried not to break rank; from speaking to her calm. Felix pressed himself into my back. Helena left, stating that she wanted to see the rest of the tower. The door closed and I leaned against him and looked up. From this perspective, Felix was upside down when he kissed me. He moved so quickly, that the couch wasn't jostled as he laid on me.
He kissed me again and again, while his hands were busy taking away my clothes. When he released my lips, the tip of his tongue trailed down my neck to the peaks of my chest. He brushed his thumb over my chest and my eyes closed from the sensual touch. My fingers clutched at his arm as he pressed a kiss there. Felix moaned with desire as he made our bodies one.
In these past months, I have felt the difference between Edward and Felix. Edward and I fit, but Felix and I matched. When we were together, we matched. The two of us snapped together as though we belonged there. When he moved back and forth against me, he rarely allowed our chests to be apart from each other. I was filled with desire and yearning for him.
His arms always held me close, when they weren't along my arms, with our fingers intertwining. This time, his chest was away from mine, only to allow himself in move faster against me. A cry wanted to burst out of me, but I held back. That was the trouble with living in this tower. I couldn't show him how much he pleased me.
Felix held my waist as he moved back and forth inside of me. When he did this, he touched on a point that no one has ever reached. Every time he reached that point, my body felt like it should explode. My toes curled, my eyes shut and my fingers clutched against anything they were holding. Felix filled me with his love, desire, lust and want. His chest came down on mine and looked into my eyes for a long moment, slowing his movement.
My first year as a vampire was about to pass and I was getting weaker than him. My human blood was fading into my muscles. The human blood I comsumed helped my strength last, but I could still feel it fading away. Felix was stronger than me, which I liked. Using my dwindling strength, I turned our bodies, so that I was on him.
I placed his hands on my back, so one would overlap the other and I leaned in to hold his lips to mine. With that, I moved against him, faster and deeper. When I did this, his eyes widened, then pinched shut. His teeth gritted together, holding back his own moans of exultation. His fingers dug into me, but not painfully. He wanted me. My body moved against his. The movement slowed as I leaned away from him. His hand pulled me back against his stone chest quickly. When we were this way, I was showing him what he did for me. I wanted Felix to know I wanted him and only him. I've done this with Edward, but it was different. There was pleasure, of course, but it always felt like something was missing.
Felix's massive arms held me down against his chest and kept me there. He whispered in my ear, telling me to continue and I did as he asked. Felix bared his teeth and they sank into my shoulder. It was an involuntary reaction of being a vampire. When you experience such an explosion of emotion, biting is our natural reaction. He pulled at the blood in my body from my recent kill. I groaned in pleasurable pain. His fingers pulled at my hair, making my head lean backwards. His kisses trailed my neck, pulling my head back up. I didn't have to say it out loud because he knew. I loved him more than anything.
In this moment, Edward Cullen didn't exist. I was born to make Felix happy and that is what I'm going to do with my eternity. I would die for him. And I knew he would do the same. My so called addiction for Edward was gone. I was only addicted to the man that held me. I didn't even have to think to say it, "I love you." His cheek pressed to the top of my head and his arms held, "I love you... so much." My head wasn't a jumbled mess anymore. Today, I would spend some time alone to think.
The water was warm and clear. The pool was perfect and quiet, the idle place to think and relax. The water lapped quietly as I floated along the surface. Everything was peaceful, until Chelsea, Bree, Heidi and Renata showed up. Alice, Esme and Rosalie came an hour later. "I haven't played this in months," Bree stated as she jumped up to hit the ball. Alice, Rosalie, Esme and I showed the others how to play volleyball and they enjoyed it.
Renata spike the ball so hard, it smashed into one of the walls. She grimaced, "Sorry," apologizing in her accented English, "I can be competitive." The game continued for hours, all of us screaming and jumping in the water. The game was a great distraction. All of us, except Bree wore scanty bikinis. Santiago paused in the doorway, watching several women jumping in the water. He swore silently in Italian as he left.
All of us laughed as we went back to our quarters. Afton took Chelsea's hand as she stood in her doorway. I was in my bedroom, toweling off my legs when the door slammed open. Felix stormed into the room, "What's going…?" His hand slammed me into wall, "You think you can fool me!" My hand held clutched at his, "Felix, you're hurting me!" His teeth were gritted, "You need to leave. I don't want you anymore!" My eyes widened, "What? Felix, what are you saying?" How did he find out? Did Edward say anything? Did Aro see it in one of the Cullens' minds and told Felix? The anger in his eyes terrified me worse than anything I ever encountered. Worse than James stalking me. me or Edward leaving me.
Recognition came to him and his eyes scrutinized my face, "Where did we get married?" I looked at him. The way he looked at me was the same way he looked at his prey, "What? You know….?" His grip tightened and his teeth bared at me, "Where?" "India! India, we got married in India!" Felix's eyes softened and his hold released me, "Bella." More people came into the room and pulled Felix away. Emmett and Demetri were holding his shoulders as Jasper and Edward stood between us. Jasper extened his arms, ready to fight Felix and keep him away from me.
Alec stood in the center of the room, looking back and forth. I coughed, feeling the damage to my throat. It began to heal itself. "Felix, what is going on here?" My lips trembled as Edward helped me up. M arms shook with fear. Felix said he didn't want me anymore. That was the worse thing anyone had ever said to me. I bit down on my lip. Felix looked at me, his face etched with remorse.
Someone laughed from the doorway, making everyone to turn their heads. Helena was smirking, "Is it really that easy pretending to be you?" She stood in the doorway, wearing the exact same bikini as I was. She sighed, "Felix was pretty easy to convince when he saw me half naked. I guess some things never change." I knew she was only pretending to be nice. Emmett, Alec and Demetri held Felix back as he tried to move towards the doorway, "Get out! I don't want you here." She rolled her eyes dramatically, the smug smile never leaving her face, "Felix, you know you still want me."
My eyes narrowed and Jasper's hand held my shoulder, "No, I want you!" Edward and Jasper held me from charging Helena. "Bella, no!" Edward held my waist, struggling to keep me in his grip. Helena was being pushed back by Alec. "Edward, this woman needs to leave!" Helena snarled, "This little girl needs to be put in her place." My eyes widened, "My place is with Felix and yours is to be in pieces scattered across the floor!" A calming cloud came over the room. I looked at Jasper and he looked at me, "You need to calm down. All of you!"
I held my hands up, "Fine. But I want her out of my room!" Jasper nodded, "Of course." He turned, "Helena, let's go." She sighed and turned, leaving the room. Edward still had his arm around my waist as she left. He looked back at me, "Are you all right?" I nodded, "Yeah, I'm fine now." Felix came over to me and Edward's arm release me and he stepped away. I looked up at him, still shaken up from his grip. Felix was never that angry with me. He reached to touch my face, but I stepped back. "Bella, I'm so sorry." I looked around the room, "Could everyone excuse us?" There were too many eyes in the room.
Everyone left, leaving me with Felix. When the door closed, he held my face, "I can't believe I fell for that." Two of his fingers brushed my lips, "I can't believe I couldn't tell these eyes from hers." My arms went around his neck, "It's fine." He shook his head, holding my face to press his lips to mine, making his hair tickle my nose, "It's not. I should have known it was you. How can I say I love you and can't know the difference between you and her? Look what I did to you." His fingers brushed my neck down to my shoulder. It was difficult for anyone to tell the difference between me and Helena. I took his hand and kissed his palm, "You didn't hurt me. I was just frightened. I've never seen you so angry, at least not with me."
His other hand covered his eyes, "It's no excuse. She does need to leave." I went to sit on the bed, thinking about what happened. What scared me the most was when he said he didn't want me anymore. My fingers splayed over my mouth hearing what he said and over in my head. I couldn't bear it if Felix really meant those words for me. He stood in front of me to kiss my hair, "If you're still mad, I understand." My head shook, "I'm not."
It felt like my world was consumed into a balckhole when I thought Felix found out about my affair. That fear showed me how very wrong I was for giving into my urges. Damn me and my selfishness.
After changing my clothes, Felix tried to apologize more, but I wouldn't let him. He felt terrible and I wanted to do something to make him feel better, anything. I had an idea, but there was something I had to do first. "I'll be back later." He held my back, "Bella…." I kissed him again, "I love you. Just stay away from Helena." He half smiled as I turned away from him. There was one thing I needed to do before I went out.
Without knocking, I charged into Helena's room. She came out of her bedroom to see who it was. "What do you want?" She was mad that I was here. My eyes narrowed, "Who the hell do you think you are? Pretending to be me to get Felix? Do you realize how sad and pathetic that is?" She smirked, "Well, the little girl can play. But you have to remember, it worked. I will have him back."
My arms folded, "No, you won't. He loves me and he will stay with me." Helena looked at me scathingly, "What about Edward? I know you two are close, very close." Her lips curled, "Does Felix know how close you are? I mean he started kissing me like I was his lover." She looked into my eyes, not blinking. She was trying to intimidate me and I wasn't going to let her. I snorted at her question.
She smiled, "Maybe I should tell Felix." I couldn't let her intimidate me. "When he thought I was you, he kissed me with so much passion, so much love. It was amazing." There was no way she could know about my relationship with Edward. I snorted, "Then maybe you should have tried the half-naked trick with him. Then you might have gotten somewhere." It was wrong to talk about Edward like that, but I was too angry to worry abotu that. Helena turned, swiping her hair against me to pick up a crystal glass with blood.
She drank the contents, "Look, Bella, I'm not so bad. I know what I want and that's to be with Felix. I had to live all these years thinking he was dead." She turned back, "And now I find him alive and well. You have no idea what that's like. You may look like me, but you're not me." Moving quickly, my hand took the replenished glass out of her hand, "You're right, I'm not you. I'm Felix's wife. You will not come between us. I may have to accept you in his life, but that doesn't mean I have to like it." I drank off the rest of the blood from the glass and placed it down.
She blinked once and I sighed, "I'm going to tell you the same thing Felix told Edward. You may have your own personal feelings about us, but you're going to respect that fact that we're married." Her eyes narrowed and she steped closer to me, "For as long as it lasts. Felix will be with me." I scoffed, "You really think he's going to leave me? Let me give you a clue, wait for him to say it."
She stepped even closer to me. Our faces were inches from each other, "Oh, he will." My eyes narrowed to slits, "Honey, it's time to wake up. Felix is mine!" Before I did anything to this woman, like tearing all of her hair out, I left. Helena was not taking Felix from me. The sound of glass shattering echoed behind me as I left.
