Hey guys!

I know it's been forever and I'm terribly sorry, but I hope this chapter makes up for that. I'm not a doctor so some of the stuff in here could be wrong but hey it's called fiction for a reason right? Lol

Well hope you enjoy it!

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A lesbian? Was this some kind of joke, was she purposely trying to hurt her? Selena couldn't believe what she had just heard. Demi was a …. Lesbian? She heard the words, she saw the serious look Demi had when she had said it but for the pop princess, it wasn't sticking, it wasn't, it couldn't be true.

"Selena I…"

"Um I uh I need to make a phone call." Selena quickly stuttered, before Demi even had a chance to finish what she was saying.

"Selena maybe you should calm down," Just tried to comfort as he took a slow step towards the raven hair beauty causiously, knowing exactly how she can get when she becomes overwhelmed and her anxiety kicks in. "Lets take a walk or.."

"I don't want to take a damn walk! I want to make a phone call, I need him."

A sigh of relief escaped from Justin once he realized she wasn't going to have one of her episodes, that she was actually sticking to her promise and trying. "Okay Selly, how about Nick takes you to get a cup of Coffee and I'll call him for you, okay?"

Selena could feel the all to familiar twist and pull of her stomach and the falling of her heart as her breathing become difficult, she quickly shook her head as tears started to slowly fall down her face. "N-no I, I need him, I need to hear his v-voice, please. It hurts, it hurts so bad!" she sobbed as she fell to the ground.

Justin was quick to pull out his phone, quickly dialing the all to familiar number as he rushed to the broken girl's side.

"Justin? Is everything okay?"

"Harry!" Justin practically screamed once he heard the boy's voice on the other side of the phone. "Selena, she needs you. She's having another episode, can you please try to calm her down."

"Put her on the phone."

"Selly," Justin whispered softly as he reached to give her the phone, "Harry wants to talk to you."

Selena quickly snatched the phone out of his hand and sobbed into the phone, "Harry, it hurts, I can't do it, I know I promised but I can't, I need to."

"Shh, its okay love, I'm on my way, I'll be there before y'all leave tonight for you next stop, I promise, just hold on until I get there, can you do that for me?"

"I don't think I can, it hurts."

"I know it does love, just take your medicine and it'll go away and I'll be there before you know it."

"Okay."

"That's my girl, let me talk to Justin." Selena silently handed the phone back to Justin before bringing wrapping her arms around her knees and slowly rocked herself back and forth.

"Hey, she's still freaking out Haz."

"I know, just give her, her medicine, I'm heading to my private jet now, I'll be there before y'all leave tonight, just please take care of her until I get there."

"You know I will."

And with that both boys hung up the phone. Justin was quick to do as he was told and rushed to grab Selena's pills out of his bag and a cup of water before returning back to her side. "Okay Sel, I know it hurt but I just need you take this and it'll go away and harry will be here before you know it, can you do that for me?"

Selena held out her hand and took the small pill out of Justin's hand before swallowing it down with the glass of water.

"See all better." Justin quietly spoke as Selena rested her head on his shoulder, already feeling the effect of the medicine. Justin looked up to see Demi and Nick looking at him with questioning eyes and sighed, "It's going to take a good ten minutes or so for the medicine to fully kick in and her to pass out, can y'all head to the Star-Bucks around the corning and get me a Vanilla Cappuccino and I'll explain when y'all get back?"

"Um yea, sure."

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"Hey you okay?" Nick questioned as they stood in the long line at Star Bucks. Demi hadn't spoken a word since they left the tour bus, she was wrapped up in her thoughts and what she had just witness with Selena.

"I, I just…" Tears started to slowly fall down the young rocker's cheeks, as she buried her face into the young jonas's chest.

"Hey, it's okay. Talk to me Demz."

"I can't help but to blame myself for what's happening to her, all the pain and hurt, I've caused her. I could have prevented this, I could have kept her from ever having to deal with whatever demons she's having to deal with, if I would have staid, if I had just been honest with her. But I didn't I was a coward, and such a fuck up, selfish bitch that I hurt the one I claim to love, how is that love if I do nothing but hurt her?"

"Hey you listen to me, what's happening with her is not all your fault, what happened between y'all two years ago might have caused some of this, but it's not all your fault. And what you did back then wasn't your fault either, you hear me? You were struggling with your own demons and with the record label, it was out of your hands. This, Selena and her struggle, it's out of your hands, all you can do is be honest with her and tell her everything, and just be there for her Demi. She's going to have to learn how to get through this and fight her demons, on her own just like you did. So don't blame yourself, okay?"

"Okay."

"Good, now lets get these coffees, so we can find out what Justin has to tell us."

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"Thanks." Justin quietly whispered as he took a sip of his coffee.

"Where's Sel?" Nick questioned once he notice that the broken pop star was nowhere in sight.

"I put her down in her bunk, figured it be better so I could talk to y'all." The young boy sighed, "I'm guessing y'all have a lot of questions, some questions I will not be able to answer just so you know, not because she made me promised or anything but because there is quite a lot of deep, dark secrets that I still don't know."

"We understand."

Justin shook his head slightly as he looked out the window trying to contemplate on rather or not if he should be telling them anything at all, but he knew it was the right thing to do. Part of him hoped that by letting Demi know what he knew, it would some how helped Selena. It didn't make since but he still hoped. "I'm not quite sure where to start."

Nick shook his head in agreement, he knew exactly how Justin could be feeling, he went through similar issues when it was demi fighting her demons and wouldn't let anyone help her, but she got help and is doing better. "How about you start with telling us what exactly is Sel's condition and why she has to take medicine?"

"She's depressed, mix that with an anxiety and a drinking problem and well you get meltdowns."

"Drinking problem, anxiety?" Demi questioned worried.

Justin nodded his head before slowly turning and looking at the pair, "Selena develop depression after y'all had y'all's falling out but the anxiety and drinking came from Taylor."

"Taylor?"

"Lautner."

"Wait, what? You mean her boyfriend she was currently dating when had our falling out?" Demi questioned confused.

"Yea. You see, the day of y'all's falling out, Selena had went to Taylor's house earlier that morning to break it off with him. He didn't take it well and demanded to know why, so when she finally told him about her feelings for you, he basically told her she was a worthless piece of shit that no one loves and then threaten to not only tell you and the record label but the media as well about her secret, unless…" Just trailed off not wanting to finish the sentence, it was just to painful for him to even speak or think of.

"Unless what?!" Demi quickly questioned.

"Unless," Just let out a deep sigh before continuing, pain written all over his face as he spoke, "unless she would have sex with him."

A gasp could be heard escaping Demi, as Nick let out a small growl.

"She refused at first and tried to leave right away but then he said something he knew would make her accept his deal." They watched as Justin squeezed his eyes shut before continuing to speak, "He told her if she left without having sex with him, he would not only tell her secret but he would rape and beat you saying it was your fault she was keeping him from getting what he wanted. He knew Selena would do anything to protect her so he used it to his benefit and in the end he got what he wanted."

At this point silent tears were rolling down Demi's face as she clutched to a furious Nick for support as Justin continued.

"And then later that day when what happened with you, Selena just shut down, she became depressed but then Taylor showed up at her house two weeks later demanding the same thing and when she refused he had beat her and basically raped her. Miley came home later that night to find Selena on conscious and not responding, but not do to the beating, she had tried to commit suicide by overdosing on so pain killers Miley had from when she broke her leg."

At this point all three were sobbing.

"She was diagnosed with depression and anxiety, while she was in the hospital. For a while she was terrified of men, she still is but not nearly as bad as she once was. Besides Brian, me, and well Harry, no guy can really touch her without her freaking out. But anyways, I met her maybe a month or two after she had gotten out of the hospital and I tell you what gaining her trust was hard work but worth it, Miley told me about her drinking problem right away, we teamed to try and help her through it but its like nothing we did would help, she would just keep drinking no matter what we say, that's until Harry came along." Just let a small smile grace his lips before continuing.

"At first, when I found out about Harry and hers friendship becoming more than that, I was skeptical about it because well Harry is kind of known as a player and what not, and I just didn't want her to get hurt but he proved me wrong. 8 months ago Harry rushed Selena to the hospital, she had just fainted out of nowhere one day when they were hanging out. Do you remember seeing that on the news about her being in the hospital for a few weeks and how they said a secret guy was with her all the time?"

"Yea?"

"Well obviously the guy was Harry, but he wasn't staying there to be with her well in a way he was but that's not the main reason. You see when he brought her into the hospital, they found that do to the drinking one of her kidney's had gave out, it wasn't working and the other was really weak, she needed a healthy kidney or well you know… So Harry went and got checked out and ended up being able to donate one of his kidney's to her. We thought once the surgery was over and she was recovered that would be it, but a few days before she left the hospital some test results came back, she had… has, lupas."

"Isn't that…"

"Yes." Justin quietly said, "People refer to it as skin cancer, I use to be one of those people, but then the doctor explain to us it is not cancer but a chronic, autoimmune disease that damages the skin, joints and possible the organs at worse cases. She has a mild level for of Lupus, so it's not life threatening and she takes her medicine for it, which happens to be the medicine I gave her earlier, she tries to refuses it because in her head she'd rather feel the pain, that she deserves it. If it wasn't for Harry, she probably wouldn't be six months sober and she would most likely not take her medication ever."

"So earlier was just a result of her Lupus acting up or something?" Nick questioned.

"No and yes. When Selena gets upset she tends to freak out mentally which causes her anxiety to kick in and her to stress out and when that happens, it can cause the Lupus to act up."

"It's all my fault." Demi whispered quietly so no one could hear her.

A loud bang was heard throughout the tour bus as the door was slammed open and a panicky Harry Styles walked in, stopping dead in his tracks as his eyes connected with none other than that of Demi Lovato. At that moment the panic washed away and was replaced with anger because now he knew exactly what caused Selena her 'melt down.'

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