Chapter 12 – Admitting
Renesmee and I rode our motorcycles to school and heard all the students gasp. "She is such a cool aunt," I heard Nicole Douglas tell her friends. Renesmee could not stop smiling, she was so happy to have her own mode of transportation. As I got off my bike, I saw Alice glowering at me. I couldn't help but smile, she was still protective of me, even though it wasn't necessary. Edward was leaning against the back of his car, with his arms folded. He was looking at the ground, not looking at me for once. As I got my bag from the back of the bike, I heard several students shouting and I picked up Emmett's voice, "Edward, let him go. It's not worth it." I sprinted through the crowd to find Edward clutching at Dante Smith's collar, "You do not talk about her like that!"
I flew through the crowd and separated them, "ENOUGH!" I practically roared. I looked between them and they were glaring at each other. I looked at Edward and he looked like he was ready to rip off the boy's head. "My office!" Edward closed his eyes and walked ahead of me. Dante tried to shrug out of my hold, but he was unsuccessful. As they entered my office, the both of them sat in the seats in front of my desk. I stood by the window, sighed, "What happened? And do not lie to me." Both of them were silent. "Ok, make this more difficult." I sat behind my desk, pulling out papers. Each minute you take up puts on each day to your suspension. Each ten and that's expulsion. Dante sighed, "I must have said something to set him off." Edward glared, "You were speaking disrespectfully about her." I looked between them, "Who?" Dante was glowering at Edward, "Mr. Smith, who were you talking about?"
He looked to the floor. "That's one day," I threatened. He was still silent, "Two." I looked to Edward, "Mr. Cullen, who was he talking about?" Edward looked into my eyes, "You." I huffed, "Me? What did he say?" Dante sighed, "I said…." He hesitated, "I was said you looked damn hot on your motorcycle." I rested my head in my hand, "Is that all?" I knew Edward wouldn't have acted the way he did for just that, unless he heard something Dante didn't say out loud. Dante bit his lip, "I may have said, ummm," he blushed, "I wished you would have… um." I held up my hand, "Forget it, I don't want to know." I looked between them, "Now, who started the fight?" "He did," Dante stated. "I was walking looking at your bike and he grabbed my jacket. He started threatening me." I glanced at Edward, whose arms were folded, "How did he threaten you?" Dante sighed, "I tried to get him off me and he said if I ever spoke about you like that again, he said he would kill me."
I sighed, "Dante, go to your class and I will talk to you later. And we will discuss your little remarks. But, Mr. Cullen, I want to talk to you now. Dante, go." He half-ran out of the room. I got up and closed the door, "What the hell were you thinking?" He didn't move, "Hello? I mean are you crazy. Threatening a child. Edward, I've told you this before, people are going to talk about me and you cannot over-react like that. It's risky for you and your family." He still didn't speak. "Do you have anything to say?" I looked at him, but he was staring straight ahead. I sighed, sat on my desk, looking away from him, "Edward, you cannot act like this. Being a teacher, I should report your threat to the principal, but since you are new, I'm giving you some leniency. But this can't happen again." When I turned back to him, he was standing right in front of me.
He stared into my eyes. "Edward, you must apolo…" Edward moved swiftly, even too fast for my eyes. He held my face and pressed his lips, forcibly to mine. I could have pushed him off so easily, but I couldn't. He held me close to him, wrapping his arms around me. I fought the impulses that flew threw me, but I couldn't for long. With trembling hands, I held his shoulders. He lowered my back onto the desk and half his body on top of mine. Time was meaningless as he kissed me. I could have stayed this way for the rest of eternity, enveloped in this stolen moment. His breath blew into my mouth as he parted my lips and it was still just as sweet. His hand tangled in my hair, holding my head to his. I told you. I wasn't going to leave you again, my hallucination told me and I believed it. In this small moment, it seemed like he loved me.
As he kissed me, he pinned my hands over my head and a memory flashed to the forefront of my mind. Another man holding me down, kissing me, but I didn't want it. My eyes flashed open and saw dark hair and the pale skin. I tensed and pushed him off. He landed on his feet, staring at me, "I'm sorry." I was gasping for air, "What was that? Are you truly insane?" "I'm sorry, but I've been waiting to do that…" "For a week?!" I interjected. He stared at me, "No, for more than a century." I gasped, "But, I'm your teacher." He shook his head, "No, you're my Bella." I closed my eyes and gritted my teeth, "Stop being your Bella the day you left." He reached out to me, but I cringed back, my back against the wall, "Don't touch me." "Bella, please," he pleaded, "Can I just tell you what I have to say?" I couldn't look at him. I wrapped my arms around myself and nodded. "Bella, on the day I left, I was lying to you. I could never not want you. You have changed me so completely. I love you. I love you more now than then. Please Bella, please say you forgive me. I will leave you alone, but I need to know that you are not mad at me."
I stared at the floor, "Just go. Go to class." "Bella…." "GO!!" I snapped. I heard him dash out of my office. I was shaking and slid down to the floor. Even as a vampire, I was having hysterics. That wasn't Stephan. He's long gone. That was Edward and you love him. Bella, please, you must calm down. Go for a run, the hallucination recommended. I nodded and got to my feet. I inhaled the open air and that helped. I walked over to my motorcycle, I left my shoes in the side compartment and walked into the trees. I began running through the woods. Running was always a comfort. It helped me think. This is what I needed.
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I went to my first class. I forged Bella's handwriting and wrote a notice for my tardiness. I slunk into my seat, completely hurt. What's the matter? Rosalie asked. I shook my head and tried to focus on the lesson. The look on her face was burned into the insides of my eyelids. When I held her and kissed her, she responded to me. I thought she was happy. I have waited so long to hold her again, I couldn't fight it. With her so close and angry with me, she enticed me so much. The way her body felt against mine was more than everything I ever imagined. She was soft, but sturdier. Her lips moved with mine as they did before. I was completely euphoric when I was with her. All my passion for her, all my desire was spilling out in that office. If it was liquid, the entire world would have flooded, that was how much I needed, loved and wanted Bella. I wonder where she is, she's never missed class before, I heard some students discussing. They were wondering where Bella was. Renesmee was walking through the hall and heard them. That's odd, that's the second class she missed. I wonder what's wrong. Renesmee smiled at me as she walked by. If Bella wasn't in the school, where was she? I went through my other two classes and was happy when my fourth hour class was up next, I could see her.
I was the first one there, as the others filed in. Renesmee was talking with Alice, "Did you see her? Where is she?" Renesmee was truly concerned about her mother, very protective. "She's on her way back. She went running." Renesmee's eyes widened, "Really?" "Yea, she went as far as Canada, then she doubled back. She'll be here in two minutes." Renesmee huffed, "Something's really wrong," she whispered. By the way, Edward. I saw you this morning. This isn't going to be easy. "Alice, some things really wrong." Alice shook her head, "No." Renesmee exhaled, "Trust me. I could tell when I heard she missed class. I can read her like a book. First, she missed class. She loves to teach. Second, she went running. She only runs when she needs to think. Now, you tell me she left the country, some things really bothering her." What happened? She was fine, until she had to break up Edward's fig…, Renesmee cut off her thought and looked at me, What did you do? she asked, glowering at me. I looked back at her, then to the front door, Bella was coming.
