Chapter 15 – Finished

I wanted ran through the woods and just die. How could I hurt her? She was the most important person in my life. I was in Alice's room, gazing out of the glass wall. The moon was high and it lit up the entire river. It was so ironic. The last time I was in this room, I felt completely alone, even though I had Renesmee growing inside of me. But now, I've hurt Renesmee and I didn't know if she was going to forgive me. If anything, I did this to myself, trying to hide the truth from her and she was a very inquisitive person; just like me. Like Renee, she wouldn't take "no" for an answer, or if she did, not for long. I looked out at the river and I wished how I could just drown myself, just to escape my pain. This pain punched another hole in me. I was barely a whole person before this happened and now, I could just die.

I heard the family talking downstairs, they were concerned about me. Alice was trying to find Renesmee. She wasn't home and Jacob hadn't seen her. Jacob said he would have his pack look for her. Someone came up the stairs and knocked on the door, "Bella?" I shook my head, now was not the time. "Come in." It was Edward, "Bella, are you alright?" I looked up at him, "What do you think? I've just damaged my daughter. I just," a sob was building, "I just keep hurting everyone around me. First Jacob, then my parents and now," my breath staggered, "Renesmee, that last person in my life." I broke out into a tearless sob, "I should just leave Renesmee here with Jacob, leave and never come back. She'd be better off without me." Edward reached out for me, but I flinched back, "Not now." He sighed, "I'll say this; she blamed herself for what happened to you. She took everything on herself; she gets it from you."

I chuckled once, "That and being stubborn." He laughed, "I see that too. But, Bella, Renesmee wants you in her life. You belong together, she's your daughter. How could you think of separating yourself from her?" I looked up at him, "Because I'll just keep hurting her." "Bella, you love her and she loves you too, how could you think that?" I looked straight into his eyes, "You're right. You're absolutely right. I should leave that decision to her. She's more than capable of making up her mind of if she wants me in her life. I want to do what's best for her and I should let her have a say in it." Edward's eyes fell to the floor, "I'm glad to hear it." We didn't speak for a long time. He knew what this scenario reminded him of.

I looked back out the glass, when Edward gasped and flashed to the door, "Bella, Alice found Renesmee. Come quick." I jumped up and we flew down the stairs. Alice was drawing something she saw in her vision. "She's in the meadow; the one Edward always goes to. But she's not alone." I saw the face she was drawing. I knew that name, but Renesmee may not. My eyes widened. I gasped, almost hyperventilating, "NO!" I flew to the door, throwing it open. "Bella, who is he?" Emmett asked. I looked back at them, "Her father." I ran into the night, hoping to get to Renesmee in time.

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I sat in the small circular meadow, crying. I made such a mess of things. My mother was mad at me. She's never yelled at me before, at least not like she did today. Maybe I shouldn't have meddled in her past. She said in didn't matter anymore, I had to find out more. Tears flooded my eyes, streaming down my face. I wrapped my arms around my legs and I buried my face in my knees. Momma is never going to forgive me. It seemed like hours I was in the meadow, crying, when I heard someone coming. They were coming up fast, so I knew it wasn't human. I looked up toward the direction of the visitor. Finally, the man stepped through the meadow. His eyes were black as night and his hair matched it. I've seen this man, in my mom's memories, when she showed it to the Cullen's. "Hello," he spoke to me.

I flew to my feet, readying myself. "What are you?" he sniffed the air, "I could smell the blood in your body, but I also smell that you're a vampire." He stepped out of the shadows and looked at my face. I tilted his head to the side, "Bella?" I shook my head, "No, but I get that a lot." He looked over my entire body, "You look just like her, except….." I sneered, "Except my hair. It's black, like my father's." His eyes widened, "Your what?" He stepped toward me and I stepped back, "Stay away from me, Stephan!" He circled me, walking along the edges of the meadow, "How did you know my name?" I watched him, "Stephan Johnson; that was the name of the man who attacked my mother when she was 19 years old." He stopped, "Your mother? What was her name?" "You know her name, you just called me that." He closed his eyes for a moment and was silent. Then he looked up at me, straight into my own, "Dark brown eyes, almost like chocolate." My jaw tightened, "I get them from her."

Surprisingly, Stephan smiled, "So, she survived?" He chuckled, "She was so sweet. Too bad I never tasted her." A roar burst through my lips, "DON'T YOU TALK ABOUT HER, YOU MONSTER!!!!" His head snapped around, "Well, don't we have a temper. I guess you are my daughter." I leaned into a crouch, "I am NOT!!! You stole my mother's life." "Please, she was just some little human, in the right place at the wrong time. Her blood would have been magnificent. You smell very close to that, but it's clouded by your vampire traits." I was almost to my limit; I couldn't take this animal talking about my mother. I've secretly dreamt of this moment, I wanted to rip him apart. "Well, too bad. She would have been delicious. I must visit her. Where is she buried?" I coiled and sprang at him, kicking him full on in the chest.

He sprang to his feet and pinned my arms behind me, "We have some fight in us, don't we, my child?" I roared into the air, "Never call me that!!" He inhaled deep at my neck, "Very much like her." I broke out of his hold, punching him in the face. I spun away from him. He snarled, leapt into the air and had me pinned on the ground, "You're feisty, just like she was. And beautiful like her, but you shouldn't attack your father. Like your mother, you're weaker than me. But I could change that, make you a full vampire." He held out my wrist, away from my body. He was going to bite me. NO!! I can't be a full vampire. Then I couldn't be with Jacob.

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I was close to the meadow. I heard others behind me, but I was too determined to look back. I heard their fight and I sprinted ahead faster. She was trying to fight him, what was she thinking? She was no match for him. "But I could change that, make you a full vampire." He was going to bite her. NOOOOO!!!! I sprinted through the bushes, he had her pinned to the ground, just like that night. I ran over and caught him by his neck, "Why don't you pick on somebody your own size?!" and I threw him across the opening. Renesmee sat up, her eyes began to well as she was it was me, "Sweetie, are you alright?" She cried and clutched her arms around my chest, "Momma!" She sobbed in my chest. I looked up and Stephan sprang to his feet. "Get out of here," I ordered Renesmee and I went to face my personal demon. "Hello Stephan." He saw my face and laughed, "Look who's a vampire now. This is amazing. I thought you were dead."

I glared, "You wish. You hurt me, but you didn't destroy me." He laughed again, "Well, I see she gets the temper from you. I thought it was from me." He looked at Renesmee, then back to me, "I have to admit, we made a beautiful child together. Though, I was just thirsty. I didn't know I getting you pregnant. Oh, well, now we can be a family," he chuckled darkly at his own words. He opened his arms to me, "Bella, dear." I smiled and stepped forward, looking as if I was going to embrace him, but I grabbed his arm, swiftly, I threw him to the other side of the meadow. Renesmee ducked out of the way and came to stand at my side. Stephan snarled and leapt towards us. We ran out of his way, "You two are so disrespectful. If it weren't for me, Bella, you wouldn't even have her." Renesmee and I looked at each other, "You have a lot of nerve thinking that?" she spoke up before I could, "Yes, you got her pregnant, but you weren't there when I was born. You were going to kill her." Stephan glared at her, "Do not talk to me like that. I am your father."

I saw the skin in her neck tighten. I stretched my arm across her body, "If you never came here tonight, you would have never known. So, don't think, for one minute you have claim on her. She is my daughter, 100% You are nothing to her." Stephan leapt into the air, about to pounce Renesmee. I stepped in her way, shielding her. Stephan landed on top of me, "Just like old times, right, Bella?" I glared at him, "Right, except I can do this." I flipped him off me and pinned him on the ground. I heard a faint chuckle from behind me, the Cullen's were watching. Renesmee and I glared down at him. He was weaker because he hadn't fed. Though he was weak, he was fast. He got his arm free and I pushed me away. Then I pulled Renesmee's arm and used her as a body shield. "Let me go!!" she screamed. He tightened his hold on her arm and she cried out in pain. "She's weak, Bella. What kind of mother are you?" He pushed her to the ground and held her down with his foot.

Several snarls came out of the bushes around the meadow. Like a blur, Edward and Emmett flew into the meadow, pulling him off Renesmee. Rosalie and Esme flew to her side and carried her back to me. As I wrapped my arms around her, a russet wolf jumped into the center of the circle, his teeth bared at Stephan, taking a protective stance in front of Renesmee and me. Rosalie and Esme stood back from the wolf, though they knew it was Jacob. "Rosalie, Esme, get her home." Renesmee didn't release her hold on me, "No." I patted her cheek, "It's alright. Jacob, could you go with her?" He shook his massive head. Edward spoke for him, "He doesn't want to leave. He wants to help rip Stephan apart. He's mad because he wasn't there for you, so he's not letting this go by." Renesmee gasp, "Jake, Momma, please." Both of us look back to her. Jacob nodded to Esme, indicating for her to take Renesmee home. "Renesmee, it's over. Go, I will see you at home." I nodded to Rosalie and Esme; they took Renesmee and ran into the night.

I turned back to Stephan, who was still being held by Edward and Emmett. I walked toward them, with Jacob at my side. Stephan cringed back from the massive wolf. I smiled, "Wow, my attacker is afraid of a wolf." I saw Jacob roll his eye at me. I looked towards Emmett and Edward, "Let him go, so I can finish this." Edward and Emmett looked at each, "Are you sure?" Edward asked. I nodded, "Yes. I've waited for this moment for more than a century." Emmett smiled, "This oughta be good." They threw Stephan to the ground and stepped back. "Edward, let's start the fire," Emmett beamed. Edward smiled and sprinted away, coming back with dry twigs. I clutched Stephan by the back of his head, with a fistful of his hair, "In a strange way, I must thank you. I hate to admit it, but I must. You gave me a wonderful daughter, and mercifully, she becomes more and more like me everyday."

Jacob barked a laughed and Edward spoke for him, "He agrees with you. He sees a lot of you in Renesmee." Stephan glared at Jacob, "How can you be so close to him and he not attack?" "He's my best friend and Renesmee's boyfriend. And, at the time you met me, he was my boyfriend. But that's none of your concern." I released him and stepped back, "Let's just end this." Stephan looked around and stood to his feet. Edward glared at him, "Don't bother trying to run. There are too many of us for you to escape." I smiled, "But it would be cute if you tried." Stephan snarled, then leapt into the air, coming at me again. I stood my ground and watched, "Jacob?" Jacob leapt up on his hind legs and caught Stephan's torso. I caught his leg and we pulled in the opposite directions. The meadow filled with his scream, as Jacob dropped him to the ground. I tossed Stephan's leg to Emmett, who threw it into the flames. Stephan started cursing at me in a foreign language. I stepped toward him and slapped him, "Don't you talk to me like that." He tried to throw himself at me and Jacob stepped on his chest, snarling. I patted Jacob's massive shoulder, "Finish him for me."

I turned and walked away to stand by the fire. Emmett hugged me, "Feeling better?" I shrugged, "I will when I see Renesmee. I just want to know that she's alright." Emmett kept his arm around me as we watch Jacob rip apart Stephan's body. When he was done, he had the torso in his mouth. He dropped it at my feet. "He wants you to burn it," Edward translated. I smiled and patted Jacob's head, "Good boy." He playfully snapped at me. I took the torso and threw it into the flames. As the body burned, my eye caught something pale in the middle of the meadow. I patted Emmett's chest and went to see what it was. I saw it was one of Stephan's fingers. I took it, but I didn't burn it. I saw the three of them staring at me. "Let's go. I want to see Renesmee."