When the lovers arrived home, still holding hands, they went into the kitchen. Mikey and Don were at the table and their eyes nearly popped out of their heads at the sight of their often feuding brothers holding hands. "Since when?" Don asked.
"Since today," Raph said proudly. "Leo and I realized we're in love and we wanna be mates. Got a problem with it, Don? Mikey?"
"No, I'm surprised. That's all. You and Leo seemed to like girls."
"Girls are nothin' but trouble. Right, Fearless?"

Mikey shrugged and said, "Whatever floats your boat, bros. Long as you're happy."
Leo looked at his mate and said, "I suppose so, Raph." Withdrawing his hand from Raph's, he sat down and said, "Sensei up?"

"No, still out," Don said. "Think the pneumonia's back, because he was struggling to breathe. I'm monitoring him. I guess that means no practice today."
Raph grabbed Leo's hand and said huskily, "So what will we do, Fearless? We have the day ta ourselves."

"I think we should practice," Leo said, trying to move his hand away, but Raph held on tighter and stared at him quizzically.
"What's the matter, Fearless?" Raph demanded. "Don't wanna be with me? Embarrassed?"

"Fight?" Donnie said. "Want to go to my lab, Mikey? I have a new experiment."
"Fight. Let's go!"

"Tell me the truth, Leo," Raph said. "Ya don't wanna be with me and are with me only ta spare my feelings."
"No, no," Leo said quickly. "It's just new to me, Raph, and you know me. I'm not used to being so open with my feelings."
"I'll get ya ta change that," Raph said seductively, trailing a hand down Leo's plastron and making him shiver. "Ya like that, Leo?"
Despite himself, Leo's shell felt tight and he wanted to drop down, Raph's musky scent hitting him, as he leaned close to Leo and kissed him on the lips. "I think ya wanna continue what we started earlier," Raph husked, and licked Leo's neck.
"Later. I have to…"
"Whatever it is, it can wait. I wanna make ya feel good, Leo."
"It can't wait, Raph. I've been putting it off all week."
"What is it? Need my help?"
"Vacuuming my room and cleaning. I'll come to you after."
"I'll be waiting," Raph said, and nipped his neck, leaving a large mark. "I'll be in my room dreamin' of ya."

What the hell have I done, Leo thought, rubbing his face? Raph believes I'm in love with him and I can't back out now. He'll get hurt and I'll look like an ass. Fuck. And he's so clingy. Ugh. Hanging onto me all the time. I hate it! But I've made my bed and now I'll have to lie in it. If only I'd met Rachael…No…Mustn't think of her…I'm going to clean my room to keep busy.

Leo went to his room, cleaned and vacuumed. Then he pulled out a magazine from under his pillow. None of his family would have believed he owned Playboy. He was always so prim and proper. He needed some release and thinking of Raph didn't do it for him. He flipped open to a page and saw a woman who was almost the spitting image of Rachael. Leo's shell suddenly felt tight and he vigorously rubbed at his slit, until his eight inch and semi erect cock made its presence. It was slick with precome and Leo continued to stroke it, until he came with a loud churr, moaning Rachael's name and spraying his seed all over himself. Satisfied, he sank back against the pillows and thought, I may never have her, but I can dream of her.

Leo had been so engrossed in his task that he hadn't heard his door open or seen Raph enter, hurt etched on his face as he took in the magazine and heard Rachael's name on his brother's lips. Quickly fleeing the room, Raph fought back tears, ran to his room and closed the door. Leo was thinkin' of that bitch, he thought, tears sliding down his cheeks. He's gonna leave me. The only way he's gonna stay with me is if I become a girl. I don't wanna be one, but I'll do it ta keep Leo. Gonna ask Donnie ta help me.

Raph composed himself and was about to go to Don's lab when an apparition in a blue kimono appeared. "Good morning, Raphael," the Japanese woman said. "I'm Tamlyn, a friend of Tang Shen's. We've seen you weeping and she's begged me to help you. "
"What are ya? An angel?"
"You could say that. I agreed to grant you one wish. Whatever you want, but be careful with what you ask. I cannot grant you more wishes."
"I wanna be a girl."
"Is that what you really want?"
Raph shook his head. "No, but I don't wanna lose Leo. I love him. Please."
"I won't be able to change you back, Raphael."
"That's fine. Just do it. All that matters is that Leo doesn't leave me. Please. Give me long, dark hair and boobs. I think Leo likes boobs."

Tamlyn muttered a few words and said, "Look in the mirror, Raphael." He did and squealed in surprise at his now feminine form. Long, dark hair cascaded down his back, boobs protruded from his plastron, poking through his short pink dress. His once concave carapace was now convex, his muscle mass had gone and his tail was shorter. The only thing that had stayed the same was his golden eyes. "Thank ya," Raph said, and gulped in surprise at his now high pitched feminine voice. "But ya didn't make me a girl human, Tamlyn! Girl turtles don't have boobs."
"You didn't specify human, Raphael, but you should be happy. You're now a very alluring female turtle and I'm sure Leonardo won't be able to keep his hands off of you. Have you thought of what you want to be called?"
"I kinda like Natasha."
"Good luck, Natasha," Tamlyn said, and smiled. "Leonardo's waiting for you."

When Tamlyn had gone, the former Raph studied herself in the mirror and thought, this is gonna take some gettin' used ta and what if Leo hates it? Don will try ta find a cure for this and tell me I'm bein' dumb. Gotta write a letter that I'm so broken over Leo I killed myself.

Raph pulled out a piece of paper and wrote in block letters "Leo, I can't live with knowin' ya don't love me. Hurts too much, so I'm sorry, but I have ta end my life and throw myself off the cliffs of Sandy Hook. Raph.

Raph slipped out of his room, placed the note on the lounge coffee table. Then he crept out of the lair and went for a walk. The guys are gonna come lookin' for me, he thought. And I'll pretend that I'm a girl, who got lost down here. They won't suspect it's me even if I have a Brooklyn accent. Hehe and Leo's gonna fall for me.

It wasn't long after that Leo found the note. His heart hammering, he quickly summoned his remaining brothers and said, "Raph's gone."
"Why?" Don asked. "You guys have a fight, Leo?"
"I think Raph walked in on me beating off to a photo of a girl and got the idea I didn't love him and was only with him, because I didn't want to hurt his feelings."

"Is that the case, Leo?" Mikey asked.
"Yes. He's my brother. How could I love him romantically? And now he's gone. I feel sick on my stomach. We have to go look for him. It's all my fault. I should have been honest."

"Calm down, Leo," Don said gently. "Do you know what beach he'd go to."
"Sandy hook, like it says in the letter."
"Let's check if he took the van or his bike. He may have changed his mind if he didn't." They checked the garage but the van and bike were there.

"Maybe he went on foot and went in his disguise, bros," Mikey suggested.

The brothers piled into the van and headed to Sandy Hook, but not finding Raph, they drove home after three hours, hearts broken into a million pieces. "I can't believe Raph's gone, Leo thought, wiping tears from his eyes. And it's my fault. Oh, Raphie. I'm sorry. I wish you'd come back, so I could tell you I'm sorry.

When they arrived home, Leo said, "I need to go for a walk."
"I'll go with you, Leo," Don said. "Mikey, you go be with Dad. Don't tell him about Raph. We'll tell him all together later."

"You really think Raph's dead, bros?" Mikey asked. "Because I don't. There's no body, nothing. Just a note."
Don nodded. "It's very possible that Raph could be bleeding out somewhere, Mikey, and we'll never find his body. He's gone. We need to accept that."
"I don't want to. I miss him. Things aren't going to be the same without him."

"No," Leo said mournfully. "They won't. Raph would want us to grieve, but then he'd want us to celebrate his life. He wasn't one for a fuss. You coming, Don?"
"Yes, Leo. Mikey, don't tell Sensei."

"All right," Mikey said sadly, and headed to Splinter's room.

Raph had spent the past few hours wandering the sewers. Now tired and hungry, she was debating whether to find her secret place and get some sleep, when she saw two figures approaching her. Stopping in her tracks, Raph tried not to grin when she saw that it was Leo and Don. "Who the heck are you?" Don asked, withdrawing his bo from its sheath, while all Leo did was stare at the female turtle, admiring her shapely body, his shell feeling embarrassingly tight. "I'm Natasha," Raph said.
"And what are you doing wandering the sewers, Natasha?"
"I was runnin' from some thugs and thought I'd be safe down here."
"You look like someone we know," Don said sadly. "Our brother, Raphael." He glared at Leo, who was still checking Raph out. "Doesn't she, Leo?"

"Um, no, I don't think so. Other than the eyes and skin," Leo said. "But it's not Raph. Can't be. Where do you come from, Natasha?"
"I was an experiment in a Brooklyn lab. An evil man named Bishop made me. That's why I sound the way I do."
"Our brother had that accent too. Oh, hell, Bishop," Leo clenched his fists angrily.
"Oh. I'm sorry. I didn't know. What happened ta…Raphael?"

"He told us he was killing himself," Don said. "We've searched everywhere and can't find his body."
"Perhaps he'll turn up," Raph said.
"I hope so, but it's not likely. He's probably dead and we're grief-stricken. We love him so much. You have family, Natasha?"
"Just me."
"Did this Bishop hurt you?" Don asked. "We know him well. He kidnapped us multiple times and tortured us."
"Yeah, he did," Raph said, turning on the water works, knowing that a crying girl always worked on guys.

"Why don't you come back with us, Natasha?" Leo offered, putting an arm around Raph and desiring to know more about her. "You look in need of rest and you must be hungry."
"I'd hate ta be a bother."
"No, it's no problem. To be honest, we could use a visitor. The lair seems so empty without our brother. You can..."Leo hesitated and said, "You can sleep in Raph's room and you don't have to worry about Bishop anymore. You're safe."
"Thank ya, Leo."
"You're welcome. Dry those tears, Natasha. Things are going to be fine."
"It's Tasha ta my friends."
"Tasha," Leo said, and smiled.

The group made their way back to the lair and Raph smiled and thought, my plan's workin'. Leo's hooked and wants ta know more 'bout me. He couldn't stop starin' at me. It won't be long before we sleep together!

A/N From now on, I'm just using Natasha. Too confusing otherwise and the ratings may have to change to M, because there will be racy scenes!