EPOV:

(Small lime)

I watched as Bella slowly fell back to sleep, her face relaxing and the heart monster slowing to a steady, relaxed pulse that jumped every now and then, proving she wasn't sleeping well.

I moved back in the chair some and grabbed my phone, knowing I wouldn't actually be able to get to sleep, and a small ripple went through my body as I realized I would have been lying to Bella when I told her I'd sleep. No, I told myself, I will sleep, just not this second.

I had a missed text from Emmet, one of my friends from when I was in college, and read it quickly.

Rosie and I are expecting a baby! Can you believe it???

I smiled slightly, knowing this would make Emmet happy. Rosalie, although she could be kind towards those she really cared about, was, although I hate to say this about a girl, a bitch.

I didn't invite them over often, but when I did I noticed Rosalie scowling at Bella and I has heard her whispered words to Emmet about how immature Bella was, when though it wasn't the truth.

If anything Bella was more mature than me. She cooked most of the time. I could cook, and whenever I got off of work in time, I usually did just to give Bella a break, but I could tell Bella enjoyed it. She did most of our cleaning, and always made sure anything was taken care of.

Me on the other hand, was at work about 10 hours Monday, Wednesday, and Friday, having to work 6 to 8 hours on Tuesday and Thursday while getting most weekends off, although I was on call for 6 days a month.

I looked at Bella again after texting Emmet a quick congrats, but saw that her eyes were open, staring at me. A pale, beautiful brush covered her cheeks as I caught her, and I was reminded of the day I met her.

I walked into Esme and Carlisle's house after getting big news, although I had already guessed it, because they had been talking about getting a dog for quite some time.

I walked to the living room, but was surprised when a small girl was huddled behind Esme, her thin fingers curled around Esmes pants leg and trembling.

I could tell the young girl had seen better days. She was very skinny, but I could tell she was beautiful. Her features were exotic, with sharp curves on hard jawline that contrasted with her gentle face. Her eyes were brown, but full of deep fear and curiosity, and her hair was a mahogany brown. But what stood out most, was the pale bush covering her cheeks.

Somehow I already knew this girl would become a big part of my life. I was a big brother.

Bella's eyebrow furrowed as I stared at her shamelessly, and realizing what I was doing, my own cheeks burnt slightly as I looked away and cleared my throat quietly.

"I though you were trying to sleep Edward." she muttered, sounding sleepy and upset.

I sighed quietly, "Bella, I tried to sleep earlier. I can't do it. Not when I'm worrying about you." I whispered, watching as she sighed and looked away.

"I wish I was just normal." she muttered, barely loud enough for me to hear, but I had heard it. I had heard every word.

"Don't say that Bella. You are normal. You're Bella. And don't think otherwise." I said, my voice harsher than I meant from the meaning behind my words.

She took a deep breath and my eyes moved to her chest, to her breasts, not very large but they were full and right for her petite frame. I blushed and looked back up, but she hadn't noticed that my attention had been directed to her chest.

I immediately felt wrong. Bella was supposed to be a sister to me, but even though it may have seemed like it years ago, it wasn't the same anymore. About the time she turned 14, I knew it was time she had a little more freedom, and with that I became more of her best friend then a brother. We both knew it wasn't like that anymore.

Or at least I hoped.

"Come on, Edward! I just had a fucking panic attack for crying out loud! People don't just have that happen to them. I fall in thin air, and I visit the ER more than anybody else in the state. That should say something." she said.

I didn't bother reprimanding her for her language. I hadn't since she turned 15, though she rarely used foul language anyway.

"Bella, you are you. That's what it's like for you, and you should enjoy that. You're my best friend, Bella. And it kills me to see you like this." I said. As the words left my mouth I felt pained to call her a friend. I had no words for what she was to me. But she was a lot more than a friend. She was everything.

"I know. I hate that I make you feel like that. Now go to sleep." she whispered into the dark room.

I didn't bother telling her not to apologize for making me feel anything, but I knew it would only bug her more.

Soon I heard her quiet breathing fade into a more relaxed rhythm and she turned over gently, showing that she was asleep.

I closed my eyes and laid my head up against the uncomfortable headrest in the chair, leaning it back some.

I wasn't sure when I fell asleep, but I woke up to a bright room. It took me a minute to realize Bella was gone, and even linger for my brain to process I needed to find her.

I stood up fast, fast enough for my sight to go and sharp vertigo hit me, but I noticed a small slip of paper on her bed as I got balanced.

Edward,

Sorry if you woke up while I was gone. I had to get up, so I went to the cafe to bring us breakfast. The doctors said I could leave at lunchtime today.

I slipped the note in the trashcan, and was getting clothes for a shower when Bella came back in the room.

She was wearing black skinny jeans and an oversized gray Dartmouth shirt that was mine, however she used them to just wear around whenever she felt like it. There was a small knot at the bottom near her hip, and she only had on a dimple pair of black sandals.

Her hair was still wet from what I guessed was a shower, and he cheeks were flushed a light pink from the heat.

She was holding a black tray, one with 2 plates of eggs and one with some bacon and sausage on it. There were 2 biscuits, and 2 cartons of chocolate milk.

She laid it on the table and stretched, cringing slightly as she did.

"Are you okay?" I asked, instantly worried.

She shrugged, "The hospital bed doesn't add the most support." she said simply, sitting on the edge of it and taking a piece of sausage.

Her phone rung and she picked it up.

"Hello?" she asked.

"Oh... I'm leaving in a couple hours, it'll be fine." she said, blushing slightly.

I assumed Angela wanted Alice over, so I went on ahead and grabbed a pair of jeans, boxers, and a white t-shirt before heading into the bathroom. I had to hold in the light moan that threatened to escape when the heady scent of strawberry and vanilla took over my senses.

I shut and locked the door, trying to ignore the tightening that was getting stronger in the pit of my stomach, and the bulge that was getting more and more noticeable in my sweats.

The small part of me that could think clearly mentally beat itself up, telling me that she was 17. Practically my little sister.

I was her legal Guardian. I was her big brother. I was her role model. I was in love with her and there was nothing. Absolutely nothing. That could be done about it.

I felt like hitting something. Maybe a wall, the door? But I turned on the water, bringing the scent back even stronger. I undressed completely, trying to ignore my rock hard length which was standing straight up, and climbed under the cool water, hoping to feel the coldness and get turned back off, but it did nothing.

I turned the warm water on, and looked down at myself, seeing the purple head that was reaching up, and the large vein that ran down the side, with a bunch of smaller veins around it.

I was never one for masturbation, and I had only done it a few times in my life, and now would be one of them.

With a light groan, I wrapped my hand around it carefully, stroking up and down slowly, trying to keep my sounds down and being aware Bella was on the other side of the thin walls.

I moved my hand from the base to the tip slowly, stroking myself with my wet hand faster as time went on. Thoughts popped up into my head, however they were all centered around me person. The only person that mattered. The center of my entire universe.

I groaned loudly as my strokes became rougher, her face becoming more prominent in my mind and with a deep shudder and groaned, I threw my head back with my eyes clenched shut as I came violently against the light blue tiled walls.

"Bella." I groaned as I came, before shutting my eyes and trying to catch my breath.

I opened my eyes and looked at the wall in disgust, before looking at my hand which was still wrapped around my softening member.

With a scowl, I finished my shower and climbed out, ready for another day.

~OoOoO~

I had planned on getting thus out yesterday, but obviously didn't. So, Edward doesn't know what to do in this chapter. But it earned the M rating. Just so you know, though, there won't be a lot of these until Edward and Bella are together, maybe a dream or masturbation here and there but thats about it.

So... What'd you all think of the lime? More detail? Less? None at all?(like that's gonna happen)

Please leave a review on what you thought of the line and how you like the so far.

Next chapter will be BPOV and will start after the leave the hospital.

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