AN: Wow! Thank you so much for the reviews, favorites and follows! You guys rock so much! Glad you are enjoying this silly cute ( and bit angsty) fic as much as I like writing it. Hope you all had wonderful holidays! :)

Happy new year!

This crazy chapter got so long in rewriting that I had to divide it in three but the second part shouldn't be too far behind...

R.I.P Carrie Fisher. You were my childhood hero and inspiration to us all...


Chapter eight - Hide and seek with father

"BEN! What are you doing down there?!" His father looked shocked while looking down into the grating area. "It's dangerous!"

"Little Ben!" growled Chewie.

"I'm not Ben, I'm Kylo Ren," said seven year old Ben with his face hidden under a black, homemade mask.


Wha..this is memory is false or from a dream...you didn't exist back then...

KR: Are you so sure about that?

What do you mean? Didn't Snoke give me the name?

KR: No comment...but, I'm really interested in seeing what happened next...


"Stop fooling around, Ben and take off your stupid mask," rebuked his father him.

"It's not stupid!" retorted Ben.

"Now, Ben!" shouted his father and although little Ben was not too happy with that his super cool mask had been called stupid, he did as his father commanded...or at least tried to.

"I can't! It's stuck! Help daddy!" shouted Ben desperately and he started hyperventilating in panic, but his father quickly climbed down to him in the grating area.

"Don't worry kid, I will save you. Don't panic. There, all good?" He asked after he had taken his mask off and kissed his forehead like he always did when he had a headache, to make it better.

Ben nodded, happy to be safe at last so his father lifted him up and Chewie received him and put him safely on the floor.

"How did you know it was me?" asked Ben when his father had climbed back up and Chewie put the grating back over. "I had a mask on...I was in disguise and everything..."

"It was so obvious," growled Chewie and Ben looked surprised and to his father for further explanation.

"Who else could it be...but my naughty son?" His father frowned at him and then he smirked, but Ben looked insulted.

"I'm not naughty! I'm never naughty!" shouted Ben indignantly and his father and Chewie exchanged doubtful glances.

"Really? His father pinched his ear. Aren't you supposed to be in school right now?!"

"Very naughty," growled Chewie at him.

"Ow, ow yes...sorry..." said Ben shamefully and rubbed his sore ear when his father finally let go of it.

His father lifted up finger for each of his "crimes." "So, truancy, running away, hiding in a dangerous place...you're so grounded, kid!" He snatched him up from the ground and carried him to the lounge with a thunderous expression.

"But, I'm not running away! I'm with you!" shouted Ben in hope of some appeal, but his father just shook his head.

"You're going back home, kid. How did you even get down there?"

"The grating must wear a ton," growled Chewie a bit impressed.

"I used the Force..." replied Ben and his father sighed.

"Of course...the force. Now, I ask you again...What were you doing down there?" He put him down to sit at the chess table.


KR: They sure weren't happy with you then...and won't be happy with you now.

Understatement of the year...

KR: But I want to see what happens next.

Why?

KR: I want to know why you were hiding down there...must have been some stupid reason...


"I was stowawaying," replied Ben in a small voice, when his father sat beside him at the chess table.

"A stowaway...on your father's ship?" growled Chewie surprised, who took a seat opposite from them.

"It's safer that way..." replied Ben and his father, thought it over and then he picked Ben up to sit on his lap and had him face him while he said sternly: "Fine, if you have to stowaway, I prefer you use my ship then go with some strangers, that's too dangerous. Just let me know next time, beforehand...and don't you ever hide down there."

"Why?" Ben looked at Chewie behind him, as if he would be likelier to know the answer then his father.

"It's too dangerous! The propulsion tank can overflow and fill everything with poisonous gas!" growled Chewie and his father added: "But most importantly I want to know where you are at all times. It's for your safety kid." He pinched his cheek lightly.

"Okay, I won't hide down there and I will always let you know where I am," said Ben and his father ruffled his hair and said: "Good boy. Now, let's go home. Your mother must be worried sick..." He picked him up and started walking.

"No! I don't want to go back! I want stay with you!" Ben clung tightly to his chest as if his father planned on leaving him behind on some planet for being naughty.

"What...why? Did you do something bad and are fleeing?" His father looked questionably between Ben and Chewie, who followed close behind.
Ben shook his head. "No...the kids in school are so mean to me..."

"Mean how..?" asked his father.

"They call me strange and...beat me up...and stuff..." muttered Ben and his father looked shocked.

"I can beat them up for you," growled Chewie helpfully.

"Thanks, Chewie!" Ben smiles at him gratefully, but his father shook his head.

"No, as much I would like to do that...it would send the wrong message," said his father who looked like really wanted to give those bullies a piece of his mind, judging from a vein ready to burst on his forehead.

He reeled in the anger, took a calming breath and said: "Okay, you can come with us this time. We are only transporting wombat rats, nothing dangerous."

He smiled, but Ben grimaced in disgust when he heard the mission and shouted: "Boooring!"

"It's not boring!" growled Chewie, who shivered and his father shook his head and said: "It's a safe mission, which means you can come with us. Now, let's call your mom and let her know where you are..."

"Okay..." said Ben and his father carried him to the cockpit.


KR: Aw...how cute...

Did you just call..something cute..?!

KR: I'm not the heartless bastard, you think I am...

News to me...

KR: And really shouldn't you be more worried about what is happening now instead of getting lost in a cute...eh stupid flashback?!


The lights come back on in the Falcon.

Hey! You wanted me to continue! It's...it's your fault!

KR: Everything is always my fault...did I hold a lightsaber to your throat or something? No, so it's your fault for not thinking independently...!

"Where is the poisonous gas?!" snaps Ben through the gasmask at poor Rey, who shouts back through hers: "I'm working on it!"

KR: You know you could help her...

I'm too busy not passing out at the moment!

KR: That's wouldn't be so bad...

No, because then you could take back the wheel!

KR: Perhaps...personally I don't think that's a bad thing...

It would be horrible!

KR: From a certain point of view...

"We are doomed!" Shouts Finn through his gasmask, but Poe puts hands on his shoulder and says through his mask: "Don't give up yet. We are not going down without a fight!"

BB-8 chirps something encouragingly as well.

"But Ren...eh Ben says it's worst than the First Order! We can't win against something like that!" shouts Finn as desperate, as if the Starkiller base had just been pointed at their ship.

"What can be worse than the First Order?" Poe turns to Ben who doesn't answer, but only stares ahead with a doomed look, hidden under his gasmask.

KR: You know...it might be a good idea to tell them truth instead of having everyone freak out...though it's funny to watch...

They wouldn't understand...

KR: But, seriously, what are you so scared of?

I don't know...that's what frightening me...

KR: Chiiicken...

"I'm sorry...we fixed it too well..." says Rey, as if she's about to cry over that failure.

No! So typical that when I do a job to well, that it will work against me...

KR: Have you forgotten your...lightsaber...?

You're right! I can cut through the pipes with the lightsaber...why didn't I think of that earlier!

KR: Because you are not thinking, that's why...

"No! We are going to die!" shouts Finn and hugs Poe desperately as if they are going to die at any given minute, while Poe just pats his shoulder in comfort.

BB-8 chirps in panic and the Falcon door opens with a hiss, before Ben can even ignite his saber. He can hear them walk into the Falcon.

He's here..and we are trapped like kriffing wombat rats...!

"Chewie, we're home."

His father's voice sends shivers up his spine.

Oh, brother..they are never going to leave are they?

KR: Nope.

"Chewie..? Did he say Chewie!?" whispers Rey excitedly, all her fear temporarily gone.

"Chewie? Are you sure?" whispers Finn, without letting go of Poe and looks at Ben, who shivers. "No, this is something else...why would Ben be afraid of Chewie...?"

Poe, lifts up his mask, takes one look at Ben, as if he's calculating something in his head and then he smirks.

Oh, no! He figures it out...! It's just a matter of time before the others figure it out too!


The grating gets lifted up, and Han and Chewie come into view. Chewie holds the grating up while his father points a blaster at them.

Finn yelps up in fright, but when he does not see death troopers, the knights or anything scary, he furrows his brows in confusion and looks at Ben, who instantly ducks and hides behind Rey.

KR: Yes, very brave...

Rey, who feels and sees his panic, though she doesn't understand it, looks over his shoulder and mouths at him: "Don't worry, I will protect you and get you back to your family."

KR: The irony of that statement...

"Where are the others?" asks his father, where he looks over the gang, whereas Rey and Poe holds their hands up in surrender, Finn embraces Poe tightly in desperation as if they are about to die, Ben is hiding behind Rey and BB-8 chirps something.

"It's only us," replies Rey quickly, as the fangirl has been replaced with the will to survive again and tries in vain to hide Ben behind her back, though she has no idea who he is hiding from.

KR: If she knew, she would knock your skull in...

Well, then she better never find out...

"Who's hiding behind your back?" ask his father.

"Nothing, sir," lies Rey.

"A pretty big nothing to me," scoffs his father.

KR: Just your son you haven't seen since he was ten years old...nothing of importance...

Are you trying to make me feel guilty?!

KR: Maybe...

"I smell something. Something I haven't smelt since..." growls Chewie as sniffs into the air, then he turn his gaze at Ben, behind Rey and his eyes go wide in astonishment.

Oh, no! Chewie of course recognizes my smell!

But, just as Chewie opens his mouth to shout the truth of who Ben is all over the galaxy, he gets a strange look as something had got caught in his throat and coughs violently.

"Hey, are you alright?" His father turns back to Chewie with a worried look, who sits down on a container nearby and points at his throat. "Here have some water." Han takes a bottle from a pouch and hands it to Chewie, who drinks from it and glares at Ben, who is peeking behind Rey, down in the grating area.

KR: Please don't tell me...you tried to choke Chewie...?!

I didn't do it! He must have swallowed a fly or something!

KR: Hmm...

Lucky me...

"Smell? We don't smell. Though I live in a junkyard I don't smell!" Rey crosses her arm and scowls at Chewie as the violent cough had just been an exaggeration of their smell.

"You understand that thing?" asks Finn surprised, takes of his mask and Poe and BB-8 look equally as surprised.

Wow, what can't she do?

KR: A bit overpowered if you ask me...at least she's way out of your league...

Hey! That wasn't nice to say!

KR: You're way too easy to tease...

"Hey, that "thing" understand you as well...!" says Han and glares at Finn for insulting his long time friend, but before he can lecture him some more, Chewie pulls him down and whispers into his ear.

Shut up, shut up!

"What? Speak up, I can't understand you," says his father a bit impatiently and Chewie points frantic at Ben.

No, no, no!

"What...wait...are you from the First Order...?" Han looks intently at the black clothes of Ben.

Pheeew! He thinks Chewie is only warning him about that...

Chewie looks so disappointed, that Ben feels a tiny bit guilty for not coming forth, but his survival instinct makes him keep his mouth closed.

KR: Survival instinct...really? More like stupidity...

"No, sir, are you...?" replies Finn, who reluctantly lets go of Poe, as if he has suddenly become their leader instead of him, who thankfully has kept quiet so far as he could blow Ben's cover right away.

I should tape his mouth shut before he says something...

"Do I look like I come from the First Order?" scoffs his father.

KR: In your dreams.

"No, sir." Rey, Finn and BB-8 look at Ben try to gauge his reaction who still look as panicked as ever.

Can't you just go...?

KR: Not without the Falcon...

You're right, I just have to give him back the Falcon!

"Guys, don't you know who that is?" says Poe, the only one of the gang, who is not panicking over their new arrivals.

"No...?" say Finn and Rey in unison as they gaze, along with BB-8 at Han and Chewie and back at Ben as they try to figure out the connection between them and his panic.

NO! Shut up Poe, shut up!

"It's Chewie!" yells Poe excitedly as if the rented clown for the birthday party had just arrived.

Why you...fuck you Poe for nearly giving me a panic attack!

KR: You don't seem to need much at the moment...

"No way it really is Chewie!" Finn gawks at poor Chewie and Rey does the same. "Chewie!"

"You know Chewie?" asks his father surprised and Rey nods. "Everyone knows Chewie...I mean..I saw a play once..." Her eyes shine brilliantly and she looks starstruck.

BB-8 chirps something in excitement.

Chewie tries to growls something, but nothing comes out.

Phew...he still can't say anything...but for how long?!

"A play...huh...get out of there," Han indicates the grating area and all except Ben and Rey climb out of it or well Finn and Poe try their hardest to get BB-8 up.

She still wants to show me support...

KR: Support? Why don't you just talk to your dad like a man. Stop acting like a stupid mouse!

"I thought Chewie was in retirement on Kashyyyk," says Rey and stares in wonder at Chewie as if he were the new supreme leader.

Chewie lifts BB-8 easily up, so Finn and Poe can at last climb up of the grating area. Poe gives Chewie a high five as they are best friends and Chewie gives one, though without taking his eyes of Ben, as if he's only biding his time to be, figuratively able to tell the truth.

Gleep...!

"No, he's with me now," replies his father and stares at Rey and Ben, who is still hiding behind her, the only two still left down in grating area.

"And who are you, sir?" ask Finn warely.

"None of your business, that's who! snaps his father back at him, as he still thinks of them as enemies and Finn backs away with his hand in the air to Poe, as if Han has been turned into a rathar and wisely refrains from asking more questions.

Poe chuckles, BB-8 is confused while Rey continues hiding Ben behind her.

Thank the maker that my dad doesn't have a habit of introducing himself right away to complete strangers...or I would be screwed...Rey and Finn must think he's just some random smuggler traveling with Chewie...though that is very weird...there is still time...!

KR: You're trapped inside a freighter which inside another bigger freighter, give up now...there is no escape.

I'm never giving up...this is...yeah, this a survival game!

KR: A game...?!

The rules are simple, if my father manages to find out my true identity and unmask me, then it's game over!

KR: Then how can you win it...?

If I manage to hide from him and escape, I win and then I will disappear from his life forever...and I have to beat this game before either Chewie gets his voice back, Poe decides to give my secret away or if Finn but, especially Rey, figure out it's "just" my father...not an enemy...as she would kill me for hiding from him...and having planned on using poisonous gas...

KR: What about BB-8?

I'm not worried about him...

KR: If Poe tells him the truth, he could tell Rey...

That would be bad!

KR: So you see this is an impossible game from the start...

I'm not giving up without a fight!

KR: You can be so stubborn about the most stupid things...


"You there, stop hiding behind the poor girl," says his father sternly, signaling the game to start without even knowing he's playing one.

"Poor...girl?!" says Rey through clenched teeth and she gets even more protective, as she stretches out her arms to both side.

I would never in million years call Rey a poor girl...

KR: Me either...I would however call you a poor guy in a heartbeat...

Says the one who slept with the lights on...

KR: How rude! I only did that because Darth Vader's mask is so creepy in the dark! It's not nice having that helmet staring at you when you are trying to sleep!

I thought darkside users didn't need to sleep...

KR: No comment...jerk...

"It's okay, Rey. I will take it from here..." Ben moves in front of Rey, pats her on the shoulder for a job well done and tries not to pass out from the stress of revealing himself to his father, although he's still hidden under a mask.

"You sure?" Rey asks skeptical as if she wouldn't even trust him to cross the street on his own, despite having seen his powers in action and Ben nods convincingly.

"I will be here, if you need me," says Rey and still stays by his side, instead of leaving the grating area to go to a far comfortable place.

KR: You know if it wasn't just your dad...this overprotectiveness would be kind of cute...eh cool...she's so gonna hate you when she finds out the truth...

You're right...so I can't risk it...I can't lose the game!

His father sizes him up where he stands above them, looking down into the area to where Ben stands in front of Rey.

Ben's heartbeat pounds wildly in his ear under that inspection.

Will he see through me...like he always did in the past...? Am I going to lose...right away?!

"You certainly looks like one of those Knights of...Ben guys or something? You even have a lightsaber." His father finally says and points at the lightsaber in Ben's belt, with his blaster.

KR: Hey, it's Knights of Ren! My knights not Ben's!

He knows I'm the master of Ren...! I'm so glad I didn't wear my helmet...it would've been an instant game over!

Poe, who sits on container next to Chewie who is drinking water and pouting over his sore throat, enjoys this show so tremendously that he snorts.

"What so funny?" asks Han and turns back to him, annoyed over the interruption in his serious interrogation over one of the Knights.
"Nothing, sir," says Poe and tries to keep a straight face.

Jerk.

KR: Jerk.

Han frowns at him. "Then keep it to yourself." He turns back to interrogating the knight.

"Yes, sir," says Poe, who then whispers to BB-8 beside him, who chirps first surprisingly but then it chirps in something that sounds like an evil chuckle.

"What?" asks Finn irate over being kept out of the joke. He watches every move Han makes, as he tries to figure out what is so dangerous in Ben's eyes, while he tries to find out how to escape from it.

"You will see," is the only thing Poe says which confuses even further both Finn and Rey while Han just decides to ignore that clown behind him, as he has better things to do...like finding out what one of the Knights of Ren is doing on his long lost ship.

I have to get away before Poe stops thinking this is funny and decides to give my secret away! Rey and Finn, thankfully still have no clue that this is my father! I can still win this thing!


"You mean the Knights of Ren, yes but he defected...we are on our way to the resistance," corrects Rey him helpfully as if the strangers in front of her, had just misspoke the name of the gang, instead of using the name of his son in their title on purpose, as he's their leader.

Han looks genuinely surprised with that information. "Defected...resistance..." His stern features turns into shock and he puts away his blaster in his belt.

Oh, no he connecting the knots. I've to come up with a lie and fast!

KR: No, just tell him the truth...stop fooling around...

"Why don't you take of your mask? It must be suffocating under it," his father says in a fatherly voice, as all of his anger vanished when he heard that the knight had defected and is no longer dangerous, but still looks clueless that the knight in question is his long lost son.

"I'm fine...thank you..." says Ben in a frosty voice.

It's far more suffocating being in your presence...

KR: That's harsh, dude...

His father sits down with his feet hanging down into the grating area. "Suits yourself...but how about at least coming up here...so we can talk?" He pats a place next to him.

"I'm comfortable down here...thank you.." snaps Ben at him.

Why do you want to talk...? Talk about what? I don't want to talk! Just leave me alone...you had no problem with it for twenty years...

KR: Ouch...

"This is not optional, it's dangerous down there. Come up now," says his father sternly.

"I don't want to," replies Ben, turns away from him and crosses his arms stubbornly.

I'm will win this fight...

Han sighs. "I guess I can't force you kid. It's not like I'm your father or something..."

KR: Double ouch...

Ben's heart sinks.

He doesn't know...

He had expected a longer fight than this and just about to descend into a deep depression, when suddenly Poe burst out laughing. "I can't! I just can't!" He kicks his legs out and holds his stomach.

"Can't what?" asks Finn surprised.

Don't say anything Poe...don't you dare!

"Sorry...I was just remembering a...good joke. A very good joke." Poe wipes a tear from his eyes.

"Will you be quiet back there! Go play chess or something!" barks his father at Poe, Finn and BB-8.

Chewie growls something angrily, but it's only gibberish because of his sore throat and Rey frowns at Poe.

"Sorry, we will be quiet," says Poe, as he wouldn't want to miss this confrontation for the world and Finn and BB-8 look pissed that he is talking about them as well, when they didn't say a single thing.

His father shakes his head with a frown. "Some people just don't know how to behave..."

Trust my father to start commanding everyone the minute he steps into his ship...

Kid, you can't stay this way forever," says his father suddenly to him.

"Huh...?" Ben looks at him surprised.

He called me a kid...just like in the past...does he know who I really am...?

Ben expects his next words to be the one from the past: "Stop fooling around, Ben and take off your stupid mask!

Followed by the worst lecture ever and ending this impossible game before it has even begun, just like in the past. Chewie already knows and it's only a matter of time before he can talk again or anyone on board will tell the truth, but Ben wants for some reason his father to figure it out on his own, not to be told the truth from anyone.

I just want this to be over...I don't want to play this game...please dad!

KR: No one is forcing you...

However his father's next words disappoint him greatly.

"Down there in the dark...and with a mask. It's not healthy," his father points into the grating area as if Ben wouldn't know what he was talking about otherwise.

Ben turns around and growls at him: "I'm used to wearing a mask...and staying in dark places!" He's so angry that he doesn't recognize him already.

Why would some random knight be hiding in your ship?!

"Don't use that tone with me, young man," scolds his father him without thinking and looks bewildered over his own choice of words and stares at the knight, as if he's trying to see through his mask.

"Sorry sir...but I'm staying down here...with a mask..." says Ben in a challenging voice and deep down, wishes that his father will shout at him: "Stop fooling around son and obey me at once!"

But, his father's choice of words keep disappointing him, who only shakes his head.

"You really are stubborn, kid. You are just like my...son...was." His father gets emotional, as if he's about to cry.

I AM YOUR KRIFFING SON!

KR: Wait...what...so you really want him to find out...then why don't you just tell him...?

No, he has to find out on his own...or there is no point...I mean it's his fault...for not recognizing me with a mask. He had no trouble with it before!

KR: When you were...seven? You're right, you haven't changed that much...

What's that supposed to mean?

KR: Do as your father says.

Never! And I don't want him to find out my real identity...it's complicated...

KR: Wha...you're impossible...I don't understand you...I...I give up!

Good...at least I won that fight...wait...did he say...son was...he thinks I'm dead?!

KR: No wonder he never tried to save you...or knows it's you...

Why does he think I'm dead...I'm alive...and right in front of him...why can't he see that?! I was waiting for him this whole time! Or has he disowned me...that's even worse!

"But, you sure have a very weird taste kid and what's up with the gasmask, is this a new fashion in the Knights? Or...maybe you aren't allowed to have a cooler mask than your master...I remember he always wanted to the best dressed kid on the playground..." His father smirks while reminiscing about the long gone past, while looking at his kid who is hiding in plain sight, from him.

KR: He thinks my mask is cool! Hey...what does he think they my knights are...a wedding?!

So awkward...at least he doesn't seem to have disowned me...that's good I guess...but if he knew who I was he might take out some baby pictures of me..

KR: You're afraid of that...ah...that makes sense, you would die of shame if he did that in front of the girl you like...

That's not the reason...

KR: Then what...?

I don't know...

"Poisonous gas," says Rey, who so far only watched them interact from the sidelines and was ready to jump in if Ben was in any danger.

"Sorry?" His father turns surprised to Rey as if he had forgotten she was there and Ben had to admit that he had forgotten about her too and feels ashamed about it.

KR: You should feel more ashamed over having dragged her into this farce...

"The masks are because of the poisonous gas...we were planning to kill who ever came on board," explains Rey, a bit shamefully.

Not kill...scare away...

KR: You could've killed them...

"And whose bright idea was it to use gas?" asks his father sternly.

"His." Rey points at Ben by her side, who tries hide from the disappointing and piercing gaze of his father.

"As expected of a former darkside user...so that's why Chewie has trouble talking. You better not have harmed him in any way." His father glares and wiggles a finger at them sternly, as if it was just a horrible prank gone wrong.

"No, we fixed the gas...there was no gas leaking," replies Rey hurriedly.

"Hmm...then why does Chewie act like this? Do you have a cold?" Han looks behind at

Chewie, who shakes his head and points straight at Ben.

His father's worried expression turns instantly and he looks lived.

Oh, no! He knows...at last he knows the truth! I'm doomed...

KR: About time...and didn't you want that...?

His father jumps down into the grating area and stalks over to Ben.


Rey walks quickly in front of Ben.

"You will have to go through me," she says bravely, but Ben pats her shoulder and says: "No, no Rey. It's okay..."

I guess he would find out sooner or later...these lies were tearing me apart anyway...I lost...

"I'm sorry..." He dips his head, as he ready himself for the worst lecture ever.

"Sorry...so you are the one hurting Chewie? You are choking him with the force?!" shouts his father at him.

Whaaat...?

KR: That's what he thinks Chewie has been saying the whole time...?!

Chewie growls weakly, shakes his head and keeps pointing at Ben, puzzling Han further.

"No sir, I would never do anything to hurt Chewie!" shouts Ben and jumps behind Rey, who looks surprised that he is using her as cover already, after acting so brave less than a minute ago.

It far too dangerous to be the one endangering Chewie...especially when he thinks I'm just some random stranger! It is bad enough if he thought, I, his son was doing it!

His father lifts an eyebrow. "Why would you never do anything to hurt Chewie? It is good, but that phrasing, do you know each other...is that why you are acting like this?" asks his father Chewie, who nods and points at Ben.

"Everyone knows Chewie!" shouts Ben and walks in front of Rey, echoing what the others said not long ago and drawing his father's attention back to him from Chewie the truth holder.

Ben is going crazing with wanting his father to know above anything and at the same wanting to do everything to hide the truth of his identity.

KR: Just give up already...

I can't...this is important to me...it's his last chance to save me...

"I'm sorry, I jumped to the wrong conclusions...what are you keeping in that pouch? It looks heavy." His father points at the pouch where Ben keeps Kylo Ren's helmet.

He can't see my helmet!

KR: It would be so funny if it just fell out of your pouch...

"Nothing...sir," lies Ben and tries to hide the bulky pouch behind his back.

Rey looks surprised that he's lying, but doesn't interfere in any way and instead keep on acting as his, mostly silent, but confused guardian angel.

Finn furrows his brows over Ben's unusual behaviour, while Poe and BB-8 smirk and Chewie glares at him for lying, takes up lozenge from his pouch and crushes it angrily between his teeth.

His father just shakes his head. "More of nothing...you are full of secrets...hiding your face behind a mask, wants to stay in this dark place...I will never understand your kind, kid."

KR: Kind...do a lot of people hide their faces behind mask and stay in dark places...?

"Well, I'm not staying here. It's not good for my back," says his father and starts to climb up again.

He's leaving...

Something snaps inside Ben at last, when he sees the back of his father getting away.

"I will come back for you when you have gotten ridden of the darkness, I promise..." echoes the broken promise from twenty years ago in his mind.

He can't go...no please don't leave...don't leave...

"No, please don't leave!" Ben clings to his back, dragging him back down, shocking Han as he only see this as an overreaction, as he's only climbing out of the area not going anywhere.

Save me from the darkness in my soul!

Now Finn and Rey gets even more confused, Poe and BB-8 don't look like they are enjoying this so much anymore and look worried instead, while Chewie looks sad.

"I'm not leaving you kid...I'm right here. Why don't you come up?" his father turns to him and takes his hand as if he dealing with a small child instead of an adult.

"I'm not ready..." says Ben in a small voice and let's go of his hand, though he doesn't want to.

Everything hurts...why don't you know who I am...? You're supposed to see through my lies...you always could...why can't you see through me this time...? Help me, I'm stuck! I don't know who I am anymore...!

KR: Do you want him to lift you up of the area...it might break his back now...

Of course not...but I still need his help...to come back...

"Why don't you take of your mask? Or is it stuck...do you want me to help you take it off?" His father lifts up his hand.

YES!

"No...I'm fine..." Ben backs away from his hand.

"You don't look fine to me...are you sure?" asks his father worried and Ben just nods.

No! I need help!

His father shrugs. "Okay, kid. It's your life...I don't control it." He climbs out of the area and Ben shouts at him inside his mind.

No, please, I'm out of control...I need you...!

KR: Maybe you should just let him adopt you...then you can get your dad back without giving away your identity and having to face your crimes...you could call yourself...Ken...Rolo or something...then you could be forever stay in hide and seek...

But, of course your mom knows you real identity and kind of everyone on board...so everything about this game is stupid...and pointless!

You're no help as usual...

KR: I don't have time for...games...


Finn stares at Han, when he has climbed up, as if he is the most dangerous man alive, despite not being armed and even Chewie has long since put his weapon down, so everyone could walk freely around the ship and they still decided to annoy Ben, by staying behind and watch everything, when he only wanted to keep Rey around, even though she would hit him if she really knew what was happening.

Han notices Finn's stare and smirks. "You kids don't need to fear me, I'm just a harmless old man..."

"Just a harmless old man...?" Finn looks between Ben and Han as he tries to figure out their connection and why Ben was so afraid of him in the beginning and coming up blank.

"Unless you stole this ship..." Han fixes everyone of them with a stern and fierce glare.

I would never dream of trying to steal the Falcon again...it ended way too badly for me last time! I couldn't sit for a day, I was grounded for a whole week, Chewie was so mad and mom broke my toy saber and gave me the worst lecture ever!

"We didn't steal it!" says Ben quickly, surprising the whole gang with the desperation in his voice. Even Han and Chewie look surprised.

KR: Technically we stole it from whoever owned it on Jakku...

That doesn't count! And dad wouldn't punish me for taking it from those who stole it in the first place!

KR: No, he will punish you for lying to him this whole time...and for everything else bad you've done since he last saw you...

That's an awfully long list...

"Don't worry, kid, I was only kidding. This ship was stolen long time ago, but where did you find it?" asks his father in a far milder voice and Rey answers for the group. "Jakku."

"That junkyard! Chewie, I said we should've checked out the Outer Rim systems," says his father, but Chewie doesn't seem to care about that, as he points desperately at Ben.

Shut up, Shut up...!

KR: Don't worry...he can't talk...yet...

"What is it? Isn't your throat any better? And why do you keep pointing at this kid?" His father turns to him. "Maybe he's pointing at something behind you...are you sure there isn't any gas leak?"

Phew...my dad can be so thick sometimes...

KR: Father like son...

Shut up, Kylo!

"No, no leak. Sir," says Rey after he had checked the pipes thoroughly.

"Hmm..." His father looks between Chewie and Ben, but before he can come to any conclusion Finn pipes in, who looks directly at Ben: "But what I don't understand is, why were you so afraid of some old old man?"

"What are you talking about?" ask Han look between Finn and Ben down in the grating area, who stiffens.

"He said you were worse than the First Order...and even planned on killing you with poisonous gas," continues Finn.

Shut up, Finn!

KR: Yeah! I'm not afraid of him! I'm not afraid of anything!

Not even Snoke...?

Maybe a little...he sometimes has me electrocuted to get closer to the darkside...it hurts!

"What do you mean...I thought it was meant for however came on board..." says his father, Rey nods, but Finn shakes his head and explains: "No, you see Kylo Ren here is forcesensetive. So he knew who you were before you boarded us..."

His father blinks furiously. "Did you say...Kylo Ren...?!" He gawks at Ben while Chewie and the gang minus Ben nod to confirm that he heard right.

KR: Busted!

I'm not giving up! I can still fix this! I can still win this game!

KR: No you can't...and you really shouldn't...

"And now the real show will start." Poe leans back on the container, while throwing an imaginary popcorn into the air.


Next up: Game over...