AN: UnknownSeven7, thanks as always for your great comments! :D Another (hopefully, kind of) swift update for you all! You guys rock! All my support to you, however you are doing! You are the best, remember that!

Yeah, poor Ben, here he finally gets to vent a little...but maybe not in the most healthy way...but what else can a powerful (darkside) force user do? And he has been through a lot! And it's not over...:S

There is plenty family fluff on the way (why else would I be writing this fic?!)...but first pain and angst! (and silliness...) Like the fact that com-links and holographic devices works like cell phones...

I had to divide this chapter in two, but that means the next one is not too far away...


Chapter thirty two - The (re)birth of Kylo Ren

The lights flickered on and off, as the whole office rumbled like in a great storm. Luke watched nervously, how all of his furnitures danced a hectic war dance on the already cracked floor, that ruptured even further in the earthquake like tantrum. The ancient Jedi relics were precariously close to fall to the ground and be shattered into pieces, lost forever. The ancient saber was about to be ripped of the wall and into Ben's outstretched and open palm.

"BEN! STOP!" Luke shouted over the loud creaking and squeaking noises and swatted his little hand away from reaching the deadly saber.

However that didn't make Ben stop. Instead he stared with heated intensity at his uncle. His brown soulful eyes had lost most of its colour and nearly become black, like the current state of his soul.


KR: So powerful!

We knew that...

KR: Yeah, but...we haven't used that power in while. Why haven't you? With that power, we could easily take over the galaxy!

That's all you think about...?

KR: With Vader!

Sigh...

KR: I mean Rey!

That's...kind of nice...

KR: Kind of! It's awesome!

We still have to get out of here...

KR: Oh...right...or you can get that dream...right here...

Stop tempting me!


"I was only kidding!" shouted Luke and waved his hands urgently amidst all the chaos. The smallest of his possessions twirled around his head, while the furniture stalked towards him with vengeance.

"Kidding...?!" Ben was in no mood for jokes. "Kidding about what...?" he asked dangerously.

"Everything," muttered his uncle out of corner of his mouth.

"Everything...?"

"Yes, I was kidding and...yet, I was not...son." Luke gave him a fearsome glare.

"Huh...?" Ben's eyes got their normal brown colour back, but he didn't stop force shaking the room, but slowed the rattling down a bit.

"I'm going to call you son..." Luke paused to make his next words more dramatic. "Until you stop being so stubborn and call your mother and talk to her, so I can get some sleep." He looked worried at the chaotic room and pushed away with his hand, the furnitures that surrounded him and were in attack mode.

His nephew finally stopped rattling the room, leaving them in darkness as the lights turned off and Luke managed to catch his precious things before they fell and broke on the floor.

Ben sat back on the sofa, with his arms and legs crossed and stuck his lower lip out in an angry pout. "It's not working." He was back to being a petulant child instead of a powerful force user. "I'm not going to call her."


I'm not a petulant child, you stupid narrator!

KR: Then what are you...?

A...troubled one...

KR: Hmm...

Hey! I have issues...

KR: I know...I life here...remember...

You are a big part of them!

KR: Hey...okay...maybe a little...

A LOT!


"You will call her now." Luke waved one hand in front of his eyes to Jedi mind trick him, while his other hand was full of rescued stuff that had moved around the room.

"No," said Ben flatly and turned away from his uncle.

Luke huffed and scolded: "I told you to stop destroying my stuff." He walked over his desk, while navigating in the dark instead of turning on the lights.

"Sorry..." said Ben without meaning it.

"You really have to control your temper..." Luke hit his knee hard on his desk in the dark, which had moved considerably thanks to Ben's tantrum and he cursed furiously and jumped on one foot. "Fricking, holy Sith, Bantha's, kriffing...poodoo...by Obi's beard, Vader's Padawan, Padmé's dresses...!"

"And you have to control your words..." said Ben darkly.

"Ben..." said Luke in warning over the backtalk, as he glowered at the desk for being in his way. He rubbed his sore foot and pouted.

"Are you going to kill me now...?"

Luke whipped his head to him, shell shocked. He gazed at his nephew, who hung his head with a doomed expression.

"Of course not! Never think that..." His uncle bit his lip in shame while remembering and shouted: "It was an accident!" Luke flicked his fingers to turn on the lights, to light his way through the darkness and strode over to him to capture him off the sofa in a stuffy embrace. "I would never do that..." He ruffled his nephew's hair feverishly.

Ben pushed and kicked against his crushing hold. "Can't...breathe..."

"Oh...sorry..." Luke gave him a nervous smile, before releasing him back on the sofa and Ben gasped for breath.

He gave his uncle a death stare. "You could've have killed me!"

"Don't be so dramatic. A hug has never killed anyone..." Luke smiled and messed up his hair some more.

"A Chewie one could..." mumbled Ben and swatted his hand away to fix his hair.

"Chewie is always very careful..." said Luke, offended on the behalf of his friend and Ben's honorary uncle.

"More careful than you...that's for sure..." muttered Ben angrily under his breath, as his hair kept sticking up, no matter how much he tried to flatten it.

"Do you need another sleeping pill?" asked his uncle gently and put a hand on his head to help him keep his hair down.

"No," growled Ben, who gave up on trying to fix his hair, since he was going to get bed hair anyway.

"Are you sure...? I wonder why it hasn't worked yet...you did take it, right?" Luke opened his nephew's mouth, to check inside with a flashlight to make sure he wasn't hiding the pill there, even though he had already inspected it.

Ben snapped his mouth shut and glowered at his uncle. "I don't need another one." He pulled the blanket over him as he lay down on the sofa and faced to the wall.

"How about something to eat?"

"No." barked Ben.

"Are you sure, you don't want to call your mom?"

"Yes...she doesn't need to know about...any...of this..." Ben inspected the damage in the office and shivered in dread, while thinking of her scoldings, if she ever found out about him ruining his uncle's office or anything bad he had done.

"Fine by me...then go to sleep, my son." Luke turned off the lights and went to bed.


Hey, since we have already wrecked Luke's office, doesn't that mean the memory trip is finally over...?

KR: You naive child, no. I told you...we wrecked it...with our saber...

WHAT?!

KR: So much fun...

Always fun to use a saber...I mean oh no!

KR: OH, YES!

Oh, no...


"I can't believe dad didn't come...not even for a visit...that it was all just a dream...it felt so...real...so real...can't believe it...can't believe it..." Ben muffled in the dark and sobbed into his pillow.

"What are you mumbling about?" Luke sat up and turned on the lights again.

"Nothing."

"Sounded to me, like you were still thinking about that stupid dream. Why don't you just call your mother and put it out of your mind?"

"No, I'm not going to," said Ben stubbornly and snuggled more into the blanket.

"You can even talk about Rey..." said his uncle in a tempting voice, like he was offering him candy.

"No..." said Ben hesitantly like he didn't believe his own words.

"Okay fine, then try to sleep...son."

"Still not working."

"It was worth a try...son."

Ben huffed. "I would rather call dad, so I can go home and get my Rey."


Why the kriff, wasn't I allowed to just go home and get her? That's, what we both wanted! It sucks that we had to wait so many years for each other! And we still have to wait, because here I am, stuck inside my mind!

KR: Yeah...poor Vader. Always waiting...for me...

You? No, poor us! I mean, me and Rey...especially Rey, having to be stuck on that stupid desert planet...alone. Waiting forever. It has nothing to with Vader!

KR: It has everything to do with Vader! Why do you think Rey's life sucks so much? To pay for her crimes...in past life...

That's...a coincidence...and our life sucks as well...how do you explain that...?

KR: So we could meet Vader...again...duh.

Rey, you mean...again? So we knew him...erm her in past life? Who were we in...past life...?

KR: Someone...extremely special...to Vader...someone he did everything for...

Who? Not his mom?!

KR: His mom...? The poor thing had to leave her, when he was nine and they didn't meet until ten years later and she died in his arms. Stupid sandpeople! I'm glad he killed them all. They were nothing but a nuance!

Erm...okay...? I still think he overreacted...

Overreacted?! You wouldn't have done the same, if your mom was involved?

I would have blown up the planet!

KR: See...?

Oh...erm...she better not find out about that...I doubt she would approve...

KR: Like the fact, that one of the reasons you turned was to destroy the republic to revenge her...

And that...still you haven't answer...who were we...possibly in past life..? Obi Wan?

KR: Obi...? Are you kidding me? Have you not been paying attention?! You think this is Obikin?

NO! But I mean...we are...I mean I am, named after him...kind of...or well his nickname...mom's only hope...

KR: No, were are not stupid Obi. If you can't figure it out...I can't help you...to be fair...I'm not sure...

Oh, so you don't know it either...

KR: No...I just know...he loves me the most...and that is all that matters...all that I need to know.

Maybe Rey knows...?

KR: I doubt it...she doesn't even know who she is...or was...a pity really...

But, you didn't know who she was either...

KR: That...was a mistake...

Plus, I don't believe that is the truth...

KR: You only believe in things...that suit you...

Kind of...

KR: That's the definition of an idiot...

Hey, you do the same!

KR: Do I?


"I thought you hated your father." said his uncle. "For what he said."

Ben sat up in shock and shook his head vigorously in denial. "NOOO! I don't hate him. I just demoted him...and it was kind my fault...I shouldn't have taken the Falcon it was a stupid mistake...I know he loves the ship...more than me..." He exhaled a long suffering sigh. "Of course he does..."

"He does not love the ship more than you. Don't ever think that. Don't you remember? He gave you the toy Falcon so you could look at that and always remember..." lectured his uncle, but he froze in mid-speech as if he had said too much.

"What toy Falcon? I thought it was just a dream." Ben stared in confusion at Luke, who nodded stiffly.

"It was."

"How do you know what he said to me in a dream...?" asked Ben suspiciously and glowered at his uncle, as if he was hiding something from him.

"You told me...he said that," replied Luke at once.

"I did not tell you that," spat Ben.

"Yes, you did. You just forgot," said Luke firmly and shot him a look, that said, I know best.

"I forgot...?" Ben looked at him bewildered and Luke nodded and used his teacher-voice.

"Yes, this dream was to symbolise your fear. You think he loves that ship more than you and the dream told you, he does not."

"But it was just that...a dream," said Ben sadly.

"Yes, but he definitely still thinks that way, even though you tried to steal his ship. You are just a child, you are allowed to make mistakes. He, on the other hand, should know better. He shouldn't have said you are not his child and that he doesn't care what you do. Not even...if he meant Kylo. You don't talk to a child that way...or anyone for that matter. Especially not your own child." He gazed at him seriously.

"You don't...?"

Luke shook his head with stern frown. "Never. In fact, what he should've said is..." He took a deep breath and looked deeply into Ben's eyes. "You are my son and I will always love you no matter what."

His heartfelt gaze lingered on him for some time, until Ben broke it, by scoffing and crossing his arms. "Well, he didn't. And he would never say something as soppy as that."

Luke looked down and bit his lip like he was about to cry. "Well...that was his...biggest mistake...good night son." He turned off the lights and lay back down on his mattress.


KR: I think your uncle is taking this way harder than you...and he tried to kill you...a multiple times...by accident...or so he says...

Yeah...I mean when I think about it, dad often says stupid things...he was just...angry...and afraid? Right? He didn't mean it...he was speaking about you. He was probably just trying to teach me a lesson or something...about responsibility...for my actions...still weird that he never came...it felt so...real...and nice...or does he really love the ship more than me? Really...?

KR: Of course he does. Like you said yourself, it was too nice...like the nice world I made for you...where every one of your wishes could come true.

I SAID! Stop tempting me!

KR: I'm just speaking the truth...


"Say, if you had a son..." said Ben conversationally.

"Ben, you really need to sleep. You are just stalling now and you need to rest. I also need to rest," muttered Luke annoyed as he tried to zone out his nephew to get his much needed rest.

"What would you say to him...?"

"Say to him?" Luke turned to him.

"Or her...if it was daughter...to let her know you loved him...or her...? Always...? To make sure they would always know that..."

"Simple, I would just say that I loved him...or her every day. Like I say to you, son. Now, stop overthinking everything. Sleep now. Love you. Good night." His uncle turned back on his side to catch some sleep.

"Every day...?" said Ben surprised, as if it was the hardest thing in the galaxy.

Luke groaned when Ben couldn't let the topic drop. He turned on the lights and went to fetch something in the mini fridge in his desk, which was now by his side, thanks to the force moving earlier. "Yes, every single day...since as a parent it's your job to protect your child...or children...also your surrogates one, sons and daughters, from the dangers of the world." He pulled out and opened up a bag of jonga fruits.


KR: I haven't seen you...you Anti-Vader, appreciate Vader, who sacrificed himself for you...the greatest dad and grandad ever!

But before that, he had chopped Luke's hand off...and tortured his own daughter...

KR: He didn't know she was his daughter! And come on, losing a hand is a Skywalker family tradition...for boys...

I haven't lost a hand and I don't plan to!

KR: WIMP!

Hey...so what you are saying is, that Vader wouldn't have tortured my mom if he knew she was his daughter?

KR: Of course not, he would never hurt his own child! Oh wait...erm...I mean...at least I wouldn't...would I...?

You don't have children, stop with that stupid roleplaying.

KR: It's not stupid!

And what about what he did to dad?

KR: He might not have tortured Leia if he knew who she was...but he would definitely have put your father in carbonite to keep her safe from him...so that would probably stay the same...you just know he would be that overprotective dad...he will always go as far as possible to protect his family...even it means killing them...

Poor dad can't catch a break...wait...what?! Killing them?!

KR: And you can't have everything...and really that was just to toughen them up a bit...no one of them died...except grandad! He died protecting stupid Luke! Can you believe that? Why didn't Luke just join his dad, like a good little boy...why did he have to be so...naughty? Why didn't Vader ground him? I would have done that. He was way too lenient...

Lenient! He chopped of his hand!

KR: And Leia she was no better...but at least she didn't know the truth until much later...so I can't really blame her...

Erm...a parent should always protect their child...

KR: I died in childbirth for my stupid children...and how did the reward me? By betraying me!

What...you had children...? Since when...? Betray...? The roleplaying again...?! Stop it!

KR: I have no idea why I just said that...

Then stop talking...please...

KR: Yeah...it's for the best.


"Like your father and mother did...by sending you here." Luke handed him a fruit from the bag. "Eat this, it will make you feel better."

"So they sent me here? To protect me...? From myself?" Ben accepted and inspected the jonga fruit in his hand, as if he was expecting to find answers in it.


KR: Wow you are deeper as a child than an adult.

Shut up.


"Eat."

Ben took a bite.

"You could say that...or rather the darkside dwelling inside of you...and threat that is looming over you. However in a way it was partly your father's fault, you nearly turned in the first place."

"How so...? I was the one who stole..." said Ben with a full mouth.

"Don't talk with your mouth full, you could choke. I meant, because of his words. Your dad probably hates himself for saying those things...that was so easily misunderstood by his precious child. I would..."


Dude you left your...future...adopted daughter on some rock!

KR: We don't know that...adopted? Future...?

I told you we are not related...at least not in this life...hey do you think he left Rey on Jakku, because he knew...or well thought she was Vader?

KR: What? How would Luke...if he did that, then I swear I will cut him down with my saber!

I thought you were going to do that anyway...?

KR: I would do it very, very slowly...

Eep...

KR: But, I don't really believe that he had any idea about that...he is kind of dumb...your uncle...unlike supersmart Vader!

Vader..supersmart...? I would never call him...

KR: I wouldn't say anything more if I were you! You would be insulting Rey as well...

I would not...I would never...but it's definitely Luke's fault that Rey ended up on Jakku.

KR: How?

Like he could've done it without even knowing it...or her mother could have left her there...for erm...reasons...

KR: Then, that's not his fault...

Yes, it is, from a certain point of view...everything is his fault!

KR: I guess I can't argue with that...with him being my enemy and all...stupid Luke...

He probably got the idea to dump her on Jakku because of my dream!

KR: Then technically it's your fault.

Oh...no...


"I hope, I haven't said or done anything you misunderstood...?" asked Luke, as Ben devoured the jonga fruit.

"You have done nothing, but that." Ben threw away the core, annoyed.

"Oh, sorry...son." His uncle caught the core in a waste bin and handed him another fruit from the bag.

Ben glares at him and takes a bite. "It's still not working."

Luke slapped him playfully on the back. "Just call her already!"

The fruit from Ben's hand dropped dramatically to the ground and rolled on the floor.

"Ben...?"

Ben grabbed his throat in sheer panic, as he couldn't breathe.

Blue eye's widened when Luke saw he was choking and Luke stared in horror at his hand." "Oh, no please don't die on me! Leia would kill me!" He grabbed Ben firmly around the chest to get the bite out that was blocking his airway.


That's all he cares about...not me dying..but just that mom would kill him? Though that would be the sweetest revenge, making her kill him for trying to kill me!

KR: Wow...dark...me like...I mean like me...but we didn't die...

Thankfully not! Or I would never have met my Rey!

KR: Or I...Vader...again...

Yeah, can you imagine, Us never meeting Rey because Luke was such a horrible guardian, that he killed us!

KR: Vader would've killed him...or...wait...I'm not sure...maybe just become very, very sad...he doesn't kill as much anymore...maybe he would've have died...this time of sadness!

You can do that...?

KR: I'm not sure...but that's the only death I accept for my Vader!


The bite flew out of Ben's mouth in majestically arch and ended up on the floor, all covered in spit.

Ben heaved and Luke rubbed his back after the successful rescue.

"Ben, are you okay...?"


KR: First you are Sleeping Beauty and now you are Snow White, what's next? Cinderella?

I'm a guy.

KR: You could've fooled me...and who says guys can't be princesses?

Okay fine, if you want me to be a princess...Rey will be my prince.

KR: Of course she will.

Then I'm happy...

KR: In this world...


Ben stiffened, grabbed his throat like he was being choked and shook his head violently. "No, no!" He fell dramatically into his uncle's arms with his eyes closed.


What the...again...?

KR: Huh...? How...?


"BEN!" shouted Luke in panic and tried to shake him awake.

Ben eyes snapped open and held a faraway look in them. He started screaming his lungs out with inhuman scream, like his life was being drained away by some invisible force, startling his uncle greatly. Tear streamed down his cheeks, as he twisted and arched his back in great pain.

In spite of his panic, Luke had the sense to quickly make sure that there was nothing really harming Ben through the force and when he saw it was all in his head and he couldn't really fight it, he held tightly onto him in comfort, as Ben went through whatever it was he was going through. He soothed him like he was newborn baby, by rocking him in his arm, rubbing his back and whispering in soft voice to him, that he was going to be okay.

At last the screaming stopped. Ben looked spent, sweat was glistening on his face like after a great workout and he touched his uncle's face tenderly. "Luke..." He looked to the side as if he was expecting to see his mother standing close by and smiled sadly at her. "Leia..."

"Ben...?" Luke looked even more clueless. "What's going on...?"

Ben turned to him. "There is still good in him...I know it..." His hands fall on his side with a dramatic flair and he closed his eyes, like he was dead.


What the...?

KR: That was some creepy shit...and familiar...

Familiar...? Oh no...I also roleplayed that shit as a kid!

KR: Roleplayed...? Dude, why would roleplay this...? Did you even know about the details of how your grandmother died...or her final words? I didn't, until I spoke with Vader...I think...or was it before...?

I don't...know...anything...


"Ben, who are you talking about?" Luke shook him lightly. "What game are you playing...? Ben, cut the crap...did you pass out? You are stone cold!" He checked his breathing and pulse and was relieved to find that both was working, but not satisfied. "Okay, that's, it. I'm calling your mother," His uncle put him gently down on the mattress, put a pillow under his feet to help his blood flow, opened up a drawer and took out a holographic device.

A ringing sounded through it and after ringing for a while, a little blue glowing child appeared on top of it. It rapped in a bright and cheery voice and danced to the beat.

I'm pickin' up my blaster, puttin' it on my side

I'm jumpin' in my Falcon, Wookie at my side

I'm Solo, I'm Han Solo

I'm Han Solo, I'm Han Solo, Solo

Yeah

I'm Han Solo, I'm Han Solo, Solo


KR: Is that you...singing...and dancing?

Groan...I can't believe she was using that! I was four years old! Lando recorded this for dad's birthday...I'm so embarrassed...

KR: Who wrote the lyrics..?

I did...unca...I mean uncle Lando wrote the song...and choreographed the dance...to mock dad..I think, but dad loved it, which I'm glad for, since I wasn't trying to mock dad..at that time...it was to honour him...why the kriff does that kriffing thing still exists!

KR: So your...obsession with your father at that time, was so much that, you wanted to be him...?

HEY! I was four years old! And it's all about Rey now...except I want to be with her not be her, just like how you only think about Vader.

KR: You mean Rey.

I...no! You stay away from her!


Little Ben's dancing and singing form disappeared and his mother's voice sounded hollow as a prerecorded message started to play: "I'm sad to announce that I'm not available right now, but I'm most likely in a meeting concerning the future of the galaxy, so in way I'm working for your future, so really you shouldn't be too let down over me not being able to take your call right now. However, if it something more pressing that the future of the galaxy, say like something concerning my family, not that's more important the future of the galaxy, but it's important to me, though of course the galaxy comes first, since my family lives there. Not, that it's just important because of that! But I love my family..and the galaxy. Please, leave a message after the beep and will contact you as soon a possible. Thank you. May the force be with you, always. Beep!"


KR: Protecting the galaxy always comes first for her...

Of course it does...

KR: Ruling the galaxy (in the future) comes first for me. That's kind of the same thing, right?

IS NOT! And Rey come first for me...

KR: Oops, I forgot that Vader is of course in my first place!

You forgot...?

KR: SHAME ON ME!


"Leia! You have to help me. Ben has gone mad! Please contact me!" shouted Luke desperately into the device in his hand, as if his screaming would somehow reach Leia faster and added. "I don't want to use our mind-link in case...I know you are in a meeting...please just...call me." He looked at Ben, who was still passed out on his mattress. "I will try to reach your dad in meantime..."

"You don't have his number..." mumbled Ben, like in his sleep.

"Are you back...?" asked Luke hopeful.

"STUPID ANI! I didn't betray you! Obi-Wan did! He snuck on onboard!" thundered Ben and slapped into the air. "I would never betray you!" After that announcement he fell limp back, like he was a droid that had been turned on to deliver only one message.


Ani...?

KR: Rey.

Will you stop putting your inverse/reverse anidala theory into my memories!

KR: Dude, I'm not doing anything! Anidala...?

Anakin + Amidala, you know Padmé Amidala.

KR: That was just my queen's title, I was Naberrie...

I know that...SHUT UP! You are going down a path I cannot follow!

KR: Huh...?

I have no idea, why just said that.

KR: I need a drink.

Me too...

KR: And I'm sorry...I have no idea what it's happening to me...it feels like I'm changing...

Changing...into what? Is this...Snoke's doing...?

KR: Possibly...

Is he sending us those...visions...? In the past...and is he the one trapping us here...?

KR: I wish I knew...

Kriffing...!


"Clearly not...Obi-wan?" Luke lifted his brows high in a surprise, but shook his head as he had other pressing things to think about, then Ben's inane ramblings.

"But I could try his old one...maybe it still works." He looked sneakily at a paper, like he was afraid of spy finding out Han's number or even Ben, but Ben was passed out so it was a needless worry. He punched in the numbers and waited with a bated breath. He glanced at Ben, as if he was expecting him to move but Ben still lay frozen like he was dead. A ringing sound started.

"It's working! It's working!" Luke shouted victoriously when the ringing came through, but his face fell when the little holo child Ben appeared again and started singing and dancing, signalling this was going straight to voice mail.

I'm Solo. I'm Han Solo...


The kriff! Dad was using it too...

KR: Interesting...out of everything, he changed it into this...

No, he has never been up to date with the newest things. Lando must have changed it to tease him...there is no way he would have put this on purpose...I mean he doesn't really care...about me...he send me away...why would he want to be reminded of me...and this atrocity!

KR: Maybe he chose it, because he has such a big ego...

Hmm...maybe...


His father's voice suddenly sounded through a pre-recorded message: "Can't talk! I'm travelling through hyperspace and on the run from some bounty hunters! Nah, kidding...not doing anything illegal or dangerous, Leia. Love you. Love you, kid. Please, leave a message after the beeb. BEEB."


Kid...? He called mom a kid...?

KR: Or your uncle...he's definitely not addressing you...since you know, are his kid...

Me...? Why would he do that...? Why would he expect me to call him...?

KR: I wonder...

No help as usual...

KR: I'M TRYING MY BEST HERE!

Do or do not...there in no try.

KR: SHUT UP!


"Han, you have to help me! Ben has gone mad! I already contacted Leia, but she was busy. Please, I need your help," begged Luke, like he was hoping that Han would pick up at any minute, but when the blue glow disappeared, he sighed in defeat and looked over at Ben. "I really hope they will get in contact soon..."

He filled a wash basin with water and washed the sweat and tears of Ben with a washcloth. "You better wake up, Ben..."

As the first ice cold drops fell on his eyelids, Ben's eyes snapped open and he gulped in deep breaths, like he had been underwater.

"Ben!" Luke gathered him in a crushing hug. "You are alife!"

"Let go of me..." said Ben through clenched teeth, as he had trouble breathing once more and tried to push his uncle away, but then felt that he couldn't move.

"Sorry..." His uncle put him gently on the mattress. "How are you feeling?" He finished washing his face and hands and Ben, who could do nothing, could only hear him wrung the washcloth in the washbasin, before putting it away.

"I can't move..." said Ben scared, as tried to move his arms and feet, which both felt like they had been anchored to the mattress. "What is happening to me...?" Even his head felt like it weighed a ton. His eyes could only stare into the ceiling.

"Don't worry, you will feel better in a minute," his uncle's hands hovered over his chest and blue glow emitted from them.

"What happened to me...?" said Ben and managed with great difficulty to turn his pupils towards him as he healed him.

"Don't worry about that, just rest."

"But..."

"No talking..." said his uncle sternly, as he moved his hands all over his body, without touching him.

Ben obeyed, as it was hard for him to do otherwise.


What happened?!

KR: That's a great question...

Do you have an answer?

KR.: I don't know...Snoke...? I mean the supreme leader...?

Snoke? Wouldn't Luke have...felt it?

KR: Luke? Nah...

What was that...? I don't remember this...

KR: You don't...? What a surprise...NOT!

Did you?

KR: It's...complicated...

Huh?


"Can you move...?" asked Luke after some time, but when Ben was trying to rise up, he held him down. "Gently, don't go too fast."

Ben clenched his fist with one hand and then other. He wrinkled his toes and tried to lift up his hands and make them fall down on the mattress. He did the same thing with his feet. He felt foolish, but at least he could move again.

Luke beamed and ruffled his hair: "Welcome back."

"Back...?" Ben turned his head towards him. The movement were slow, but manageable.

"To life..." announced his uncle with a broad smile, like there was nothing creepy about that statement.

Ben took those words in. Subconsciously he grasped at his neck and gasped as the memory came flooding back. "YOU TRIED TO KILL ME!" He jumped up on the mattress with some supernatural strength, compared to before and swung his fists out in punch.

"No, it was an accident!" Luke grabbed him in a tight hug, so he wouldn't overexert himself and scolded: "Calm yourself!"

"You have tried to drown me, stab me with a saber, suffocate me and poison me!" Ben tried in vain to hit at least one punch on his uncle. When that didn't work, he tried to kick him in his hold, but Luke only tightened his grip on him and rocked him in his arms to try to calm him down, like he was wailing toddler, but not a murderous child...who wanted to kill him.

"Poison...?" asked his uncle confused and stopped rocking him.

"The fish oil..." muttered Ben, as he gave up on fighting his uncle.

"Oh...that wasn't a poison." Luke shook his head and put his, now considerably calmer nephew, back on the sofa.

"So you admit to all the others...?" said Ben in attorney's like voice and acted like Luke was in front of court on a murder-trial.

Luke's blue eyes widened in fright over the accusations. "It was an accident! And most of it was due to your own mistakes! I didn't do any...or well most of those!" he pleaded for his innocence.

"For a place that's supposed to keep me safe, sure has been a danger zone!" shouted Ben merciless.

"IT WAS AN ACCIDENT!"


KR: It protects people from you...

Me...?

KR: You are too powerful...and dangerous...that's why your parents send you away...just look at what you did to your uncle's office...

Oh...

KR: And he's a Jedi...you think a former senator and smuggler can defeat you? I know from an experience that a senator can't do squat against a darkside user! That's instant game over!

Of course are senators helpless against force users, they are not force sensitive...or well my mom is...but she's not trained...and what do you mean defeat me...? Why would they want to do that...?

KR: You are their enemy.

I wasn't at that time! I'm not their enemy today! Not anymore...

KR: Really...? You think you can just get away with everything, with just a slap on the wrist?

I hope so...

KR: What a child...

I don't care, as long as...Rey is in the picture...

KR: As Vader...

She's not...!

KR: Not in this world...

Huh...?


"I want to go home and get my Ani Rey!" whined Ben and kicked his feet out, like she was his favourite ice cream or at least that is how Luke treated it, as he gave him a stern look and wiggled a finger at him.

"Stop that. You can't go home. You know that. When your mom calls back, you really should talk to her about your...visions...I mean...those you just had earlier. Sounded serious to me...drink." His uncle gave him a water bottle from the fridge.

"What visions...?" Ben blinked in confusion, as he gulped down the drink.

"You don't remember?" His uncle sat up, surprised.

Ben shook his head and wiped his mouth.


What the...if I don't remember, why do I have memory about this...?

KR: Think about it, we have been watching all of this unfold in third person. Meaning, these are something more than your memories...

Oh...that must mean Snoke is behind this...all this...confusion...

KR: Sounds like him...or the...force...

Why would the force want to trap me inside my memories...? Or confuse me in the past?

KR: I don't know how the force works...it just does, okay...trust the force...

But what if, it's Snoke...?

KR: Then trust Snoke.

NEVER!

KR: So difficult...


"Okay, that's probably for the best. Then just talk to her about whatever is on your mind..." He patted him on the back.

"She's not going to call back," said Ben miserably as he clutched the water bottle. "She's too...busy..." He threw the bottle away in anger.

Luke caught the bottle before it shattered on the wall and put it on his desk. "Of course she will...I was very desperate. She can't ignore that..." and he added like it was an afterthought. "And she loves you, kid...very much." He handed him a safe plastic cup, so he couldn't break it, but Ben didn't accept it.

"I don't want to talk to her. If she call back, tell her I am asleep." He lay back on the sofa, pulled the blanket over himself and hid under it.

"What about your father?"

"I don't want to talk to either of them," mumbled Ben under his fortress.

"What...why?"

"I'm not going to talk to them, until I can go home again...and pick up Rey."

"Ben...that's a bit harsh. A talking strike...? That will never work." Luke pulled the blanket slowly to uncover him from his hiding place. "Please just talk to either of them or both when they call. You need it, they need you." He handed him the plastic up.

Ben flung the blanket off and sat up in rage. "They are always way too busy for me, why can't I be way too busy for them?!" He grabbed the cup and threw that away. It spilled water all over the floor, but otherwise did no damage.

Luke exhaled in relief that there was no glass shards, but frowned at Ben from his temper. "That's not very wise..."


Oh...o...

KR: I see, so you were also giving them the cold shoulder. You neglected them...

I guess...they kind of deserved it...

KR: So naughty...

HEY! I'm not naughty! I mean I wasn't...isn't...!

KR: You still haven't wrecked your uncle's office for real...in this memory, you know...

KRIFF!


Next up: A little darkside meltdown...

The Han Solo song is real (and infamous) and appeared in Star Wars Kinect game in 2012. You can google it for the rest of the lyrics. ;) I have been dying to include that gem somewhere! And it will be visited again later...;)

In my story Balatik is forcesensetive. ;) which will be important in the sequel...