A/N Still no beta but hey I'm going to try and no let that get me down. Plus side is I got my laptop cleaned and virus free so I can actually turn it on and not have it crash So now I can write whenever I want and just put it on my home computer. So the story stats have me a little sad. 122 hits, 5 favs, 4 alerts, and 3 reviews. I guess it kinda shows that people are reading this. I'm going to try and change the story summary. So for the only 2 who have reviewed my story Alone forever cause your gone and JxB Addicted thank you so much So anyways enjoy this chapter!

Chapter song: Pink-Eventually

BTTS Ch3

BPOV

We are definitely NOT okay! I don't know what is going on with Edward he has been becoming more distant from me this past week. The day he came and apologized and explained how it was not his fault I believed him and I still do but something is defiantly off. He was still the same Edward for a few days still opening my door and offering his hand and gentle kisses. He still came into my room to lay with me and hold me while I slept.

It was the fourth day after the "rape" and yes that is what I am calling it because Victoria took something against his will, but anyways on that day he was not there when I woke up and when he came to pick me up for school like normal but he didn't come to my door to get me or even open the car door. On the car ride to school there was no talk about what we were going to do after school or anything at all. I sat in the car looking out the window trying to think of something I might have done while I was sleeping to make him leave. I came up with nothing, I didn't have any nightmares or weird dreams, I just dreamt my normal dreams of my future life with Edward. When we got to school Edward parked next to his siblings and just got out of the car and walked into the school. I sat there just dumb founded at what he had just done. I opened the car and was bombarded with questions about what was wrong with Edward; of course I had no idea so I just shrugged my shoulders. The day continued with Edward not paying any attention to me and so I had just came to the conclusion that I would let him deal with his problems on his own. I asked Alice for a ride home and went straight to my room and slammed my window shut. I made dinner for Charlie and took my shower, when I came back into my room in only a towel he was there sitting on my bed. The following events were still fresh in my mind.

"That is breaking and entering."

"Why did you shut your window?"

"Because you have been acting all weird, I dealt with it at school but I won't deal with it at home. So if you're going to continue to act all weird will you just leave?"

"I'm sorry my love, it's just with everything that has happened these past few days I'm just feeling a little out of it. I am sorry if I hurt your feelings and made you uncomfortable in any way. Can you forgive me?"

I walked over to my bed and sat down next to him. I turned my body so that I could take his hand and look into those beautiful eyes.

"Of course, but please Edward you have to tell me when something is wrong, I want to help you. I love you and when you hurt I hurt."

He took me into his arms and I lost myself in the smell that is my love.

"Darling why don't you go and put on some clothes, I am sorry I didn't bring this to your attention earlier but being in a man's presents in a towel is not the way a lady should conduct herself."

I could feel the blush explode all over my body and I jumped up racing to over to my dresser and pulling out clothes. I was about to put them on in the room before Edward cleared his throat.

"A lady would never think to undress herself anymore then she already is, in the presents of a man, why don't you take the clothes into the bathroom and I will get you a glass of water to take your nighttime vitamins."

Of course I should go and put the clothes on in the bathroom, what was I thinking! Edward just had the most horrific thing happen to him and there I was about just toss a towel on the ground and possible bring back memories of that night. I stepped out of the bathroom in my Victoria secret sweat pants and matching tank curtsey of Alice. She was always trying to get me to "spice" up our relationship. As promised Edward had the sheets pulled down and was waiting with a glass of water and my vitamins. According to him with my special relationship with the ground and any pointy objects I should be taking extra vitamins to keep me in the top of my game, I could see where he was coming from so I never objected.

"Here you go love."

I took the vitamins before climbing into bed, of course I nightly ritual continued with Edward tucking the comforter in all around me before he hummed me to sleep.

Again the next day Edward was not there when I woke up, I was still a little bothered by it but I just assumed that he was uncomfortable being around me because I brought back memories of the "rape". I decided I would talk to Carlisle about this, maybe he could be someone Edward could talk to since he really couldn't see a therapist. So when Edward didn't show up to take me to school and Alice was the one waiting at my door I had decided to talk to Carlisle.

"I will call Carlisle to let him know you will be coming over after school to talk to him. What is wrong Bella?"

"I'm not sure Alice but I would rather talk to Carlisle about this, its personal."

"I understand, Edward said he was sorry he couldn't be here to take you to school. He left really early this morning saying he had to go and hunt. He left shortly after and we couldn't understand where the sudden need to hunt came from. Oh well let's get off to school, maybe this weekend we could go to the mall and check out a few stores?"

"Sure Alice, we will see."

School was dull and I'm sure I didn't obtain any knowledge from the lectures. There was still no word on how Edward was doing with his hunt. All Alice could see was that he was get his fill of the wild cats. After school we went to see Carlisle, I was nervous of bringing up everything was going on, but I wanted back the man that I loved. I was told that Carlisle was in his study so I made my way up; when I reached the door I took a deep calming breath before entering.

"Bella my dear Alice says you have something to talk to me about. Please come here and have a seat. Are you okay? Is it Charlie?"

I walked over to his desk and took a seat in the comfy chair in front of his desk.

"No Charlie is fine. It's more about me and Edward…..he is becoming very distant these past few days since the "rape". I'm afraid that I say things in my sleep or that I alone is making Edward remember that day. He just isn't the same anymore. I miss my Edward and I want him back! Please Carlisle you're a doctor cant you help him? Maybe talk to him, council him? Be his therapist but please just give me back my boyfriend!"

It was silent in the room and I knew that I was on the verge of tears if he didn't say something soon to sooth my fears. I felt a soft warm calm come into the room and I sent some appreciation towards Jasper where ever he was.

"Well Bella I can talk to him, but I don't know where this is coming from. Edward hasn't changed much here. He is still interacting with the girls here just the same he has before the incident. But if you think he is acting weird then I will talk to him. Have you tried to explain to him how you feel?"

"No….I thought that if I didn't bring it up then I would avoid any kind of flash backs from that night. I just don't know how to approach the subject."

"Okay well here is what I will do. I will call Edward to make sure he stops here before he goes to you. I will let him know you are worried about how he acts around you and that you're not comfortable with it. Then when he comes to you I want you both to sit down and talk about that night and make sure you talk about how you both will work together to get over it."

I thanked Carlisle for his help and had Alice drive me back home.

Here I am now sitting in my room on a Sunday afternoon waiting for Edward to get here; he had called to let me know that he was on his way. I was dressed nicely with my hair curled in little ringlets that flowed down my back. I had a very nice white button up blouse with baby blue flowers on it, paired with my blue skirt. I sat here patiently waiting for him, of course Charlie was watching the game at Billy's house today and I would have the house to myself. After about 5 minutes Edward appeared in my window.

"Hello love."

I walked over to Edward and gave him a hug and a light kiss on the cheek.

"Hello Edward I missed you."

"That is a very nice shirt you have, it makes your skin so much more vibrant."

"Would you like to have a seat?"

We walked over to my bed and sat down facing each other.

"Carlisle says you are concerned with how I have been acting."

"Yes…since that day it seems like you're not there when you are around me, like you're zoned out. You don't act the way like you use to. It's like you don't want to be around me. Like I repulse you, I just want to know what I did wrong."

I could feel myself on the verge of tears and I wanted to stay strong. Edward pulled me close to him and wrapped me in his arms.

"I am so sorry that I have been making you feel this way. I just was so lost with my feelings and I didn't want to burden you with it. That is why I left to go hunting this weekend. I wanted to get my thoughts and feelings together. I wanted to come back here the man that loves you the way you should be loved."

I could feel the tears starting to line my eyes.

"Really that is what's been going on? Oh Edward I am soo sorry for even feeling upset. Here you are dealing with so much more and trying to keep me from dealing with it too. I am sorry Edward is there anything I can do?"

"No love I am all better!"

I knew he was better there was a twinkle in his eye that I never had seen before and just the way he held himself and walked around the room he had a new swag and something else like he was walking around high on life. I had my Edward back but even better than before.

A/N So I hope you all liked the chapter. Again I have no beta so I am sorry if things were not worded right and if I was missing other things. So Bella is calling what happened to Edward rape and that is a very touchy subject. Rape is not a happy thing and if something were to ever happen it is best to seek help to work through any feelings and the trauma that comes along with a horrific event like that. So it's Sunday and Bella thinks everything is okay with Edward…..I wonder what's up with his new mood change? So please review, I like to know that my story is being read. -Angel