December 2016, Sometime around Christmas Time
I haven't heard from Sean for Two months. And the cops found out about our last call, and keep asking me questions. It's driving me nuts. I keep defending and lying for Sean to keep them away from him. They won't give up looking for him and questioning . And the people online are the absolute worst. Especially on Twitter, the whole news feed and wall is about the incident and the comments are absolutely disgusting about Sean and Daniel. Even to Daniel who is just a kid. But people don't care.
I even got told to go back to China and eat dogs, people started being racist to me when I was sticking up for Sean and telling them to back off with the racism and death threats . I'm starting to think maybe Sean was right, the Asian Chick and the Mexican bro thing won't last long with the way people talk over here in America.
I really hope Sean doesn't wind up seeing this shit it's the last thing he needs to see. He's already got enough on his shoulders he doesn't need this extra bullshit on top of it as well. Talking about Sean he rang me out of the blue again. Seems like he stuck with his promise and found somewhere safe where there is a shelter and a phone at least. I've never been more relieved to hear from him again.
After our last call, my mental health spiralled out of control again. Even the meds aren't doing anything. My anxiety's gone over the roof and I'm having mental breakdowns now. These two months I haven't been able to sit still. I just been worried sick about him. The relief after our last call only was temporary until the social media and the cops triggered it all over again.
At least he is safe again for now, But for How long? I asked him again if he ever thinks we'll see each other again and he said that we would, but not for a bit of a while and he called me strong. Yeah right. He doesn't know half of it. I was trying to contain myself on the phone to not let it out too much in case I would add extra stress that he doesn't need. Thankfully he didn't seem to notice too much about it.
The most unexpected was the last words I heard from him before he hung up on me yet again saying he needed to find Daniel was that he said that he loved me too. After two months that asshole finally says it back. That was the last thing I said to him when we last saw each other before everything went down. I think he must be lonely that's why he's saying that and now that Jenn isn't available that's why he's choosing me instead.
Story of your life Lyla, everybody's least favourite and last choice.
Anyway, I think we'll see each other again after a while. Once this all blows over, he kept his last promise so he'll probably keep this one. Until then I get to sleep for a bit till the next wave of worry hits after he doesn't call for too long.
