He was quiet when he entered the ready room seeing her laying there, the photo in his hand. She was laid down on one of the sofa's in her ready room, Rowley curled up beside her as she slept so soundly. Q stepped back looking away a moment and feeling a little strange to just be watching her quietly but he couldn't help it. She looked so, perfect, pure, beautiful. He wanted to clear his throat, move the lump that was forming there and causing him discomfort. The tightness in his chest building as he stood there in a trance. The first time she had looked at him that defiance, that overwhelming fearlessness and told him to get out he had felt the same tightness in his chest. Her ability to challenge him in a way other humans hadn't. Not even Picard. Though the proper captain back in the Alpha quadrant was still one of his favorite people and his personal favorite pet project he still didn't conjure those same strange sensations she could. Her angry glare made him shiver with something other than fear, her smile made his feel like her could fly, and her looks of frustration made him excitable. To the core Kathryn Janeway was his biggest problem and weakness and perhaps that was why he was drawn to her.
Quietly he crossed the room setting the picture down next on a table next to her and pushing a lock of her light auburn locks away from her face ever so careful not to wake her up. "Kathryn, are you sleeping?" He kept his voice quiet just in case she was. Still dressed up in her uniform without so much as a blanket he couldn't imagine she was too comfortable right now. Without snapping his fingers he conjured up a blanket pulling it up over his shoulders and finding it strange she was such a heavy sleeper. Either that or he was stealthier than he thought. "I must admit Kathryn I haven't been completely honest with you. I'm selfish, I have only been thinking about myself but for the first time I am starting to think about someone else. About you and what would make you happy. I know you gave me hope you would come around to liking me but I know what it's like to have these sort of feelings for someone and I know you feel those feelings for someone else. As much as I would love to make you forget about the, 'other' man I don't want to make you feel like it's your only option. I'd rather you come to me at your own free will not because I am the only option you have." He was happy she was sleeping right now, she didn't need to know how sensitive he was. What would people say if they knew the almighty Q was vulnerable.
Patting her on the shoulder he smiled. "But I had a little peek at what we could look like together, and our family. Even if I never get that I'll always know one thing. Our child would have the nicest hair in the universe." Q sighed. "That and with your eyes and smile he would be able to get any girl he would want. Handsome little devil." As much as he wanted to bleed out his heart a little more he just didn't have the time to waste on this pointless endeavor anymore. Turning to leave the ready room Q paused and turned back to see her sitting up now. "Kathy?" He was a little alarmed, had he woken her? Had she heard him?
"You're not the only one who's good at pretending to be asleep." She smirked almost imitating his own sly cocky grin. What a clever little she devil his Kathy was, he admired her own manipulative side.
"So, you heard what I said then?" Q tried to play it off and act calm rather than drop to his knees and beg her to just humor him. "I was honest about everything for the record. No game, no hidden agenda."
"I know Q." The way she had spoken those words with that dark sultry tone made him feel funny again.
"So, are you going to yell at me then?" He kept his eyes locked on hers trying to read her. More so he could run before something was tossed at him.
"No." That short answer was in that same questionable tone of voice and honestly now it made him feel a little hot under the collar. Like he was suffocating in his clothes.
"Do you want me to get out?"
"No." Now she really had him startled, clearing his throat he pulled on his collar and looked away unable to keep eye contact anymore. Was she going to slap him? Sisko had hit him before and it hadn't been a pleasant experience. "Do you want to talk about it?"
Q stepped forward, part of him wanting to launch himself into her arms and the other half of him wanting to turn tail and run. This is what mortal men must have felt like. "Just talk?" Janeway raised her brow making him wonder if they were going to just be talking. Sheepishly he sat down next to her and wrapped the blanket around her shoulders while Rowley got up and moved to the other end so he could continue to sleep in peace. "Listen Kathy I know I'm not your idea of a perfect man, I'm flawed, you made it clear and I don't want to be your only option."
"I know, I heard what you were saying, everything. You want me to have a life I can look back on and be happy. Not something I would regret correct?"
"I suppose that was what I was saying. I understand Kathy just look at me, hardly a suitable mate. You are a stunning woman you could have anyone on this ship, Chuckles, that Paris boy, even Kim if you like them young. Then there is the chance you do make it home in time before Mark moves on without you. You two already are starting a family in a way. You two are having puppies, or your dog is having puppies. I would know I molded Rowley off of your dog back home, tried to make him look like a possible outcome from her litter. You don't need me and I don't want you to think you need me."
He arched his back when she placed her hand on his, a sweet charming and rather sincere smile crossing her face. "I know, but I need you right now." Q almost jumped up and pointed at her slightly dazed and confused, ready to yell at this stranger before him and demand where the real Kathryn Janeway was and what this impostor had done with her. "I was guarded around you, understandably. I can't trust you Q, or at least I thought I couldn't but I know my guard is down now, I am starting to see another side of you and perhaps it's the real side you keep hidden away." She paused squeezing his hand in hers. "Or maybe you are just playing with me but I am tired of feeling guilty, of trying to stay faithful to someone I don't know if I'll ever see again. To someone I started losing my loyalty to and keep trying to convince myself something from it can be saved. I am tired of begin alone and having to make the choice to be alone because I have to look after everyone else here. I can't let my heart get swept up into something that might make me a less reliable leader to them. This crew needs me, Voyager needs me."
Q rested a hand on her leg giving it a slight squeeze, he knew she would always pick her crew, her ship over everything else and she was right when she said she was responsible for them and had to put them first. "I have to hope, I have to believe that this won't be my only legacy. Captain Kathryn Janeway, brought the first starfleet vessel to the Delta quadrant and back again. I want to get us home but to miss everything else in my life? The things I could have had? When I was home I had so much more in store for me, I was engaged, thinking about having a family, having children with Mark but out here I don't have that to look forward to anymore. All I have to look forward to is trying to get us home. The struggles we will have to face and the difficult choices I will have to make and already have made. And this might be all I have left. Can you imagine the burden I have to carry?"
The more she talked the more she felt bad for her, he wished he could keep his promise to send her home, reunite her with Mark but he was already on thin ice in the continuum and had yet to keep his promise to the others. If he did that he might be the next one to be 'erased'. Was it worth to be erased so he could send her home? Yes. "Kathy, I told you I could send you home, when I made the promise the first time I was in the position within the continuum to do so. I don't think I have that trust, that freedom now but if that will be my last living action I can send you home now. All of Voyager, my last gift to you. Damn if they fire at me point blank for it, it would be worth it to me."
"No Q, getting home, that's a journey I have to make myself. I can't ask you to do that for me with the risk." Her expression turned to a solemn one realizing her rather grim fate out here.
"Then don't let this be the only legacy you leave behind Kathryn. Let your legacy echo through space and time until the end of eternity." He was a little bold leaning forward and kissing her. At first he expected nothing but retaliation from her, a swift slap to the face, at the very least to be pushed away but right now he wasn't getting that. Rather than continue to push her any further he thought of how he might be taking advantage of her situation and pulled away. Q wanted to win her not break her nor cage her. His victory wouldn't prove as satisfying if that were the case. "I'm sorry." He whispered trying to move away from her only to have her wrap a hand around the back of his neck.
"I'm not." She whispered back, her lips almost brushing his ear.
Q got up quickly faster than he thought possible for a physical body to move. This was going quickly into something completely out of his control. How uncomfortable. "Is this happening or are you lulling me into a false sense of security so you can bludgeon me with a blunt object and dump me off your ship."
"What, are you afraid?" Was she challenging him? He had never been more attracted to her than he was right then.
"Is this really what you want? Me, being lost out here in unknown territory, this...baby?" Again he wasn't going to just use her even if it completed his own goals. Sleep with the captain of the voyager, check. Make baby with the captain of Voyager, check. Seduce the captain of Voyager, check check. Make the captain of Voyager love him...check?
"Only if you promise to be there every step of the way and don't run at the first sign of trouble or when you get bored of a normal dull family life." Q grinned and looked over at Rowley. Snapping his fingers the puppy vanished.
"He's okay I just put him in your quarters. I get nervous with an audience." Walking back over to her Q felt a wave of satisfaction as he sat back down and wrapped his arms around her, his grin never fading for a moment. "Do you want me to snap us in a bed?"
"Who needs a bed, where we are going Q we don't need beds." She cocked a brow and pressed her lips into him. His heart racing with excitement from her dark tone.
"Oh, naughty girl. I like this side of you, I hope I get to see it a little more." Q kissed her back pushing her down against the sofa and propping himself over her. His fingers working to open up her red coat and push it off her shoulders. She seemed to have the same idea as she slipped her soft delicate hands into his own jacket and got it off him with a speed in grace that was almost shocking for the reserved prude woman he had come to think of as Kathryn Janeway. Once his jacket was off she pulled his shirt beneath it off and rested a hand against his chest while he leaned in to kiss her again. "Be gentle with my Kathryn it's my first time." As sultry as he tried to make that he was afraid to let her know it was the truth. Q had been all talk up until now, his kind didn't do these sort of physical things. Certainly he enjoyed wining women over and making them want him but did he actually bother with the poor lowly beings? No, he was above the physical, however for her he would make the exception. She intrigued him, he was curious to know what the desires of the flesh were like.
"Me too." She joked back with him helping him remove her own shirt and discarding it on the floor beside them. "Boldly going where no starfleet captain has gone before." She smiled and pressed her lips back into his getting swept away in another kiss. Q wanted to make a witty comment but his ability to make a remark vanished as they got lost in each others taste. His hand sliding down along her side and grabbing her rear. She broke their kiss first shuttering a little as she took in a shaky breath.
"Oh Kathy it has been a while hasn't it." Q felt a little more cocky but just as confused as before to what exactly he was suppose to start doing. Nuzzling the side of her neck he placed a few tender kissed on her moving down to her shoulder. "So to not get too sidetracked from the purpose of this encounter, even though knowing how ridged you have been you could use it." For a very brief second the mood was ruined, the look on her face said everything and Q was desperately trying to bring the mood back up to that happy euphoric place they had come down from. "I mean I have a question for you, since we are about to going to be exploring the act of reproduction with each other. Do you have a particular preference for gender. Being omnipotent I can in fact decide the gender of our baby unlike humans."
Maybe talking about the baby they didn't have yet wasn't helping his situation any more. Maybe it was better if he stopped the stalling and got to the making. still Janeway humored him even if she was a slight bit frustrated with him now. "It doesn't really matter to me, surprise me I suppose. That's half the fun is not really knowing though with you I think I can make an educated guess on what you will be picking."
Curling one of her arms around him he placed a kiss on her collar bone and looked at her with a devilish smile. "I don't know Kathryn I just might surprise you." He pressed his lips back against her neck running his hand back along her side and grabbing onto her hip. Holding here there for a moment he focused on making sure she would actually be ready and not just make this a dry run process. Human reproduction was so moody, women went in and out of fertility to quiet in the human species you just never knew when it was best to copulate. Most of them just ran around stabbing in the dark, literally. Luckily he had the ability to manipulate that so there was less stabbing in the dark and more hitting the center of the target. Rushing her cycle ahead a little so she was at peak fertility and thus Q junior had the best chance of claiming today as the official first day of their little life long journey.
Moving down along her body he placed kissed along her stomach trying to figure out where nature was going to be taking him now on this new journey of his. Janeway was making it both easier and harder for him. Easier because she was bringing out a more primitive side the Q had outgrown billions of years ago. Harder because he couldn't logically work through some of this situation with those sexy little faced she was making and that distracting little moaning sound she made when she liked something he was doing. It almost made him want to cover her mouth and tell her to be very quiet before she made him panic. Slipping her pants over her hips he thought he was making decent enough progress now. One of her long lovely legs raising up so he was perched between them. So far so good, though the speed was clearly too slow for her, a more experience member in their two person tango. She reached her hand down the front of his pants grabbing a hold of him and making him almost shy away. As much as the logical part of his mind said run for your life, this is beneath you so too did the other part of his mind reminding him that the only thing really beneath him was her. Those odds seemed much nicer.
Once he told more logical 'evolved' Q to take the back seat things got a little less cumbersome. Pulling down on his own pants he pulled her hips in closer to his own and placed a kiss on her lips again. Following his most basic of urges he reveled in the warmth of her body against his and pushed up into her letting out a satisfied growl at her tender little moan. It didn't even cross his mind then on what he had to do, his pace started out unsteady showing his inexperience, something she was picking up on with a quick look at him and the raise of one of her brows. "Does it surprise you Kathy? I said it was my first time. Q's don't commonly give into basic animal urges like you humans." Trying to smooth out his rhythm he felt a a new rush of excitement come over him, her silent judgment replaced with another breathy moan. If she kept doing that he would lose his concentration again. It wasn't even the sensation of being with her that was making his head feel foggy, it was her little faces she made, the little sounds she did. A strange sensation built up in his chest as his pace speed up and those little faces she made turned into a real problem. With the speed up of each thrust Kathy leaned her head back nearly falling half way off the sofa and forcing him to partially hold her up so she wouldn't slip out of his grip and he out of hers.
Kathy seemed well lost in the rapture of their little private moment but with each moment they inched closer to the edge she was getting a little too loud for it to stay so private. Certainly anyone up late at night on the bridge would be hearing her by now. Her cute little o face distracted him again almost making him lose his pace until he was moving erratically. For a brief second he felt like a supernova had gone off in front of him and from the tight grasp Kathy had of his shoulder she was feeling it too. A little shaky now Q slowed his pace before the sensation ran back into his arms and made him realize he had fallen over by her side. A shiver ran down his back, his toes tingling from this strange sensation he had experience and all he could do was look up and smile. As soon as Q was able to make the room stop 'spinning' he turned to his side and wrapped an arm around Kathy hoping she wouldn't almost fall off again. "I know your Vulcan friend would insult me for my choice of words but, wow."
Kathy seemed to be out of breath, not able to actually keep up with the omnipotent being in this case. Normally she had a witty remark to make but honestly she was a little speechless now. "I don't mean to seem rude but since we are going to be parents and likely involved in each others daily lives would you mind if we did this some more. Only every once and a while, when you want to of course?" She just nodded her head still slightly speechless making Q pick up that big grin again and pull the blanket over her shoulder. "You're welcome."
