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Chapter 5 - "Year 3 – becoming a true tirade"
The next day Izzy woke up with two warm bodies pressed against either side, their arms protectively around her. She felt like she was in her own little cocoon and nothing could affect her. "Wow." she says and feels one of them chuckle, while the other mumbled "Mmmmm." into his pillow. She was in heaven and she can't believe that she was in bed with those two handsome men, whom mean so much to her.
A big smile broke out on her face as she opens her eyes. Yesterday wasn't a dream, but more so reality. All of a sudden she feels self-conscious, was is it for real or only fun for them. Even if they talked about it yesterday, she didn't know if they mean it or only said it to get her in their bed. No they never would do that to her, they were friends and the romantic gesture wasn't a normal play for them. All signs say that they want her in every possible way, but it is nevertheless hard to believe after they haven't talked to her in six months.
"Stop thinking this early, Baby. I almost can hear your thoughts." Dean says with a smile, she looks at him, but his eyes were still closed.
"Can't help it. I feel like I won the lottery and I am afraid someone will take that away from me." Izzy points out to him.
She feels movement behind her as Jim comes closer and says into her ear. "Oh, Kitten, we are the lucky ones, because we both got you. Do you know how long we dream about you?" She shakes her at his question.
"Since the day we met you!" Dean answers instead of Jim.
"What took you so long?" Izzy ask them.
"As we said yesterday we believed we don't deserve you." Jim answers.
"Why?" she wants know, why they had that impression was beyond her, because to her it is insane.
"We are the love and leave them type, but we couldn't do it to you." Dean answers.
"And now you can or what?" Izzy asks them slightly panicked.
"What?" Dean asks her and sees the panic in her eyes as he opens her eyes to look at her.
"No, what Dean wanted to say was. Now we can't fight you anymore and would never leave you." while he says that he straighten him up so that he also can look into her beautiful eyes.
"Yeah, we are all in, Baby."
"But we have to warn you, we never had any serious relationships, but we will do anything to keep you, Kitten."
"It may sound sudden, but you are it for us. There is nobody else, there never was since we met you." Dean says.
"Of course only if you still want to have us." Jim finishes.
Wow, these two men surprised her. They almost said I love you in not so much words. Not that she wanted to hear that so soon. But this declaration that she was it for them was almost the same. Tears fall down, because how can they say that after the last six months. They don't know how much she has changed and that she didn't like herself anymore. All because she can't work out that her actions were justified. Even if the regulations and her orders tell her that she was right, her morals say otherwise. Her own values can't be arranged with that.
Dean starts to kiss away the tears and ask her. "What is it, Baby?" He thought that telling her their feelings would make her happy, not sad.
"How can you say that I am it for both of you, when I am not sure, who I am, anymore?" Izzy says in a whisper. It was the first time she talked about her feelings since all the things she has done in the past. In the briefings after the missions she was part of, which only were five she all played it down like she could handle it. But from the looks of it, she only bottled it up so that it can come out now. She thought nobody understands her, because they don't know her that much. Yeah she talked to Sam and Bones, but she couldn't tell them everything, because they wouldn't understand here. The only two who know her like the back of their hand, didn't spoke to her for six months.
Dean and Jim saw now, what they really had done, by not talking to her. She always talks to them about her problems, especially in situation where she could lose herself in her actions. They were her anchors as well as conscious and they know it, like she is for them. Before she met them, she kept everything to herself, but with them she opened up as did they. Even before they were intimate they always were in balance with each other. So with them she was balanced, but now she looks only like a shell of her former self. They hate to see her like that, that isn't her. She must have lived through hell to feel so lost. They know she wouldn't have let her mask go with the crew of the U.S.S. Division, she not even let Bones or Sam see this side and they are like brothers to her. No all of Izzy only Dean and Jim got to see and they both did the same with her. All of them trust each other with their complete selves and now Izzy doesn't know herself anymore. They have to fix that.
"Kitten tell us what happened?" Jim asks her and takes a stronger hold of her as he let his head fall back on the pillow beside her.
"Yeah, together we find you again." Dean said as he also moves closer to her. Nothing could get between them now. They want to show her that they are there for her, now and ever. They weren't just lovers and friends, but most of all family. They have to repair so many things so let's start now.
She doesn't know if she could tell them, which was new, she normally could tell them everything. But she hasn't talked about the events that much, only the necessary and the rest she had buried deep inside of her. Additional they aren't things she isn't allowed to tell them. Maybe she could give them the child version of the events, because she wants to tell them or better she has too. The longer she is keeping things in, the more she is going crazy. Neither Jim nor Dean stress her, because they know she has to open up on her terms and nobody else's, so they wait.
It took her some moments, but then she starts talking. She starts in a whisper and behaved until she reaches the point where everything bubbles out of her. She told them everything. How she was in sickbay for three days, but she didn't tell that them that the virus was actually a bio weapon of the Romulans, they could secure before going off. Even with repercussions it was a win in her book. Nor that she was actually 10 days in quarantine and for the most days in an artificial coma to stop the virus from spreading in her body. In a light version she told them, how, where and why she killed another being. With her actions they stopped an assassination on a planet, but she also took a live. But she told them as the only person in the whole universe about her reoccurring nightmares and that the night between them was the first one in weeks she could sleep without any.
As they heard about her nightmares and that they kept them at bay, they insisted that she moved into their doors unofficially of course. It was against regulations to sleep in the quarters of the other gender. The only had to keep an eye open for the random inspection of their rooms. With that in mind she stayed after that night every night with them. They also connected the beds so that they have more room during the night. Not that they needed it, because they always sleep close to each other, she always in the middle of them. This way they want to protect her.
Talking with them, being with them, helped her to accept, what she had done, so that she could accept herself again. It took her some time but after four months she felt like herself again. Both of them were a big part in her recovery, but it also helped to see her family, her parents and Tony. Who after four months of bureaucratic effort of her parents became her brother. They become his foster parents and applied to take him in. She always has liked him and now that he is her brother, she tries to be at home almost once a week. Sometimes the boys would come with her. Her mother adores them and treats them like family. Her father is on a mission away and she will see him only in weeks.
The two men in her live are good boyfriends and it was easier for them to live monogamous then they would have thought. A reason for that was of course the sex, because that is great, the three of them work perfect with each other. But that doesn't mean they haven't have sex only one by one. There were times that only one of them was there, because the other has something to do. They love to fuck her alone or together, but somehow they prefer together, because their little girl is very kinky and naughty. She likes to be dominated as well as possessed completely and they can't deny her anything. She let herself fall with them and only them, which let them feel special. But the best part is that the two work in sync without speaking out loud to pleasure her and give her what she needs. In return they receive more they ever wanted from sex, they are more than satisfied, because she gives back as much as she gets. All in all their lives were good.
They fall in love with each other more every single day. But what nobody has seen coming or maybe Izzy, was that Dean and Jim start to feel for the other something as well. They feel for the other male in almost the same way as they feel for her. Both were bisexual, but the other doesn't know it, because every male one night stand was fucked in the partners home and not theirs. The relationship reaches a new step, because Dean as well as Jim want to kiss, to lick, to suck and of course to fuck the other one. But neither of them starts anything in this direction and only dreams about it for the moment.
Until Dean was on the end of his robe and needs advice for what to do next. Only one person could give him that advice and he loves her with all his heart, even if they doesn't have said it out loud yet, makes it the less true.
That's why he stood outside of her dorm and rang her bell. "Come in." he heard her say.
He enters and sees that they were alone. Good. She was sitting at her desk, as he approaches her from behind, as he is at her side, he kisses her check as a greeting. But it isn't enough, so he gently turns her around to kiss her right. The kiss got headed fast. Oh God, he loves to kiss her and so does she, he knows that. But he is her for a reason so he broke the kiss and connects their foreheads to glance into her beautiful eyes.
"Hey Baby."
"Hey, what do you need?" she asks him because she reads in his face, that something is eating him up from the inside. A suspicion in her mind tells her that she knows what is going on. She saw that talk coming, because she knows her men like they know her.
"You don't waste time." Dean says as he walks to her bed to take a seat. But he didn't answer instead he scratches the back of his head. He is nervous, she knows why, but that isn't necessary, because she loves both of them no matter what.
"Come on, Love. Nothing is as bad as it seems." she tries to encourage him with a big smile.
"You say that now." he answers her. If he was true to himself, he has to say that he is nervous, because he is afraid that he would hurt her with his feelings for Jim. That's the last thing he wants to do. He loves her very much, but also Jim, if you could call it that at this state of the relationship. He fears that they love for Jim drives a wedge between them and he can't have that. Because he knows that he needs Jim and Izzy in his life to function in balance like she so often says, he can't afford to lose either of them.
She sees his inner turmoil and wants to ease him into his confession. Not that you could call it that, that would mean he cheated on her, which he didn't. He simply follows his heart and why should she be the only one of the three of them with the luxury of two lovers instead only one. Especially because she has hoped for such a development, that they all would love and fuck each other and not simply her. This way it would become a true triad in which all the partners are equals. "I think I know what this is about?"
"Really?" Dean looks at her, he asks himself could she really know and the answer is with Izzy everything is possible.
"Really." but instead to tell him what she knows, she approaches the topic from the back. One of her secrets could help, yeah she has secrets, everyone needs them, where is the fun in knowing everything about your partner. "Do you know how I lost my virginity or better to who?" she asks him as she took a place in his lap.
"No." he was little bit bewildered, what she is trying to do, just seducing him and distract him from the talk or change the topic all together. Maybe she would turn him on with her story, but she doesn't do it because of that, but simply to make him feel as comfortable as possible with her. So that he feels at ease to tell her, what weighs on his heart?
"I had my first time with a woman and I liked it very much. I thought for a time that I only like woman, but then I met a guy, who interested me as well, and I learnt that I am into both." she whispers into his ear in a husky voice. She let her words sink in as she starts a trail kisses along his neck from one ear to the other. Her actions send shivers down his spine. As she reaches the other ear, she continues husky. "And I think that you are also into both. I am right?" she asks him.
He swallows his lust a bit, because he was perplexed and he has to concentrate on the answer. "Yeah I am." There was no hesitation by telling her that. He wasn't embarrassed about it. No, no, but he simply don't want to lose her, but from the point of view how the things are going at the moment with her hands slowly removing his shirt and kissing his chest, it doesn't look that way.
"So I don't have a problem with you fucking Jim or the other way around when I am not there or when I am. I really like to see that." she really has a naughty mouth and he loves it. In his mind an image of him fucking Jim while he would lick her wet tight pussy made him instantly hard.
He has to do something about that. "You have a dirty mouth. I think I should punish you for that." he says before he claims her lips in a passionate kiss. He feels her smile while he kisses her, because she loves to be punished and the both of them know it.
In a swift move he had her on her back and gets rid of her shirt. She didn't wear a bra today and her breasts were full on display for him. He takes her wrists in his hand and secures those over head, while he starts with his mouth sucking one nipple and pinching the other. She responds with a moan, the noise went directly to his cock and his jeans got tighter. He has to get rid of the rest of their clothes. So he lets go of her nipples, kisses her and says. "Baby stay the way you are, while I undress us or I have to punish you."
In her eyes he sees that she will move, because she wants to be punished. Not that he has a problem with that so he lets go of her hands and undresses himself with on swift move. While he lost his jeans and boxers, of course she turns around so that she was on all her fours and displaying her ass to him. "What did I say, Baby." with that he slaps her one on of her ass checks, before he takes away the skirt and learns surprised that she is not wearing any panties. "Oh, Baby, tell me have you waited for me to fuck you?" he wants to know.
"Mmmmmmm." she answers.
Not good enough, so he slaps her again. "You know you have to say it."
She tries to form a sentence but her lust is overwhelming, especially as he inserts one finger into her wet center and starts to move in a steady but very slowly. "I wanted … to be fucked."
It is to slow; she needs more, so she starts to increase the tempo. As she increases the tempo, he stills his movement and says. "Ah, ah, you know the rules Baby. We are in control so no fucking yourself on my finger or I don't fuck you." She gets another slap on her ass for that. She whines, but nods. "Good." with that he positions himself beside her, gives her another slap for good measure and then straightens her up, so that her body leans into him. She does as told, good. So he reaches from behind to her pussy and massages her clit in a fast rhythm. She starts to whimper and her climax was on her way, but before she reaches the edge he removes his hand completely and presses her forward to enter her with one swift move from behind.
He has a firm grip on her hip as he enters her fast, now wasn't the time for slow. The both of them were so randy, that only hard and fast would bring them optimal release. "Please … Dean … harder … make me yours." That was all he needed to know and he increases his tempo. He likes to be in her, she feels like heaven and her wet core made him almost see stars. But she has to come first, all it took now were some thrust and she was crying his name out loud. That and her tightening walls around his hard cock took him over the edge as well. Together the fall on the bed after they ride out their climax.
He let go of her and rolls on his side, but he firmly pulls her to himself and kisses her in there post sex mode. He never was a cuddling type after sex before but with her and Jim he did just that. Together they caught their breaths. Even after the sex he needs assurance, so he had to ask her again. "Are you really okay with me and Jim? If he is up for it!" He is the only one missing in this equation.
"Yeah and there will be no if."
"How do you know?"
"He is also bisexual."
"Really, but he never brought a guy to our room."
"Did you?"
"No, I didn't want any problems with him."
"Maybe Jim feels the same way."
"Ok. … Jim was right."
"What do you mean?" she asks him.
"We are really the lucky ones with you as our girlfriend."
"Thank you Dean. I love you." she says the first time, because it felt like the right time. It also wasn't some sort of favoritism, she would have told Jim the same thing, would it have been him.
He was happy to hear her say that and took a deep breath, before her answers. "I love you too, Baby." That was hard for him not because he felt that he was obligated to say it. No, Dean only does what he wants and not what he was obligated to do. It was the first time he said these words to someone outside of his family and he never said this word often, only a handful times to Sam and nobody else. But she was family to him, if he thought about it; she has a big part in his heart and forever will be, because he truly loves her.
They kiss to show their love as well, before they fall exhausted on the pillow. Slowly the both drift off, both with thoughts of their missing piece on their side. The three were a unit in every way of life.
Jim had a very stressful day; he took the Kobayashi Maru Test … again and failed for a second time. After he had failed again, he looked up the test results since the test was installed and learned that until now; no-one has ever beaten the test. That was unacceptable to Jim, especially after he learnt that Dean and Izzy also failed the test. The three of them are smart with Izzy as the smartest of them. But if not even her could beat the test there has to be something wrong. Jim doesn't have any delusions, because he knows that Izzy is way smarter than him as well as the most of the rest of the Academy. How could that be, they are highly intelligent, but most of all they are like him, because they don't believe in no-win-scenarios. But a damn computer program, not even a real being, beat them, all of them. That can't be right and doesn't sit right with him.
Whoever created or wrote the test has it installed so that everyone fails it. The program has to change so that he could teach the inventor a lesson. It can't go on this way in his opinion. Star Fleet Captains need to believe that there are no no-win-scenarios, but that damn test takes that away. For that they have to change the look of the program, because even if other people believe it would be cheating it is also another way of beating the test.
In real live you can't reset after a failure. No you fail and you have to live with it. But that test gives the possibility to do it again and again, even if Jim was the first, who did the test for a second time. In a real mission you have to use all possible ways to complete it. So in his opinion cheating equals doing everything that is necessary to win a mission.
But before he did some rush thing like he is used to, he wanted to talk to Izzy and Dean about it. Since they are together and he not only means romantically. No, but also the time before that, he somehow always has discussed his action or at least his fatal actions with them. He learnt to listen to Izzy after she stopped some bar fights before they even started, which he often hated, because he likes the extra training as well as Dean. But she always managed to figure out a more cunning method to use against their opponents with the side effect that in the most it cases couldn't be lead back to them.
He loved that about her, yeah, a word that you normally wouldn't find in Jim Kirks vocabulary, but she changed that. Especially what love means to him unconditionally support, always a helping hand, but also a voice of reason? All that's left was to tell her. But after his growing feelings for Dean, which he can't ignore anymore, he wasn't sure what to do next. Which was a new one for Jim, he always was a flirty one and liked to act on his attractions, but with his feelings he wasn't sure. He was afraid to get hurt. But he knows that he loves them both equally.
But beside that Izzy and Dean and him they are really balanced like she said at their first night together. They come up with lethal plans if they want to and the Academy or better the cadets learnt fast not to mess with them. They are a force to be reckoned with, but of their ambitions to become Captains they never would operate on the same starship together, which he regrets sometimes. But the outcome they will accomplish as respected captains with three starships instead of one means so much more, that was a reason to forget that they would be more apart in the future then together.
So he searches for them to discuss his test and his plans. He starts at their dorm; they weren't there which wasn't a surprise, because during the day she likes to study in her room, but since they have sex together she can't concentrate with him or Dean nearby. As she said their sexy bodies are a distraction for her and she doesn't need that, if she wants to reach her goal. So they let her study alone, because they support her with becoming a Captain, like she did with them. But she had to promise that she would be in their dorm, in their bed at night. So that she didn't overwork herself, which she did more often than not. But it got less since that promise, which was good thing.
So he looks next in her room and there he found them. Both naked on her bed, they had some fun without him, which was fine by him. He knows she doesn't play favorites and he wasn't jealous of Dean or the other way around. They share her and they love every part of it. He also had fucked her alone, it was nice, but he and Dean preferred to fuck her together and the extra stimuli of watching Dean's body during sex was an incentive, even if he liked to do more.
They look so peaceful and beautiful. Jim cares Izzy's check and gives her a kiss on the forehead. Without thinking he did the same to Dean, because he thought that he was still asleep. But as soon as he left his forehead he saw that his eyes were wide open. Jim can't read in them any disgust like he expected. No, Dean looks at him expectably and happy. But before he had a chance to think about that Dean straightens himself and kisses him. The kiss was slow and it took Jim a moment to respond to it, but all the pent-up passion wants to come out. They kiss each other for some moment and fight for dominance, but before they could go further they were interrupted by Izzy. "Finally." she says with a smile as she looks at them. That face told Jim all he needed to know. She doesn't have a problem with the development in their relationship so he kisses her with the same passion as Dean.
"I love you Izzy." he says the three words for the first time in his live and he means them.
"I love you too, Jim." she says with a smile. With her hand she reaches for Dean and brought his hand to her face as she says. "And I love you."
"I know." was his answer to that, he only says such things once. One chick-flick moment per day or better per week is enough. Izzy doesn't have a problem with that, because she knows that he means the same thing with that. She kisses him with passion and heat, while Jim watches them for a moment. He feels his interest growing, but he has other things on his mind.
"Not that I don't like where this is going, but I wanted to talk to you both." Jim declares.
They finish their kiss, straighten themselves up. Izzy tries to hold the bedsheet in place, because of Jims tone she knows that it is something serious and she didn't want to distract him. "What is it?" Dean asks what Izzy thinks.
"I took the test again." Jim answers as he took a seat on the bed.
"What … why didn't you tell us about it?" Dean wants to know.
"I guess you failed again." Izzy concludes.
"Yeah." Jim admits.
"Fuck, but that doesn't answer my question." Dean points out.
"I knew you would have talked me out of it."
"A given, but we know we can't change your mind if you set your stubborn head on something." Dean says.
"We would have supported you. We would have come with you to the test." Izzy finishes for Dean.
Jim knows that of course, but he was afraid he would fail again, as he had, and he didn't want to do that in front of the two people he loves. No his ego wouldn't have stand it. They also would have wanted to be part of the crew and he hated to command them, they are equals. The only exception is in bed in Izzy case, because she likes it so much. But he can't tell them that. "Yeah, but what's done is done."
"Okay, what do you want to talk about?" Dean brings them back to the beginning.
"That damn test gets to me. I want to beat it."
"Why?" Izzy wants to know.
"It takes away the possibility to think outside the box. It makes you accept that there are no-win-scenarios."
"You got me there." Dean says.
"But what do you want to do?" Izzy asks because she has the distinguish feeling that he already has some sort of plan. He wouldn't be James T. Kirk if he hadn't an idea.
"To beat the test we have to change it." Jim says with a smile.
"You mean cheating." Dean caught on.
"No, don't think about it in a cheating way. It is simply a new solution for an apparently unsolvable problem." Jim says and Izzy understand what he tries to say. As a lawyer and as a Captain you have to use any way to finish your task. There no such thing as a wrong way to get what you want as long it is legal and works.
"And how do you want to do that?" Dean wants to know. He didn't have a problem with doing it, because he also is pissed at the test. He also wants to beat it, because he like Jim doesn't believes in no-win-scenarios.
"I think I can help with the how?" Izzy says and took Dean out of his thoughts.
"How?" both her lovers want to know?
Instead of answering she searches for her tablet to make a call to a person she hasn't seen since college and she once loved very much. She got up from her bed and both men watch her naked girlfriend search for god knows what. Because she isn't telling them anything, so they enjoy the view as the lean back on headboard of the bed. Izzy found what she was looking for and with the tablet in her hand she took her place in the middle of her two lovers again. She covers herself as she starts the call.
"Who are you calling?" Jim wants to know.
"You will see, but please don't be jealous." she says mysteriously.
Jim looks at Dean as if he wants to ask him what she means by that. Deans answers was a simply shrug with his shoulders like he wants to say hell how should I know, but we will find out soon. That was true, because the call was answered after some rings and on the screen appears a beautiful red head, who answers the call with. "What's up bitches?" But she didn't look at the screen, but more at her desk while she reads something. It looks to them as if she would always answer calls like that.
"I don't know bitch. You have to tell me." Izzy answers which took them both by surprise she doesn't curse. Only in the bedroom and of course they like that. As she said that the reader looks surprised up. Jim wasn't sure what her face means, because it was a mix of anger and happiness. "What no hello. … I rendered Charlie Bradbury speechless. I have to mark the day red." Izzy says with sarcasm.
"You would be speechless as well, if your ex calls you with her new lovers by her side. Because of course you can't have only one, no, you need two." Charlie says and crosses her arms in front of her chest. Dean and Jim only heard on word from her little outburst and that was ex. Jim was shocked that Izzy had something with a woman. At least Dean knew beforehand, but that doesn't stop the movie in his head of the two women in bed. Oh she would be punished for not telling, who she is calling, Dean thought.
"Sorry Baby but if I remember correctly you broke it off with me." Izzy says in an icy voice.
There was silence for a moment until Charlie broke out into a smile. "You know I still love you, how could I not."
"Thank you and you still a have place in my heart." Izzy answers.
"Yeah, but now I have to share with the two of them at least your type is still the same, Baby."
Instead of Izzy, Jim answers. It took him just a little time to find his voice again. "What do you mean by that?"
"Like me you are handsome, have egos, probably a big mouth and are geniuses." That was exactly accurate, they boys thought. But before either of the guys could react to that Izzy speaks.
"Yeah you know me. I can't resist good eye candy." The boys have to smile at the compliment and high five each other over her head.
"Of course that's what got you in my bed." Charlie says.
"Not just that but your talent hands and …"
"And what?" Dean and Jim were curious. Only thinking about them in the sack made them hard. After this call they would have so much fun, they communicate that to each other with on simple glance.
"And what can I do for you. Not that I don't like to see you topless." she says with a smile because Izzy bedsheet was slipped off so that all could see her breast. Izzy didn't have a problem with that, but Dean and Jim don't like that their girlfriend would show her goods to her ex. So they cover her up. Izzy has to smile to that, they are so sweet sometimes.
"Ok they are territorial. I like that … and them." Charlie says.
"I thought you would. Enough with the pleasantries, we need your help or better a favor." Izzy answers. Charlie was interested, because to have Izzy owing you a favor always was a good idea, especially in her business. So they start planning to bring down the test. After that the three of them had an eventful night of love, passion and sex.
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