My Heart Turned Red
Chapter 5: My Heart Turned Red
Author's note:
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I'm not so sure about this chapter. I apologize if it's not good.
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Either I'm going absolutely insane, or something in the universe hates me. I'm in love?
And with a Red? Sure, someone from my garden but a Red? You've got to be kidding me. Me, in love? Is doomsday near, or am I just completely losing it here? There's no possible way I could ever fall in love with a Red, and more or less, be hopelessly in love with one. She's from the Garden that single handedly murdered my father and smashed him into tiny little pieces and I had to stand there and watch my hero get completely destroyed. So there's no possible way I could be in love with this girl. I missed my father so much, and revenging him was my only reason for living, and now, I couldn't think of that without having her in my mind, her smile, her eyes, her beautiful face. NO! There's no way, I'm a person who's unable to feel something such as love, and even if I did, I wouldn't ever really be in love because I had locked out every single emotion except hate and anger and I was taught never to ever love anyone. Sure, I was a few girls over the years but I never felt anything compared to what I feel for this one girl. I had never felt this way before in my entire life about someone, and just when I thought my life was complete and perfect and we could be together in peace, she turns out to be a Red? My heart belongs to my enemy! And I can never get it back again, and for some reason, I don't want it back. She's the only one I ever wanted to give it to anyway. NO! Gnomeo! What are you thinking? A few hours ago you hated Reds more than anything in the world and now you're actually considering the possibility that you want to actually try to love this girl? I never heard anything so stupid in my life. Well... Just shut up now. You're not helping the situation and more importantly, I don't want you here, I need to figure this out myself, and no one can do it but myself.
Myself is not helping me see reason.
Blues and Reds have been enemies forever, she was most likely raised to hate us, and there was no possible way that she could ever feel anything towards me but hatred. No Red could feel any sort of emotion, they were all cold hearted, murderous monsters. They killed my father! I don't think I'm remembering this! I would've smashed my head against something or hit myself, anything to convince myself that I wasn't in love with her. Anyone else but her, please! I'm begging whatever the bloody hell is up there! Please don't make me fall in love with this girl! She's a Red, and I'm a Blue, there is no possible way we could ever be together. I hit myself again for even considering the possibility I loved this girl. She's a tramp who was seducing me to lure me to my death, and she would've done it if I hadn't realized that she was a Red first. But then again, she didn't look as if she knew that I was a Blue, and I mean she actually gave me the impression that she returned my feelings. I just sat against the fence and closed my eyes. Whenever I thought of her, I thought of those beautiful emerald green eyes, how beautiful I thought she was, more beautiful than any girl I'd ever seen, and how close we were to kissing and... I slapped myself at the thought. How could I possibly want to kiss her! I tried to replace my hideous thoughts of wanting to kiss her and hold her forever with the blood stained color of her hat, and how much I wanted to rip that thing off her head. Why am I still thinking about her? I hate her, and yet, I can't even get her out of my mind for a split second. Trying to do that was like trying to stop breathing, the thought of that made me once again hit myself.
Why won't Juliet leave my mind? I can forget about all other girls I've been with and yet I want the one I can never be with.
I was fine with never seeing her again, and she probably hated me and never wanted to see me again either. She was running from me and I saw the fear in her eyes and her horror at finding out that I was a Blue. I knew how much horror I felt, and yet I didn't. Oh, Gnomeo, why can't you stop thinking about her and trying to find ways to see her again? I don't think you've realized that she's a Red, you're a Blue, therefore the next time you see her, you have to come at her with a Lawnmower and use her head as a Lamppost. My mind cringed at the thought. I could never harm her, it would kill me. My mind was starting to give into the fact that I couldn't run away from her, but accepted the fact that we could never see each other again.
I'm already in hot water with the Red Garden for many occasions not just because of what happened tonight that lead me to meeting her. In other words, the Red Garden hated me more than any Blue. Out of all Blues, I was the one with the worst reputation with the Red Garden. And that's because I hated it so much that I would do anything to ruin it. I had to face them sooner or later again for what happened tonight, and when I did, I was sure that my mind would think back to her and how she would hate me if I did anything to her garden and how she would hate me for the rest of her life. And there comes the matter of my garden. My Garden hated the Red Garden with every ounce each Gnome had in them, and the thought of seeing any of the Red Gnomes, made them honestly want to die. They were all loyal and good friends with my Dad, and they never wanted to see my Dad's killers. Just as I did, except maybe when I was the one to seal their fate. They hated Reds, and they would never make an exception for anybody, just as the Reds would never make any exception for me. Why am I even considering she felt the same way, and why am I considering I love her?
I had to go home and think this over, and then FORGET IT. I would never think about this again, as far as I'm concerned it was just a dream and nothing more than that. I hated her, and would never think about her ever again. I didn't even remember her name, well I did, but you're missing the point. As far as I was concerned, I fell in the Lawrence Garden and found a great escape to come back home, and that I was more than happy about what I did tonight to them and that I would always do horrid things to the Red Garden as long as I loved. That was what my life was all about and that's what my life would continue to be about. This was my plan and nothing would change my mind about it. I walked towards my door, and was about to reach up and push the door open and forget this whole thing ever happened. But something came over me, and I realized that I couldn't move my arm.
I couldn't. It wouldn't move, and when I tried to open the door with the other arm it didn't help me either. I realized that it wasn't my body that wasn't allowing me to move, but it was my heart that wouldn't let me. It stung every single part of my body to the point I hurt from these feelings she had given me. I couldn't even stop thinking about her, and my heart was racing in my chest to the point where I couldn't even breathe. The thought of leaving her and never being able to see her ever again killed me worse than if I were smashed. What was wrong with me?
When she wasn't there, the world seemed like a place that I couldn't even exist on. I felt empty without her. A life without Juliet by my side, was honestly like living in a world without breathing. And these facts made me realize I had to face the horrid truth. I, Gnomeo, the son of the leader of the Blue Garden, has fallen hopelessly in love with Juliet, the daughter of the leader of the Red Garden. Boy, what would Dad say to me if he was here right now? I was in love with someone from the Garden who killed him.
I couldn't deny it anymore, every time I tried, it stabbed through me like a knife. I loved Juliet more than I ever loved any girl, and sure, I had been with girls over the years since Dad died, but I never felt anything this strong towards any of them put together. My love for this girl was more powerful than anything I had ever felt towards anyone. I had never felt this way about anyone. I was honestly prepared to do anything for her, even die if that's what she wanted. I would do anything for her, more than that. It didn't even scare me that I was so unlike myself, that 24 hours ago I hadn't felt this this way. 24 hours ago, I wanted to burn down the Red Garden without even a single trace that anyone had lived there, but now. I didn't feel that way anymore, and that's what scared me the most. Even if she did feel the same way and didn't know I was a Blue, there was no way that we could be together. I'm a Blue, she's a Red, our families have been mortal enemies for as long as...well, at least I can remember. I am supposed to be sneaking into her garden to kill her and never feel that vulnerable around anyone again. I am supposed to be planning a way to destroy her garden forever and making my own more beautiful than anything in the world. And now, I just don't even care about any of that. The only thing I cared about was her, my eyes saw her and only her and nothing else but her. And now I think, that it will always be that way.
It didn't bother me anymore, I found that I didn't even care that she was a Red. The only thing I was wondering about now was whether or not she felt the same way about me. She couldn't possibly, again, our families have been taught to hate each other forever. Why would she make an exception for me? I'm just a Blue, and in their eyes, all Blues are cold hearted and all are smiling damned villains. Which is the exact same way we felt about them. I wish I could feel some sort of hate and desire to destroy her like I'd wanted to do to all the other Reds but I just can't. I couldn't believe I'm saying this, but in little less than a half an hour, she completely has melted my icy cold heart that had felt nothing but hate and anger and was driven by revenge for all those years.
One girl had changed the way I looked at everything.
My heart turned Red, and now I loved a Red more than life itself.
And there was nothing I could do about it. Our gardens would never let us be together, and hiding it wasn't an option. I was never one for keeping secrets even though I almost did that all the time. And not to mention all those years of hating the Red Garden is not going to pay off in my attempts to see her. Could she possibly feel the same for me even though she knows that I'm a Blue? But, she didn't tell on you. She had your life in her hands and she chose to let you go. She could've watched as you got smashed in front of you and would've been happy never to see your face ever again, but she didn't. She feels the same way then? I was still so worried, and I had to make sure that she felt the same way. If she didn't, life wouldn't be worth living. I had to see her again.
And that's the thing, I had to see her again, no needed or else I think I would completely explode. My heart is not letting me go home without seeing her.
I can't go back into the Red Garden, after the events of tonight. I was sure to be worse than dead if I went in there, and maybe even Lord Redbrick will be worse than I can imagine and maybe I won't get lucky in escaping. I probably wouldn't be able to since I had no plan, only a motive. Most would've said I was crazy, which I am. But I can't live without her, life without her is a world without life or anything for that matter, and she's the one girl that I've ever really loved. And I'm overlooking my hatred of Reds and can't hate her at all. I love her more than life itself, and I don't care if she's a Red. I love Juliet and if I wasn't in major trouble with the Red Garden I would shout it to the world. I've chosen not to live without her, and this can only mean one thing.
I've got to go back for her.
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