A new Detective for IA. Detective Whiting was on a war path to take down dirty cops. She replaced detective Rivera who had started the investigation into Deeks. Whiting has Deeks arrested. He informed her he wasn't dirty and she was barking up the wrong tree. He was being accused of killing his ex partner Boyle.

While trying to clear Deeks, Eric and Nell found a woman named Tiffany that he had been giving $400 a month to. Kensi showed up at the precinct. "My partner has being giving $400 a month to a hooker."

"You found Tiffany, that's not good"

"No its not."

Deeks explained to her that maybe he should confess to avoid going to county. Kensi refused to listen and stormed off to the mission.

Kensi needed to save her boyfriend. She stormed into Hetty's office demanding her to get Him out now. "They are sending him to county, do you know what they'll do to Deeks in county with criminals and drug dealers that he helped put away. You said You were in my debt Hetty, I'm calling in that marker now."

"Go home Ms. Blye, get some sleep. Try to eat something."

Kensi went home and pulled out her laptop. She started looking for things. Something clicked in her brain. "He killed Boyle." A tear slipped down her face. She just wished he had trusted her enough to tell her. She decided she wouldn't say anything to him. She would let him come to her and hopefully he eventually would. It killed her that he lied to her, but in a way she understood. She was hurt, but needed to focus on saving him. She could only hope that Hetty's plan would get him out of the mess.

Eventually the team drew out Bruce Steadman and it was made to look as if John Quinn killed Boyle. The team headed out for drinks, but Deek needed to stop at the mission first.

"You could have lost all this," Deeks looked around.

"You or me, Mr. Deeks"

"Both"

"Why did you do this?"

"Why did you kill Boyle?"

"He was going to kill Tiffany."

"Why didn't you tell the others."

"It's not my story to tell, then again Im not sure it's yours either."

"How do I keep this from Kensi?"

"I always find that keeping secrets are easier when you have no one to share them with."

All the way to the bar Deeks thought about Hetty's statement. Deeks no longer wanted to be alone. He didn't want to have no one to share his secrets with. He needed to tell Kensi the truth, but he needed to find the right time.

"Hey babe," she said as he walked in and joined the team. They were all on their third round already, so Kensi was feeling a little tipsy. "You have a lot to catch up."

"I'm just gonna have one, so can drive you home, but you carry on. I like a sloppy drunk Kensilina," he tried to whisper, but was overhead.

"TMI, Deeks, TMI," Callen blasted.

"Sorry," he winked.

A few hours later and a very drunk Kensi, Deeks was ready to head home.

"Come on princess, let's get you home." He shared good night pleasantries and helped her in the car.

"Baby," crawled over on her seat to get close to him.

"You're so drunk, Kens."

"You said you like a sloppy drunk Kensilina," she said slipping wet kisses on his neck.

"I do, but it's been a hell of a day."

"But I can make it better," she whined.

"Baby you can't even stand up straight. We have all the nights in the world."

"Fine," she pouted. "But I don't want to sleep alone."

Deeks obliged and took Kensi to his place. Deeks helped Kensi up to his bedroom as she could hardly walk. He helped her out of her clothes and into her tank and boy shorts she had left there for their sleepovers. He laid her gently on the bed where she passed out. He got in next to her and kissed her cheek. "I'm sorry for lying to you he whispered, knowing she was too drunk to remember.

The next morning Kensi woke with a terrible headache. "Why didn't you stop me from drinking so much?"

"You needed to unwind."

"I guess. It really was an awful day. I was so worried. And I found out my boyfriend has been giving money to a hooker."

"Kens, please."

"You have a good heart Deeks, I just..."she stopped not wanting to let on she knew he killed Boyle.

"I should have told you," he started.

"Do you have anything you want to tell me now?"

Deeks thought about telling her then, but couldn't bring the words. "No,"

"Ok," she softly said. "Can I ask you something?"

Deeks was hesitant, "I guess"

"Are you going to keep giving Tiffany money? I know it was for a good reason, but I'm not trying to be selfish, I guess it's really none of my business," she began regretting asking the question. "We should probably get ready to head into work."

"Hey," he stopped her in her tracks. "I already told her that I had to stop. She thanked me for my help and understood."

Kensi nodded, disappointed in herself for asking, but pleased her boyfriend thought about it without her. They quickly got ready and went to the mission.

Deeks struggled all day. He was not going to be able to hide the truth from her for very long. It was eating him up. He tried to play by asking her if she could have anything for Christmas what would it be. Her response a baby tiger. Deeks was a bit frightened by the love of his life but amused by her at the same time. He couldn't hold the guilt of lying to her in anymore. They were watching a store for Korean spies, Kensi played his game back.

"Ok what would you want for Christmas if you could have anything?" She asked.

"That's easy, forgiveness."

"Forgiveness for what?"

He finally decided to come clean and tell her he killed Boyle to protect Tiffany. Kensi filled him in that she figured it out.

"Why didn't you say anything?"

"I figured you'd tell me when you were ready."

Deeks was so full of emotion. He couldn't believe how understanding this woman was. "I'm sorry."

"It's ok, but no more secrets."

"No more secrets" he agreed

"Do you have any idea how much I love you right now."

He wanted to kiss her so badly, but Kensi being on the job only gave him a peck., a fraction of a kiss according to him.

"Then You'll get the other fraction at home."

"Oh," his eyes lit up. "Before we put the coms back in, do you want to describe in detail what that fraction will entail."

"If you keep talking, it will entail nothing."

"Hmm good talk," he smiled at her.

When they returned to his place after work, Kensi kept her promise.

"I think I owe you something," She said with a very sexy tone. She headed upstairs without another word. When she returned she was wearing a familiar sexy Mrs clause outfit from the morning.

"Oh my Kensilina, I don't think Hetty could compare to you in that!"

"Deeks! Your ruining the mood," she shook her head with that thought. "Well, How do I stack up against the bimbo from the toy store." She cackled.

"There is no comparison." He began kissing her bare neck.

"Wait, I have something for you. If I am wearing this, you need to wear this for me." She held up a sexy Mr. Clause pair of boxers.

"Do I really need these?"

"For now." She winked.

"Deeks obeyed his lady, "What the lady wants, the lady gets."

"What I want is you," she said when he returned. She kissed his neck and nibbled his ear. He returned the favor.

"Merry Christmas Kensi. Thank you for being so amazing."

"Shhh," she covered his lips. "Merry Christmas Deeks," she slowly slipped off his Santa boxers.

"That didn't last long," he said sliding down her Mrs clause outfit.

Kensi pushed him on the couch and took control. She straddled over him and guided him where she wanted him to be. He grabbed her hips and moved her at a pace that was satisfying for both of them. Her kept his lips on hers the entire time.

"I love you so much," he said as he climaxed with her.

"And I love you."

They spent Christmas with their extended families at Sam's house. As predicted, the mothers sat and talked as they drank coffee. Kam was in heaven with all her gifts. Aiden and Callen chatted about NCIS, with Sam listening to every word. Michelle and Kensi took a second to talk.

"You two look quite happy," Michelle said.

"Ya," Kensi nodded.

"It's not easy," Michelle could see a similar look she experienced when her and Sam were early in their relationship. "But it's worth it."

"I can't believe it's been a year," Kensi felt like the time had flown by. "Was it hard for you to leave the CIA?"

"I missed the excitement, but there's a different kind of excitement now. I look forward to Sam coming home each night. I'm not going to lie, I do miss it more, as Kam gets older, but I'm happy with my choices. When the time is right, you will be too. There is nothing that says I can't go back when Kam goes to the academy. I did enjoy the Sidorov case, even if I did almost get killed, but I got to work with Sam again."

Kensi Hugged Michelle. It helped her think about the future, and what she might want. "Thank you for having us tonight."

"It's our pleasure. Your family."

"Thank you for helping me see things in another way as well."

"You two are gonna do great. Sam loves the both of you, but don't tell Deeks."

"I won't" she laughed.

Kensi looked over at her boyfriend who had sat down next to Kam. He let her show him all her gifts. The light in her eyes was a picture Kensi wouldn't soon forget. She wasn't sure where the feeling came from and wasn't sure how long it would last, but she knew it was something she wouldn't mind exploring one day when they were both ready.

The couple had been spending pretty much every night together. Most of the time they spent was at Deeks' house. They were finishing up breakfast, Deeks famous frittatas.

"We should move in together," Kensi blurted.

Deeks choked a little on his food. "Really?"

"Well, we spend every night together, mostly here. Why do you act surprised. You suggested it a few years ago, before we were even together officially."

"As I recall you said you would live with Monty before me."

The pups ears perked upon hearing his name. Kensi scooped a little piece of her eggs and fed it to him. "You said you were a package deal. Why are you being weird. Do you not want to live together. We practically do now anyway."

"No I just, I think it's a great idea."

"Okay!" Kensi was excited, "it's settled, we're moving in together."

Deep down Deeks wasn't sure. As with all their giant steps, he was scared something would fail. He hated when he felt like that, he just wanted to enjoy every moment, but there was always something that wouldn't let him. The universe always seemed to be against him.

They arrived at work. Kensi was hoping Deeks would be more positive. Sam and Callen were not surprised by the news, thinking they were already living together since they practically did. Eric with his excitement screamed "are you gonna get a puppy now too! A little brother or sister for Monty!"

"No, no puppy, just moving in together."

Kensi and Deeks' news was short lived as they sent to a safe house to watch over Jack, Kensi's ex-fiancé. Of course Deeks was bothered by the way the world seemed to work around them. The woman he loved and was taking a huge step forward with, was stuck guarding the man who left her. The man who made her weary of love. It took Deeks so long to break down her walls, it took just as long for him to let his own down. Kensi was held hostage by the Taliban with this man as well, so he knew this would bring up nightmares for her again. He hated having nightmares in front of here, he rarely did when she was next to him, but wasn't sure they would always be subdued by her touch and smell. He had a feeling she felt the same, but he knew how peaceful she was by his side. Deeks let her know it was ok to explain her feelings to Jack, he knew she needed to in order to move forward. After Jack left, the two grabbed the car and headed to get Kensi's first load.

"Woman, you have so much stuff!"

Kensi laughed. Well we can get one load tonight and then get noodles. Deeks had suggested noodles earlier, but she was anxious to get some of her stuff to his place. Deeks face lit up. "Can we have desert after noodles?" He set his box down and walked over to his partner and put his arms around her, snuggling his face into her neck.

"We're not gonna have time for noodles if you keep this up."

"Shouldn't we christen your place goodbye?" He remarked feeling a bit possessive. As much as he liked Jack and respected his and Kensi's friendship, he couldn't believe anyone could walk away from this amazing beauty before him. He began nibbling at her neck and then up to her ear.

"We have work to do," she whined.

"You don't like this?" He questioned still nibbling at her ears.

"You know I do."

He slid his hands under her shirt caressing her skin.

"Deeks!"

"Cmon Baby, you know you want to. One last time her." She couldn't resist his ocean blues staring into her soul.

She lifted his shirt and kissed his bare chest down to his stomach. Deeks pulled her up and pushed her back against the wall. His kisses become more fervent. He wanted this woman more than anything at this moment. He unbuckled her jeans and slid them down her long legs. "Your so beautiful. I love you Kensi."

"Are you feeling a little jealous?" She could tell he was holding her with a passion she'd never felt.

"I just need you to know I will never be so stupid as to leave you. Jack doesn't know what he lost. But his loss was my gain."

Kensi's heart melted a bit. "I love you and only you." She moved her hands down to his jeans. Taking them off with his boxers.

"Well now that you have me exposed, whatever will we do,"

"Shut up," she paused him down on the couch.

"So abusive."

"And you absolutely love it," she said kissing him.

"I do as much as I love you."

There he proved to her how much he loved her. Making passionate love to her for the last time at her place. They were moving in together and he couldn't have been happier. His life was becoming fuller than he had ever dreamed.

Kensi has been thinking about her talk with Michelle at Christmas for a few months. She wasn't sure where her head was at. Deeks and her had been official for over a year now. They were settled in living together and things had been good. Kensi stopped at the drug store to get to pick up her pills. She was standing in line and saw a magazine with a baby on it. Something made her want to purchase it. She tucked the magazine in her bag with her pills and headed home. She started suggesting to Deeks about getting a bigger place. The conversation carried over to the next morning. He wasn't sure what had come over her lately. She was very aggressive the prior night when she came home from the store. He liked it, and wasn't complaining, but she was usually only that way when she felt threatened. Things had been smooth so there wasn't much reason for that. They ate their breakfast and headed into the mission. Entering the mission they headed to the bullpen still discussing a bigger place. Deeks saw the magazine Kensi bought and thought she might be pregnant. Kensi dismisses his thoughts but was taken back by his fear.

"Are we really here right now. Having kids is the end of some pretty amazing things."

"Like our partnership." They went back and forth.

"But having kids is also the start of some pretty amazing things." He added, not quite sure how he felt.

At the end of the day, Kensi felt overwhelmed. "That was a crazy day," she sighed.

"Ya"

"I mean not crazier than we had before, but too crazy for two people to have a baby."

Deeks stopped. He was certainly torn, "I mean, I don't know."

Kensi wasn't certain that was the answer she wanted to hear. She turned to head out the door.

"Well is it too crazy for two people to get married."

"What? What did you say?"

"I was wondering if you thought it was too crazy for two people to get married?"

"No, I don't, I don't think it's too crazy for that. no."

"Sorry, is that a yes? Are you saying yes?"

"I'm not gonna say yes in the hallway of work, without a ring on my finger."

"So you want me down on one knee?"

"That be a good start."

"You want beach and the sunset with the ring,"

"Ya, Maybe then you'd have a chance." She turned and walked away. She was giddy.

"Baby that's still a yes, baby, huh baby, that's a yes."

They got into the car. "So we're getting married!" Deeks asked excitedly.

"Depends, are you going to propose for real?"

" You want to get married to me, though right, Be Mrs Deeks," he smirked.

She was excited at his semi proposal, but she was still a little unsure about their earlier conversation of kids.

"Would you have been upset if I was pregnant," she moved the subject.

Deeks got silent. "Upset? No, just shocked I guess. I don't know if we're or if I'm ready for that quite yet."

Kensi huffed not sure if she was even ready but she wasn't sure she wasn't either. As long as her and Deeks weren't on the same page it didn't matter anyway.

Deeks wanted to break the silence. "What kind of ring would make my princess happy." He always took clues from her, but wanted to find the perfect ring for when he did propose.

"As long as it's from you, I'll be happy."

"Did you pick out your ring when Jack proposed?"

"Why does that matter? I'm with you, not Jack, I love you, not Jack."

"I don't know," Deeks shrugged not being able to say anything without frustrating her.

"I'm sorry,"

"Kens, if you want to have a baby,"

"Deeks, I don't right now. I don't know when I will, I just, I don't know." Her heart was torn. She loved her job, she loved this man, but their world was too crazy to have a child. She didn't want to choose. She never did, but she knew back then and she knew now, one day she would have to.

"Ok," he nodded. "But we can still practice, right?" He joked trying to make her laugh. He succeed as usual.

"Your such an idiot."

"I'm your idiot."

"Yes, You are,"