A few sessions with Nate, a day spent in OPS driving Eric insane, Kensi was ready to lock and load.
"Baby, you know you don't have to come back yet. No one would blame you."
"Do you not want me back?"
"Of course I do. I mean Nellasaurus probably doesn't. Don't tell Beale but she's already completely smitten with me."
Kensi just shook her head. Deeks walked over and put his arms around her. "Baby, I am serious about moving forward with our future. Just think about it. You almost died."
"I know. But, I'm not ready to leave yet. I've worked so hard to get back out in the field. Get back out there with you. Please don't ruin this."
"Ok," he leaned down to kiss her. "Let's go partner," he grabbed her hand and went to work together for the first time in months.
A new realization that there was more than one mole, had shaken the team to it's core. Granger was arrested for the beating of a woman he met in a bar, and then subsequently stabbed, Sam was busted by the DEA, callen by ATF, Whiting arrested Deeks with a new lead to his cold case, Dugan shot by a sniper while the boat shed was being SWATTED, Hetty eventually left to take care of some unfinished business. Kensi was left in charge. She needed to get coms to Deeks. Nell took care of Callen's communications. Sam got DEA to release him. Kensi succeeded in getting Deeks the ear piece, but upon leaving the precinct, she was tasered and taken by Sullivan, who turned out to be a CIA officer named Ferris. The rouge group wanted revenge for the Afghanistan mission and Kensi's part in taking Ferris' leg.
Deeks put his freedom on the line to save her. He was going nuts. Losing his mind through his emotions, wasn't helping the cause. He made a deal with Whiting to tell her the truth if she let him out to save Kensi. Whiting was impressed by his love for his girlfriend. He was willing to throw away everything to save her.
"You're willing to risk your job and freedom to save her?" Whiting was intrigued.
"It's worth it. I'm not a bad guy, Whiting."
"I can see that Detective."
They drove to the mission and met up with Sam and Callen. They found a lead and a building where Hetty was. Whiting was shot by Carl Brown, but Deeks kept his word and told her everything how he Killed Boyle to save Tiffany.
Deeks was losing control. Kensi had fought so hard to come back to the team. Why didn't she listen to him and take more time. Why was she so anxious to continue in this life of danger. He almost beat Sabatino to death, he yelled at Hetty and blamed her, when in reality he was angry at himself.
He walked outside the boat shed to regain his composure. Sam knew his younger teammate was hurting.
"Deeks, you good?"
He thought about lying for a second but couldn't hold it in. "No, I'm not. I know you said she's as tough as nails, but I don't know if I am."
"Hey, you got this. I've watched you for months be her support. When things were tough, you were right there. When she pushed you away, you pushed harder to stay. Man that's love. You two are gonna do just fine. You've got the right attitude for marriage. Trust me. Michelle sees it too," Sam knew Deeks was planning to propose as he was questioning the senior agent earlier about the top ten places in LA, to find the most romantic way to propose.
"But what if she dies Sam, I don't know anymore."
"You're not gonna quit her now. You've worked too hard and you guys have been through way too much. Cmon let's go get her."
"Thanks man."
"You got it brother!"
They got a lead on Kensi and headed to where the phones that were in a text chain with Ferris were. Deeks without a thought double tapped Ferris to the head saving the love of his life.
"My baby's bleeding"
"I'm ok."
Callen came in to check on her. "Dad get out of the room!"
Sam followed in where Kensi repeated, "he said get out of the room."
Deeks finally revealed how scared he was. "You scared me." He held her face.
"You sure you're ok"
"I am now."
"You did good baby. Let me get you out of this chair."
"Please, I hate wheelchairs even more now!"
"Ya you do," he smirked. He uncut her zip ties and picked her up out of the wheel chair.
"Deeks, I can walk. I worked really hard to be able to."
"Just let me have this." He argued with her.
"Fine, but really?"
"Over the threshold." He joked with her.
Sam and Callen laughed watching the junior teammates. They all got back into the car,
"Hopefully we got them all. CIA, I'm glad Michelle's out," Sam was thankful, but his words caught Deeks. He was leaning more and more to moving to safer jobs, even though Kensi was not.
"It's been a tough year," Callen looked back and grabbed Kensi's hand. "I'm glad your safe."
"Thank you guys. For everything Over the past few months. Especially you," she snuggled up next to Deeks.
"Kens, we're still in work mode."
"We'll clothes our eyes," Callen joked, "I think this is an exception."
Kensi was exhausted but didn't want to let it show. She couldn't keep her eyes open, she dozed off during the ride back to the mission.
"We will take care of the paperwork, you take her home," Callen motioned to Deeks.
Deeks nodded in agreement, "Come on Baby," he gently woke her.
"Hmm, oh don't we have paperwork,"
"We'll get it Kens, go home and rest. We will see you tomorrow." Callen said.
"Ok," she wasn't prepared mentally to argue. The paperwork would be there tomorrow if Sam and Callen didn't finish.
Deeks drove them home. Kensi was still drowsy.
"I didn't feel this tired earlier."
"Your adrenaline fatigue probably. Cmon I'll get you into bed."
Again, she wasn't up to argue. Deeks had helped her many nights during her recovery.
"I love you so much," she said to him before drifting to sleep.
He felt her toss and turn most of the night. He pulled her close to settle her. Around 2am, she awoke. It was a usual routine for her. She always attempted not to wake Deeks, but never succeeded.
"Come back to bed, baby," he coaxed her.
"I'm sorry I woke you, again."
"Don't be. This is for better or worse."
"I mean, not yet, you haven't official asked me."
Deeks glowed. "Kensi,"
"And...that doesn't mean right here right now," she stopped him.
"I know, the sunset, the beach, with the ring, I remember. I did try proposing two more times since then."
"I was unconscious for one of those!"
"Let's go back upstairs. You need to be rested what if we have a big case today. I need a partner who can have my back ya know."
She let out a sigh and followed behind him.
The routine continued for a few more weeks. She was sleeping a little more every night. This particular night she was able to remain asleep til almost 630am. She felt good. Better than she had in months. Her mind was clear and her heart was full as she watched her boyfriend, hopefully soon to be fiancé, sleep. She was impatiently waiting for him to wake.
She didn't want to wait any longer. She started rubbing his back.
"Hey," he whispered.
"Morning,"
"You been up for awhile?"
"Sort of"
"Baby, I'm so sorry you can't sleep."
"I actually slept pretty well last night." She explained. Deeks was happy and wanted to celebrate,she had another way to celebrate in her mind. Shutting her boyfriend up was the first step as she climbed on top of him.
"Baby, you know how much I wanna do this, are you sure your ready?"
Kensi was more than ready and she could feel Deeks was definitely ready. She could feel him swell between her legs as she kissed him passionately. It had been quite some time and she was ready to reconnect. Her phone sounded.
"Don't get that,"
"Yup, we gotta go," she climbed off of him and headed to the bathroom.
He pleaded with her to come back for just a few minutes, but when she didn't, he quickly got up and joined her in the shower.
"You're not getting away from me that easy. You think after months of patiently waiting, I'm gonna let this opportunity go." He started kissing the back of her neck and down her back.
"We can pick up tonight, I promise. We really have to get in."
"It's LA, we will blame the traffic." He gave her huge blue puppy dog eyes.
"I can't resist the eyes," she turned around and kissed him.
Deeks wanted to be gentle for the first time they made love in over six months. Her gently held her up against the shower wall. "You good?"
"So good,". She motioned him to continue.
He gently lifted her leg. She hadn't been having pain lately, put he certainly didn't want to be the reason for it after so long. He positioned himself to slowly enter inside her. It had been so long. He held the back of her dark locks and nuzzled his face in the crease of her neck. He whispered her name in ecstasy.
"I told you I only needed 2 and a half minutes. I'm sorry baby."
Kensi giggled, "it's ok we have to go anyway."
"Tonight?" He eyed her up and down.
She kissed his lips and finished showering. "Depends on if you can make it longer than 2 and a half minutes."
"Touché" he kissed her again satisfied at where the relationship was headed.
They made it into work, holding hands the entire drive. He had his partner back. She seemed happier than she had been in months. Seeing her content made his heart full.
After work, they headed straight home. Deeks was quite anxious to pick up where they left off. They barely got into the door, as he was trying to remove Kensi's articles of clothing.
"Someone is impatient."
"I can't help it, I've been thinking about this all day."
"You have huh?"
He pulled her close to him. "We have all the time in the world now," he slowly kissed below her ears and down her neck and then over to her lips. She was ready as well, even though the morning tryst was nice, she wanted the evening to be perfect.
"Do you want a beer," she stopped him.
"Not particularly," he said keeping his lips attached to her body.
"What do you wAnt." She stared him up and down with her big Brown eyes.
"If you have to ask, I'm not doing something right." He pushed her towards the stairs, then wrapped his muscular arms around her and walked her up them.
They reached the bedroom and Deeks was fully ready to make the most of their night.
"Mm Kens," he was finding it hard to keep his composure. He pulled her shirt over her head and unfastened her bra. "I'm so completely in love with you."
She let her hands trail to the bottom of his shirt and helped him rid it. She unbuckled his belt and then his pants as he did the same to her. When they were both fully undressed she pushed him back on the bed. "Now to pick up where we left off." She climbed on top of him and kissed him for minutes. She was still a little timid despite the morning event. She slowly let him insert himself in her and she moved smoothly keeping him as deep as he could be for several moments. Deeks was determined to control himself this time. He gently lifted her up and softly placed her on her back on the bed. His movements were tender and gentle, making love to her. Their connection felt so strong after everything the past few months had brought. Deeks desperately wanted to tell her he was ready to make a baby, that night if they could, but he knew her body and mind still needed to fully heal. The depression, the injury, making a baby tonight, even if possible was far from a good idea. He wanted to propose as soon as he could make the time right.
He settled on a hint, "I'm ready to make a baby as soon as you are," he whispered.
Kensi wasn't sure what to say. She knew she wasn't ready.
He sensed her tense. "No pressure baby, I just wanted you to know."
Kensi nodded and reached up to kiss him, "I promise as soon as I'm ready, you'll be the first to know."
"I like the sound of that." He said as he continued to bury deep inside her satisfying both of them.
Kensi felt like herself again. After months she was ready for life to get back to normal. She woke up refreshed and elated.
"Good morning princess," Deeks smiled at her. He had woken up before her for once. He was content to watch her sleep.
"Do you feel like going surfing today?" She asked.
Deeks was overjoyed. Sam had told him to let her come to him. She finally did. He had been patient the past few months, not pushing anything on her. "Hell ya I do!" He jumped out of bed.
"Ok, settle down before you pull a muscle or something."
"Baby, I'm so happy. We haven't gone surfing since," he stopped not wanting to ruin the day.
"Before the crash. It's ok. And it's gonna change. We're gonna get back to normal."
He kissed her and pulled her out of the bed. "Let's go."
They spent the day on the beach. Surfing, relaxing on the sand, eating the sandwiches they packed, the day was wonderful.
"We could do this everyday." Deeks said.
"We'd be bored by the third day," she replied.
"Eh, your probably right. We'll find something when the time is right though."
Kensi let out a little sigh. "I suppose."
"We don't have to talk about this now." He knew she was getting wound up about moving on to new jobs. He only wanted to make suggestions every now and then to keep the idea fresh.
The sun was beginning to set, Deeks thought it would be the perfect opportunity to propose. He realized he left the ring at home. "Fragle rock!"
"What? What's wrong?" Kensi jumped.
"Nothing, I stepped on a sea shell."
Kensi eyed him not fully believing him. He smoothed it over by planting a kiss on her cheek and moving to her mouth.
"We should be getting home," he said in a sad tone.
They gathered the items they brought and headed home. Things felt good. They felt normal. The grove was coming back to the whole team. Their lives were about to be turned upside down. Michelle was kidnapped and untimely murdered. Kensi and Deeks discovered where Michelle was too late. Kensi was overly distraught. She held together strong until Michelle's body was recovered after being taken. Nell was grieving and felt so badly for Sam.
"I can't imagine losing someone that close to me." Nell cried.
"Neither can I" Kensi looked at Deeks. Setting off a flash bang, She kept the O ring from the bang. She walked over to her boyfriend. Tired of waiting, afraid of losing him, wasting time not being his wife. "Deeks can i talk to you?" She got down on one knee, "Martin Deeks will you marry me?"
"Baby, What are you doing. The guy, the guy has to be the one to propose."
"Really? Cause I think it's 2017 and you kinda had your shot."
"Not to be a stickler for details, but I've actually proposed three times, if you count the very romantic version I did while you were in the coma."
"Life is really short, Deeks. We saw that today, we see it every day and I don't know how much time either one of us have left, but I know I want to spend the rest of what i have with you. So what's it gonna be?"
" I don't know. It's a lot for a girl to process," he joked.
"Your such an idiot."
"I love you."
"I love you."
"Yes, absolutely ,What the hell." He excitedly said. "Let's take a look at this thing, I gotta be honest I thought there'd be a little more bling to it."
"Oh no, you know me, I'm More bang that bling."
"That's right sunshine and gunpowder"
The couple was overjoyed, but their heart still ached for their friend. They were not prepared to share their news until all the flames had settled. Sam was going to need time to adjust with his kids. Kensi asked Nell to keep the news between them due to the touchy situation. Nell agreed.
"I couldn't be happier for the two of you," Nell said.
"It's bad timing, but I can't go any longer without being his wife."
Nell hugged her friend. "We need some Sunshine through the dark skies."
"We do."
"So it's official, we're getting married." He said as they left to go home.
"It's crazy how such a terrible day can make you realize how much time we really waste," Kensi's mixed emotions were hard for her to process. She was sad that her friend just lost his wife, but happy she would soon be Deeks'.
"It put life in perspective. We do a lot of good for other people, but we need to do good for ourselves as well."
The couple arrived home. They imagined they would have made love to celebrate the occasion, but instead they were content just lying in each others arms. Relishing in the moment and not taking anything for granted.
Michelle's funeral was hard on the team. They were there for Sam. The kids were heartbroken. The guilt Kensi and Deeks felt was unbearable.
"I'm so sorry Sam," Kensi walked up to him.
"This is not your fault, Kensi."
"We were right there. I'm so terribly sorry, we didn't get to her sooner."
"Look at me. No one is to blame but Tahir Khalid . He's dead now. He can't hurt my family any more than he has."
Kensi nodded with tears in her brown eyes. Deeks was by her side. "Make every moment count," he told the couple.
On the way home, Kensi held Deeks hand as tight as she could.
"You good baby?"
"Not really," she sighed.
"Me either. Sam's right though. We need to make ever second, every minute, every moment count."
"We will. Always," she squeezed his hand. "I love you."
"I love you too," he squeezed hers back.
"We will tell everyone in a few days, after we grieving for Michelle."
"That sounds good. We can have a few days to enjoy it on our own."
"But we should tell our moms," Kensi suggested.
"You sure? I think we should just wait til we tell the guys at work. And Hetty of course, although she probably already knows. Somehow that munchkin knows things before we do."
"Deeks! They're our moms. We are their only children."
"Fine we will have dinner next week and tell them. I don't want all the hovering. You know how my mom can be."
"Next week it is then," she agreed.
"I love you," he said.
"And I love you."
