Bella hasn't been the same and I understand her pain. I understand it but that doesn't mean I'm going to sit around and act like I'm dying. Hell's no I won't do that to dad. He already has one zombie daughter he doesn't need another one. It's been days since they left and Bella still hasn't changed. She sits and doesn't move. I'm getting angry at her for acting like this. This isn't fair for dad. I mean Jasper left me in a very inappropriate way. He was an asshole about it, he lied to my face, and worse of all that bastard called me a slut. Yes, I'm heartbroken but I am not going to stay in one spot and cry. Yes, I'm angry and I'll let my pillow have it. Yes, I'm bitter beyond imaginable. Yes, I am going to lash out once in a while so forgive me for being rude. Yes, I cry at night so they won't know I'm weak. Yes, I do have nightmares but that doesn't mean I'm going to cry bloody murder. Yes, I am feeling like someone I have a massive hole in my chest that doesn't stop hurting. Yes, I am not the same and yes, I am hurt. So forgive me for not acting like the same. Forgive me for being sarcastic, for being rude when you mention Jasper but you don't know what I'm feeling inside. The moment Jasper left I felt empty he took everything that made me smile, he took everything that made me see the world in colors, he took my laugh, he took my tears and he took my heart and smashed it into the ground. He took everything from me and I don't want it back because it all reminds me of him. What I find sad is that I now hate someone who I loved so much. Is it possible to not feel a thing? I don't want to feel anything.

October:

Bella hasn't moved from her spot, still the same zombie as before. She sits staring out the window of her room, waiting for Edward to come but he won't come. The handprints from the accident finally went away but I still wear scarves to cover up the bite mark. Jake and Embry came over today, Jake wanted to know how Bella was doing. I told him she's the same as before. We went to the Rez and hanged out. I notice that Alpha (Sam) had someone else in his pack, Jared. Jake told me about Sam and Jared, he's doesn't like how they changed so much. I told him not to worry about them just to ignore them. Embry agreed with me and so we went to get Quil. Halloween came around and just like every other year I gave out candies. When the kids would come and get their candies, their parents would talk about the Cullens and how they left behind us. I would glare at them and they would shut up taking their kids with them. Stupid whispers and people, can't they just shut up and move on?

November:

Nothing changed much this month, Bella still being zombie Bella sitting by her window. I can't believe dad let Bella miss school because of a breakup. But whatever, he does what he thinks its okay. He's the father and knows what is good for us. School is the same, boring. The same gossip, the same whispers, the same talk, life is getting boring here. I'm starting to hang out with Jake and the guys more and more. As the holidays are approaching I'm trying to do good things around the house. I'm decorating and cooking since Bella isn't feeling well. I'm doing okay. I'm not lashing out, well not as much as before, on people when they mention the Cullens or asked what happened between Jasper and me. I still feel like shit, I still feel the bitterness and the anger grow inside me. I still have the nightmares about Jasper, I still cry when no one is around. Dad believes im over Jasper and the breakup but that's because I don't let him see how truly I feel. He doesn't need to worry about me.

December:

Bella finally moved her ass from the window but now she's staring at her stupid laptop all day. She writing emails to Alice, every day she writes, every day the same thing, and like everything no response. I don't know why she does it? I don't know why she continues to be like this. I don't understand but I guess I'll never truly understand. A week before winter vacation, Bella came back to school but that because I threaten to break her laptop if she doesn't get up. After fights for a while, she finally got up and got dressed. "Your sister is sitting there again," Jessica said. I turned around and Bella was sitting at the Cullens table. During lunch Bella doesn't sit with us, she sits at the Cullens table, alone. I don't go over there because I don't want to remember, it just hurts too much. I don't know why she's acting like this. I mean she's making herself more miserable than she's already is. "Shouldn't you sit with her?" Mike asked "Let her, she'll get over it,"I said turning around. I went back to my book ignoring their stares. After a while, they went back to whatever they were doing before. Bella doesn't drive in her state I don't trust her to drive, she'll probably kill us. I drive the truck now, I drive us to school and back home. Bella locks her self away in her room, making dad worry more and more. I stay away from the house. I'm either with Jake or hanging out with my friends.

Dream:

"Your time is up" I heard a voice say.

"What," I asked turning around. I looked around and saw nothing. Suddenly there was there was that bright light from before and the figure came out.

"He won't come back, go home," it said. I back away shaking my head and I hear it sigh.

"If you don't go now I can't help you," it said.

"I don't want any help, I don't need help and I don't need anyone," I said.

Out of the nowhere, I wasn't in the room but I was in Jasper's old room. Confused I walked around before I heard someone's giggles. I turned around and saw Jasper and Alice in the bed having sex. They were laughing and enjoying themselves. I heard Alice loud moans and I heard Jasper telling Alice that he loved her over and over again. I couldn't do anything but stare eyes wide, this can't be happening, this isn't happening. Suddenly Alice turns to me and smirks.

"He never loved you, you're a worthless human," she said smirking. She went back moaning and kissing Jasper before I heard a loud scream.

End of dream~~~~

Waking up from the dream I heard loud screaming downstairs. I ran down and notice the screaming coming from Bella. Dad was trying to wake her up but nothing was helping so I went over there and slapped her awake. Immediately she opened her eyes and started to cry. Dad looked at me in disbelief that I actually slapped my sister. I shrugged and held Bella as she cried, once again like any other night I didn't get any sleep.

New Years Eve:

The Clearwater invited us over to their house to celebrate the New Year. Bella didn't want to go but I made her go. When we got there I notice Alpha, his pack now including another member, Paul, now Emily in the corner watching everyone else. And in the other corner was Leah glaring at them, awkward.

"Annie! Bella!" Jake called us over. I pulled Bella with me and we walked over to Jake and his friends along with Seth Clearwater, Harry's youngest and only son.

"Hey girls, this is Seth" Jake introduce us to him.

"Hey," we said in sync.

"You girls are twins," he said smiling.

"Yeah," we said again. We turned to each other and smiled. Throughout the night Bella was acting like herself again. And I was glad things were becoming normal again. Bella was talking, smiling and she seemed like she was having a good time. However, everything had to go bad when Bella accidentally dumped into Leah. She pushed Bella back making Bella fall. Everyone stopped and turned to see what was happening. Since I was closer I went to Bella's aid and helped her up glaring at Leah.

"What the hell is your problem?" I asked her. Leah turns to me and glares.

"My problem? What's her problem she pushed me" Leah screamed at me.

"It was an accident. And besides, you don't gotta be so damn rude about it" I said before turning Bella and me around. Leah said something that I didn't catch, stopping I turned around and glared at her.

"What?" I asked.

"Annie let it go" Bella begged me. She starts pulling me away from Leah but I won't go.

"No. What did you say?" I asked Leah and Leah smirked at me.

"You heard me" Leah responded.

"Well, obviously not since I asked you to repeat yourself," I said glaring at her.

"Annie stop" Bella begged again.

"Is there a problem?" Sam said looking at Leah and me.

"Yeah, there is. Your little ex-girlfriend over here doesn't want to repeat herself" I said.

"Annie just leave Leah along," Sam said grabbing my arm.

"You two know each other?" Leah asked somewhat shocked.

"Yeah we do," I said rolling my eyes.

"So what? You also cheated on me with this slut-"

"Excuse me?" I asked shocked that she just called me a slut. Leah scoffs and crosses her arms.

"We all heard you were the reason why the two Cullens broke up with each other. Besides screwing Jake Bryan you were always screwing Jasper on the side and now I find out you were scr-"

Leah didn't finish her sentence since I punched her square in her face, knocking her down. Before I even had a chance to jump on her, Sam held me back and pulled me away from her. Immediately Harry, my dad, and the others came to see what was happening. However, no one could say anything since I was yelling at Leah who was still on the ground with Sue Clearwater holding her.

"STUPID BITCH! CALL ME A SLUT AGAIN AND I SWEAR I'LL FUCK YOU UP! SAM, LET ME GO! DAMN IT SAM! LET ME GO SO I CAN FINISH FUCKING HER UP! SAAM!" I screamed out as Sam took me outside. I didn't get to watch what happened since Sam put me in his truck and drive me away from there.

"Why didn't you fuck-"

"Calm the hell down, Annie. This isn't you" Sam screamed at me.

"You don't know-"

"Don't you say I don't know you because I do! And this right now. Lashing out, punching people isn't you, Annie" he said calming down.

I didn't say anything I just kept quiet and Leah's words didn't leave my mind. I was known as a whore down in the Rez and now I'm gonna be known as the slut who punches people. After a while, Sam pulls up on my driveway and he parked his car. He didn't say anything so I thought he wanted me to get out but he stopped me from opening the door. Confused I turn to stare at him and he was frowning. He didn't say anything but just stared at me, then he sighed and look at me.

"Annie, just because he broke up with you it shouldn't change you," Sam told me.

"Yeah tell that to Leah," I scoffed.

"How you know about that?" he asked and I rolled my eyes.

"Just like that bitch said. Words travel and you my friend have been a bad boy" I said. Sam frowns and shakes his head.

"I didn't mean to hurt her, Annie. I- It's complicated" he said.

"But you did, you hurt her, Sammy," I said.

"You don't underst-"

"Oh, I understand completely," I said cutting him off

"No. you really don't understand," Sam said shaking his head, frowning.

"Sammy, I do believe it or not I do understand. You fell in love with someone you shouldn't have"I said and Sam stared at me frowning.

"You fell in love with someone and knew it was wrong. At the moment you knew you fucked up real bad. Because falling for that person was the last thing you need. Falling for them was trouble waiting to happen. I get it Sam. Damn it, I understand! You didn't want to fall for them, you didn't but you did. You fell and you fell hard, twice as hard than you expected. You couldn't help but fall for their smile. You liked the warmth that spread throughout your body when they touched you. You couldn't help but fall for them more with each passing day. You fell in love knowing it'll hurt people who you care about. And deep down inside of you, you didn't care because all you cared about was being with that person. I totally get it, you fell in love, Sammy" I wiped away my tears.

Sam just stares at me with a frown and I got out of the truck and headed to my house. I went to my room and locked myself. I didn't allow myself to cry I didn't want to cry I hated crying. Dad came in screaming his head off. Demanding to know what happened back there but I didn't say anything, I just kept quiet. Bella tried to calm him but he kept on yelling at me. Calling me irresponsible, childish, I was behaving like some caveman. Funny thing, why wasn't he calling Bella irresponsible she has missed almost three months of school being locked away. Dad grounded me for the month taking everything, my phone, I wasn't allowed to use the truck, I was only to go to school and back home. Dad told Bella to leave the room and she did. Bella wasn't allowed up here. I looked out my window and saw fireworks. Seeing how they filled up the sky I wished Jasper a 'Happy New Years', hoping his as miserable as me.