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Warnings: The usual

Enjoy chapter seventeen!


Chapter 17

"It's your fault. So I've decided. You'll be my... second choice. Her replacement."

The raven haired grabbed his head and whimpered at the memory. He didn't want to remember that. He wanted to forget all about the nightmare that trembled him into consciousness. Izumi stared down at the sleeping boy under him. "Kaoru?" he called out, too soft to be able to wake him up. But Izumi could barely speak and that's all he managed out.

"You look just like her. Just like my precious Ambria."

He clenched his hands around the fabric of his shirt. He hunched over a little and trembled. "K-K-Kao-Kaoru. P-plea-" Izumi choked up. I have to wake him up. I have to! He gritted his teeth, frustrated he wasn't able to speak properly.

"Beautiful black hair with beautiful blue eyes. You're- no... she's perfect."

His nails sunk in. Scratching his skin through his shirt. His vision blurred as tears began to form. "K-Kaoru?" he said a little louder this time. Izumi felt relieved when the auburn haired's face scrunched up. He reached his hand out to touch the boy's face.

"D-daddy?"

"... shut up. Shut up! DON'T CALL ME THAT!"

Izumi flinched and retracted his hand. "Please... wake up." he whimpered and chocked back a sob.

In an instant Kaoru opened his eyes alarmingly. His amber eyes immediately landed on the blue eyes shining in the dark room. Only a bit dim from the moonlight by the window. "Izumi?" Kaoru noticed how the raven haired was straddling him but didn't find it important when he heard the boy sniffle. He sat himself up and placed a hand on Izumi's cheek. "What's wrong?" he asked in concern. Being up close Kaoru noticed Izumi all teared up.

He leaned against the warm hand on his cheek and closed his eyes with a sigh. He calmed down a little now that Kaoru was touching him. Before Izumi would've never let the other touch him when he was in this state. He would push him away and call for either Ryuu or Liviya. But as time passed he grew used to Kaoru comforting him instead.

"A nightmare?" he guessed. Izumi pulled away as his tears gave out. He attempted to wipe them away but Kaoru stopped him. He instead rubbed his thumb under Izumi's eye. "Do you want to talk about it?" he asked.

"No." Izumi replied in a small voice. Kaoru gave him a worried look. "Are you sure?" Izumi shook his head and hugged the auburn haired, burying his face on the boy's neck. He didn't want to remember something so painful as that. He wasn't sure why he even dreamed about that. Maybe it was the conversation he had with Hikaru?

"I just want to forget." Izumi whimpered next to his ear. Kaoru sighed and wrapped his arms around the raven haired's waist. "Okay."

Both boys stayed liked that until the trembling in the raven haired stopped. Kaoru had his head nuzzled on Izumi's neck. His hands were caressing from Izumi's hips to his lower back, going under the shirt to slide his hands easily.

"Kaoru?" Izumi called out softly. "Hm?" Kaoru hummed as a response. Izumi tightened his grip and shifted closer. "I-I would never r-replace you with anyone." he stuttered out.

Kaoru frowned and pulled back. He looked at Izumi's bashful expression in concern. The raven haired blushed a little and turned his head away. "Kaoru is the only one I want." he blurted out. Kaoru flustered in embarrassment at the way Izumi said it. How am I supposed to respond to something like this!?

"You wouldn't either... right?" he asked softly and glanced back at Kaoru. The auburn haired furrowed his eyebrow in confusion, not understanding the question. "You wouldn't re-replace me? O-or use me as a r-re-replace... ment?" Izumi stuttered quietly. He starting trembling in fear from having to say the word 'replace' so many times in his state.

Kaoru was confused as to why Izumi was even saying all this. "I- No I wouldn't-" he cut off as Izumi spoke again. "Not to someone like me?" he asked. Like him? Izumi's eyes teared up again. "N-not to someone who has... has b-black hair and bl-b-blue eyes... like me?" Izumi elaborated, whimpering and sniffling as he did. Kaoru opened his mouth but nothing came out. He was shocked and utterly confused at what was happening. He just calmed down, didn't he?

Izumi wasn't particularly paying attention to Kaoru anymore. He was really just saying anything that came to his mind. "Kaoru wouldn't do that." he said, speaking as he would in his head. "Kaoru's not like him." Izumi gritted his teeth as his tears fell. His hands tightly clenched his shirt again and he looked down at himself. By then his mind had wandered off to the darkest parts he wished never existed. "Please stop." he whimpered.

Please stop? "Izumi?" Kaoru called out and reached out his hand. "Don't touch me!" Izumi shouted and smacked his hand away. Kaoru stared wide eyed at the raven haired.

Izumi kept his head down and never once glanced at him. "Don't touch me." he repeated softly. "I'm... I'm not..." He paused as his breathing quivered. "I'm not... her."

Kaoru reacted fast at the last whimper. "Izumi!" he urgently called and grabbed the boy's face. Izumi cried out and tried to take Kaoru's hands away from him.

"Don't touch me!" he yelled out. He gasped out a loud sob when he wasn't able to push him away.

"Izumi, calm down." he quietly said to not scare the raven haired more. Izumi had his eyes closed up tightly, not wanting to see him. His breathing was quivering and his body was shaking. "It's just me, Kaoru." he continued. The raven haired opened his eyes slowly. "Kaoru?" he questioned softly. Kaoru nodded, "Yeah, it's just me." He took his hands away from Izumi's face.

Izumi stared at him and noticed it really was just Kaoru, he wasn't with his drunken father. He looked around and noticed he was still in his room, he wasn't in that terrifying room back in America. He then looked down at himself, and he wasn't the little kid from back then.

Kaoru smiled faintly, "Are you okay now?" The raven haired looked back at him and nodded. "Yes. I'm sorry." he apologized. Izumi hugged him and nuzzled against his neck. "I'm sorry you have to deal with me when I'm like this." Izumi continued. Kaoru leaned in and whispered in his ear, "It's alright. I don't mind." He caressed Izumi from his hips to his lower back just like he did earlier.

After a while Izumi began dozing off, feeling sleepy in Kaoru's arms. "Let's go back to sleep." Kaoru whispered to him. Izumi hummed back as a response.

He smiled and placed the boy to lie down. Kaoru grabbed the covers and dragged them closer as he lay down as well. "Kaoru?" Izumi called him quietly. Kaoru looked at him questionably. The raven haired's face flushed and he looked away bashfully. "Hold me." he said faintly. Kaoru was shocked at how Izumi blushed intensely and said such things in a cute voice. But he scooted closer to Izumi anyways and pulled him in.

The boy sighed in content and laid his head on the crook of Kaoru's neck. Like this he felt safer and more secure.

Kaoru buried his face on Izumi's hair and rubbed his back. This was the first time he's seen Izumi act so... submissive. He'll talk to Izumi about what happened later. When he's better.


"Are you sure it's okay for you to stay with me instead?" he asked as he sat down on the wooden floor and wiped his brow. Kaoru handed him a water bottle. "You could've gone with Hikaru and Haruhi." he continued as he twisted the cap open.

Kaoru quirked an eyebrow. "And what, be a third wheel? No, thank you." he scoffed. Kaoru then smirked at the boy in front of him. "Besides, I'd rather spend my time here and watch a sexy guy workout." At the word 'sexy' Izumi choked on his water and coughed. "Don't choke now." he said nonchalantly. Izumi glared at him and continued to drink more water.

"But I really do enjoy seeing you wear a judogi and getting all sweaty." Kaoru continued. Izumi rolled his eyes and sealed the cap on the bottle. "Whatever, I'm done anyways." he said and stood up.

Kaoru stood up as well. "What? Already? That was shorter than last time." he whined. Izumi turned around and scowled. "It's not that easy to practice judo when you're alone." he said. Kaoru pouted, "That's why I told you I can help."

Izumi sighed and turned back around, walking towards the sliding door of the dojo. "I'm not going to practice on someone who doesn't know judo. Or any martial arts in that matter." He heard Kaoru 'tch' behind him. Izumi slid open the door and stepped out, locking it after Kaoru. He then began taking off the ropes he was wearing. Kaoru sat down on the porch. "Maybe I should ask Honey or Mori to practice with me. They know-"

"No!" Kaoru shouted, cutting him off. Izumi stared down as Kaoru glared up at him. "I'm telling you to use me and not someone else." he told him. Izumi glared back, "Kaoru, you can seriously get hurt if I do. You don't know any martial ar-"

"Then teach me." Izumi was shocked at that. Teach him? "Teach me judo or something. Then I can be your practice partner, right?" Izumi stared at Kaoru's determined expression. He shook his head and laughed a little. "Fine I'll teach you." he agreed. Kaoru's face brightened up at that. Izumi sat down next to him and grabbed the auburn haired's chin. "But I won't go easy on you." he breathed out close to Kaoru's lips.

"Good." Kaoru replied and leaned in closer, kissing him. He pulled away. "So when do we start." he asked excitedly. Izumi let him go and put his hoodie on over his undershirt. "Not today." he replied. Kaoru pouted but didn't say anything else.

Izumi put on his pants and then his shoes. They both walked away from the dojo. Izumi rubbed his sleeved arms. It was freezing outside but he didn't see a point in wearing more clothes when the dojo was merely two meters behind his house.

"It's going to snow soon." Kaoru stated as he looked up at the sky. "What are you going to do for the break?" he asked, turning towards the raven haired who opened the back door of his house. Izumi shrugged and went inside, Kaoru following in after. "I don't know. I'll probably just stay here."

Izumi went to the kitchen and opened up the fridge. He grabbed the grapes that were inside but couldn't take them out when Kaoru planted himself between the fridge and him. Izumi looked at him with his head tilted, still having his hand on the grapes. The auburn haired smiled slyly and wrapped his arms around his shoulders.

"If you're not going to do anything then I can stay with you during the break, right?" he asked, pulling Izumi towards him. The raven haired opened his mouth to reply so Kaoru took that chance to drag the boy closer, planning to kiss him.

He saw this coming. He's known Kaoru for a while to know what he'll do next. So before Kaoru managed to kiss him Izumi, with his hand still on the grapes, grabbed one and shoved it in the boy's mouth. Izumi smirked when Kaoru pulled away to bite into the fruit in his mouth.

Kaoru pouted and chewed on the grape as Izumi laughed at him. The raven haired closed the fridge and walked out of the kitchen. Kaoru followed after him and glared at his back. His eyes trailed down. Then he smirked maliciously.

Izumi felt victorious and satisfied as he walked over to the stairs. Then there a loud smack. He yelped and turned around abruptly to glare at the one who slapped his ass.

As soon as Izumi turned around Kaoru grabbed the back of his neck and pecked him. He pulled away and, while Izumi was stunned still, stuck his tongue out at him. Then he ran up the stairs before the other recovered.

His face heated up immensely and his ass stung from the slap. "Kaoru!" he growled out and ran up the stairs after him. "You little fucker! Come back here!"

Kaoru laughed and ran into Izumi's room and hid in his closet. Izumi ran in afterwards and scowled when he didn't see him. "Kaoru." he growled lowly. The raven haired walked past the closet and Kaoru took this opportunity. He tackled the boy and they both tumbled to the floor

Izumi growled and they both rolled around, trying to pin each other down. There was a thud from the closet but they didn't pay it any mind.

In the end Izumi, who was experienced and far stronger, sat in between Kaoru's legs. Still, the auburn haired wasn't about to end it like that and forced Izumi down, smashing their lips together. Kaoru nipped his lip and Izumi explored with his tongue, quickly dominating the kiss. The raven haired slid his hands under Kaoru's shirt and his stomach flexed with the light touches.

They stayed like that on the floor, losing themselves in their smell and taste. The youngest of the two moaned and arched into the other's hands. He tugged on Izumi's hair, wanting him to be closer. Izumi grunted and skimmed his hands up Kaoru's shirt. He enjoyed every reaction he got from Kaoru. It was as if it fueled up his energy tank and pushed him into doing more, expecting a greater response.

There was another thud as something fell from the closet. It captured both boys' attention. They pulled apart, panting heavily from all the running and their intimate moment. They looked over to the side and noticed the boxes that had fell.

Izumi scowled at the mess. "Look at what you did." he scolded, glaring down at the other. Kaoru pouted and looked away, "That wouldn't have happened if you let me kiss you the first time." Izumi nearly smirked but instead let it fall to a straight face. He grabbed Kaoru's chin and kissed him briefly.

"Kissing you drives me crazy. It makes me want to do so much more than just that." Izumi said in a husky voice that heated up Kaoru's body. He leaned down again and captured his lips, pulling back and leaving Kaoru desperate for more.

"Just doing this isn't enough." Izumi breathed out. "I need to do more." His hands slid up Kaoru's chest and tweaked his nipples hard as they kissed heatedly again. "Need to touch you more." he groaned as Kaoru moaned out at the pleasurable pain. Izumi skimmed his lips down to the other's neck. Tracing the rapid pulse with his tongue. "Need to taste you more." He latched onto a sensitive part of Kaoru's neck and sucked. "Need to mark you more." he whispered as Kaoru became a moaning mess under his actions. He let his teeth graze over the pink spot. Kaoru hitched his breath when he did it. "Need to bite you more!" he growled and sunk his teeth in.

Kaoru arched up and threw his head back as he cried out in pain. His mind clouding up from all the different sensations. His body quivering and pleading for more. Heating up and arching towards the touches desperately. The raven haired kissed the bruise he made and pulled away.

The auburn haired was flushed a deep shade of red. Breathing heavily through his open mouth. Staring up at him with his half-lidded eyes darkened in lust. Izumi leaned down again and gave him a slow, sweet kiss. He hovered his lips over Kaoru's, "Need to lo-" His whisper cut off and he backed away abruptly. His eyes widened as he stared at Kaoru. But the oblivious auburn haired continued panting and opened his eyes slowly. He didn't notice? He wondered. The dazed look on Kaoru gave him his answer. Izumi sat up and sighed. That was close. But what was I about to say? I need to what?

He whined when Izumi didn't continue. "I would love to continue, but you know that mess you made in my closet." Izumi teased with a drawn out sigh. Then the raven haired got up and walked inside the closet. "Izumi! You can't get me all hot and excited just to leave!" Kaoru whined. Izumi turned around and smirked. "Help me with this first. I might help you afterwards." he offered. Kaoru felt a rush of excitement and got up as well.

They both sat down on the floor of the closet as Izumi instructed Kaoru in what do with each box. They were nearly done already, just one box left to put away. Kaoru opened it and looked inside. "What about this one?" he asked. Izumi went over to him once he finished putting the box he had with the others. The raven haired looked around the things that were inside. There were some clothes, belts, crumbled up paper. "Oh? I was supposed to throw this out." Izumi said.

When Izumi has just moved in this house he had organized a box with things he didn't need anymore. "Ryuu must of put it back up here." he sighed. Izumi got up and walked out of the closet. "Oh well. Bring it over here." he directed towards Kaoru. Yet the boy didn't listen. He kept looking inside the box. "Kaoru?" he asked.

Kaoru picked up what he was looking at and stared at it up close.

Izumi frowned and walked back over to him. "What are you looking at?" he questioned when he saw Kaoru looking at a small rectangular paper in his hands.

"You're going to throw this away too?" Kaoru asked while looking up. The raven haired tilted his head, "Everything in there are stuff I originally wanted to throw-"

Izumi paused when Kaoru turned the paper over and showed him what it was. It was a picture. Of him and Luke.

The raven haired stared are the picture silently for a while. Then he grabbed the picture from Kaoru's hands and ripped it. "Why did you-?" He paused when Izumi just carelessly threw the pieces inside the box, picked it up and walked out of the closet. "Wait, Izumi!" he called back and went after him. "The picture?" he asked.

Izumi sighed and turned around. "I told you already. These stuff are to throw out." The auburn haired frowned. "But the picture." he repeated. Izumi raised an eyebrow. "What about it?"

Kaoru stammered, trying to find the right words to say. "Well, I-I was...um, the picture had, uh... The guy?" Izumi stared at him then sighed. "You're wondering who that was." he stated. Kaoru nodded silently. Izumi just shook his head, "Don't worry about it. It's no one important." Then the raven haired walked out of the room with the box.


The auburn haired giggled as he played with the raven hair. He tied it up with elastic bands and made it seem like two small pigtails. Kaoru pulled back and admired his work. "You look so cute!" he squealed.

Izumi scowled and went to take the hair ties out. Kaoru smacked his hand away. "No, I like it." he said. The raven haired rolled his eyes and just shook his head hard, successfully making the hair ties fly off.

"Izumi, but you looked so cute like that." Kaoru, who was straddling his lap, whined. Izumi didn't pay him any mind, he just ruffled out his hair.

Kaoru sucked his teeth and slapped the raven haired upside the head. "Now you just look ugly!" he exclaimed angrily. Izumi glowered at him dangerously. Kaoru then smiled and grabbed his face. "Nah, you still look cute." he cooed and kissed him.

Izumi snarled at the word 'cute' but kissed him back anyways. Kaoru smirked and scooted closer. Rubbing their crotches together faintly. Izumi turned them around, placing Kaoru on the bed and hovered over his body.

He wrapped his legs around Izumi' hips, pulling the boy down so that every part of their bodies were touching. Kaoru moaned in pleasure when Izumi groped his behind harshly and thrusted into his groin.

Both boys were desperate and wanted to continue their earlier actions. They wasted no time in going slow or being sensual. They both just rushed into getting each other out of their clothes.

Just as Izumi was about to pull Kaoru's jeans down, a phone rang. They halted their actions and breathed heavily. The boys glanced over at the source of the sound and saw it was Kaoru's phone ringing on the nightstand. Izumi growled and got off Kaoru so the boy could get it.

Kaoru groaned when he saw who it was. Taking a deep breath to calm himself down, he answered. "What?" he asked in an annoyed tone.

"Oh, did I interrupt something?"

The teasing tone made him irritated.

"I'm outside, so say your goodbyes to your boyfriend and let's go."

Kaoru sighed in frustration and hanged up. He turned around and kissed the raven haired once more. "I have to leave." he pouted. Izumi sighed as well and pulled away.

"Then get dressed." he said and handed Kaoru his shirt. The auburn haired grumbled childish and put it on. Kaoru grabbed his things and was about to walk out of the room when Izumi gently guided him to the wall. Izumi turned the boy's face to the side and kissed the bite mark on his neck.

Kaoru shuddered at the light touch and tilted his head more. The raven haired nipped the area again and leaned his lips close to Kaoru's ear. "You should cover up my mark." Izumi whispered. Kaoru felt a thrill in the way Izumi called the bite mark his.

Just as Kaoru was about to step out of the house he wrapped his scarf around his neck. It's a good thing it's freezing outside. He thought as he walked out and waved goodbye to Izumi. The raven haired smiled and winked back, going inside afterwards. Kaoru smiled and hopped into the backseat of the car waiting.

"Oh God, I don't even want to imagine what you guys did before I got here." Hikaru groaned, turning his face in disgust. Kaoru blushed in embarrassment. "We didn't do anything." he countered.

The chauffeur started driving and the car was silent for a while. Then Kaoru smiled and turned towards his twin brother. "Thank you for saying that to Izumi last night." he said. Hikaru turned towards him and frowned. He then looked out the window again. "I didn't do anything." he mumbled. Kaoru laughed a little and stayed quiet. Izumi had spoken to him in the morning about how Hikaru apologized to him. But Kaoru was referring to what Hikaru said about him dating someone.

Having a crush isn't the same as actually being with the person. That probably explains why Hikaru isn't satisfied with hanging out with Haruhi as only friends. But he does want his brother to be happy and Izumi is a good guy. He just gets a little jealous of how he hasn't found that happiness of liking someone and them liking you back. Maybe someday Haruhi will notice me. Hikaru thought.


*A judogi is basically a judo uniform. It's very similar to the one for karate.

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