CHAPTER 3 MISTAKES
BELLA
As always Bella had enjoyed herself hanging out with the pack. She spent most of her time with Emily who she had become close to over the past month. They were almost as close as Bella was to Alice but not quite. Bella didn't feel right bringing up what happened earlier in front of her. Mostly because she knew Emily would take Jacob's side on things. None of the pack would approve if they knew Bella was going to continue being firends with the Cullens which made it harder for Bella to feel close to them. At least the Cullens understood how she felt about Jacob and the pack. Alice and the others would never judge anything on her decisions regarding Jacob. The pack; however would judge her if they knew she ran off to the Cullens after what happened today.
After they left Sam's Jacob took Bella back to his garage where they sat on the couch and made out for awhile. That was another thing Bella didn't like about their relationship. Jacob was always so physical and rarely ever wanted to talk about anything. Whereas with Edward, they would talk about anything and everything. She missed just having a verbal relationship but most of the time, when her and Jacob weren't kissing, they were fighting. She hated that too. When would the fighting stop? When would he trust her? When would he stop understand that just because she was still attached to the Cullens didn't mean she wanted Edward back?It was sad that one could think about all these things while making out with one's boyfriend. She wasn't really that into kissing him. It wasn't that she didn't like to just that they did it so much that the thrill was gone.
She felt Jacob slide his hand up her shirt to unclasp her bra. She broke the kiss and pulled away from him.
"No, Jake, I told you, I'm not ready." she said a little annoyed at having to say it again.
"What's the problem? You were practically throwing yourself at the bloodsucker a month ago but you tell me no!" Jacob yelled. "I don't see a difference!"
"The difference, Jake, is that he couldn't give me a disease if we did it unprotected and I was ninety percent sure I couldn't get pregnant." Bella replied.
"Well, I don't have any diseases! And I was planning on using a condom anyway!" Jacob stood up and starting walking toward her.
"But the biggest difference is when I was throwing myself, as you call it, at Edward we were together for nearly a year. You and I have only been together for month. I'm not comfortable yet!" Bella yelled nearly crying. She opened the garage door and walked to her truck. "I'm not sure if I'll be seeing you tomorrow!"
She pulled open the driver side door, got in and drove off, ignoring Jacob's furious yells for her to come back. Her cell phone rang several times on her way back to Charlie's but she ignored it. She got home, saw the cruiser in the driveway and viciously wipe away her tears so Charlie wouldn't ask what had her upset.
She walked in but found the T.V. was off. Was he in bed already? She looked down at her watch. It was a quarter til one in the morning.
"Wow! He must really trust me with Jacob." she thought as she climbed the stairs. "If I was out with Edward tonight he would've dragged me home by now." She went into her room and threw her phone and keys on the bed and went to the bathroom for a quick shower.
She blocked all thoughts of everything that happened that day as she let the hot water cascade down her back. She didn't want to have to think about any of it. She didn't want to have to worry about what would be waiting in La Push when she went the next day. She would go because she was afraid of what Jacob would do if she didn't.
Fifteen minutes later, she stepped out of the shower and went to her room. After putting on a pair of her crappiest sweats and brushing her hair, she looked at her phone to find she had a voicemail. No doubt from Jacob. She flipped it open and dialed her voicemail.
"Bella, it's Jacob. I can't believe you left in the middle of our discussion. I wasn't finished talking to you. I want you over here by two tomorrow or I will go over there and bring you here myself. You got that."
That was the end of the message. Bella sighed and plugged the phone in so it could charge. She wondered why she put up with him trying to oreder her around all the time. She could just leave him. Sometimes, she really wanted to but knew he wouldn't let her go that easily. Besides, if she left him she wouldn't have anybody.She cried herself to sleep that night.
THE NEXT DAY...
Bella got up, got dressed, and headed to La Push around noon. Jacob was waiting on his front porch when she got there. Once again he looked angry.
"Great, he's not over it yet." Bella thought as she shut off the truck and got out. "Hi, Jake." she said and attempted a smile.
"Let's go for a walk." he replied standing and grabbing her by the elbow.
"Ow! Jake, that hurts." she said as he pulled her with him. He let go of her. "What's going on?"
"Nothing, we're just going to finish our conversation from last night." he replied.
"I'm not ready for that step in the relationship. What more is there to say?" she told him.
"A lot because I am ready." he stated.
"I guess that leaves us with a problem then." Bella said looking at the ground.
Bella didn't know what they could do about it. If Jacob was like Edward then he would've respected the fact that she didn't want to and let it go. Jacob, of course, was nothing like Edward and only cared about himself so he would expect Bella to give in. Which was something she wouldn't do until she was ready.
"Can't you at least try?" Jacob asked.
"No. I don't want to." Bella replied. "Jacob, you're in a relationship, it can't just be about you."
"I could say the same thing to you!" he replied.
"This conversation is going nowhere."
Bella started to walk back towards her car but Jacob grabbed her wrist. He was squeezing pretty hard trying to pull her back.
"Jacob, let go of me. You're hurting me." she said trying to pull her arm away.
"Why? So you can go running to the bloodsuckers about our problems!" Jacob said squeezing a little harder. "I don't want them to know about any of this. They're already gonna be on my ass about hitting you yesterday!"
She was angry and upset. She spun around so fast and yelled,
"Well, if you could control yourself you wouldn't have to worry about it!"
She felt the back of his hand hit her right cheek as she felt him release her arm. She fell to the ground from the force. She looked up at him but he didn't look sorry this time. In fact, he looked like he wanted to do it again. She was scared and got up as quickly as possible. She started to run for her car.
She thanked god that she didn't have more than a few feet to go. There was no way she could've outrun him if it was too far away. She jumped in the truck and drove away. Jacob was running behind her yelling threats. Eventually, he stopped and Bella broke down as she drove to the only place she would feel safe for awhile.
ALICE
Alice ran to Edward's room and opened the door without knocking.
"Bella's on her way. I just thought I'd let you know." she told him.
"Is she hurt?" he asked. Alice could see the pain in his eyes when he looked at her.
"I don't know. I could only see blackness until about two minutes ago when I saw her truck headed here. She's upset but it could be about anything." Alice answered.
"Maybe, I should leave. Just in case." he said.
"That's fine. I think that she would rather you not be here anyway. She really doesn't want her presence to be painful to you." Alice said.
"Right." Edward said and stood up.
"Where are you headed?" Alice asked.
"I don't know." Edward answered. "I'll probably drive around for awhile."
"Okay, I'll let you know what happened when you get back." Alice said. "Please take Jazz or Em with you?"
"I don't need them. I'll be fine." he said.
"Please, just to be on the safe side. I don't want you to do something you'll regret." Alice pleaded.
"Fine." Edward stepped out of the room. Alice heard him walked down the stairs and ask Jasper to go with him.
She went to the living room where Carlisle and Esme were sitting.
"Bella's on the way over. She's pretty upset about from what I could see. I couldn't see if she was hurt or not." Alcie told them.
"Should we leave you two alone then?" Esme asked.
"No. She knows that you guys know. Vampire hearing and what not." Alice answered. "But where are Rose and Em?"
"They went for a walk in the woods." Esme answered.
"Okay. She'll be here any minute." Alcie said. She went out side to wait for Bella.
She was hoping that the dog didn't hurt Bella but as her truck pulled up in front of the house and she got out, Alice knew she was wrong. As Bella came closer to her, Alice saw a bruise bolossoming on the opposite cheek from yesterday and there were tears falling down her cheeks.
"Oh Bella!" Alice whispered and threw her arms around her. "What happened?"
"We fought again." Bella began to explain when they pulled apart. "It started out being about sex and he was getting really mad. I tried to leave but he grabbed me and wouldn't let go." She held up her left and Alice saw the hand shaped bruise forming around it. "He told me that he wasn't goiung to let me run off and tell you because then you guys would be all over him about it. So I told him that he wouldn't have to worry if he could control himself and he hit me again."
"Bella," Alice sighed. "Come inside. I want Carlisle to make sure there's nothing wrong with your wrist."
"It's fine. Just a bruise. It doesn't even hurt anymore. I promise." Bella said.
"Bella, he's a werewolf. He's just as strong as we are. I want Carlisle to make sure Jacob didn't damage it." Alice said.
"Alright but I can't stay very long. I don't want Jacob to find out I came here." Bella said. "I don't want him to get any more angry than he is."
"You're going back again?" Alice questioned trying to sound understanding.
"Not today but I will later." Bella answered. "Look, we both made mistakes. I pushed him when he was already angry and he lost control. It was just as much my fault as his. Maybe more so mine. So I'll just go back to Charlie's and give him some time to calm down. Then we'll talk and it'll be fine."
Alice didn't know what to say to this so she just took Bella into the house. Esme and Carlisle were still sitting on the couch. Esme was reading and Carlisle was watching T.V. The both looked up as Alice ushered Bella inside.
"Hi Bella, it's nice to see you again." Carlisle said with a smile pretending he didn't see the bruises.
"Hello, Carlisle. Hi, Esme." Bella said in an embarrassed whisper.
"Carlisle, we were wondering if you could take a look at Bella's wrist?" Alice asked. She figured they had heard the conversation outside and she didn't need to elaborate.
"Of course." Carlisle said and stood. He walked to Bella who held out her wrist.
He turned it from side to side. He made her bend it back and forth. Then he squeezed it a little.
"Well, there's no swelling and it doesn't feel like anything's broken." he stated after a few minutes. "I'd say it's just gonna be bruised for a few days."
"Are you sure?" Alice asked. She wanted to be absolutely positive she could tell Edward that Bella wasn't broken.
"Yes." Carlisle answered.
"Hey Alice, do you think you could put some more cover up on these. I don't want Charlie to ask questions?" Bella asked.
"Of course, come on up stairs." Alice said.
BELLA
A half hour later, Bella looked bruise free and was hugging Alice goodbye, thanking her for everything. She drove home and set to work on dinner for her and Charlie. She spent the rest of the day cleaning the house trying to distract herself from thoughts of what happened that day.
A/N: Sorry, this took so long to get out. I was having trouble thinking of another fight that would cause Jacob to get upset enough to lose control. I just realized this morning sex would be perfect. Plus, it'll set up for a little later. I hope you like it. Please, review.
