A/N: SO apparently this is what happens when I write something while listening to sad piano songs to capture the moment... maybe I should do that more often! Any ways, enjoy the chapter!

A/N2: Sorry about the sudden removal, I forgot the most important part of the story!


Eren saw everyone standing over him. He couldn't think, couldn't move.

"Eren, everything is ok." Elsa said to him.

Eren slowly sat up and put his hands on his head.

"How can you say that? How the hell can you say that?" Eren said without looking at her. "All I have done for us is cause pain and misery... death."

"Hey Eren... get your shit together man." Connie said.

Eren still showed no signs of looking at any of them until Mikasa finally spoke up.

"Eren, please stay with us." she said, it almost sounded like she was begging.

"Even you? After everything I did?" Eren said as need he looked down to the forest floor.

"Eren, we need you to lead us. You can't just abandon your squad." Armin said as he knelt right in front of Eren.

"You are all better off without me... I am no better than the titans."

What Eren said shook everyone.

"All I do is destroy the lives and happiness of others." Eren said coldly as he started to stand up, but he felt two sets of hands force him back down.

"How could you even say something like that?" Elsa said with great concern.

"Don't you ever say that again, don't you ever compare yourself to a titan ever again!" Mikasa yelled in both anger and sadness.

Eren just sat there as his eyes started to water up, he kept on telling himself why he had come on this stupid mission in the first place.

'All I want to do is die, it doesn't matter if Mikasa forgives me because I can't forgive myself for what I have done.'

Soon, Eren was crying again as Elsa brought him in with a hug.

Mikasa couldn't stand the sight of Eren being like this and looked away, it broke her heart every time she saw Eren cry.


The storm was still brewing above them, rain starting to fall harder as Jessy and Armin tried to start a fire to keep the lowering temperature at bay.

eventually, they got a small fire started and everyone gathered around it except for Eren, Elsa and Mikasa.

Eren had stopped crying, but Elsa still held tight to him.

Eventually, Elsa let go and as she looked to the others around the fire she spoke.

"Mikasa, may I have a word?" she asked standing up from Eren who was just sitting there like a rock.

Mikasa nodded as the two of them put some distance between them and the camp.

"So Armin, what do you think about this whole situation?" Sasha asked as she grabbed a baked potato from her rucksack.

"I'm not sure what to make of it, I just want to get back to the wall." he said.

Everyone shook their heads in agreement to what Armin had said.

"You have any more of those?" Jessy asked as he pointed at Sashas potato. "I haven't had a proper piece of food since we left."

Sasha looked at him like he was an idiot, but then reached into her rucksack and pulled out another potato and gave it to Jessy. Now everyone looked at her like she was an idiot.

"Hey, just because I love food doesn't mean I wont share!" she yelled.

Everyone burst into laughter.


Elsa finally thought they were far enough away from the camp and stopped.

"Look, I don't want you to lose Eren." Elsa said.

Mikasa looked at her with confusion.

"The real reason Eren came out here was not to lead a squad." Elsa said as Mikasas face went from confused to concern.

"He... he told me he came on this mission to die, he can't live with the guilt."

Mikasas face then went from concern to horror. She turned to run back for Eren, but Elsa grabbed her.

"Mikasa you need to listen to me, all he can feel is guilt, all he knows is guilt and if you just run over to him, how do you think he will feel?"

Mikasa tried to pull away, but she knew Elsa was right.

"Mikasa, do you still love Eren even after everything he has done to you? After all the pain he has put you through?"

Mikasa looked at her with a scowl.

'Who do you think you are to question if I love him or not? I don't care if he makes me go through hell and high water! I will love him until my dying day and after!' she screamed in her head infuriated with Elsas question.

"I see." she said. "Now the only question left to answer is who does he love?"

Mikasa felt her heart skip a beat.

'What does she mean who does he love?'

"Ever since he joined as squad leader... he looked at me different from everyone else and I fear that he has grown feelings for me." Elsa said with a hint of sadness in her voice.

Mikasa was growing un easy, she did notice that he treated Elsa better than he treated her.

"I don't quite know how I feel about him, but I don't want his feelings for me to bury his feelings for you."

Mikasa just looked up into the darkening sky and felt the intensifying rain hitting her face.

"If Eren loves you then so be it, but I will not ever stop loving him." was all she said.

Elsa was surprised by her reaction, she could tell Mikasa was covering her shock by trying to maintain her calm composure, but there were faults.

"Mikasa, I can always tell him-"

"No, if you are the one he loves then let it be so, all I want is for Eren to be happy."

Elsa lost the ability to speak, she was so shocked at how Mikasa was acting.

Mikasa knew that she wanted Eren, she was willing to die for him, she deserved him.

The rain had started to come down hard as the wind started to pick up. Elsa and Mikasa looked at each other and started walking to the camp.


"We need to cover the fire." Connie said as he went to look for any spare sheets they could use.

eventually, he found a spare tent and then tied it to some trees like a tarp covering the fire.

"Good thinking Connie." Armin said as he smiled.

"Thanks, but it wasn't that hard to do." Connie replied.

Sasha got up and gave him a huge hug.

"Just accept it." she said with a smile on her face.

Out of no where, Christa came over to the fire.

"How is Jean?" Armin asked right away.

"He is doing fine, I can't believe that he would set Eren off like that." she said sadly.

"I can't believe Eren would do that to a person." Jessy said looking into the fire.

"Eren acts on impulse, his emotions can take him over in the blink of an eye." Armin said.

"He used to be so high in spirit, an man with a will of steel." Sasha said.

"Now look at him, he's breaking himself apart... his entire structure is going to cave in on itself." Connie commented.

With that, everyone fell silent as the only noise now came from crickets and the crackle of the fire.


Eren sat there in the cold, alone with his thoughts.

'I can't hurt Mikasa again, but I love her so damn much! Fuck, she has been there for me every time I needed her and where have I been when she needed me? I just can't stand hurting her again.' he thought as the rain started forcing its way through the thick tree canopy above him.

Eren looked up and was sprinkled in the face by the rain making it through.

He felt the wind blast his face, the storm was really picking up.

'Ever since I laid eyes on Elsa, I had a weird feeling about her... a good feeling. She makes me feel safe, she makes me feel like I have a purpose in this squad. It is because of those feelings for her I am having these stupid thoughts now."

Eren was fighting back tears, but he eventually just let them come out.

'Fuck, why can't I just stop ruining everything!" Eren thought as he stood up and walked over to the closest tree and started smashing his head against it.

'Fuck, why can't I just be dead already! Why can't I just stop being a burden in everyone's lives!' he screamed in his thoughts as he continued to smash his head against the tree.

eventually, he had enough and collapsed.

"Why the fuck can't I be dead." he said quietly to himself as he looked up to the sky, his face being lightly splashed with rain.

What Eren didn't notice was that Elsa and Mikasa were standing behind him the entire time that Eren was hitting his head against the tree and that they had heard what he just said.

Elsa was the first to step forward, Mikasa just stood there petrified at what she just saw.

"Eren, what the hell has gotten into you?" Elsa said as she grabbed Eren trying to turn him around

The second he registered the voice, he let out a pained cry and brought his chest to his knees.

Elsa tried to pull him back up, but he didn't move. He let out one painful cry after the other until he felt a familiar hand on his shoulder.

'Mikasa, why do you care so much about me.' he thought. 'You know what... I have made my choice.' he said in his head.

Eren slowly stood up as the two girls rose up with him.

"Elsa, we need to talk." he said as he grabbed her wrist and dragged her of leaving a crushed and defeated Mikasa behind.

"Listen Elsa..." Eren stopped, he tried his hardest to finish his sentence.

Elsa looked at him with worried eyes.

"I... I love you, but it doesn't feel right." he said.

Elsa looked semi relieved and he was curious as to why.

"Eren, I know you have strong feeling for me... I do... but you need to follow your heart and your heart is leading you to Mikasa." she said with a smile, but her head tilted down in disappointment.

"Elsa I... no. Thank you for understanding." he said.

Elsa grabbed him and gave him a big hug and kissed his forehead.

'I will always be here when you need help Eren.' she thought to herself.

Eren just accepted what had happened and soon he gently pulled away from her and walked back to the camp.

When he returned, he saw Mikasa still standing where she was and what he saw wasn't good. She looked so hollow.

"Mikasa?" he said.

She slowly turned to face him, tears streaming down her cheeks.

He slowly walked over to her and grabbed her hands.

She looked into his eyes, her gaze still that of a person who had lost their soul.

Eren pulled her into a clearing where the rain was coming down on them hard, the wind blowing hard against them.

Eren moved his hands from hers up to her shoulder, her gaze into his eyes gaining some life.

Soon, Eren pulled her into him. He felt at peace with himself.

Mikasa took a bit to realise what was happening and when it hit her, she let out a loud cry as she wrapped her arms around Eren.

The two stood there in the rain holding each other un aware that their friends had followed to watch the scene.

"You have always been the one for me Mikasa, ever since the day we met... I was just to blind to see it." he said tightening his grip on her."

All Mikasa could do was cry even more, tears of joy rolling down her cheeks. She had meaning again, she felt life surge into her body.

"Eren." she said softly but Eren gave her a gentle hush.

"Mikasa, my heart will belong to you forever, no matter what happens."

Christa and Sasha were starting to cry from the scene in front of them while Connie, Armin and Elsa just stood there with big smiles on their faces.

Eren finally pulled away from Mikasa enough so that he could see her face, he wasn't sure how much of the water on her cheeks was rain or tears.

To Mikasa, it looked like Eren was about to say something, but then it happened and it happened fast.

Eren connected his lips with Mikasas and he could feel her body tense up and quickly relax like she was melting.

Their kiss lasted for almost a minute before Eren pulled away.

She looked at him and he looked ashamed of what he had done.

"Mikasa I-" he was cut off as Mikasa made their lips connect again in another long kiss of passion.

Again when they finally separated, Eren said the words she had said to him in the infirmary.

"Mikasa, I love you. Don't ever let me go" Eren said as he gave her another big hug and that is when Eren remembered the scarf.

He reached his hand into the pocket where she kept it and pulled it out, unfolding it.

"This scarf has a new meaning, it's the fabric bond that will keep us together." he said as he began to slowly wrap it around her.


A/N: Wow I used eventually a lot in this chapter! As always leave some feedback, every bit helps for future chapters and stories! Also, if you have any ideas for the story then send them to me and I will look them over with my co-writer and your content will most likely end up in a future chapter!