A/N: I know you are all getting sick of reading this scene. Don't worry, this is the last time. And just to let you guys know, I know I've been having Bella refer to the baby as he. This is not what Bella thinks the baby is going to be. Nor does it reflect her preference on the sex. I just can't stand it when people call an unborn baby "it''. Even if he or she is not technically part of this world yet, they still deserve to be refered as a human being and not a thing. That is the only reason Bella has chosen a sex for the baby.

CHAPTER 15 GUILT

ALICE

The family was sitting in the living room. Alice didn't have to have Edward's power to know what they were all thinking. What would this new bit of imformation mean for Bella and Edward?

She had wanted to put all their minds at ease so she closed her eyes and peeked into their future.

Edward was sitting in Bella's rocking chair. Bella was on his lap and he had his arms around her.

"Do you know what you're going to do?" Edward asked Bella.

"I'm going to keep him. He's as much mine as he is Jacob's so I can't give him up. And it's not his fault so I won't kill him." Bella replied. "I just don't know what I'm gonna tell Charlie."

"Wait a few weeks and tell him the baby's mine." Edward suggested.

"I can't ask that of you." Bella replied.

"You're not. I'm volunteering." Edward replied.

"No." Bella said.

"Why not?"

"Because it's just too much." Bella said. "There's so many reason why you can't. Mostly because I don't think I can be with you again."

"What do you mean?" he asked.

"I just can't okay. Can't we leave it at that."

"I don't believe you." he said.

"Look, Edward. Don't make this any harder on yourself. Just go, please." she said.

"Bella, please." He reached out to her but she pulled back.

"Go."

Edward gave her one last hurt look before jumping out of the window.

Alice pulled herself out of the vision because she didn't want to see anymore. Both of them looked as if their world was being ripped from them, by the time she did. She let out a choked sob as she looked at her family.

Jasper, who was on the couch next to her, put his hand on her shoulder.

"What did you see?" he asked her.

"It was Bella. She told Edward to leave." Alice said. "He offered to help her raise the baby and she made him leave. She said she wasn't sure if she wanted to be with him again. She said there were too many reasons why he couldn't help her take care of the baby."

"Why would she do that?" Jasper asked.

"I don't know." Alice replied. "I do know though that she didn't mean it. I don't know how I know, I just do. I think she's afraid of something."

"I think I know what it is." Rosalie stated. "I'm going to have to talk to her. She probably won't listen to anyone but me right now."

"What makes you say that?" Carlisle asked.

"Because, in her mind, I'm probably the only one who understands even a fraction of what she is going through right now." Rosalie replied.

"What are you saying?" Jasper asked.

"We have both been violated in the worst possible way." Rosalie explained. "When something like that happens, you don't think anyone could possibly understand what you are going through. Bella needs to know that someone does understand. She also needs to realize that it doesn't matter to Edward."

"I think Edward might be the one to worry about right now." Alice said. "He just leveled another part of the forest."

"I'll talk to him." Esme said. "I don't know if it'll help but it's worth a try."

Alice nodded as Esme headed for the door.

"I'll go to Bella tomorrow." Rosalie said.

EDWARD

Edward sat on the forest ground wanting nothing more than to cry. Why was Bella pushing him away? He just didn't understand. Did she think she could raise a baby on her own? Why couldn't she just let him help her? She could be so stubborn all the time.

He knew that she wanted nothing more than to have him there with her. He could see that in her eyes. So why did he make her go?

"She just doesn't think you understand." Esme's motherly thoughts cut into his head and he turned to find her approaching.

"How did you know?" he asked.

"Alice saw what happened." Esme replied. "Do you want to talk about it?"

"I just don't understand why she's doing this. I know she wants me to be there but she won't let me." Edward said.

"She's been through a lot this past month. The abuse, the rape, he almost killed her and, to top everything off, she's probably pregnant with his child." Esme explained. Edward pushed his anger back as he remembered it all. "She just confused."

"I know." Edward said. "I know that she just needs time to sort things out but I can't help but feel it's all my fault."

He hadn't really talked much about this except the other night with Alice. That wasn't the best time to resolve anything. Maybe, Esme could help him since things were a little calmer now.

"How do you figure that sweetie?" Esme asked.

"I left her." Edward explained. "That monster was the only person she could turn to after that. If I would've stayed, everything would've been fine."

"You don't know that." Esme stated. "With what we are, there's no way of ever knowing if everything will ever be fine. We all know this with you or Jacob she could never truly be safe."

"Thanks, Esme." he said slightly sarcastic. She had only succeeded in making him feel worse.

"I didn't mean it like that." she replied. "I just mean that the were many things that could've happened to her if we didn't leave."

"I know that but at least we try to control ourselves." Edward replied. "The mutt just uses his force and doesn't care if he hurts her. If I had stayed, I could've protected her from getting in that deep."

"Maybe, maybe not." Esme said. "You can't protect her from everything. I know you want to but that's impossible."

"I know that but I should've been able to save her from Jacob." Edward stated. "He could've killed her the other day!"

"I know, but because of us and you, she won't give him the chance again."

"She should've never given him the chance to get that far. If I would've been here, she wouldn't have."

"You can't base your life on what ifs, Edward. I mean, what if our kind didn't exist. She would still be with him."

"But he wouldn't have a reason to hit her."

"You don't know that."

"Yes, I do." Edward yelled. "He was always worried that she was gonna leave him for me. That's why he tried to keep her from coming around. When telling her didn't work, he let his jealousy turn to anger and took it out on him! If I wasn't here to encourage that jealousy then she'd be fine!"

"No!" Esme told him calmly. "With guys like Jacob, there's always someone to be jealous of. If it wasn't you, it would've been someone she worked with or a family friend."

Edward looked down at the ground. She was making sense.

"It's okay to be mad at her." Esme thought.

"No!" Edward yelled. How could he be mad at her? She didn't ask for any of this. "It isn't her fault!"

"That's not what I mean." Esme replied. "I mean, look at everything she's putting you through. And here you are trying to find all the reason to make it your fault."

"I can't be mad at her, though. I love her and I know how hard all of this is."

"The family feels the same about her but you can be mad at her for hurting you like this. It's okay to blame her for that. We all want to help her. Perhaps the best way is to walk away until she'sready for help."

"That'll be never. She's just that stubborn. She'll never admit to needing it."

"I know but she has to figure everything out for herself. I just don't want you to go on beating yourself up about this. She has to decide what she wants and needs right now. None of this is your fault and it's not hers either. It just is."

Edward just nodded.

"It'll work out when it's meant to. If you two are supposed to be together, you will be." Esme thought as she put a hand on his shoulder.

Edward nodded again.

"Go home and relax for a bit. I'll keep an eye on things here." she told him.

"No, I want to stay because if he comes, I'll kill him." Edward growled.

"Alirght." she said. Edward knew she was thinking that she wouldn't win if she fought him. "If you do need some time away, call and someone will come. We'll call you if there's something important."

Edward nodded and Esme ran back towards home. Edward walked to the edge of the forest to watch over his angel.

BELLA

Bella kept drifting in and out of sleep that night. She dreamed about Jacob mostly but some Edward.

It scared her that Sam couldn't find Jacob. She didn't even know if he was planning anything. Hell, she didn't know if he wasn't standing out side her window waiting to strike. She worried about what would happen when he found out about the baby. Would he be mad? Would he take responsibility? Would he kill him or her before he or she could even be born?

To a normal person, those would be the things on the priorities list but Bella was anything but normal. Those were distant worries in her mind. Her biggest problem was the terrible pain in her chest and the guilt she felt over making Edward leave.

She sent him away and all he was trying to do was help her. She knew she didn't deserve him but he didn't deserve to be treated like that. Why did she have to hurt him? He was only trying to take care of her. To love her.

She laid there in bed telling her self over and over that it was for his own good. That he would be in danger if she let him help her. That she was worthless and undeserving. She told herself that this whole situation was her fault.

Nothing that she told herself that night quenched the guilt or pain she felt thinking about Edward.

A/N: Yeah, this one was more or less just a filler. Once again, nothing happens. I needed something to bridge the gap between 14 and 16. I also thought a mother son heart to heart would be nice to see. I haven't really had much of Esme in it. And don't worry my Rosalie and Emmett fans! Those to will have their moments as well. Hugs in exchange for reviews!!