By: Katthiea Uraboku is Boy x boy, if you don't like please don't read thank you
This war of mine
Chapter 6: More dreams of a past lost in time
I can feel it... a little...heartbeat...ha-ha...
To think such a thing could feel so, uplifting...
I think I understand know...Why my mother, choose to die in order for me to live.
Many said her choice was foolish, but I think not. I'm glad to be alive...
And yet after all these years I never thought I would be, suppose this is his doing as well.
Yuki looked to man standing not far away with a group of young men, training to become guardsmen so that they can protect their land and families from the darkness of the world. He being the oldest trained them well, and was an excellent swordsman. Noticing Yuki's eyes he turned to look her way, and decided to call a break for his men.
He walked up the little bit of land and sat beside his wife of two years, "Are you alright? Why are sitting here?" she giggled know his concern was for her but also their unborn child.
"I told you I am fine good sir, you would be the first to know if not...besides I like sitting under this tree it reminds me of my home" she explained and smiled at her. "If only I could help you go back and visit somehow, I know how much you miss your brothers" Yuki faulted at his words, he wasn't wrong but now if she went back she would probably be seen as a failure.
She glanced over; to the man she had called Ren, her husband to see his beautiful silver eyes smiling at her.
Those eyes, like stars, like they understand even what you do not... Their Luka's eyes... but not...just like she is me and yet not me...this man is Luka and yet somehow different...
Time, changes many things but one thing it struggles to change is a soul...
Who would have thought even before Takashiro...even before Regia
We met in a past I had long forgotten, you the human, me the beast... destiny?
I wonder...
If only that moment could have lasted longer, to be with you always...
Even as a boy, we don't feel any different...do we?
Yuki woke up next to Luka who despite trying his best had practically fallen asleep on his bed. Yuki didn't mind so with Sodom's help he guided him onto it, laying him flat. Yuki was surprised that Luka didn't wake up even though he moved him.
He must have brought me up here after I collapsed, with Takashiro's help maybe?
He is so worn out and yet I'm still relying on him... That man, Ren was it? He was Luka in another life...a human one...and I was he wife? But I wasn't human like him, I was different...I could feel everything...hear everything, see everything... what type of soul can do all that? I don't remember what I was; just that I was me and that my kind had left the earth...They had gone home.
Yuki sighed and laid back down now next to Luka, he glanced over at him.
These memories, I don't think Luka would have answers even if I asked...There from too long ago. But I do want to know what I was in that lifetime; ha-ha seems I was a mother-to-be. To think that is what's shocking me the most right now ha-ha...There's still lots to remember from this life I just dreamt of...to the one with Regia and Takashiro...to the ones with the zweilts and Luka in my previous life.
It scares me a little just like my past-self said it would...but the pain...my own pain I can take. It's the pain of the others that is beginning to creep in. This happened in my past life, I never told you Luka but I was remembering things...dark things...and I wanted to keep the emotions that came with them locked inside, because if I didn't you would have to take on the pain too. No you would insist on doing so.
Yuki reached over and placed a hand onto Luka's cheek, he was warm to the touch which made Yuki realise he was cold. He didn't move though he was watching Luka take deep breaths in and out, as he thought
Yes just like this...If it could last for even a moment longer... I would do anything... and seems even after all this time...You feel the same...but perhaps me being a boy...has made you think or feel differently, I don't know...but you surely would have said something to me if you wanted me to know right?
Yuki stroked Luka cheek lovingly, running his fingers through Luka's hair.
That's okay...I understand...I never thought I'd be a boy either ha-ha...I'll stay quiet for you...I might be wrong and I should say something now...but I'll have time to think about everything that's happening and you can decide, if you want to stay... and as what... my friend, my partner, my family, my lover... as long as it's your choice Luka... that's all that matters.
Yuki decided to say out loud, for what could be the last time if Luka no longer felt the same way as him, "Good night Luka, I love you".
Yuki feel asleep moments after feeling comfortable and safe, knowing Luka was lying beside him. However little did he realize that at that moment Luka had woken up and heard his declaration of love, a moment of pure disbelief was plastered on Luka's face as Yuki slept beside him...
Luka sure is acting weird... I mean he is normal I guess? He is not ill, or hurt still...in fact his wound healed faster than me...I'm okay but shaky on my feet, which has Luka one foot closer than usual. I don't mind but it's made me notice, He keeps a distance usually...which sort of hurts if I'm honest...me being a boy real does bother him huh? Well can't change that now...
Walking down the hallway to the dining room for breakfast before school, since Yuki insists on not missing the first day, Yuki is trying he's best to figure out what Luka is thinking. For someone who is used to others emotions he expect if concentrated it be easy but the harder he tries the further Luka's emotions seem.
It couldn't be he knows I'm trying so he is covering them up right? Nah that's crazy Ha-ha...
Luka looks over at Yuki as they walk feeling his intense stares and concentration. He tries to stop himself but a small smile and a laugh come out of his mouth and Yuki jumps out of his skin. "Luka, Uhm I'm not trying to be nosy or anything, it's just my power I was trying to use it on command but nothing..." Yuki mad half of an excuse for his curiosity. "It's working; I'm just use to your power so I'm more immune, or can make myself more resistant to it if I want. Try the zweilts or someone at school, you'll see it works with them" Luka explains why it isn't working and Yuki gets lost in thought again.
Doesn't that mean you didn't want me to see what you were feeling? That's fine but you could just say it...
Yuki had this feeling in his chest all threw breakfast with the Zweilts and only ate because he knew they'd notice he was acting weird if he didn't. However, it made him feel sick and if wasn't for the cooks feeling's Tomo he probably would have stayed home. Waiting outside to walk to school Luka had long since noticed Yuki had gone paler and was about to bring up the topic when Sairi appeared.
"I can give you a lift Yuki" Sairi said "Oh nah I'm Huh?" quickly stepping into Yuki's personal space, Yuki thought by instinct to slap him again but resisted the urge. "I know you want to go to school but you don't look well you should at least get taken and picked up today" Yuki knew Sairi was right but didn't want to admit he had hid feeling sick in front of the other zweilts and Luka. "I'm fine, frankly I feel like a walk ha-ha I just ate too much" the others bought this but Luka and Sairi knew different.
"Actually I'm pretty sure you eat less than usual this morning" Sairi said loudly as to make sure all the zweilts could hear their conversation. "Really? Oh Yuki if you weren't better you should have said so" Toko who was near said this to him and Lia came over and agreed. "I think you should stay home Yuki, you aren't sleeping well because of your dreams right? Maybe see the doctor again?" Yuki knew this was coming and though he appreciated them caring he really wanted to go to school, he wanted a normal day, or close to one as he could get and also he wanted a break from thinking about Luka. With him there it's not like he could help thinking and remembering things now even in the day.
"No seriously, I'm fine. Sairi is overreacting" directing this at Sairi hoping it would make him back off a little, was a foolish hope. Yuki had just challenged Sairi in his most favourite game ever, 'Prove Yuki Wrong game'. Having learnt his lesson in his past self's life, hiding something from Sairi was a bad idea, he remember this fact as the most cheekiest smile spread across Sairi's face.
Oh no...now I've done it...forget school, I'll be lucky if I ever see daylight again!
"I'm not overreacting Yuki, I just want to make sure you are okay..."
"And as I said I'm fine but thank you for asking, Sairi" practically feeling the electricity, Toko wondered if she should step in but Lia simple shook her head "Here we go again, it's been a while"
"Look I said I'm fine" Sairi looms over Yuki a little more, so he steps back. "I think you're saying it so we don't worry and now to prove me wrong even though I'm not" Yuki is getting irritated and he remembers this feeling well. He often felt it when he or others were rude to Luka especially when they all thought he couldn't hear, that was in the previous life, so many times Sairi would Pick on Yuki, that he grow up used too it was the cruelty towards anyone who didn't agree with him that used to make Yuki really mad and yet Yuki could never hate him.
"I'm not!" "Yes, you are!" "No I'm not!" Yuki insisted and Luka was about to interrupt when he saw Takashiro making he was up to them. "Alright Yuki, let's see shall we!" Sairi said this with his patience gone and a small smile. He stepped so close Yuki knew what he was going to do straight away, the power of Sairi's all Seeing Eye would make Yuki admit or do anything that he wanted as long as it was based on True emotions of Yuki.
Oh Crap!
Yuki tried to get out of Sairi's gaze but it was too late, all Sari had to do was command him to tell the truth and it was over. Standing in a haze he tried to move but he also knew how pointless that was having gone through this before, he hated that experience, a horrible memory.
He could hear the Zweilts telling him to stop and him asking "Tell the Tru..." Sairi didn't finish though, because Luka was fuming. Not thinking that Sairi would ever go this far again he had been just watching knowing Yuki could handle himself. However Sairi had gone over the top and used his power on Yuki, Luka charged at him and sent him flying across the front garden. If Lia hadn't acted then and quickly caught her partner he probably would have had more than a bruised stomach, Moreover Lia wasn't sure who she wanted to tell off first Luka or Sairi.
Yuki fell into Luka's arms still in that horrible hazy and looked over to Lia and Sairi. Lia was about to ask him what he was thinking kicking him so hard but, she re-thought that idea when she saw how angry Luka really was. "If he, If you ever come near Yuki like that again, I don't care what any of you think, Sairi I will kill you!" Still furious Luka picked up Yuki and carried him back into the mansion, despite Takashiro asking him to wait.
"Oh dear Sairi, the guard dog had been so tame until now why do you have to rile him up like that?" Takashiro asked looking at him as he tried to get up and failed. "Its fun" Sairi answered with a bloody smile, "Oh even if that means you have to hurt your protector to, have some fun?" Takashiro asked wiping the smile off Sairi's face. "Seriously what were you thinking? What's winding Yuki up going to achieve? He is already not feeling well you said it yourself moron" Toko clearly was not happy with him and only calmed down because Tskumo walked her off to school.
"You two come with me, as for the rest of you good luck with school. Don't worry about Yuki and Sairi well sort it out" Takashiro rushed them off "Yuki yes, Sairi no and you call me an idiot!" Sairi shouted as he and Shunsei walked with Kuroto to school, Senshiro had already left for University.
Yuki woke up as Luka was carrying him into his bedroom, Luka's room being nearer he had probably decided to let him rest here. "Ah, No it's okay I'm awake now Luka, I can go to school" Yuki fidgeted as Luka placed him down onto the bed "No...You need to rest" Luka hung over him keeping him from moving. "Uhm...is something wrong?" Yuki asked Luka hoping he didn't ask about why he felt ill.
Luka looked up at Yuki and his heart skipped a beat, his face said he was annoyed but his eyes said they were hurt. "What is it? Are you made at me?" Yuki asked Luka worriedly but understood why. "Yuki, I don't think you have any idea how important you are to me"
Huh? That's...
"That Zweilt, as long as there is a faint truth to the emotion he is searching for he can get you to do whatever he wants. In the past he used it on you and... he made you say things, you would have never have said otherwise."
That's right I remember...a little... he asked me a question and I answered truthfully. The answer hurt both him and Luka but more than that he asked me to do something I didn't want to do. What was it...?
"He loved you in your past lives, in the previous one he proposed but you returned the ring, you loved another. He wanted to know if you had ever really loved him, you had but not as a lover more like a partner, a zweilt bond perhaps I don't really know myself. He tried to make you see that you would be happier with him; he tried to make you love him romantically. For a while it looked like it had worked too but whenever the one you loved came near you would get confused and eventually you broke threw his command, you were furious" Luka explained to Yuki what he had been wondering about for a while now.
"That man when he gets near you, even though he promised he wouldn't do it again, he makes me angry...but I know just like Regia he is important. I can't just kill them that's not who I want to be anymore anyway." Luka is so angry that he is almost shaking; Yuki reaches out and places arms around Luka without really thinking. It shocks Luka at first but he tries to calm down because of it, "Thank you for telling me that Luka, a few things make more sense now you know. Also I know what Sairi did back then and just now, it felt intrusive, I hated it. That's probably how people who my god's light work's on feel, I don't will it like Sairi did, usually it happens on its own but still me and Sairi were being selfish this time."
Luka looks up at Yuki to see him smiling embarrassed "He was right I wasn't feeling 100% and I kept on insisting because I didn't want anyone to worry, especially you. I mean it was just the after taste of breakfast I think, I feel better now" Yuki was thinking about asking what to Sairi after but still being a little annoyed at him decided that he Sairi no longer deserved to be in their conversation.
"I'm sorry Luka I should have told you at least, so you don't have to worry like this next time, but let's not talk about Sairi anymore today ha-ha I'm still a little mad" Yuki said scratching his head in embarrassment.
Huh?
It took a few seconds for Yuki to process what had just happened but he could still feel Luka's warmth on his own lips. Luka had pushed him down gently onto the bed and kissed him sweetly it made Yuki lose track of time. "I will always worry for you Yuki, you are to important, even now I will not betray you" Luka said these words with passion in his eyes as he had done many times before but somehow right now Yuki felt it more than he ever had.
He kissed me, but I thought... now I'm even more confused but... I want more
It was like a dam had been opened; Luka was resisting with all his might but still couldn't move away from Yuki yet. He got himself to move though, since Yuki looked surprised he was about to apologise so Yuki didn't hate him when Yuki's arms wrapped themselves around Luka's neck, Yuki lifted his head and kissed Luka gently and then when he was more confident he pulled Luka into it. Luka was surprised to say the least but if Yuki wanted to kiss him he wasn't going to say no, in fact the feeling was welcomed. Kissing Yuki again he never knew if he would get that chance, if fact he had thought he had given up on such a thing.
"Mhmm..."Yuki respond well to Luka when he made the marathon of kissing deeper and, Yuki wasn't about to ask him to stop.
Oh wow only last night I thought he wouldn't treat me like this ever again and yet...I'm being greedy but I really don't want him to stop...I want more...
Yuki was simply following his instinct and placed himself closer to Luka. Luka placed himself on top of Yuki in response and Yuki placed his hips closer to him. Realising that Yuki wasn't holding back, Luka decide to follow his pace. He first undid his tie and threw it to the ground, still showering Yuki with Kisses, he unbuttoned Yuki's school shirt and rubbed his hand along Yuki's stomach.
"Ahh..." Yuki was still responding to every touch and both of them could tell.
Gezz at this rate...Shouldn't I say something first, but I don't want him to stop...
Will Yuki end up as Luka's Prey? ;) Ha-ha we'll have to find out in the next chapter, sorry but not enough room! Thanks for reading, please tell me what you think x
