EDWARD

I always thought there was no place in heaven for creatures like me. My point has been proven time and again in the last six years. First with the deaths of the pack and Nessie. Then the war and losing Rosalie and Emmett. We lost the humanity that we fought so hard to gain. And when I've finally found someone to help me get that back, we gave to lose her too. What's worse? Her baby will probably die before he or she ever has the chance to live.

I only hope that that God takes pity on the baby's soul. It wasn't his fault how he was concieved, just like it wasn't Nessie's. I still prayed everyday that Nessie was in heaven looking down on us, even though, I know she's not proud of what she's been seeing. All the same, nobody deserves heaven more than that sweet and beautiful girl. I also hoped the changes I've been making are helping her to see me as the man I used to be. I hope that she's proud of the changes I've been making.

I had forgotten how hard it was to think about my sweet girl. It was even harder when I was standing in our old home in Forks. I stared out the back window at the forest where we used to take Nessie hunting or Jacob would chase her around. I needed to go to the cottage. It was the closest place I could get to her. I knew, though, that finding Kari should be the priority. Still, there was a part of me that wanted a few minutes with my daughter.

"Go." I heard Esme's thoughts before I felt her hand on my shoulder. "There's nothing here. Alice and I will finish up."

"No." I said. "We need to move to the next house. Who knows what they've done to her."

"You need to go there. You need that closure. Kari'll understand." Esme pressed.

"But what if they kill her because I take too long?" I questioned. "I don't think I could live with myself."

"They won't kill her." Esme said. "I know the new Bella well enough to know she'd want to wait until we find them to kill her. She knows that's what would hurt you the worst."

I cringed to think about what mine and Bella's relationship had become. There was a time when we couldn't live without the other but now, we were doing everything in our power to hurt each other. How did we get to this point? I just didn't understand.

"Are you sure about that?" I asked.

"Even if I wasn't, you still need this." Esme insisted. "We haven't been here since the night she died. You need to go back to that house."

I knew she was right. I knew I needed to talk to my daughter, if only, to apologize for what I had to do. I nodded to Esme and took off out the door. As I ran to the forest, I distinctly smelled gasoline. It was my idea to burn every house we'd already searched. This was atually for two reason. The first was to cover our scent with the burnt smell. It made it a little harder to track us. The second was to make sure they couldn't run to the places that we'd already checked.

As I entered the forest, I barely took in my surroundings. I was at the cottage in less than two minutes. I opened the door. We never bothered locking it ever. The memories came back in waves as I stepped in the living room. I remembered the many fights we had with Nessie as she was growing up. She would always plan to sneak out with Jacob but I would catch her thoughts before she could follow through.

I remember how she used to complain about not being normal. She used to tell us that most kids are actually able to do what they get in trouble for. Normal kids didn't have their fathers reading their minds to find out before the had a chance to do anything.

As I continued through the house, the memories continued. It was like this place remmebered things that I had forgotten. I walked by the kitchen and thought of all the mornings Nessie and Jacob ate fruit loops together. Of course, most of the fruit loops ended up on the floor. Jacob was always trying to show off by tossing them up and catching them in his mouth. Nessie, however, would distract him from him his goal leaving both of them with a mess.

I had to force back the dry sob that was trying to escape as I stepped into Nessie's room. It was almost exactly like it was six years ago. The walls were a bright purple and pink with a splash of glitter on them. The queen sized bed was neatly made with only one thin blanket. She didn't need much warmth with Jacob sitting next to her almost every night. I looked to the left of the bed and, of course, there was the rocking chair that used to be in Bella's room pulled right up there close to the bed.

Jacob would sit next to her every night. He would talk to her about the pack and what they were up to every night. The sound of his voice helped her fall asleep. He'd spend a few hours watching her sleep then he'd fall asleep in the rocking chair. I was surprised at how little that bothered me. I was even more surprised at how little it bothered me when he started sleeping in the bed with her. I guess it helped to know that was where the relationship was going from the beginning.

It wasn't until I over heard Nessie thinking about having sex with Jacob did things start to bother me. Bella had to remind me, rather loudly, that I knew all along that things were going to turn into that. I just thought that I would have more time. I never got used to it, even though, I put up with it. Bella did her best to block those thoughts from me.

I walked into the room and sat down in the rocking chair. I stared at the bed for a minute feeling extremely stupid for what I was about to do. I only hoped that she was willing and able to listen.

"Ness, honey, it's daddy." I said. "I hope you can hear. There some things, I need to tell you. First, I wanna tell you how much your mommy and I love you. That's something that has never changed over the years. It's something that will never ever change. I miss you more and more everyday. I'm sorry we weren't able to protect you. I'm just glad Jake and the pack were with you. I will forever be grateful for their sacrifice, even if it was in vain. I know if you can see us now, you aren't proud of what you're seeing. We let our anger and grief get out of control. For that, I'm even more sorry. A very special human, Kari, has been helping me become the man and father I used to be. I'm trying so hard to become the father that made you proud. I regret that I may have to hurt mommy, Uncle Jasper, and Grandpa Carlisle, mybe even kill them. It's not something that I want to do but they've taken Kari and might be hurting her. And Kari means as much to me as you do and as mommy did. If I can get her out of there without hurting any of them I will but they might not leave me with a choice. I hope you can forgive me if i have to hurt them. I suppose that's all I needed to say. I love and miss you so much, baby girl. I hope you can find it in your heart to forgive the things I've done that neither of us are proud of. I also hope you can forgive me if I have to hurt the ones we love. It's not something I want to do. If I can avoid it I will. I promise. I love you. I hope you're happy where you are. I hope Jake and the pack's with you. Protecting the way I couldn't."

I finished the speech and my voice cracked a little. I felt better having said all this. It didn't matter that I didn't know if she was listening or not. It just mattered that I said it and got it all off my chest. I stood and gave the room another once over. I had to pass by the dresser to get out the door and something gold caught my eye. I walked to it and found it was the necklace that I had given Nessie for her third birthday.

It was a thin gold chain with a heart shape pendant. Engraved on the pendant were the words "Daddy's Little Monster." That was odd. I could've sworn she was wearing it the night she died.

There were nights when Jacob had pak stuff to do and couldn't put Nessie to sleep. On those nights, Bella would tell her stories about about our relationship. Those were Bella's most distinct human memories. She was determined not to foget them. One night, Bella's story included that I considered myself a monster. The next day, Nessie told me that if I was monster that she was too. I tried to convince her otherwise but she said as long as I was she was. So I started calling her Daddy's Little Monster. She loved it. That's why I decided to give her the necklace.

I picked the necklace up off the dresser and held it between my fingers. I notice a piece of paper. It looked a yellowed and the pen was faded. I got the impression that it was sitting there for awhile. I picked it up. Due to my vampire senses, I could read it with ease.

Dear Mommy and Daddy,

I have a feeling something bad is going to happen. I don't know what it is but Aunt Alice always told me to follow my instincts. And my instincts say that something bad is going to happen to me. Something that not even Jake can protect me from. So there are a few things I want to say, just in case something does happen.

First, I love you all very much. I know, I've spent half my life wanting to be normal but the truth is, I wouldn't change what I have for anything normal. I have two wonderful families who love and take care of me. Even with a father who can read minds. I know you only stop my plans to protect me. I'm glad you do. Who knows what kind of trouble I could get into if you didn't. I'm the luckiest abnormal child in the world. I mean, I have two abnormal families to help me feel more normal. I love you all.

I also want to remind you that everything happens for a reason. Just look at mommy and Jake's relationship. The whole time it was leading Jake to me. You may not understand the reasons that things happen but there are reasons. So if something does happen just remember that there was a reason.

I love all of you so much. I always have and always will. No matter what the future holds.

Love,

Nessie

I read it twice but I didn't understand. Did she somehow now all of this was going to happen? Did Alice see it coming and only told Nessie? Or maybe she was preparing for a moment like this. She was always such a smart girl.

Reading her words made me realize something I'd been thinking for awhile. What if Bella wasn't my real mate? What if for some reason I met her when I wasn't supposed to? What if everything that happened with her and Nessie was only leading me to Kari?

I knew after reading them that Nessie would forgive if I had to hurt Bella. It was like she knew to forgive me all those years ago. Before any of this happened. She somehow knew it was going to come to this.

Suddenly, I smelled something burning. I knew it was time to go. I folded the note and stuck it in the back pocket of my jeans then put the necklace around my neck. Then ran out the front door towards the towering pillar of smoke.

When I got back, I saw Alice and Esme leaning against our "borrowed" car. Neither of them said anything as I stodd in between them. We stood in silence, watching the best memories of our existence burn to the ground.

A/N: I hope this chapter doesn't seem too out of place. I thought Edward could use a little closure with Nessie's death. Then I thought Forks and the cottage would be the best place. It wasn't as good as I hoped it would be. I planned it out two days ago but forgot some things. Remember the flying monkeys!!!!!! Review!!!!!!!!!!!!