BELLA

I only had to wait a few minutes after Esme left before the door opened again and Emmett came bursting in. He had a huge smile on his face. It, however, didn't quite reach his eyes. Those looked terribly sad and extremely hurt. I cringed to think that it was my actions that made him look and feel like that. Especially after he was the one who defended me when Carlisle was worried about a relapse.

Rosalie walked in behind him. She looked calm and indifferent all the way around. That was, of course, typical Rosalie. I, however, knew her well enough to see the relief and hurt underneath the fascade. I found myself a little more embarassed at the thought of hurting Rosalie's feelings.

Emmett came right up to me and pulled me into a gentle hug. I wrapped my arms around his large muscular body and squeezed hard. I doubt he felt it, however, I couldn't think of any other way to express how sorry I was for all of this. He pulled away after a few short seconds and smacked me not so gently on the shoulder. It wasn't enough to do any damage, but it did hurt like a bitch. I let out a small squeak.

"Don't you ever scare me like that again!" Emmett exclaimed.

"I'm sorry." I said blushing a deep shade of red. "I really am. I just didn't know what else to do. Or where else to go."

Emmett flashed me a sad smile and sat on the foot of my bed.

"Why didn't you come to one of us?" Emmett asked. I didn't think I had ever seen Emmett so serious in the time that I had known him. "You know very well, that we'll help you through anything, no matter what it is."

"Not this." I sighed looking down.

Rosalie, who had been standing closer to the door and looking slightly uncomfortable, came over and sat beside me on the bed. She was careful not to hit any of the equipment, or my bandaged arms. The look on her face told me that she was struggling with her next set of words. I didn't know if I wanted to hear what was on her mind or not.

"Bella, what exactly is, this?" she questioned after a minute.

I knew it was going to be something along those lines. Esme hadn't said if everyone in the family knew what was going on, yet or not. I was hoping that Jasper and Alcice would've taken care of this by now. I didn't want to have to be the one to tell it. Especially not to Rosalie.

We had just started becoming close. I didn't want to ruin it now by telling her that I was the reason her sister was going to be miserable for God only knew how many centuries.

I knew I'd have to face it sooner or later. The sooner, the better right. I looked carefully at both of them, willing them to understand.

"Have you spoken to Jasper and Alice tonight?" I finally asked.

"Not since before we found you. She did mention that she needed to talk to him, though." Emmett answered. "And they went into Carlisle's study the minute we got home and stayed for a good half hour or so."

"They didn't say anything about the conversation, though." Rosalie interjected.

Damn it! This would've been a whole lot easier if they had some idea of what was going on. Playing for more time, I shifted myself into a sitting position. I struggled with the tube that was still pumping blood into my system (A/N: I'm not sure if she'd still be having recieving blood, but just go with it). Rosalie reached over to help me.

"It's complicated." I stated knowing they were both expecting an answer.

"No, it's not." Rosalie whispered.

"How would you know?" I asked slightly incredulous. Where did she get off telling me what was and wasn't complicated in my life? I mean she didn't even have any idea what I was going through in the last three months.

"You love Jasper and he loves you." she replied with a shrug. "There's nothing complicated about that."

I was shocked by her words. Not only because she knew the truth, but also, because she said them in such a casual manner. Like it really wasn't all that complicated. Had she forgotten about Alice? Did she not realize the kind of pain her sister was going to be in after all of this was sad and done.

A million questions came to mind as I stared at Rosalie in utter disbelief. I knew I needed to ask her something, but I was too shocked to say a word. How could she be taking this realization so calmly.

She seemed to have noticed my inability to speak, as well as the shock on my face, because she simply smiled and said,

"It wasn't that hard to fiugre out, Bella. I mean, I've known something wasn't right between them for months now and the fact that she had to talk to him tonight just confirmed it. I wasn't positive, though, until I saw the way Jasper reacted to your blood. I mean, a year ago and a half ago, a tiny little paper cut set him off, but tonight, he was completely in control. And if you had seen yourself and the bath tub, you would've known what a feat that was. I think even, Carlisle's control wavered a little. But not Jasper's, he stayed by your side until you asked him to leave. He wouldn't even listen to Carlisle about it. I knew then, exactly what was going on. You two are in love but were trying to ignore it for Alice's sake. That's why you did this, isn't it?"

I nodded unable to make me voice work. I wasn't sure how I felt about Rosalie knowing all of this. Most importantly, though, I wasn't sure how Rosalie and Emmett felt about knowing all of this.

"So why didn't you just tell one of us?" Rosalie questioned. "I mean you used to talk to Carlisle for hours about almost everything in your life. Why not this?"

"I was afraid of how you guys would feel about it." I stated in a small shaking voice. "I didn't want you to hate Jasper or me because of it. I was so afraid of losing you guys again. I couldn't even begin to know what to say or how to explain it." Rosalie just sighed and nodded. "And how do you guys feel about it?" I bit my lip praying that she wouldn't hate me.

"Well, to be honest, the whole situation sucks." Rosalie answered. "No matter what someone's going to end up miserable. There's no escaping that. But, Bella, regardless of what happens next, you, Alice, and Jasper are part of this family and we love you all. That's something that's never going to change. No matter what happens. We will love and support you three through anything. We'll help all of you through it. And I know you and I haven't had the best of relationships over the last couple of years, but you are very much like family to me and I love you. I just want you to be happy and if Jasper's going to make you happy then, you've got to do what you've got to do. I'll be here for you, regardless. Just like I'll be there for Alice and Jasper, no matter what happens."

"Thanks, Rosalie." I managed to choke out through my tears. "That means a lot." She just smiled and leaned down to hug me tightly. "What about you Emmett?" I asked when she pulled away.

"I'm with Rose." He replied. "I just want you to be happy and to stop hurting yourself. I hate seeing you like this Bella, I really do. And then tonight, when I thought that we could lose you forever. It scared the hell out of me and I don't ever wanna have to feel like that again. You mean way too much to me and to this family. And, while I feel horrible about the prospect of Alice being in pain, I'm telling you that you have to do what you need to do to be happy and to get over this. Because it's the only way, you're ever going to be able to move on from all of this. So please, just stop torturing yourself. We won't think anything different of you."

I smiled and nodded my thanks. I had no idea why I ever doubted my family's love and support of my happiness. Even if it was taking away from another family member's happiness. I was beginning to see everyone's point, though.

While I hated the fact that I was going to have to hurt Alice in the near furture. I knew there was nothing left to do. I had to take care of myself at the moment. I really didn't want to die or spend the rest of my life depressed as hell. It was no way to live. I had to do what I needed to make myself happy. Jasper did too. We owed it to ourselves and each other. It would be a difficult thing for all of us to do, but what other choice did we have. We were all drowning in our misery. And my fragile human heart couldn't take it anymore.

"Well," Rosalie stated after several minutes of silence. "We should leave and let the others come up. Esme has dinner and Carlisle wants to talk to you as well. Then Jasper and Alice, of course, will need to talk to you."

"Right." I replied.

Rosalie swooped down for another hug and I held her as tightly as my pitiful human strength would allow. She held me like that for several long moments before she finally pulled away and went to stand by the door.

Emmett came to sit next to me on the bed. He had a very serious look on his face. I was sure, even with his super vampire strength, this was the first I was actually scared of what he would do.

"And if you do ever pull another stunt like this, I'll kill you myself." he threatened.

I chuckled a little nervously, well aware of the fact that he was, at least somewhat, serious. I nodded, though. He then, in a very uncharactiristic brotherly show of affection, leaned down and kissed the top of my head. I found myself blushing again as he pulled away from me.

"We'll see you later Bella." he said as he followed Rosalie out the door.

Less than five minutes later, Esme walked back in with a tray of food and Carlisle in tow.

Esme had outdone herself, like usual, on the food. She had made me a beautiful roast beef dinner completely with a dinner roll and chocolate cake for dessert. She had a glass of milk on the tray as well (A/N: Once again, I'm unsure of what kinds of food would be needed after a transfusion, so just go with it, please).

I smiled to her as she placed the tray in front of me. Carlisle checked my vitals and a few other quick things before he sat as well. I ate while he explained what he had done while I was asleep. It was pretty straight forward, a couple transfusions and a few stitches. That was pretty much the extent of it. He also told me that he wanted me to get plenty of rest over the next few days. I agreed, of course. It wasn't until I finished dinner that we came to the part of the conversation that I didn't want to get into.

"I also wanted you to know that I spoke with Jasper and Alice a little while ago and I'm going to make the necessary calls to get started on the divorce." Carlisle stated, once he was sure that I was finished.

"Okay." I answered my voice shaking slightly.

I wasn't sure how Carlisle felt about everything that was happening between myself and his son and daughter. And for some reason, his opinion was the one that mattered most to me. I kept my eyes on the bed and fidgetted with my sheets. I didn't want to look into his eyes, afraid of what I might find.

It was silent for a long minute before I felt his cold hand on top of mine. I looked up to see him kneeling on the floor next to the bed. He looked extremely torn. And I gulped afraid of what I might say.

"I want you to know, Bella, that you are one of my daughters, regardless of what happens with you and Jasper. I know this was a difficult thing for all of you to deal with. One of you was bound to be hurt and I regret that it had to be Alice. She is such a special person and deserves to be happy. But you are too, Bella. And you deserve as much happiness as she does. It's regretful that your happiness has to interfere with hers or hers with yours. It sucks and I wish it where different. I do. However, Bella, you need to go after your happiness because you can't keep doing this to yourself. It's not going to solve anything. In fact, it only makes things worse. You should know that by now." I nodded. "I want you to be happy Bella, we all do, even Alice. That's why she asked for the divorce today, so you could be happy. And not for anyone else. You mean so much to me, Bella, and I just want you to go back to the way you were. The smiling and happy human we all loved. If Jasper's the one that can bring that back, then so be it. Alice understands." he stated.

I could see how hard this was for him. He wanted to make sure that I knew he was okay with me and Jasper being together, but not write off the fact that Alice was going to be hurting. She was as much his daughter as I was, maybe more. He couldn't just say screw her, even if it would help me. And he wanted to acknowledge that. I understood.

"I really needed to hear you say that Carlisle, thank you." I replied trying hard not to cry. I squeezed his hand with all my might, hoping he felt the thanks and reassurance.

"I know." he replied then stood and kissed my forehead. "Well, I'm sure you and Alice and Jasper have much to talk, so we'll let you get that over with. I don't want you stressing about it for too long. The sooner you talk, the easier things well be."

"Right." I replied as Esme grabbed the tray off the bed.

"We'll see you later, dear." she said before following Carlisle out the door.

Carlisle was right, the sooner we talked about this, the easier it would be to actually do it. However, I couldn't help but get this sinking feeling in the pit of my stomach. It was like somewhere inside my heart I knew that I was going to lose my best friend, whether or not this went well.