JASPER

"What do you mean, you don't know where she is?" I asked starting to panic a little. How could Emmett not know where my Bella was? How could he not know that she had left? He was a vampire, for crying out loud! She woudln't have been able to get by him unless he wasn't apying attention.

"I'm so sorry, man." he whispered sounding completely guilty. "Rose needed me and I didn't think that I had to watch Bella that closely. I mean, I would've smelled if the mutt had gotten in. Besides, she seemed to subdued and full of grief to do anything stupid."

"No, man, it's not your fault." I replied. "There's no way you could've known that she was going to run off and do something stupid. I should've known there was no way you'd be able to look after her and Rose. We'll be there soon, okay. Then we'll figure out where she is and what's going on."

I sounded a hell of a lot calmer than I thought. I knew, though, that Emmett's guilt was nearly as bad as Bella's and he was already blaming himself. I couldn't make it worse by accusing him or getting upset. Besides, keeping an eye on someone else while his mate was in the worst pain imaginable, was, in fact, too much to ask of one person. I couldn't blame him for losing her. Not when I should've stayed, regardless of what Carlisle said.

She needed someone to hold her and tell her it would be alright and I wasn't there. Now, I had no idea where she had gone or what she was doing. Did Jacob somehow get to her? Did he plan on killing her or just taking her away? Both possibilities scared the shit out of me. I couldn't stand to be away from her whether she was alive or not. Nor could I deal with the thoughts of what he could possibly do to her in both scenerios. I shook my head in defeat and looked at the ground.

Emmett had long since disconnected, but I couldn't find the will to snap the phone shut. Alice can up to me after a minute and put her hand on my shoulder.

"We'll find her." she whispered. "And everything will be fine. I promise."

"But how do you know for sure?" I asked.

"I just do." Alice said. "If she can survive James's attack, then she can survive Jacob. And we don't even know that he had anything to do with it." I nodded not entirely sure if I believed her. "But we aren't ever going to find out unless we get back to the house and check things out. Come on."

She let her hand slide down to my wrist and started pulling me. Carlisle and Esme, dripping with worry, were already to head back to the house. I sighed and followed Alice at a run.

We made it to the house in a matter of minutes when we must have been an hour or two away. I didn't stop running until I got to mine and Bella's room. It was an utter disaster. Things were strewn all over the floor. Pictures, books, clothes, everything Bella had owned was laying in a broken mess around the room. Hell, there was even a hole in one of the windows. It looked like there had definitely been a struggle.

My mind went wild at that thought. What if he hurt her trying to take her away? And why hadn't Emmett heard anything? I mean, even with Rosalie in her condition, he should've still been able to hear what was going on a few rooms away. I didn't understand.

Emmett was sitting on the bed looking just as sad and guilt ridden as ever. I could feel every once of the guilt leaking off of him and it was making it extremely hard for me to be mad at him. I took and deep unecessary, yet, calming breath and sat down beside him. Alice, who had followed me up there, sat behind me placing a comforting hand on my shoulder.

"What happened?" I asked Emmett calmly.

"I was in the other room with Rosalie when Bella woke up." he explained. "She seemed alright at first, so I stayed with Rose. However, a few minutes later, I heard her screaming and throwing stuff around, so I came up to check on her. She was pretty angry and upset. She wanted you, but I explained why you weren't here and what happened to Rosalie. She tried to pull her it's all my fault act, but I put a plug in it. She seemed fine after that, and Rosalie needed me again. I had to go to her Jasper, I couldn't have let her deal with the pain alone." He shook his head looking like he wanted to cry more than anything else in this world. I could feel even more guilt coming off of him.

"Emmett, stop." I said. "You're as bad as Bella with the guilt thing. I understand how hard this was for you. I'm not mad at you, okay. Now, you said that Bella made this mess, right?"

"Yes." Emmett said. "She was pretty angry and without you here, she needed to find another outlet." I just nodded. "She seemed better after I left, though. She really did. However, when I came back about a half hour later, she was gone."

"Did she leave anything indicating where she would've went?" I questioned.

"She left a note. Unfortunately, I was so upset when I found it, I ripped up and there's nothing left." he answered.

"What did it say?"

"Pretty much the same thing as last time. She's sorry for all the hurt and pain she caused the family and that she's gone to make sure that we won't get hurt anymore. She loves us all very much and is grateful for evcerything that we've done for her. She's sorry for taking herself away from us like this, again, but knows it's for the best. She doesn't want us to follow her or try to find her. And she loves you Jasper and is sorry for everything that she's put you through in the last few months." Emmett, no doubt, edited.

"Oh my god!" I managed to choke out. "It sounds like a suicide note! We have to find her! I can't lose her!"

"Relax, Jazz." Alice said, almost too calmly. Did she not understand what was going on? Bella had gone off to be slaughtered by the mutt, just to stop us from getting hurt. "We'll find her, but right now, you just need to concentrate."

Before I could answer, there was a soft moan of pain from the other room. I looked at Emmett expecting him to go and check on Rosalie. He just sat there looking guilty as ever.

"Em, go. Rosalie needs you. It sounds like she's almost finished healing, anyway. She'll probably want you there when it's over." I stated.

"But what about Bella?" he asked.

"Bella's my responsibility and Rose is yours. Alice and I can handle this for now. Come back once she's done and will let you know if we need you." I told him.

He nodded and exited the room.

"I don't even know where to start looking for her." I sighed putting my head in my hands. They could be a thousand places. And what if she went to La Push. We were already on the brink of war, and the mutt probably knew it. It'd be the last place we be able to go and he knew that too.

"Focus for a minute Jasper." Alice said. "We won't find her if you give up before we even start. Now, I want you to think about when you brought Bella back today. Was there anything to indicate Jacob had been there. His scent? A letter on the bed or dresser? An odd sign or clue that only Bella would know the meaning of? Anything at all that you remember?"

"No." I shook my head. "There was nothing. Everything was just as normal as when we left this afternoon." I lookedback at the photographic scene in my head. I went through everything from walking in the room to my one sided conversation to walking about the door. Nothing seemed out of the ordinary, except... "Wait a second. When I left the room, her phone went off. The ringtone was semi familiar but I couldn't remember why. I just left without answering it."

Alice hopped off the bed and dashed to Bella's dresser and back. She immediately got into Bella's missed calls and didn't have to do any looking. The first entry on the page read Jacob and the call was missed less than a minute after I walked out the door.

I gulped as Alice dialed Bella's voicemail. Thankfully, for some strange reason, probably this, Alice had a vision when Bella chose her password for the phone and knew exactly what is was. She typed it in quickly then put in on speakerphone.

Sure enough,

"Hello Bells." Jacob's malicious voice sounded from the phone. "I'd ask how you're feeling, but seeing as you probably just found Charlie's body, it isn't very good. I'm really sorry I had to do that, honey, I am. But you brought it upon yourself. You should've just kept your bloodsuckers out of it and come alone like Charlie asked. But no, you had to be stubborn, so I had to show you how serious I was. If you would've just come alone, Charlie would've lived and I could've finished this. I could've finished you but you made me have to hurt someone else you love. There is a way for you to stop it, though, all you have to do is meet me at the drive just before the entrance to your precious Edward's meadow by five thirty. Come alone and don't tell your leeches anything, or there will be hell to pay. I already have one of my brothers on a plane to Florida to kill your mother if I need him too. We'll finish it then and there. But if you don't show then I'll just have to continue taking away the ones you love. Humans and parasites, alike. Because if I can't love you, then one or another, I'm going to make it so noone else can either. Hope to see you soon darling."

If my heart was still beating. It would've stopped almost completely. I couldn't believe that Jacob Black had sunk so low. He knew she would do anything to protect the ones she loved. Especially after he's already made good on killing two of them. And then to tell her that Renee was in immediate danger. Which Alice and I knew was a lie. All the wolves had been present at the meeting. None of them were on their way to Florida. Bella, howevcr, had no way of knowing that. She would've thought her mother was in danger, just like with James. Looks like the stupid mutt wasn't so stupid after all. He knew she wouldn't deny him anything with that threat hanging over her head.

"Damn it!" I yelled throwing the phone into the wall. It shattered and hit the floor with a tinkling sound. "How could she be so stupid?! Does she really think that this is going to accomplish anything? Seriously, she should know by now that we'd do anything for her. Even if it tore the family apart!"

"She does know that, Jazz." Alice whispered. "But you should know that she'd do anything for us by now. She loves us and wants to do what she can to protect us. Even if it means hurting herself. It's just the way Bella is. You know that."

"I know which is what makes this so much harder." Jasper said. "We could lose her forever."

"We won't though." Alice whispered gently. "We know where she is now. That's a start."

"But Alice, it's already five forty." I stated looking at my watch. "What if we can't make it in time?"

"Well, we aren't going to make it if you keep sitting here feeling sorry for yourself." she stated. "Go get in the porsche - it's the fastest car we've got. I'll go get Esme and Carlisle, just in case we need back up."

She jumped off the bed and I heard her bound down the stairs. I took a deep breath and followed her, prying that she was right about everything.

BELLA (5:25)

I couldn't help but let a few tears fall as I drove Emmett's jeep - it was the best available car for where I needed to go. I hated that I was doing this to the Cullens again. That I was doing this to Jasper. I loved him with my whole heart and soul and hated to do anything that would hurt him.

I knew, though, that if I didn't do this, Jasper would be in more danger of being hurt. I knew Jacob wouldn't stop until he got what he wanted. Me dead, either by his hand or my own. I was sure he knew that if he kept up his string of murders, I would resolve to take myself out of the picture.

It was those thoughts that kept me driving. I couldn't allow anyone else to die because of me. I had to finish this, no matter what Jacob planned on putting me through. I knew he wasn't just going to kill me. He hated me way too much for that now. I knew he would drag it out for as long as possible and make it as painful as I possible. I also knew that he wouldn't kill me until he got what he had been wanting from me the entire time I've known him. He was too hormone driven to not do that.

Thoughts of Jacob made it harder for me to keep driving and brought on a fresh waves of tears. I tried thinking of Jasper instead. I imagined that he was sitting beside me with his arms around me, telling me that everything was going to be alright. More tears sprang up at those thoughts and I was about half a second from turning around a going right back to the Cullens' house, which was esstentially my home. I knew that I couldn't do that. I had to make things safe for everyone I loved.

I decided to think of something trival, instead. Something that wouldn't matter much in an hour or so. I actually found myself wondering if the Cullens would call the police and charge me with grand theft auto. I had, after all, in all technicality, stolen Emmett's jeep from him. Would the Cullens be angry? Or would they understand?

Like I said it was so trival and unimportant to what I was about to do. However, the thought kept me from considering and running from my fears. It kept me moving forward.

Jacob was standing just inside the line of trees when I pulled into the drive. He had his strong arms crossed over his chest and there was a look of absolute disgust on his face.

I put the car in park but stayed where I was. I needed a minute to get my emotions together. I refused to allow Jacob to see how sad and scared I was. I would not give him that satisfaction. I wiped my eyes and took a couple of deep breaths before sliding out and facing Jacob.

He now had a sick and twisted smile on his face. He held out his hand a beckoned me forward. I started to walk toward him with my hands in the air. I may as well show him now, just how defenseless I came. Maybe if I already showed him that he'd won, he wouldn't hurt me as much. My knees shook underneath me as I continued to walk toward him.

"This is it, right, Jacob. I let you have me now, and do what you please to me, and you leave my family a friends alone, right?" I asked with a little tremble in my voice.

"Of course." Jake replied as his sick smile got wider. "That's all I ever wanted was for you to hurt and suffer the way I had. I thought killing Edward was enough. I hoped you would simply finish yourself off. Watching you hurt yourself was one of the most amazing feelings in the world. It made me feel that you finally had a real taste of how I was feeling. But then the stupid blonde had to interfere and make you happy again. I decided then that if you wanted a job done right, you had to do it yourself. Which is why you're here now."

I was in front of him by now and he looked me up and down appraisingly. I was still wearing the jacket I had put on to visit Charlie. He smirked and ripped it off. I let out a small squeak.

"Sorry love." he said. "But it'll make things a little easier for us later. Besides, I like your cleavage."

I just stood there too scared to say or do anything. I was having a hard time controlling my fear, now. Suddenly, He grabbed by hair by it's roots and yanked my head back roughly. I let out a small cry of pain and he just laughed.

"Now, did you tell any of your little leeches?" he questioned.

"N-n-noo." I stuttered trying not to cry.

"And did you leave them any hint of where you were?"

"No." I answered unable to hold in the tears.

"Did you erase the voicemail?"

Damn it! I knew I forgot something. Now, the Cullens would know exactly where to find me. I knew this would make Jacob angry because it meant he had less time to kill me and get away. I didn't answere, unsure of what to say.

"You didn't erase it!" he thundered in my ear, yanking my head back further.

"I'm sorry." I cried. "I was in a hurry to get here before you sent someone for Renee and I forgot."

"That's not a good enough excuse!" He bellowed and I flinced. "But I guess there's no use crying over spilt milk, right? It just means that I'll have less time to play. No big deal! But we really should get moving, then, shouldn't we?"

With that he took his free hand and swooped it behind my knees. His arm hit so hard that my knees buckled and I started falling backwards. I let out a squeal and waited for the impact. However, he released my hair and caught me before I hit the ground. He slung me over his shoulder, carelessly, as if I were a sack of potatoes or something.

"I was going to make you walke. You know, draw the torture out a little longer, but seeing as we're on a time limit now. Oh well. A little bit of advice, though, screaming and struggling will do nothing more than piss me off, and if I get pissed, things are going to be ten times worse for you." he stated dangerous. "Do you understand?"

"Yes." I choked out as he took off towards the meadow.

We were there within minutes. Jacob was, after all, almost as fast as the Cullens. He threw me to the ground hard. I let out a small cry of pain as the pain shot through my back. Before I even had a chance to think about what he was going to do, he was kneeling over my body pinning my legs together. I gulped knowing what was about to happen.

"Don't worry." he said with a sick smile. "I can't do as much as I wanted, so I'll just have to settle for taking your virginity."

He started trying to pull my shirt off, but I wasn't going to make this easy for him. I kept trying to slap his hands away, and while the slaps caused him no pain, it was difficult for him to get a good hold on the shirt. Only seconds after I began my struggles, he reached out a grabbed my right wrist, squeezing so hard I heard the bone shatter. I let out a loud and long scream as the pain caught up to me. I could feel tears prickling at my eyes.

"Now, keep the other one out of the way, or it'll get the same thing." he whispered dangerously.

My struggles ceased and he was able to rip my shirt and bra off. I squealed in surprise at his strength. He repositioned himself on top of me and took one of my nipples into his mouth. I let out a small whimper of disgust and feel and felt her smirk in response and start sucking.

It only took me a short second to realize that his new position gave me the use of my legs again. It also put him in the perfect position. I smiled to myself as I slowly bent my leg then brought my knee up and smashed it hard into his groin. He bit down on my nipple in pain and shock. I let out a small yelp but he grabbed himself and rolled off of me. I didn't waste anytime getting to me feet and running in the opposite direction.

"You stupid bitch!" Jacob yelled.

I chanced a glance behind me and saw him getting up. Damn! I thought he'd be down longer. I picked up my pace, but it wasn't enough. His had was suddenly around my waist. He yanked me back and slammed hard into the ground. This time, I felt some bones break and pain shot through my whole back.

"Did you really think that you could out run me?" he taunted climbing back on top of me. I shook my head as tears continued to poor. "That's right because your nothing more than a weak and pathetic human."

He then resumed trying to violate me. I could tell, though, that he was shaking like crazy. He was getting angry, on the verge of phasing. I knew if I could somehow get him angry enough to phase, he wouldn't be able to control himself long enough not to hurt me. Which meant that he would most likely just kill me. I knew that option wasn't much better than the one I was faced with now, but I didn't this to be my last memory. I didn't want to die with my ex best friend turned murdered being the one who took this from me. Not when either of the men I loved could do it for me.

"No Jacob, you're the pathetice one." I stated. "You're so pathetic that you have to violate your best friend, who doesn't even love you, just to make yourself feel better."

"Shut up you stupid worthless bitch!" He yelled punching me hard in the right boob.

I let out a cry of pain but was prepared to make a counter move. I lifted my left wrist and slapped him across the face. I felt the bones in my hand break and he smirked.

"Werewolf, remember?" he grabbing my wrist and shattering that too.

"Go to hell, Jacob!" I managed to yell and spit through the pain shooting through my hand.

He backhanded me hard. My head flipped to the side connecting with the ground. I wasn't sure how I managed to stay concious through that. However, I wished I did pass out. He I could feel the skin on my cheek tear and some of the bones break. Tears flooded my vision.

I managed to look back at Jacob, though, he was struggling to take off his own clothes. I could see that I was succeeding in making him angrier. His shape was blurring and he was almost there. He just needed one more little push.

"You know something, Jake." I said. "I think that I'll just give in and let you do what you want. I can always pretend that you're Edward or Jasper. They would be ten times better than you, whether I wanted it or not."

That did it. He froze in the proccess of taking off his shirt and let out low feral growl. The next thing I knew, he exploded and instead of Jacob, there was a big russet wolf standing over me. The snarled pulling back his lips and exposing teeth.

I didn't even have a chance to consider the consquences of what I had done before the pain started. I felt claws and teeth ripping into every part of my body. I let out scream after unheard scream. The pain continued coming in large doses as I felt the blood leave my body. It hurt so bad, I prayed that I would fall unconcious or just die soon.

It hadn't even lasted a minute before I heard another loud and low snarl coming from my left. I didn't have the strength to look at who it was. The next thing I knew, a strong wind blew across my body and the wolf was no longer on top of me. I couldn't see what had caused the wind, though.

I listened to Jacob and whoever it was fight for a second or two before the pain and blood loss finally became too much and my world faded to black.

A/N; Well, what do you guys think? I hope it wasn't too much for anyone. This scene was the reason that I had to up my rating. I figured it would be too graphoc for the younger audience. Anyway, let me know what you guys think. Please review?