A/N: So guys, I was having a hard time figuring out how to really end this story. I'm still not sure if this is exactly the right spot. However, I've thought about it and I've decided that to drag it on any longer would be a little repetative. Therefore, this is going to be the last chapter. I'm not sure if I'm going to do an epilogue or not. If I do, it'll just be an extended version of the prolouge. I really do hope this ending turns out good. Thank you for your support of this very AU story. It is actually the most reviewed of all of my stories. And I appreciate all of your support on it. I just hope this ending doesn't disappoint any of you.

JASPER

I managed to make it into the bathroom and get the door locked before my knees gave out underneath me. I slid to the floor, leaning against the door and completely broke. I started dry sobbing and prayed that Bella was too lost in her own thoughts to really listen to me. She didn't need to see me like this.

She'd only end up blaming herself for my current emotional state. Which was something that I did not want. I had just had a hell of a time convincing that Alice's death wasn't her fault. I didn't want to have to convince her that my break down wasn't wasn't her fault.

I didn't want to hurt her feelings either. I knew Bella, being Bella, would think that it was because I thought that I had made a mistake in protecting her instead of Alice. That wasn't the case at all. I loved Bella with all of my heart and soul. That was why I held myself together long enough to take care of her.

I didn't regret any of the choices I made involving her. I knew she wouldn't believe that if she heard this now. It was the truth, though. However, I still loved Alice very much. A small part of me always would. I knew that.

Watching and listening to the wolves tear her apart was the hardest thing that I've ever had to endure. It felt like someone was drilling a permanent hole in my heart. And now, I felt like there was a large part of me missing. A part of me that Bella would never be able to bring back. No matter how hard she tried to. No matter how much I wanted her to be able too. It just wasn't going to happen.

I hated myself for feeling that way about it. I really did. I didn't want there to be any doubt in Bella's mind about my feelings for her. Still, the memories of Alice would always stir up certain emotions and there was really nothing that I'd be able to do about it.

Alice had always been the brightest light on my darkest days. She helped me through some of the toughest points in my life. I wouldn't have survived life as a vampire much longer before I met her. She pulled me up when I was down and she gave the first bits of hope when I thought there was none. And now she's gone.

I sat there trying to muffle my sobs as I imagined my life without her. It was utterly impossible. How was I suppose to exist without that beautiful little pixie to help me through it. Sure, I had Bella and I loved her, but it wasn't just love with Alice, it was friendship, too. And that was made different from what I had with Bella.

What was worse? I couldn't even imagine how the world could go on without Alice's existence. She was the kindest, most wonderful, sweetest, and bravest person that I had ever met. She did everything that she possibly could to take care of everyone, not just vampires, but humans too. She used her gift to help people whenever she could. She truly was a special person and vampire.

She was the only one of the family who, not only accepted who she was, but live it up to the fullest. Sure, she had her moments when she wished she could be human, but we all do. Alice, however, never let it get her down. She always found some reason to love who she was and was just happy to be most of the time.

She had even said that she wouldn't trade being a vampire for anything. It gave her the ability to use her gift in better ways. It also helped her protect the family better. It tore me up a little to know that it was her will to love and protective the ones she loved that got her killed in the first place.

I was down there for a few more mintues before I realized that I was still clutching the letter that the receptionist gave me. I took a deep breath and opened it to find out what the last thing my once lover and always friend and sister had to say.

Jasper,

If you are reading this that means my vision came true and I'm no longer with you. I know you would've rather it been you than me. I also know that you still love me and part of you always will. However, like I told before, as much as I still love you, I know I don't need you anymore. I know you probably told yourself that on numerous ocassions over the last year just to avoid hurting me. Please stop lying to yourself. I don't need you.

Bella, however, needs you more than anyone else in the world right now. I'm sure you can feel that someone deep inside. And honestly, I think you need her too. The two of you have so much to learn from each other and I don't want to see you lose that chance. So take the chance on her for me.

The choice I made was my gift to the two of you. Jasper, Bella lost so much when she lost Edward and you're the only one who could give anything back to her. That's why I did what I did. So you could be there for her to hold on to. She needs you so much. Don't walk away, please.

Jazz, you've been with me since the day I awoke to this existence. You were one person that kept me pushing on when being on my own became too much. The day I met you was the best day of my unlife and I don't think I'd ever been happier than I was that day. Not even on our wedding day. You are an amazing person Jazz and I love everything about you.

I hope that you will not let your guilt over what happened stop you from being happy. I made my decision because I wanted you to be happy and if being with Bella makes you happy then do it. I will always love you no matter what. Just like I will always love Bella no matter what.

I know you love me and don't want to hurt me but I don't want you to be miserable because of me. I wouldn't be a very good wife if I did that. Which is why I made this decision. I wanted to give you a second chance at happiness without the guilt. So just be happy and don't feel guilty.

I love you and hope that you will find the happiness in Bella that I know is meant for you. Don't let what happened to me or Edward drive you away from her. You need her so please don't waste this chance I've given you?

I will always love, Jazz and I just want to be happy. So go be happy.

Love,

Alice

I had to read the words twice before they all sank in. It was just as I had suspected. Alice had gone and gotten herself killed so Bella and I could be happy. It ripped my heart up a little more to think that she could never have another chance at happiness, because she gave that to Bella and I.

Despite what I told Bella about this not being anybody's fault except Jacob's, I couldn't help but feel the guilt rolling over me in waves. Alice saved me so that Bella wouldn't have to be without me. Maybe I was partially to blame.

It was then that I understood exactly why Bella had so many problems with her guilt. It was hard to feel like it was your fault when someone died to protect you. It's just an automatic thing, even if you know in your heart that it wasn't your fault. It's just a natural reaction.

Alice loved me and Bella, that's why she died to keep us together. It was her decision, I couldn't have changed it. It hurt, yes, but there was nothing I could do. The guilt continued to lay heavy in my stomach, even as I thought about it.

A knock on the door pulled me out of my thoughts.

"Jazz, it's Bella." Bella saddened voice stated. "Are you okay? You've been in there for awhile?"

"I'm fine." I called trying to regain my composure as I stood.

"Well, I just thought I'd let you know that Esme brought the clothes." she stated and I had a feeling that she didn't buy my act.

I unlocked and opened the door, slowly. Bella was standing there with a sad smile, holding a pair of blue jeans and a button up black shirt.

"Are you sure you're alright?" she asked. "I mean you've been in here for about ten minutes and you haven't even showered yet."

"I'm fine." I stated. "I just got lost in my own thoughts is all."

I made to reach for the pile of clothes, but she brought her free hand up to cup my cheek. I knew then that she knew what I had been doing. I turned my face and kissed her palm then sighed.

"It's okay for you to be sad, Jasper." she whispered. "She meant as much to you as she did to me. Maybe more so. You guys were mates for decades. She loved you and you loved her. She was your everything through a great deal of this life. I understand, I do. And I don't want you to be afraid to break in front of me. Like I said, I know how much she meant to you. She was a mahor part of you. It isn't going to hurt my feelings if you talk about her. In fact, it would hurt more to think that you thought you couldn't come to me. I love you and I know you love me. I know that you loved Alice too, though. And that's fine. But please, don't hide things from me. I need to know when you're hurting so that I can take care of you. Okay?"

I wanted to protest. Tell her that I didn't want to put her through hearing my cry over my dead ex-wife. Alice was my past and Bella was my future. I didn't want to hurt her over the past. However, the sincerity in her voice and the look of open vulnerability in her eyes broke me. There was only thing that I wanted to do then.

I wrapped my arms around her and buried my face in her hair before breaking down again.

"I'm so sorry, Bella." he cried. "I feel so terrible. And it's all my fault. She was trying to protect me."

"Shh." Bella whispered holding me close to her body. "If it's not my fault, then it's not your fault either. It's Jacob's remember? He caused the fight."

"Yeah, but I should've...."

"No, there was nothing any of us could've done. There wasn't time. Besides, Alice made her decision. We couldn't have changed her mind if we had the time. You should know that better than anyone."

We sank to the ground and she held me close to her body. I didn't try to defend my guilt anymore, because I knew Bella was right. We were both silent as she rocked me and stroked my hair. I was grateful that she wasn't trying to tell me that everything was going to be alright. We both knew it wouldn't be. Alice was gone, nothing would ever be completely alright again. She just held me and comforted me in the best way that she knew how.

I wasn't sure how long we stayed down there before Bella pulled away rather abruptly.

"Bella, honey, what's wrong?" I asked a little panicked.

"Nothing." she replied. "We just have to be to meet Carlisle and the others in fifteen minutes. And niether of us has showered yet."

"Right." I said getting slowly up. "I almost forgot."

We showered together. It was a quick, quiet, and subdued affair. Not at all the way I imagined my first shower with Bella. I thought it would've been a little more erotic. I guess fate didn't like that idea. We were out of the shower and dressed within ten minutes. I managed to gain enough control to go see the family without another break down.

I slung my arm around Bella's shoulders and togehter we walked down the hall toward Carlisle's room.

When we got within range of my gift, I braced myself and held tight to Bella's hand. I still remembered what happened the night Edward died. I walked into the living room and everyone's emotions brought me to my knees. I didn't want that to happen to me, especially now. With the way my emotions already were, I would've gone into emotional overload and exploded or something. I took a couple deep breaths and thought about calming and peaceful things as I squeezed Bella's hand tighter.

I was hit with everyone's pain, grief, and anger when I entered the room. If it hadn't been for my mental prep outside, I would've been brought down to my knees. As it were, I managed to stay on my feet and send a few waves of peace around the room. The peace was accepted with reluctance. Nobody wanted to feel it, but they wanted to make the situation easier on me.

When I got used to the emotional climate of the room, I was able to take in my surroundings. Carlisle and Esme's room was slightly bigger than mine and Bella's. There's even had a small armchair in the corner. It was, however, the most depressing look at my family that I had ever gotten.

Carlisle and Esme were sitting on the bed. Esme was curled into Carlisle's side. She had her head buried in his shoulder and I could see her body shaking. I had no doubt that she was sobbing. Carlisle had his chin resting on her head. His eyes were closed and he was muttering something under his breath. I was sure that he was praying.

Emmett and Rosalie were sitting in the armchair. Rosalie was in Emmett's lap. She was curled up against his chest, but wasn't sobbing. She was just staring blankly in front of her. I couldn't feel any emotions coming off of her. I was sure she was numb from shock. Emmett, the big teddy bear, had his head buried in Rosalie's hair and was letting out sobs.

I pulled Bella over to the floor at the foot of the bed and sat down. She sat beside me and laid her head on my shoulder. I wrapped my arm around her shoulders and rested my head on hers.

We all sat their silently for a few minutes. I was sure we were all trying to make sense of what had happened tonight.

"So what are we going to do?" I asked when no one else spoke. Carlisle sighed.

"I spoke to Tanya and she said they'd be delighted to have us until we figured out what we wanted to do." he explained. "I also called the airline. We have to catch the first plane out of Washington and seven o'clock tomorrow morning. Unfortunately, we have about three lay overs and the whole trip will take about twenty hours."

"Woah, wait. Twenty hours, Carlisle." I said getting a little panicked. "Bella's not even twenty four hours old, you can't expect her to be around a big group of humans for twenty hours. Even if she doesn't go after one, do you know how painful it's going to be?"

"I know, Jasper." Carlisle stated. "And I'm sorry. I tried to get us a private jet, but they're all booked up for the next three weeks. We can't hangf around that long. We don't know how long it'll take the wolves to decide that it's open season on vampires. Who knows, they may even be patrolling close to here."

"So are you saying that we can't even take her out to hunt before we get on the plan?" I questioned indignant. "That's a disaster waiting to happen!"

"Relax, Jasper." Esme whispered pulling away from Carlisle. "We're not going unprepared." She pointed to a box in the corner. "It seems Alice thought of everything. The receptionist from downstairs, Madeline, I think her name his, brought that up about twenty minutes ago."

Bella's eyes got wide as she looked at the box.

"And Alice only had to pay her $1,000 to keep her mouth shut." she said in amazement. "There has to be at least forty canisters of blood there."

"Yeah, we'll you know Alice." Esme said in her motherly tone with a sad edge to it. "She had a tendency to overdo everything."

We all laughed as Esme walked over to the box and started handing out canisters. Once everyone had two, she walked back over to sit on the bed. I opened my canister and made to drink some.

"Wait." Bella cried and everyone froze. "I think we should do a toast." She gave an embarassed smile and I almost expected to see her blush. She didn't, of course. "To Alice." she stated. "A beloved daughter, sister, friend, and wife. It was her bravery, loyalty, quick-thinking, and love that saved not only Jasper and I, but the rest of the family as well. Her family and friends will always miss and love her. We hope that she's as happy where she is now as she was whenever she brought a new dress." We all chuckled in spite of ourselves. "Alice." Bella finished lifting her canister.

"Alice!" Everyone else chorused.

We raised our canisters and clicked them with our mates then downed them. The blood was cold and tasted a little off, but it was the best we could do until we got to Alaska, so I didn't complain.

I finished the first canister and was preparing to down the second when Esme cleared her throat.

"And to Edward." she said once eveyone's attention was on her. "A beloved son, brother, friend, and lover. It was his love for a very special human that brought this family a very special gift. He'd do anything to keep her safe and happy, no matter what the consequences were for him. It was for that reason that he went up against a werewolf and lost. His courage and love for her will never be forgotten. And we will be sure to finish what he started. Edward." she raised her canister.

"Edward!" we chorused and repeated the process.

Everyone was silent as we were lost in our own thoughts about where to go from here. Bella moved slightly so she was curled against my chest. I looked down to find her staring back at me. I noticed she had a little blood smeared on her upper lip and leaned down. I took her lip in my mouth and sucked the blood off. She smiled into my lips then slid her tongue into my mouth.

I moaned slightly as our tongues fought for dominance. The kiss was as glorious and wonderful as the first time. I felt like I was being reborn as a human and everything was just so new.

As I enjoyed the feeling of kissing my beautiful angel, I thought back on everything that had happened in the last year and finally realized what Alice was trying to tell me.

Goodbye really was nothing more than a second chance. And that was what Alice had given us.

A/N: What do you guys think? Was that a good ending? Did it suck? Do you want an epilogue? Let me know what you think.