Year I, Spring 3
Dear Diary,
today it was raining – the whole day! But despite the rain, I cleaned up my farm a bit, chopping wood, etc., because, of course, I didn't have to water my crops. Then I sat inside for a while and wanted to read but I couldn't concentrate. I had to think of Harvey and how nice he had been yesterday. So after a while, I couldn't be inside anymore and went to town. I wanted to visit him in the clinic but then I changed my mind, thinking what on earth could I say?, changing my mind again with thoughts like: Don't be a coward! This went on for a while (I hope nobody saw me, I must have looked ridiculous going a few metres into one direction, then back, then back again, and so on…).
In the end, my more courageous side won and I entered the clinic. It was warm although I didn't like the smell – too sterile. But then I saw a woman at the counter and my heart stopped. She looked like 25 or even a few years older with red, short hair and glasses and my first thought was, that this was his wife! She then greeted me friendly and asked what I wanted. Of course, I wanted to see Harvey but I couldn't tell her that so I said I just wanted to have a look inside because I was new.
"Oh, yes," she then exclaimed happily, "you're the new farmer!"
I suppressed a sigh. Yes, I'm the new farmer – oh my god! Obviously, there's no change at all in this town, otherwise, they all wouldn't make such a big deal out of it. The first thing I might miss in the city. Well, maybe not.
The woman introduced herself as Maru and told me that she lived with her parents Robin and Demetrius in the north, near the mountains. This relieved me – so she can't be his wife. But maybe his girlfriend?
Maru is a nice person, just like her mother she smiles a lot and it's easy to talk to her, but I'm not sure if I can ever truly like her because she poses a threat. She works at Harvey's clinic and she is an academic and beautiful – this must interest him, right?
Then Harvey entered the room looking at some sheets of paper in his hand and asking Maru if she had ordered… I forgot what, some kind of medicine, I guess. Only then he looked up and his gaze fell on me.
My heart skipped a beat – I know, I definitely know that I am doomed! Even if he's in love with someone else I will always look for him in a crowd and only be satisfied if I find him, if you know what I mean.
Anyway, when he saw me he smiled lightly but it didn't reach his eyes. (I have to find out what's making him so sad! Maybe I can help him?) He greeted me warmly and asked how my head was.
Maru wanted, in a genuinely concerned voice, to know what happened so Harvey told her. This gave me a good opportunity to find out if they liked each other or liked liked each other… Well, I'm not sure but I think they're only friends, although he likes her more than she likes him… I hope I'll soon find some gossip-friends who will tell me more.
"So, yeah," I said when he had finished the tale of yesterday's accident, "I just came to thank you again. That was really, um, nice of you." Inwardly I just slapped my hand against my forehead (and I'm doing it right now for real) – I just sounded so absolutely stupid!
But he didn't seem to notice (or he's just perfectly behaved). He smiled politely and declared that it was his pleasure.
After that, there wasn't much to say anymore so I bid them goodbye and just wanted to leave when he held me back.
"You shouldn't go out in this heavy rain," he explained and looked for something in a cupboard under the desk of the encounter. "I can't allow that, you can get sick, and what doctor would I be to allow that." He then found what he was looking for and handed me a black umbrella. "Here," he smiled shyly.
I stuttered my thanks. Again, he cared for my well-being?!
"Bring it back whenever you want," he said and I beamed. Now I have an excuse to come back!
So when I went home, completely dry, I kind of felt protected by him and I like that feeling very much. I'm so used to being alone the whole time that I almost forgot how great it is if someone cares for you!
From now on I'm pretty sure I will dream and think of Harvey very often – although I still don't know if it'll be healthy… (I just laugh because Harvey is a doctor. Healthy…) Maybe I could ask Penny? She seemed confidential enough. Maybe when I know her better.
The umbrella leans now against my nightstand and I like having something of him near me.
Best regards,
Helena
PS: Isn't it insane to have thoughts like this after having met him only yesterday?!
