A/N: This is Alice's feelings of the situation thus far. I'm not completely positive that she'd keep a diary but it's an easy way of summing up feelings without confusion.

ALICE

Dear Diary,

It's been a week since our return. A week since we found out about Bella's new friends and boyfriend. I'm still not sure how I feel about that. I acknowledge that we were the ones who left her. I know she'd needed someone to hold on to after that. I know it wasn't her intention to hurt us by running off with werewolves. I'm pretty sure she didn't even know they were werewolves until she started getting close to , it still hurts, a lot. I feel like she's replaced me as her best friend.

I can't blame her for any of it. I know that. None of it was her fault. In fact, I know in my heart, if we had to place the blame somewhere, it would be with Edward. But he's hurting so bad right now that I can't even think of being mad at him. He either sits in his room all day listening to the C.D. he made of Bella's song or he's on the piano playing it, nonstop. I wish there was something I could do to help him. But there was nothing I could think of.

His feelings are making mine harder to sort out. I miss Bella, a lot. She's called at least ten times a day for the past week and I've done nothing but ignore the calls. I want so badly to answer her. I want to talk to her and be her best friend again. There was room in her life for two of us. And, even though, nobody wanted to admit it, there was room in her life for us and the werewolves. Yet, I'm so worried about making Edward's depression worse that I can't even answer her calls.

I don't want to hurt him anymore than he already was. And I know going to see her and coming home dripping in her scent wasn't going to help. Nor would inviting her over for some "Bella Barbie."

I also know if I make an effort for Bella's sake then Emmett and Jasper would take from my lead. Maybe, even Rosalie too. I won't hold my breath for her, though. I know if we don't do something soon, we may lose Bella forever. I don't think I could deal with that.

I don't know what to do. I don't want Edward in anymore pain but God, I miss my best friend. I think I'll talk to Carlisle or Jasper. They might be able to help me.

Alice

I closed the diary and slid it in the drawer I hid it in. Bella's song floated up from piano in the living room. Letting out a sigh, I flipped over to my back on the couch. I was so lost. I didn't know what to do. I felt like I was being forced to choose between my brother and my sister. How fair was that? Yes, I have heard the expression that life isn't fair, but isn't being stuck in this existence for eternity enough unfairness without the rest of this.

Part of me wanted to hate Edward for all of this but I knew that wouldn't be fair. He did what he thought was best. Yet, he's so stubborn. She was practically begging him to make her one of us but he was very adamant about keeping her human. If he would've just changed her, she'd be safe and they be together. We'd all be one happy family with no complications.

My phone went off. I didn't even need to look at it to know it was Bella. I just hit the mute button and let it go to voicemail. I grabbed one of the throw pillows off the couch, put it over my mouth, and let out a frustrated scream. The entire family, no doubt, heard it anyway. It was days like these when I wished I could just cry out the frustration. It might not make anything better but it would definitely make me feel better.

The door opened a second after my scream. I looked up to see Jasper standing there. He looked extremely concerned.

"Are you okay?" he asked. "I could feel your frustration all the way downstairs."

He graciously ignored the fact that he could hear it too.

"I'm just so confused." I stated.

I sat up on the couch as he walked over and sat next to me. I crawled onto his lap and snuggled into his chest. He kissed the top of my head then rested he cheek against it.

"About Bella?" he questioned.

"Yes." I replied. "I miss her a lot and I really want to make up with her. I want to let her know that I truly don't hate her."

"So then why don't you?"

"Because I don't want to hurt Edward anymore than he already is. He's not ready for her to be around right now. I want to respect that but I want my best friend back."

"Have you talked to him about this?"

"No."

"You should. He's your brother. He'll understand. She's just as important to the rest of us as she is to him. He'll understand your need to make things better. And if he doesn't then you need to do what you need to do. If being Bella's friend is going to make you happy then you need to do it. I know you care about Edward as much as you care about Bella but sometimes you have to do what's right for you even if it hurts others." Jasper explained.

"Kind of like what Bella did?" I asked.

"Yes, kind of like what Bella did."

"And how would you and Emmett feel if I decided to talk to Bella again?"

"We'd both be happy about that, I think. I don't think we ever angry with her. I think we were upset by how things played out and wanted someone to blame. The obvious choice would've been Edward for making us leave. But we knew how much he already blamed himself for it and we didn't want to make it worse. So we placed in on Bella because she hurt us. It didn't matter that we hurt her first. The truth is though, there isn't anyone to blame. It just is. Edward did what he thought was best for Bella. Bella did what she needed to do to survive. We may not like how it played out but we have to deal with it the best we can. Whether we like it or not. I miss my little human and I know Emmett does too. I love to have her back." Jasper answered.

"Thank you." I replied with a smile.

He kissed my forehead again. I sat in his arms while we waited for Edward to play his last note. I listen as he slammed the cover (A/N: The thing that protects the kays. Sorry, I don't speak piano and player. LOL.) shut and walked up the stairs. The floor creaked above my head when he walked into his room and sat on his couch.

"You'd better go now." Jasper said. "Before he gets to engrossed in the C.D."

"Right." I said.

I got up and went out the door. I did my best to hide my thoughts. I walked up the stairs to his room and reached out to knock.

"Come in, Alice." he sighed befor my fist hit the wood.

I pushed the door open and walked in.

"Can I talk to you?" I asked.

"Alice, if you want to talk to Bella, then talk to Bella." he stated.

"How did you know? I thought I was blocking so well." I questioned.

"Alice, your bedroom from the living room is not out of range." he stated. "I heard you from the time you started writing until after your conversation with Jasper."

"Right." I said. A little embarassed that he heard all that.

"It was a mistake to ask you guys to leave in the first place. It is my fault. I should've found another way to protect her from us. I wouldn't want you guys to hold her choice of friends against her to spare my feelings. Especially since, I put her through so much pain by leaving and making you guys follow. I deserve some of what I gave her. Besides, I have to get used to her being around if I want to try being friends with her."

I was so excited by his response that I didn't even yell at him for his self pitying words. I ran to him and threw my arms around him.

"Thank you! Thank you! Thank you!" I yelled jumping up and down.

"Alice, calm down before I change my mind." he said jokingly.

"Nope you said I could. Now you can't change your mind." I joked back.

I let him go and sat next to him. He laughed. It was his first truly genuine laugh since before the disaster that was Bella's eighteenth birthday party. I laughed with him.

"I do have a question." he said after we stopped laughing.

"Shoot." I said.

"Is the worry over my feelings the only reason you're ignoring Bella?"

"Yes."

"Silly Alice."

He laughed and ruffled my hair in true big brother fashion. I laughed a little embarassed.

"Well, I believe you have a phone call to make." he said after a minute.

"I do." I said with a smile.

Once again, I wrapped my arms around Edward's neck screaming thank you. He pried me off and I bounded toward my room. After kicking Jasper out, I grabbed my phone and dialed Bella's number. I crossed my fingers praying she would answer.

A/N: I did this chapter because there was a little confusion about why the Cullens with the exception of Esme and Carlisle were so mad at Bella. I hope this cleared that up. I also want to apologize for the delay. It was supposed to be up last night but my sister's friend invited me to see twilight for the second time for free. I really couldn't pass up that chance. I knew you guys would understand. Just remember the flying monkeys and click the box. I appreciate the feedback.