It was 6 o'clock and I was laying on the couch in sweatpants and a t-shirt watching endless episodes of friends on Netflix while simultaneously shoving cheese balls in my mouth. I came right back here after I was rejected from going into class and I haven't moved since. Steph stopped by earlier before her class and we talked for a while about what happened before she had to leave for class. She also told me she was going to be away for the next week. Something for her biology class and going to camp for a few nights. I secretly wished she would stay with me tonight and the rest of the week but Steph doesn't miss class... ever, and I wasn't about to ask her to skip anything school related for me. Plus she was so excited to be able to go with Jason and spend some time with him. I couldn't take that from her just cause I was feeling sorry for myself.
I shoved another handful of cheese puff's in my face and clicked yes when Netflix asked me if I was still watching. I felt like I just wanted to give up on school, I was done with trying so hard when all I ever do is fail. I heard a loud knock pulling me from my self-pity. I and ignored it and turned up the volume on the TV. I heard the knock again, louder this time and groaned. I paused the TV and rolled off the couch moving toward the door. I swung it open and groaned at who I saw standing there. It was Grayson, what could he possibly want now I thought to myself. I immediately began closing the door but his quick reflexes caught it and pushed it open. He came in and closed the door behind him.
"Where have you been?"
"By all means, come on in." I ignored his question.
"I'm serious Sky I have been trying to reach you all day." He spoke to me his arms crossed over his chest looking unhappy and slightly concerned. I also couldn't help but catch onto the nickname he gave me.
"What? Why?"
"I wanted to ask you how the test went." He spoke softer now more sincerity in his voice.
"Oh..." I couldn't tell him I missed again and couldn't take the test. "Yeah...it went well!" I lied and walked to my bag, pulling out his study guide and handing it to him. "This helped a lot, thank you." This, I was not lying about, the guide really did help me a lot and thanks to him I feel like I finally understand the class.
"Great!" He took the papers from me, his excitement was shown clearly on his face. "I'm glad it was helpful." He stood there awkwardly for a minute. "Look I'm sorry about the other day I was a jerk for saying that in front of your... boyfriend." He said the word boyfriend like he was unsure. Whether he was unsure about the word or the fact that he was my boyfriend I didn't know.
"It's okay not a big deal." I lied and went into the kitchen to get a glass of water my throat feeling suddenly dry. "Want some?" I asked staying focused on what I was doing.
"Sure." He walked over to the counter where I was.
I handed him his water and his eyes glanced and then locked in on my wrist. "What happened to your arm?" He reached out to take my arm in his hands but I pulled away quickly before he could get a good look. I yanked my sleeve down over the bruises mad that I didn't take more caution in making sure they were covered. They weren't as bad as they were last week but they were still there. I usually kept them covered even if I was alone. I just didn't like to look at them.
"Oh nothing I uh I hit it on the wall the other day trying to stop myself from falling." I regretted adding to much detail and hoped he wouldn't say any more about it.
His face showed his disbelief but he thankfully didn't say anything else about it. He took a sip of his water and came to sit next to me on the couch.
"Friends huh?" He gestured toward the TV smiling.
"Yeah, pretty typical I know, but it's usually my go to when I don't feel like thinking," I said snuggling into the couch feeling tired.
We sat in silence for a few minutes before I remembered something. "Hey, I never asked you what you were studying." I looked at him interested.
"Oh," He sounded as if I caught him off guard "I um, I'm studying business. There really isn't anything specific that I want to do right now so I decided to at least get a degree in something so I have something when I go for a job."
"That makes sense. Business is always a good go to when you aren't sure what to do."
"Exactly. So-"
My phone started to buzz interrupting him but I didn't see it anywhere. I began searching the couch for it patting around waiting to feel the hard rectangle I was searching for. When I finally found it but as soon as I did, it stopped buzzing. I looked at the screen and saw 1 missed call from Ky.
"Who was it?" Grayson asked.
"Ky." I clicked his name and called him back holding a finger up to Grayson. "Sorry." The phone rung once and he answered almost immediately.
"Sky?" he asked almost frantically.
"Yeah? What's up Ky?"
"Want to go out tonight?" He was speaking in a rushed tone like he couldnt get the words out fast enough.
"I don't know Ky I'm really tired and really don't want-"
"Seriously Sky c'mon you're in college live a little bit."
"I know Ky but I mean we went out last night and I'm just tired today and want to-"
"Whatever Sky."
"Kyle wait-" He hung up.
I sighed and rubbed my head frustrated. Why couldn't he just be normal for once? Things between us have been going so well and then he pulls something like this?
"Everything okay?" Grayson got up from the couch and came over to me.
"Yeah, look I think it's best if you go," I told him. I was worried that Ky would show up and ask me to go out with him tonight. This would, in turn, lead to him seeing Grayson here and... well let's just say I don't want that.
"Oh." He was taken aback. "Uhm yeah, yeah sure I'll go." He put the glass down on the counter a little roughly. "Sorry to disturb you." He said harshly and left slamming the door behind him.
I flinched from the noise. I felt bad being short with him again. I'm learning I really enjoy spending time with him but unfortunately, it was either enjoy spending time with him or make Ky mad and I am also learning I really do not want Ky to be mad.
"Well, why was he here then!" Ky screamed at me. Like I suspected he came over no more than 10 minutes after our call. Said he "suspected" something was wrong. He began yelling about 5 minutes after he arrived saying one of his friends saw Grayson leaving my building.
"He let me borrow a study guide for a class I was struggling with." I yelled back.
"Oh sure, okay then let's see this study guide." He crossed his hands over his chest waiting.
"I don't have it anymore that's why he was here, to get it back!" I explained.
"Oh how convenient!" He threw his hands in the air and began searching my apartment again looking for something. I still didn't know what that "something" was.
"Ky look this is insane you- you have to go." I told him opening the door for him to leave. He ran over to me and slammed the door shut then slammed me against the wall his arms gripping my wrists holding me there once again but harder this time. So hard that I began to lose feeling in my hands.
"I'm not leaving! You need to stop seeing him! I told you to stop seeing him! That is the only way that we will work out."
"I'm not going to stop seeing him Ky he is my friend!"
"Friend!?" He gripped tighter and I winced from the pressure. "You have only known him for a few days how could he be your friend!?"
"Ky let go!" The tears were streaming down my face.
"Promise to never see him again."
"Fine!" I just wanted him to let go. I'm sure my arms were turning purple now.
"Good." He let go and I fell to the floor and he opened the door slightly. "Now, I have practice at 8 am tomorrow and I expect you to be there. It's my last practice before I go away for 2 weeks so you need to be there." He said and walked out. I ripped off the necklace and ring he gave me throwing it across the room as the tears began to fall.
