Author's Note: Hey guys. Been so long I guess but here is an update. I'll give a heads up that this chapter is all mess up and all over the place. That's the reason why it's long. Anyway hope you will enjoy.
Lucy's POV~
I looked at a couple passed by outside the bookstore I'm in. From the glass window I can see how the girl cling to the boy and how he looked embarrassed. I never felt jealous when I see a couple before me. I wonder when that feeling changed. Maybe because there is a guy I'm inlove with? Yeah, that could be the reason. Could also be I long to be embrace in such manner that I will feel loved and treasured. To feel protected and just listen to another heart beat against my mine. I sigh dejectedly and close the book I'm scanning. Once again I'm dreaming the impossible and keep hoping for something. I can't even catch another guys attention let alone him who is hard as rock.
"Natsu, you are reading it wrong," a feminine voice reach my ears.
I turn to see Lissana and Natsu not far from me. Natsu is holding a book and trying to read it while Lissana tried to hold her laughter at Natsu's misery. I smiled looking at them even though my chest feels heavy. I feel really bad that even though it's been a couple of months since Lissana came back, the two of them never really spend that much of time. Trying to be a good friend I invited her to our dinner even though I hope she'd decline. I know it was selfish of me for thinking that but I'm still happy when she accepted the offer.
"I wonder what I should do so that he would look at me that way." I mumbled under my breath. "Stupid me, as if I'm lucky enough that he would see me that way."
"Lucy," Happy came flying to me and crushed on my chest. "Look I found a book about fish. Can I buy this?"
"Let's see," I inspected the book. "It's a nice book, you can even color it."
"See?" Happy grinned at me. "Isn't it cool?"
"Yeah, it is," I giggle at his enthusiasm. "Why don't you show it to Natsu?"
Happy flew towards the two and once again I'm left with my thoughts. I wonder if they will notice if slip away. How silly of me thinking such thought. I frown and look at them and decided to wonder off by myself for a bit. it's not that I'm trying to get away from them I just want to browse more books that's all.
"Ouch," I wince as I hit something hard.
"I'm sorry," a boyish voice asked. "Sorry I didn't see you there."
I looked at the person that I bump and meet a wide grin. His boyish grin awfully reminds me of someone I don't want to think about.
"Um, no I'm fine," I mumbled.
"Luffy, I told you to slow down," this time a feminine voice cut in.
"Oh Nami," this boy; Luffy grinned wider as an orange girl approach us.
Isn't she cold? She's only wearing a bikini and jeans. Such weird fashion sense but somehow it suits her.
"Oh hey, are you alright?" this girl; Nami I believe asked me. "I hope Luffy didn't cause you so much trouble?"
"Hey, I apologized," Luffy pouted.
"Goodness knows you could be rough," Nami pointed out. "and sometimes we had to pay so much for the damage you cost."
I stifle my laugh as it reminds me of very familiar memories. They both looked at me weirdly.
"Sorry, it's just you both are fun to see as you argue," I smiled at them. "Don't worry I'm fine, I didn't get hit or something."
Looking at them makes me wonder if me and Natsu look like that when we argue. Assuming that they are new to this place I offer some help and Nami appreciated it. Getting to know her a bit I learned that she also loves to read and she and her friends are "sea adventurers". They even told me some short stories of their adventures that somehow inspire me to write. Also I can't help but notice the way she speaks about her captain; the boy she came in with which is nowhere in sight at the moment.
"He can be an idiot but he has his perks," Nami said while pulling a book from a shelf.
"You really look up to him don't you," I can't help but say. I can totally relate to her that it just slipped from my mouth.
"Am I being that obvious?" she blushed.
I just nodded and smile sheepishly.
"I guess it's obvious for everyone except him," she frowned at that. "Besides, to him every one of us is his precious nakama. No more no less."
I just nodded in understanding thinking about my own situation. Natsu is the same, he would do anything for his friends; his family. Then somehow I hope I could be a little bit different, more special to him.
"Maybe I'm hoping that I will be little bit more special to him," Nami added as if she just read my mind. "I guess we are in the same boat huh?"
My eyes widen at her. How did she? I didn't even say anything. Can she read mind?
"It's all written on your face," she smiled. "Same kind of boy?"
"Y-yeah, you can say that," I blushed. "I guess I'm stupid in hoping for something to happen."
Nami put a hand on my shoulders. She smiled at me in a reassuring way.
"I don't think so," she said. "From the very beginning after I realized my feelings I know it will never work in my favour."
"Yeah, I get what you mean," I mumbled.
"But then as long as I can stay beside him; as long as he says he needs me, I'm happy," Nami smiled. "That alone makes me feel that I'm special to him."
"I know time will come that I can't stay with him the way I do now," her tone sounds sad as she continued. "That's why I want to spend time with him as much as I can. You should too."
I slowly digest what she said. I know my time with him is running out and I want to be with him as much as I can, but…but won't that be selfish of me?
"By the way thanks for the help," Nami waved her hand goodbye. "I better find Luffy before he cause some trouble."
The rest of the day passed like a blur as I keep thinking about what she said. I vaguely remember eating in some family restaurant and watch Natsu and Lissana interact the whole time. Now, I'm curled up under the covers with Natsu beside me and Happy just above our head. I listen to their breathing and think how in the world did they ended up with in my bed. I looked at the sleeping dragon slayer beside me. I reach out my hand to touch his cheek but stopped midway.
'I really want to spend more time with you and Happy,' I closed my eyes as I take a deep breath. 'I guess I was being childish trying to keep my distance.'
I gently place my hand on his cheek, revelling the warmth of his skin. Natsu hummed and open an eye. He smiled and closed it again as he pulled me closer to him. My hand slid to his chest as I feel his hot breath trickle on my head.
'Is it really okay for me to enjoy these moments with him?' I close my eyes again. 'Just for a while, please let me enjoy this.'
Author's Note: I guess you had notice that I'm a LuNa shipper. Hahaha… I won't deny that. So, how is it? Hope it's not that bad. I tried to edit it a couple of times but it seem like it didn't come out the way I want it. Still hoping you like it. I asked my sister to edit it for me.
