The next day Bakugo laid in his bed, tossing a ball into the air and catching it, his thoughts drifting from one subject to the other. Ever since he came to this damn school everything has been different. He failed his licensing exam, only to have to go through some bullshit extra exam. Baku laughed to himself remembering the kids. Man, there were days he missed being a kid again, granted he never really got the chance to really be a kid. The constant pressure ever since his quirk developed was always there, hell it still one. As he caught the ball one more time he growled squeezing it between his two hands, sparks igniting around the small ball, he quickly threw it into the air again.

It seemed like so long ago when he was the king of the kids, much like one of the kids in his exam, he always seemed to be one step a head of the other kids, but now, he felt like he was so far behind everyone. Even though his quirk was still strong and he still was probably one of the strongest on his class, he still knew he was so far behind in other parts of being a hero. Heart, the one word screamed in his mind and he growled tossing the ball across his room, he sat up and sung his legs over the side of his bed.

"What the fuck am I doing this all for?" he asked himself putting his head in his hands closing his eyes he thought about everything he had always been working towards. He wanted to be #1, but why? Did he really like saving people? Did he really like helping people? Or was it just his constant need to be the best, that was impressed into his mind since he was young. Baku growled again, since day one that is all he was ever told to do, be the best, at all costs, if the weak got in your way you blew past them as fast as you could. But what happened when the weak got strong...like fucking Deku. The little fuck, he had always fallowed Baku around, yeah, sure Baku probably bullied him way more than he should have. Bakugo rubbed his face and looked up at his wall, sighing at the blankness of it all. Deku always had the heart, Deku always fought no matter how much Baku tried to get him to stop. That is what bothered him the most, everyone at this school fought so hard to be more than what they were, and Bakugo? Bakugo was just staying the same. Maybe he bullied people a little less, he actual made friends that cared about him and were just afraid of him, or around him because he would kick anyone's ass that fucked with them. Still, he was the same, constantly mad because he kept running at walls head first, breaking those walls down, but still only being in the same spot he was before. It was like he was on a constant repeat.

Baku stood up walking over to his desk, It wasn't like he didn't see it. He knew he was an asshole, a fucking prick to be honest, but how do you change from being a prick? That's all he has ever been, It's the only way he knows how to act. If he changed now then what, he'd be giving up on who he was a little bit. He sat down on his chair and looked down at his homework sighing. Maybe he could, Maybe he could just change and start acting like fucking Deku.

"Tssskk. Yeah fucking right. I'm fucking Katsuki Bakugou, Nothing can change where I came from or what I've done to get here." He picked up his pencil and sighed, just as he heard a knocking at his door.

"Hey Baku! We are going to play some video games, you want to come join us?" He heard a familiar shark teeth hair for brains yell through the door. Baku could almost hear the hope in the red heads voice. That was another problem Baku had been trying to deal with, his best friend. Lately he felt like things had been awkward between the two of them. He sat there in silence, maybe he would go away, if he didn't say anything. He didn't quite feel like being in a room with the object of his latest confusion and a bunch of other dumb asses.

"Come on Baku, I know you are in there, Shoji said he heard you tossing your ball around again, We don't have to go play with the guys.." He heard the red head huff and then speak a bit quieter, like he was pressed against the door whispering almost. "Look, I know when you throw that thing around your brain is just running at a hundred miles per hour, We can spar or something, I'm just trying to help."

Baku sighed leaning back in his chair he stared up at the ceiling and tapped his pencil against the desk, he knew Kiri was right, he knew he wouldn't be able to do homework, his mind was just to all over the place. Reluctantly he scooted his chair back and got up and walked to the door, he was pulled it open only to have Kirishma basically shoved into his arms, the impact of the other boy slamming into him caused him to step back a bit, and loose his balance.

"Mineta you better keep running!" Is all Baku heard as he was falling, he watched a a purple-ball headed freak ran past the room, he must have shoved, Kirishma in his escape. The world seemed to slow down and move in slow motion as Bakugo fell backwards, he reached for the closest thing to him and found his arms wrapping around Kirishma. He watched as Jirou raced after the freak, guitar in her hands, Momo right behind her

"Jirou, Please don't you could get expelled, We just need to tell Mr. Aizawa that he was peeking through the keyhole!" The scene passed by the door, as Bakugo finally hit the floor, with a loud Uff. He looked up at Kirishma who was laying on top of him now, with a smile bigger than fucking Deku's. Krishma instantly starting laughing while laying on top of Bakugo.

"Man, Mineta is in for it now! You should have seen your face Baku! I mean I got to admit that I was a little shocked when he ran past me and shoved me, I wasn't expecting to fall right into you, but damn your fac-" Bakugo felt his ears and neck turn brighter red than the hair for brains hair. He instantly shoved the other boy off of him to his side.

"Fuck you Shark Teeth, this wouldn't have happened if you just fucking left me the fuck alone!" He growled standing up quickly he slammed his door shut looking back and down at the other boy, his hands sparking with rage. What the fuck was so funny, he thought to himself, fucking Kiri thought it was funny that Baku was caught off guard, he'd fucking show the-

"Hey, Hey, Hey! Calm Down Buddie!" Baku felt a hardened stone like hand wrap around his sparking hand, what a fucking idiot he could blow his hand off if he wanted to, but instead Baku felt the heat rise from his neck into his cheeks, why the fuck was he holding his hand anyways, didn't Kirishma know better than to fuck with him. Kiri had said he already knew Baku was worked up and now he was trying this bullshit. Baku closed his eyes tying to get his brain to shut the fuck up as he was trying to process what just happened in the last few minutes. When he suddenly felt another hand on his shoulder, he opened his eyes, only to find himself looking directly into a sea of bright red, Kirishma's eyes. Baku blinked and backed away from the other boy shaking his hand off his shoulder, he found himself backed into his own door.

"Why the fuck are you even here you dimwit." Bakugo growled looking around his room trying to find anything to look at other than the red haired intruder in his room.

"Well, It's like I said the other guys and I were gaming and Shoji said he heard you in your room throwing the ball around, so I tho-"

"You thought you'd come fucking bother me again? I can't ever have some fucking time to myself? What you think I'm weak!?" Bakugo growled his hands lighting up again as he stepped forward chest to chest with Kirishma, He felt something other than rage flow through his body, but he ignored he, he just wanted to be mad right now, he didn't know how to express anything other than rage, rage was easy, everything else was the hard part.

Kirishma still stood in front of him, he laughed and put his hand on the back of his head, letting out another bright as hell smile that almost made Bakugo let his guard down. "Baku, You are like the manilest man, I know and can call my friend." Kirishma's hand dropped from the back of his head and the smile dropped off his face, it was like the sun had set, or at least that's how it made Baku feel.

"But even manly men are weak sometimes brother, and you are right now...I don't know why, but I can just tell." And again there was a hand on his chest shoulder relighting the fire in his stomach, his rage and body reacted before he even had a chance to thing. He felt his arm move throwing a wild punch at Kirishma. Kirishma must have known it was coming because he jumped back quickly, the flat hand that had been on Bakugo's shoulder balled into a fist around his shirt, he felt himself being flung back as his fist connected with Kirishma's face. For a brief second he didn't even understand what had happened, but he found himself flung to his bed, and Kirishma holding him down, his face hardened with a scorch mark on it. Bakugo blinked looking up to his friend, who was now just smiling down at him, as he pinned him down to the bed.

"Look Bro, You know in close combat I will always have you beat, some burns aren't going to do anything to me when I'm hardened, but that isn't what is really going on here, You need to let someone in Bakugo, even if it isn't me, it has to be someone, because yo-"

Bakugo struggled under the heavy boy, he never realized when he hardened himself that he became so fucking heavy. "You don't know fucking shit, I don't need anyone, I never have, I've always been just fucking fine on my o-"

Kirishma shifted above Bakugo, the boys smile fading. Bakugo felt Kirishma grip his wrists harder to the bed, and he felt Kirishma place his forehead over Bakugo's mouth, like he was trying to shut him up...So he did, he just stopped talking, feeling his heart beat start racing as he realized, a few things. The first being that they were on his bed, the second being that he was pinned beneath the boy he was already confused about. Bakugo flushed again, closing his mouth tightly, he felt Kirishma's breath on his neck, his forehead still placed on Bakugo's lips.

They were both quite for a few seconds, letting the room fall silent except for the sound of their breathing. "Look, I get if you want to be left alone Baku, I get that, But I also know you need to be constantly reminded that it isn't you verses the world. You have the whole class, you have All Might, You have Mr. Aizawa" Bakugo felt Kirishma move his head up, the shark toothed boy stared down at Bakugo and he swore he lost his ability to breath as he looked into the deep red eyes of his best friend, tears seemed to be threatening to burst from the boys eyes as he looked down to Bakugo. "Most importantly, you have me, your best fucking friend, I don't know what has been up with you lately, I don't know if it's about your licensing exam, I don't know if it's fucking about Deku again, I don't know if it's just me, and how I've been acting towards you. But I'm going to be here no matter what Bakugo, You...Your a fucking bully, a down right fucking asshole. If we met in middle school I probably would have always tried to kick your ass because you can be such a god damn dick. But we didn't we met here and I've watched you becoming someone so different, every damn day I see you becoming different, you are becoming such a great fucking hero Baku."

Bakugo felt Kirishma go of his wrists as he sat back still looking down at him, Kirishma ran his hands over his face and into his hair as he looked down at Bakugo. "You are going to be one of the best fucking hero's and you don't have to keep trying to prove it Baku, we all already know it. That's the reason your my best friend, because you are a great fucking person, you just have to realize it yourself." Bakugo felt a finger press into his shoulder, he knew his jaw was open, he knew he was in shock he didn't even know what to say.

"You just have to let someone in Bakugo, You have to let yourself have friends that actually fucking care about you and give up on this me against everyone thing. Sure you can still be cocky, I mean fuck I think it's hot as-" Bakugo felt his eyes widen, and he watched as Kirishma became as red as his hair. He felt his heart flutter in a way he hadn't ever before, RED, RED, RED, that's all he wanted to see. Just as he was trying to get himself together to talk, he felt all the heaviness quickly leave his body, he realized he had been spacing out, and saw Kirishma standing at his door. Bakugo quickly tried to get up, tried to find some sort of words to say back to his best friend.

"I"m not saying that person has to be me, hell it could be anyone, but I want you to be there when we graduate Bakugo, I want to be there with you. So if you could just pull your ass out of your head and see that, It'd be great."

Bakugo jumped up from his bed to try to grab his best friend but it was too late, the door to his room closed, and Bakugo just fell back onto his bed.

"YOU FUCKING IDIOT!" He yelled at himself. Pressing his hands to his eyes, as he felt the dam behind his eyes finally break.. He hadn't cried since that night he fought Deku, and All Might showed up, but tonight, he defiantly needed to cry.