A/N: This chapter does mention drug overdose. Also religious beliefs are stated in this chapter, so please do not comment on, or hate what a character believes in.

I do not own anything besides Amelia St. James and any other original characters mentioned.

When I got to school on Tuesday that was when I heard the news about why Kurt wasn't in school for most of yesterday. His dad had a heart attack and was now comatose. Quinn was the one to tell me about what happened, and I feel horrible for Kurt. It sucks to have a family member in the hospital not knowing when they will wake up. My family almost lost Kyle when he was 17, I was 8 at the time. He had problems will in high school, he went to private school and hated everyone there, his only friends weren't in the best crowd and he got caught up in some things that he shouldn't have done. He almost overdosed and was unconscious for three days. I remember waiting for him to wake up, Nicole was crying, Jesse was silent and Aunt Vanessa and Uncle Daniel were trying to get a hold of our parents. The day after he woke up and parents arrived home and stayed home for three weeks before they had to go back to work and leave for another business trip. It was because of Kyle's almost overdose that I realized that I don't believe in God but I do believe that there is something greater me, greater than everybody out there that is the reason why certain things happen.

When everybody got to the choir after lunch, Kurt was already in there. Tina gave him a hug. Santana, Brittany, Quinn, and I approached him together. Santana was the first one to speak. "Hey Kurt, we're really sorry about your dad's heart attack," "Thanks, Santana," "I did a book report on heart attacks if you want to give it to the doctor. I got knocked down an entire letter grade 'cause it was written in crayon," Brittany told him while handing him her booklet. "If you need anybody to talk to, I'm here. I almost lost my oldest brother, and I think it may be good if you talk to somebody who has had a similar experience happen," I tell him gingerly.

Finn and Rachel entered the room together, but Finn walked right up to Kurt. "What the hell happened?" Finn asked him. "My dad's in the hospital," Kurt tells him. "I know. My mom just called me. I feel like I'm the last to know," He explains to him. "I'm sorry, Finn. It didn't occur to me to call you because he's not your father," Kurt said a little brashly. "Yeah, well, he's the closest I'm ever going to get okay? I know it may not look like what everybody else has but I thought we were sort of a family," Finn tells him Kurt just looked at him and sat down back in his chair. "Look, I guess I just - I didn't like overhearing other people talking about it in gym class," Finn states. Kurt looked at him and then to the seat next to him and moved his bag from it. Finn sat down next to him right as Mr. Schue was taking his place at the front of the class.

"Hey, guys. Our thoughts are all with Kurt and I know it's sort of hard to really focus on anything else," Mr. Schue began before Mercedes spoke up. "Mr. Schue?" She asked. "Yeah," he responded. "I've been struggling, trying to figure out what I wanted to say to Kurt all day and I realize I don't want to say it, I want to sing it," she explains. Mr. Schue beckons her to come down and take his spot, and she does. "This song is about being in a very dark place and turning to God. It's a spiritual song, Mr. Schue. Is that okay?" She announces and asks. "It's fine," He tells her. "Tina, Quinn, can you help me out, please?" She asks them. They both agree and go up and take their spots by the harp as the music starts playing.

The song was beautiful and think it gave it all hope to everybody that Burt will be okay. "Thank you, Mercedes. Your voice is stunning, but I don't believe God," Kurt tells her. "Wait, what?" Tina questions. "You've all professed your beliefs, I'm just stating mine. I think God is kind of like Santa Claus for adults. Otherwise, God's kind of a jerk, isn't he? I mean, he makes me gay, and then has his followers going around telling me it's something that I chose as if someone would choose to be mocked every single day of their life. And right now I don't want a heavenly father. I want my real one back," Kurt explains. "But Kurt, how do you know for sure? I mean, you can't prove that there's no God," Mercedes inquires. "You can't prove that there isn't a magic teapot floating around on the dark side of the moon with a dwarf inside of it that reads romance novels and shoots lightning out of its boobs but it seems pretty unlikely, doesn't it?" Kurt says. "Is God an evil dwarf?" Brittany asks me. "No, Britt," I tell her quietly. "We shouldn't be talking like this. It's not right," Quinn states very loudly. "I'm sorry Quinn," Kurt tells her before he gets up. "But you all can believe whatever you want to. But I can't believe something I don't. I appreciate your thoughts but I don't want your prayers," He tells us all before he leaves.

I feel sorry for Kurt for having to go through this. He doesn't have to go through this alone but it seems like he does because he believes that just because he doesn't believe in God that means he can upset or belittle the people that do. He could've stopped at the point where he said that he can't believe in something that he doesn't, he didn't need to say that he doesn't want everybody's prayers, that was just a little too much in my opinion. All we want to do is support him, not force him into a religion he doesn't believe in. There is nothing wrong with having a little faith in something greater than yourself and having people to support you and help in times like these. Nobody really did much for the rest of the class, Rachel went to the library to try and find a song to sing, she's Jewish, so she's looking for a song about having some sort of faith, I think.

Mr. Schue was later pulled out of the class by Principal Figgins. They went to Figgins' office, I may or may not have snuck out of the classroom and followed them. Figgins' secretary wasn't in right now, so I didn't have to worry about her questioning me. I sat down on one of the couches, just listening to wait they were saying. They were talking about the separation of church and state. Coach Sylvester was about to leave when I opened the door to Figgins' office. "A, this isn't the place for you to be right now," Coach tells me. "Principal Figgins. We're allowed to the lesson about faith as long as we don't force religion down anybody's throat. Separation of Church and State is what allows to be taught about religion in middle school because it's better to be informed and aware than be ignorant. We should be able to continue this lesson until a student complains about it," I explain. "Sue, until a student complains about it, the lesson will continue on," Figgins tells her.

She left after that, she didn't destroy his office though, that was a good thing. "Amelia, how did you know about all of that?" Mr. Schue asks me as we head back to the choir room. "Mr. Schue, as you may know, I went to Carmel Middle School. It was my sixth-grade social studies teacher who explained what separation of church and state was and why he was allowed to teach about different religions in class. It was just something I picked up on, I guess," I explained to him. "Well, thank you," He told me.